Ok so Idon't know when the next update will be since I still haven't written anything for my other stories so don't expect an update until they're updated and I have a total mental block so…

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Don't forget guys, I still need songs for my play list.

Random point of interest: It took me twenty minute to write the thanks!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight and my gummy bears left me.

Edward Pov

"Edward stop", Alice pleaded, her eyes wide as she caught my forearm in an attempt to stall me "don't do this".

"I have to", I replied, snatching my arm from her grip and rushing upstairs. Alice followed me to my room and pleaded with me as I threw clothes into my suitcase, my mind a haze of images, Bella dancing, Bella walking up the isle, Bella pale white and ice cold, Bella.

I shook my head and continued in a frenzied panic. "Edward please", Alice's voice rose, her hands flying around in a desperate attempt to convey all the motives why I shouldn't go. But I couldn't rid myself of the thought of an eternal Bella, eternally damned.

I barged past Alice with my haphazardly packed suitcase in hand. As my foot came in contact with the first step of the stairs, Alice spoke again, her voice breaking slightly "You're not going to change you're mind are you?", she murmured, her voice held an emotion I had never heard her possess before, defeat.

I sighed and turned towards my sister as I did. I strode to her and planted my hands on her shoulders, attempting a weak smile. "Well I'm not one to ever bet against you Alice". A strangled sob escaped her as her head flopped against my shoulder, her body shook with feeble sobs.

I wrapped my arms around her trembling frame in a useless gesture of comfort. "Please Edward", Alice's whispered "at least stay till the morning", she asked "Bella deserves a goodbye", I nodded softly and pulled Alice back against me.

Edward's Pov (The morning)

Esme's eyes were filmed with wasted moisture, her shoulders shaking as she jerked Carlisle's hand away from her, she shook her head and her trembling hand rose to cover her mouth. Her eyes bore into mine, her thoughts spilling with nothing more then begging and pleading.

Alice stood by my side, silent and disheartened but strong and loyal to the last, her only thoughts telling me that she would keep my secret, that they would never know the true reasoning behind my departure.

Jasper stood by Rosalie, his arms crossed and his eyes resentful. He stretched out one arm and wrapped it around Rosalie's shoulders, in an attempt to calm her but her mind couldn't be silenced. Her shrill mental voice screamed for me to think of someone else, to think of Bella.

Carlisle watched Esme warily, his mind warring with his heart. His mind told him to let me go, that I knew what I was doing and that things would work out in the end but his heart told him that I was his son and what I was doing was hurting his family, his children, his daughter and his wife.

Emmett hadn't asked me to stay or pleaded for me to think of what this would do to Bella, he merely nodded once and mentally asked me to take Bella to the park today before I went, like I had promised her I would.

And so with a whispered goodbye I turned away to face the car where Bella sat, fidgeting slightly in her excitement to get to the park.

Still Edward's Pov (At the park)

"Edward can we play on the swings?", Bella asked, peering up at me with blissfully ignorant eyes.

I nodded gently choking back an onslaught of painful emotion. I helped Bella clamber onto the swing, her soft giggles filling the air.

I pushed her slowly as she squealed with delight, her little frame squirming slightly in an attempt to turn and smile at me, her toothy grin, wide and delighted.

After a short while I pulled Bella from the swing, and took her place before setting her down on my lap and pushing us gently with my toes.

"Bella", I started, she turned and peered up at me, her eyes wide with innocent curiosity, "you know yesterday, when I couldn't take you to the park", I said before she cut me off "I'm sorry Edward", she murmured softly "I was being bold, I'm sorry".

I shook my head at her and pulled her tighter to me, savouring the warmth. "Bella like yesterday, sometimes grown ups, we do things that you won't like or really understand", Bella nodded slowly in understanding.

"Sometimes", I continued "its little things like not being able to bring you to the park, but other time it's something bigger".

Bella stared up at me, with curious eyes, sensing something to come but clearly not understanding.

I sighed, pressure prickling at my eyes "Bella, I'm leaving".

Bella shook her head wildly, her fingers fisting in my shirt, her voice thick with denial as she whispered a gentle "no".

"I'll be better Edward", Bella wailed "I'll be good just please, please don't go".

I tugged Bella's hands from my shirt, they fell limply to her side and I pulled her firmly against me, smoothing her hair gently I whispered a soft apology. "I have to Bella, I have to".

She shook her head, burying her face against the cool skin of my neck. "I don't want you to go", she whimpered feebly.

"I know, sweetie", I whispered "I know but this is something I need to do".

I pulled her back a fraction and attempted what I was sure a weak smile "but it won't be forever".

I ran my fingers through her silky hair and pulled her back to me, wrapping my arms tight around her "it won't be forever, I'll come back, sometime when you're older", Bella nodded faintly "and I'll be back for your birthday and Christmas and whenever you really need me".

I spotted Alice by the entrance, here to pick up Bella so I wouldn't have to go back to the house.

I placed Bella on the feet before kneeling and wrapping my arms around her little body once more, her fingers gripping my collar as her tears rolled down her cheeks and dripped across mine.

I pulled Bella away, catching her hands in mine and placing gentle kisses on both fists before I stood.

I kissed her moist cheek lightly and turned away, my coat flapping in the gentle wind as a soft goodbye drifted and swirled through the air until nothing more then a soft echo, ringing in my ears.

Review Please.

So yeah, Edward leaves.

To all you people who are like a second from never reading this story again please DON'T. I promise this story will continue to get better and better and this whole stage of Edward being gone will actually pass by pretty quickly I don't really plan on dragging it out for very long.

Please don't give up on this story!

And in response to Ella's review just because Edward is leaving doesn't mean that they're won't be lots of cute moments as Bella grows up. But this is absolutely necessary to the growing process.

And by the way Edward will be coming back for Christmas, Easter and birthdays, that sort of thing.

And please check out the thread over on twilighted that Thata Phoenix made for this story. I'll be on there too so do check it out. If you want to talk in depth about the plot, play list, storyline, whatever or talk about why I'm making Edward leave or just give out about my evilness go there and you guys can all do it together. There's a link on my profile.

Review please and I'll let Edward push you on the swing.