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ATTENTION! READ THIS! Ok so now I've got your attention I was wondering if you guys would like me to hold a Q&A session over on the twilighted forum. Basically you go onto the forum and you ask me any question no matter what it is (there will be one exception though) and I'll answer it, regardless. What do you think? Would you like to give it a try? If so please let me know and get your question ready. It will be held over on the twilighted forum, there is a link on my profile. Also does anyone know if I can create a forum for this story here on this website please let me know so far all I've seen are roleplaying forums.

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Sorry about all these notices ^^ but I want to say sorry for not getting a chance to get back to Held Up By A Gun and to let you know that I would greatly appreciate it if you made the playlist for me.

Random point of interest: I'm eating scrambled egg on toast, yummy.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight and King Emmett chopped off my gummybears heads because they wouldn't bear him a son. Lol King Henry joke.

Edward Pov

"You thought you could get away?", I hissed, hurling her against a nearby tree, a sharp crack rolling through the air as the tree split from the impact.

She struggled to her feet, unnecessary pants rippling through her heaving body.

I roared as she spat her excess venom to the forest floor and her mouth twisted into a wicked smile as she muttered Bella's name.

I was standing before her in an instant crushing her throat in my hand, sincerely wishing she had a working windpipe for me to destroy. She wasn't worthy to utter that name.

"Temper, temper", she jeered as I hurled her against another tree, hard enough to hurt.

"Don't tell me you're tiring of our little game already", she smirked "and just when I was beginning to enjoy myself".

I cocked one eyebrow as a sickening crunch filled the humid air. She sucked in a large breath and watched as her leg rapidly began to set itself back into place.

"I don't know", a lazy smile spreading across my face "this could become somewhat entertaining".

Victoria scowled at me, curling her lip impressively "How does she like this side of you huh?", she said coldly.

My foot came down heavily on her leg again, enjoying interrupting the healing process.

I chuckled softly as I swooped down and tore her other leg from its socket, her back arched in pain and surprise.

I smiled cheerfully and pretended to tip my hat and say good day. "I'm sure I'll be seeing you around soon ma'am", I drawled, imitating Jasper's voice perfectly.

I took one last satisfied glance to see her gripping her healing leg and watching as the discarded limb crawled towards her, desperate for it's host.

I walked away slowly whistling all the while, images of grey smoke and swirling fire dancing through my mind.

Esme Pov

"Carlisle?", I called out softly, gently shoving his office door open. Before me sat Carlisle, cradling his head in his hands and pulling aggresively at his hair.

I walked silently to his side, he heard me I was sure, but didn't raise his head.

I gently tugged his hands from his hair "Don't do that sweetheart, you'll end up bald one of these days", he smiled weakly and pulled me onto his lap, nuzzling my neck for a moment.

"Any particular reason as to why you're so upset?", I asked curiously, running a soothing hand throught his hair.

"Why is he doing this again?", he asked, his voice barely a mumble.

"He did this before", Carlisle exclaimed "he left but he wasn't satisfied, he knows the price his conscience will pay", Carlisle hissed. I patted his shoulder sympathetically.

I knew he would calm down soon, he wasn't really angry more confused and frustrated.

"Why won't he listen", he sighed.

"Because he's a teenager", I chuckled "and no matter how long he remains a vampire for, he'll always be one". He shared a brief smile with me before pulling on his hair again.

"I hate this", he murmured "I hate that he won't let me help him, I hate that I can't guide him".

I thought of my son, alone, feasting on a human. The thought made me shudder and I wished he would allow us to comfort him, to tell us what it is he needs.

"And when he comes back he'll feel guilty and at war with himself and I'll have to stand by and watch because I can't help him", he stated angrily.

"Carlisle", I reprimanded, I didn't want him to wake Bella. "When you live as long as we do you're bound to feel restless after a while", I said slowly.

Carlisle nodded curtly "especially when, like Edward, you don't have a mate", I bit my lip softly and spoke again "He's lonely Carlisle".

Carlisle opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off "we're not enough", I said firmly "he needs more".

"But", Carlisle said quickly "I think", I whispered "I think that he just doesn't want to admit to it and that he's trying to find the satisfaction and comfort he doesn't have here".

"He's going about it the wrong way", Carlisle muttered stubbornly, toeing the carpet.

"Trying to fill the void in his life with blood", Carlisle said, exasperated "it won't do anyone any good".

"Maybe so", I replied "but he needs to learn that for himself", I kissed his cheek softly.

Carlisle nodded in defeat and I stood, making to leave.

Carlisle stared at the wall directly before him, his eyes fixed on the painting of himself and the Volturi.

"I'm afraid Esme", he whispered softly.

My face fell at his words and I stood before him, cradling his head in my hands as he sat still, leaning towards my touch.

"I'm afraid my son's going to paint his life with blood", he whispered, his voice breaking.

"And someday he won't be able to come back to us".

I gently pulled my fingers through his hair and closed my eyes, somehow aware that the son that would one day come home to us, would not be the same as before.

Jasper Pov

She was keeping something from me, not a particularily rare occurance but Alice told me everything, at least eventually and it seemed as though she had no intention of doing so on this occasion.

She was troubled and it had something to do with Edward.

Not that the rest of us weren't troubled by his departure also, but Alice seemed to react differently to everyone else.

She seemed to be in a world of her own, even more so then usual and it worried me.

She missed him surely but in a way that was different to the rest of us, she was hopeless and held none of the contempt or anger that we did and, if I owned even a penny to my name I'd bet it all that it could be a long while before we saw Edward again.

Which was just as well because I'd tear him from limb to limb when he did come back.

Never the less I missed my brother and worried for him, how would he fare when he returned home, his heart heavy with grief and his conscience aching with his actions.

Edward's immense control was something I had always admired but rather what I had always admired the most about him was his compassion.

Though he saw himself as a monster, Edward repented for his sins.

He could remember the face and names of his every victim.

Even the murderers, rapists, the scum amonst scum.

To Edward they were people. No matter their sins, even the worst of monsters deserved a name.

Indeed to me my victims were people, but they were faces amongst a sea of faces. They were humans. That was all. They had a face, a name, emotions, blood. But they were names among names, a flood of emotions and a mere smear on my already bloodied hands. They meant nothing.

It wasn't something I was proud of, but feasting on a meal of humans for so long makes them nothing more then that, a meal.

But slowly I find myself recognising the humans amongst me for more then they're flowing blood and live heart beats but for their faces, their names and themselves.

One face and one name stood out in the sea of faces and the abyss of names, Bella.

Alice saved me and Bella was slowly but surely changing me.

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New Girl At Hogwarts by Brittz303

Twilight Harry Potter crossover. Bella Swan is the new girl at Hogwarts, that means she's going to be treated like a shiny new toy. What will happen? How will Edward react? Will Harry ask her out? set during New Moon.

Review Please.

You didn't seriously think I was going to send him home yet and I know that Jasper seemed more like Edward in this chapter but I like to think that even Jasper thinks over what he's done every now and again. And hopefully I've given some depth to both Jasper and Edward.

Aww Esme, Carlisle moment. So yeah when he left he told them that he wanted to give hunting humans another go, it was a lie, he's still hunting animals but he had to give them some excuse.

Sorry it's so short, I tried to make it longer but I wasn't sure how to.

Review please and i'll let you share a big mug of cocoa with Edward while you watch the falling snow, aww.