Thank you all for reading. :) I will update tomorrow evening. I think you'll really like the next few chapters.
Adam POV
Despite Amelia and I having no classes together, avoiding her wasn't easy. Especially since we sat with the same people at lunch. And lucky me, lunch time came quicker than it ever has.
"Hey guys." Adam said to Eli and Clare. "Um, where's Amelia?"
"She's in the library, she said she wanted to be alone. She's been pretty upset all day. Adam I can't believe you kissed her and didn't even tell her!"
"Woah now, she kissed me!"
Clare just gave Adam an "oh please" kind of look. Adam sighed.
"Look, I know it was wrong not to tell Amelia, but if she knew she wouldn't want anything to do with me. Not romantically at least. And when we kissed...it was like nothing I've ever felt before. I can't let myself like her anymore Clare, and I can't let her like me. It'll just end up hurting the both of us." Adam frowned and put his head in his hands. He felt like crying, breaking something, screaming, running. He felt like going right up to Amelia and telling her how incredibly sorry he was for hurting her.
"Dude. If you don't want to tell her, fine. Clare and I have no say in that, but you owe her an explanation, and a damn good one." Eli said sternly to Adam.
"Whatever, I'll catch up with you two later." Adam said as he got up. "I'm going to the library."
Amelia POV
It was clear Adam didn't trust me enough to tell me what was going on. It made me feel so...angry, hurt, disappointed even. I know we've only known each other a month, but I truly thought there was something there. I felt so stupid. I decided against trying to talk to Adam. If he didn't want to be honest with me, then I didn't want anything to do with him. Oh shit. There he is, walking towards me.
Adam entered the library, and immediately spotted Amelia staring off into space.
"Probably thinking about how much she hates me." he thought to himself. She looked pissed.
Adam sat directly across from Amelia. She didn't even look his way.
"Amelia, can we plea-"
"SH!" Adam was cut off by the sound of the librarian "sh"-ing him. So rather than talking, Adam scribbled on a piece of paper.
"I'm sorry. Can we please talk outside?"
He shoved the note to Amelia, and she read it. Without a word, or even a glance his way, she stood up and headed towards the doors. Adam followed.
"Me first." Amelia said. Adam nodded.
"You know what Adam? I know you like me, so don't bother saying you don't. But I also know that you're hiding something. And you know what? It REALLY hurts me that you can't trust me enough to tell me. And that you just walked out on me like that. Why would you do that? How could you do that? I put myself out there and you just..." Amelia stopped herself once she felt a tears swell in her eyes. She looked away.
"Amelia...please. Please don't cry."
She just looked up at him.
"I'm not crying." she looked at her feet. She looked anywhere to avoid Adam's eyes. She was so embarrassed. He hardly knew her yet he was still having this affect on her.
Adam POV
The pain in her eyes was almost unbearable to look at. For the first time, I was thankful that she refused to look at me.
"Look I really have to tell you something, and then maybe you'll understand why I did what I did." this was it. I was going to tell her that I'm transgendered, she was going to slap me, tell me I'm disgusting, and run away. I just knew it.
"I..I'm..I..."
"You what? Spit it out." She said with such annoyance and anger in her tone.
"I...I have a girlfriend." I spat out. I just couldn't do it.
"You what?" Amelia said, her face turning bright red.
"Yeah um, I have a girlfriend. Her name is Katherine and she goes to another school. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry."
-slap!- right across my face.
"I deserved that." I thought.
"You know what Adam?" Amelia said, venom in her tone. The anger in her eyes was almost scary. "Just...don't ever talk to me again."
She walked away from me. Remember when I hated myself before? I hate myself one thousand times more now.