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A/N

Vegas was forkin awesome, I had a blast! Now back to work : ( and my fan fic : )

So this is a 2 parter. This chapter is really just a build up for the next, so bare with me lol. I'm posting them both at once so no need to worry, I just felt better breaking them up so that there wasn't one long 20pg chapter.

As always thanks for the great reviews, keep them coming! And thanks to everyone who has added my story to their favorite lists and alerts, yall are too sweet.

Songs for this chapter: Got You Where I Want You by The Fly's, Come Down, Acoustic Version by Bush, Eyes On Fire by Blue Foundation, Criminal by Fiona Apple, Celebrity Skin by Hole, Take Me Off by The Donnas, Where Is My Mind? by The Pixies, Day and Night by Kid Cudi, Poison by New Edition/Bell Biv Devo, Creep by Radio Head

Ch9 Cinder-Angela

EPOV

(Got You Where I Want You by The Fly's)

"mmm…so I hear you're spending the night at my house tonight" I said against her lips as I made a trail down her neck and back up to her ear. It's funny how things change. Before Bella I hated kissing and making out. It seemed so pointless to me. With other girls I was only after one thing. Just skip the middle man and get to the fucking. But with her everything was different, new.

"What's it-ah-to-mm-you Cullen?" I loved it when she gets sassy with me.

"I couldn't careless" I pulled away and smiled still hovering over her with my hands on either side of her head. She narrowed her eyes at me. So fucking adorable.

"Good, because Alice and I have plans and they don't include you!" she pushed my arm away and went to step around me in an attempt to walk away, but I grabbed her arm and swung her to face me. Kissing her hard on the lips one last time, I felt her knees go weak and when I pulled away she was panting.

"See you tonight, Bella" with that I left her there catching her breath at the back of the library.

Last Tuesday she refused James. That fucking prick is really trying and she turned him down. Funny how that deranged assfuck still thinks he has a shot with her.

"Hey fag what the fuck was that shit in the Library yesterday? Awe what's the matter you and your fucking bitch squad scared that the big bad James is gonna swoop on your girl?" James strutted into statistics last Wednesday with a fucking gay ass grin on his face.

"Wow, big talk for someone who got shot the fuck down" I snapped back. Calm down Cullen, it's just his usual bullshit.

"All a part of the plan Cullen."

"Ta..yeah ok", I rolled my eyes. Bella said she made it clear that she wants nothing to do with him. I made it clear that I wanted to bash his fucking face in but I promised Bella I wouldn't, and throwing blows is just so beneath.

"Oh Eddie boy, you forget, I know you better than anyone. Even better than that sweet assed fucking twin of yours" He squeezed the air to insinuate squeezing my sister's ass. I felt my nails dig into my palms as my fists clutched together. "It's only a matter of time before you fuck everything up. And you better believe I'll be there to lick sweet Bella's little tears away. Like I said bitch, game on"

"Ya you wish. If I know my girl like I know I do she'll see right through your fucking bullshit."

"Your girl? We'll see about that. It's funny because according to Bella you two are just "good friends". Have you even asked her out?…see you Friday lover"

Friday fucking poker. Once a month the children of the elite get together to swap cash drugs and sex all in the name of "socializing" to please our mummies and daddies. Such a joke, I don't even wanna go but it's Whitlock/Hale's turn to host and Bella will be there…and James will be there…

(Come Down, Acoustic Version, Bush)

Another week down, fuck, I can't wait to get out of this sad pathetic excuse for a town. The rentals will be back on Sunday, fucking yay! I miss my dad telling me what I want for my life isn't good enough.

"Music? Edward, be serious son, don't make me laugh. Harvard Business with a double in Biology and then Med school, followed by taking your place on the board. There's nothing left to discuss. Be a man for once! It's time put this silliness away." The truth is I am interested in medicine, but I'd never tell that asshole that.

And then there's Esme trying to set me up with the debutant trash that resides around the Kirkland Country Club. A merger with any of these ridiculous families would be "good buiseness". Fuck love or life…business, it's all just good fucking business. They weren't always like that. Once, they were free. Eloping in Vegas at 20, Grandfather Cullen shit a brick but laughed internally. He's always managed to keep a line between "good business" and pleasure. Father not so much, somewhere along the Ivey League way he became cold and selfish. Fucker.

I sat out on the terrace sipping my McCarty Whiskey thinking about James and how he was right about Bella. As much as I'd hate to admit it, of two things he made painfully obvious…1) I really have no claim on her and I'm obviously too chicken shit to jump off the cliff and ask her out, let alone to be with me, and 2) in the event that she did want to be with me I would inevitably fuck everything up.

"Fucking James" I slurred under my breath when the little pixie walked out interrupting my train of thought.

"Brother dear" she had a raised eyebrow and a quizzical look with a martini in her tiny hand

"Sister dear, to what do I owe this interruption" she rolled her eyes.

"So"

"So" I fucking hate it when she does that. Just spit it out!

"So Bella is spending the night again tonight. You gonna be here?"

"Yes, I have a tee time tomorrow." I'm playing golf with Edward Anthony Sr., Grandfather Cullen gets me like no one else. He and I are closer than my father and I will ever be.

"Ok, what the hell is going on with you two? I'm not as stupid as everyone else, I know you two are sneaking around. Why don't you fucking take her out, make it official, tell her you're in love with her"

"Why don't you?" I quipped. She and Jasper have been doing this fucking ridiculous dance for almost a year now. It started last Christmas, but neither of them has made the jump. Instead they fuck around and cause drama just to fuck with my life. She narrowed her eyes and huffed at me, clearly not amused with my response.

I sighed in defeat "Because…because…because it's fucking complicated!" I yelled unintentionally "I've never had a fucking girlfriend. You know me I don't do commitment. Fucking? Yes. Hooking up? Yes, the moment she gets attached I'm gone! But…"

"But with Bella it's different"

"Yes" I pinched the bridge of nose in frustration "and I don't know what to do or how to start. We kiss…all we do is kiss and it's amazing, better than any lay. She deserves more, and I know that but…and then there's my not so boyfriend material past…I guess I'm afraid that if she finds out details of what I was like, she'll run screaming right out of the Kirkland gates. FUCK! Ali I don't know what to do." Her eyes softened at 'Ali', something I only use when I'm really a mess.

"Edward, you're gonna lose her if you keep up this act of sneaking around like you're ashamed to be seen with her. She's gonna get tired of it. She already is getting tired of it. And you're right, she deserves way better than you. But, for some reason she wants your sorry pathetic ass so you need to figure your shit out." she finished her martini and I sipped my whiskey in silence letting her words sink in. God I don't want to lose her, but I've never been rejected before and I'm terrified that the one girl I actually care deeply for is gonna laugh in my fucking face. That's assuming she isn't repulsed by my past first.

9:00pm, I had to be at Jaspers at 10 for some much needed pre poker drinks. Tonight isn't the night. It'll be too difficult with everyone around and by everyone I mean that fucking assfuck James. Not to mention that poker tradition calls for no attachments. Maybe I just won't play…(sigh)…I need to get her alone to tell her everything. How I've been in love with her since we were 5, how beautiful she is and how I want to worship her and her body for the rest of my life…Fuck, how I wanna at least take her out on a real fucking date like she deserves.

I jumped in the shower and began to think about her. Flashes of her red swollen lips, sexy soft legs, her big lust ridden deep brown eyes, and of course her tight little ass, danced in my head as the hot water spilled over me.

(Eyes On Fire by Blue Foundationas Bella's different body parts and various sexual positions flicker through his mind…PS how sick was that So You Think Can Dance routine set to Eyes On Fire!?)

God I wanna make love to Bella. I wanna feel her perky tits pressed up against my chest and see those ruby red lips moan as I kiss down her body.

By now my dick was as hard as a fucking rock. There's no way I could get through tonight with this much tension built up. I grabbed my rod and began to stroke picturing Bella's tits bouncing up and down as her sweet pussy rides my cock. I grab her juicy round little ass. Fuck I bet she's fucking tight as hell as her head falls back allowing her hair to brush my thighs. Imagining her scream my name through her panting sends me over the edge as I came hard and loud onto the shower wall.

"Fuck, I'm fucked" I panted as I leaned my hand against the wall. Seeing her tonight and not being able to touch her or be with her is gonna be torture.

BPOV

(Criminal by Fiona Apple, IDK why, it just seemed fitting lol)

I decided tonight was worthy of an Alice outfit so I asked her to come over and help pick one out since according to her I'm "clearly incapable" of dressing myself.

"Bonjour Darling" she chirped when I opened the door to let her in. "It's 5 o'clock, that only gives us 5 ½ hours to get ready" she seemed a little too determined as she skipped up the stairs to my room. I was officially scared.

"Alice I thought this was semi casual…and I thought Jasper said 10" She rolled her eyes in mock horror like every word I just said was the blackest form of blasphemy.

"First of all Bella, we never arrive anywhere on time, and second, this is EP as in "Elite Poker" as in 10K buy in, cocktails…well expensive shots… only the crème de la crème of the student body…which reminds me, did you invite Angela? I like her. Aside from the fact that it would be fucktastick to have her daddy in our pocket without me having to suck his cock" my mouth hung open as I was rendered speechless by her last statement. "I'm kidding! Really Bella, I would never use my mouth, just a hand job"

"Of course" I choked out under my breath. "Um no, should I call her?"

"By all means…oh and her little Ben will be there. He's Rosalie's cousin…and don't think I'm not all over that shit. Very few things happen at Kirkland without my knowledge. I pay good to be in the know"

"Right" I rolled my eyes and reached for my phone at the edge of my desk as she began to pillage through my closet pulling out possible combinations and laying them side by side on the bed.

One ring, two rings, "Bella! Hey, what's up?"

"H-hey Angela, how are you?"

"Good, good, what can I do for you?"

"Um, Alice Cullen and I were wondering if you wanted to come out with us tonight? It's…"

"It's poker night, right?"I could tell she was both shocked and extremely interested.

"Yeah you know about that?"

"Who doesn't…but I thought you had to be you know, from certain breeding to be invited?"

"Well, honestly, Alice said she likes you and believe it or not, you apparently come from great breeding, and Ben will be there and" by now I was saying a hail Marry, holding my breath and crossing my fingers. Angela was the only normal friend I have here and I was praying hard that she would agree to come.

"Did you say Ben?"

"Indeed I did" I could feel her smiling through the phone

"Well, for you and Miss Alice anything" she laughed, I exhaled in relief

"Great, be at my house at 10, it starts at 10 but according to Alice "we never arrive for social engagements on time""

"8!" Alice screamed "she has to be here at 8 so I can approve her outfit"

"Um scratch that, do you mind coming over at 8? Alice wants to make sure we're properly primped" try saying that 10 times fast.

"I'll be there she squealed!" we hung up and my eyes grew wide at all of the different combinations lying on the bed in front of me. My mood sank to glum knowing that this evil f*ing sprite was gonna make me try each one on.

(Celebrity Skin by Hole…movie dressing room montage lmao)

"Don't give me that look Isabella Swan! You asked for my help" ahhh what the hell was I thinking. The next time I ask for Alice Cullen's clothing consultant services, someone shoot me please.

"Hey Al, thanks for including Angela, she's been a really great friend, and I know that this sort of stuff means a lot to her" Alice smiled and shrugged

"Like I said, I like her and she has something to offer"

By the time 8 o'clock rolled around Alice had my hair in huge rollers while I finished squeezing my ass into a pair of black designer skinny jeans and a dark blue plaid button down with ¾ sleeves that was about 3 sizes too small allowing for maximum cleavage and stomach, as Alice made me leave the bottom button undone. She also picked out a pair of shinny dark blue stilettos that where f*ing mocking me and my lack of coordination every time I glanced their way.

Ding Dong

I ran down stairs to let Angela in. Alice followed me with a bottle of Patron in her hand.

"Alice what…where the heck did that come from…Hey Angela come on in"

Alice just smirked as she scavenged for 3 shot glasses

"Charlie only drinks beer you know. You're not gonna find what you're looking for" Like that would stop her…she shrugged as she pulled 3 glasses down and poured 3 large shots.

"My last and finally rule ladies…never go into the lion's den sober"

The three of us arrived at Jasper's/Rosalie's at 10:20. We sat in the car double checking our hair and makeup while rocking out to Take Me Off by The Donnas swigging straight from the bottle of Patron. As much as I'd hate to the admit it, it was kind of fun being a girl with Alice…sometimes. I was feeling "fucktastic". Angela looked great with her hair down, purple baby doll dress, black pantyhose and black stilettos. While Alice donned a skin tight black mini skirt, "come fuck me" boots and a forest green halter top. I must say we were looking pretty damn good…and pretty damn wasted. We hopped out of the porch and took a minute to steady ourselves. With me on the right, Angela on the left, and Alice in the middle, she grabbed our hands and sauntered us to the door. Ben, Edward, and Jasper, eat your freakin hearts out!

For once I recognized the song blasting through the stereo, Where Is My Mind?, The Pixies, "fitting" I snorted to myself.

"Ladies, my my my we're lookin fine" Alice and Jasper delicately brushed each other's cheeks with their lips before she strutted past him. You could get high off of the sexual tension that danced between them. "Mi Bella, pleasure as always" he bowed like an old fashioned southern gent.

"Hey Jazz" I chuckled "this is"

"Angela…yes, I know. Welcome to the dark side Miss Webber" Jasper kissed her hand before linking it through his own arm and leading her into the house. She giggled and blushed at the gesture allowing him to lead her.("Miss Webber I do believe you need a drink…")HA! The dark side, I shook my head, if only she knew what she was getting into. I still don't really know (sigh). I turned to shut the door only to have it shoved back in my face nearly knocking me over. I felt a pair of strong arms reach out to catch me, but they were not the pair of arms I was hoping for.

"Woa there La Bella Isabella, watch out or the floor might jump up and bite you" James grinned as he sat me back on my feet.

"Ha, right" I half heartedly smiled trying to hid my disappointment that it wasn't another set of arms there to catch me.

"What are you doing here? I thought you hated Jasper and the rest of them" my brain finally caught up enough to still be confused.

"Nah, it's all in good fun gorgeous… besides, this shit is about breeding, not friends"

"Beeellllaaaa" Alice sang as she came up behind me. "Mi Bella Mi Amore, silly Bella, what are you doing out here all by yourself" she shot cold daggers through her eyes at James with that last part.

"Nothing just..." I blushed and looked down like I had been caught eating paste in kindergarten or something.

"Come on silly Bella it's drinkie time" I've discovered that Alice + alcohol = an increase in the "silly Bella's", to which I didn't really mind. Half the time I was silly because I had no clue as to what was going on. They were all so glamorous here in their own little world. Minnie cut outs of their parents complete with martini glasses and sharp tongues. And then there was me, Bella. Besides having ½ good breeding I knew deep down that I didn't really belong here.

I tried to shake off my feelings of inadequacy when Alice led me to the bar and handed me yet another shot. This makes 1,2…5…I don't know, I lost count bottle chugging ago.

"Miss Bella, glad to see you've survived" Laurent! The bartender from that first party. Somehow seeing his familiar face behind the bar made me feel a bit more at ease.

"Wow, you really do get around" I laughed and extended my arm to hug him over the bar. He chuckled at my foe pas of hugging the help and returned the gesture.

"My dad works in accounting at the Cullen foundation. They helped us get our citizenship when we moved here from France. And, they've always taken kindly to a struggling college student. Odd jobs here, bartending there" he shrugged like it was no big deal just a way of life. The privileged and those who serve them. I nodded in understanding as he handed me a brandy glass of water. "Pace you're self Miss Bella" he leaned in and said quietly "this is not a party you want to get lost in."

"Thank you" I raised my glass to him and sipped on the much welcomed water. Where in the hell is he? I glanced around trying to be inconspicuous but saw no sign of Edward, at least not from where I stood in the ginormous living room…sitting room?...fuck if I know. Really these homes are redic. Don't get me wrong, the ranch in Phoenix was huge but we had no sense of room etiquette.

"He's in the game room at the poker table" Em yelled at me from across the room.

"Who, what, I don't…" I blushed hard and looked at my hands resting on the bar top.

"Fuck you, you know who" nice Em, let the whole god damn world know.

"Who?" rose sashayed in and rested her hand on Emmett's shoulder. Apparently my blush and awkward posture gave me away. "Ohhhhh" she realized 'who'… "Will you go make your fucking presence know? I'm sick of fucking Mallory skanking out my game room with her fake tits. Maybe if he sees you he'll shove her ass out."

Lauren Mallory is here, great! I visibly grimaced at the thought of her plastic chest pressed against Edwards face. Fuck that bitch! I'm drunk I look hot, I'm going to go get my sort of, kind of, who the fuck knows what we are man! I pushed my boobs up winked at Rose to which she chuckled at and I went on my way to this 'game room' she spoke of…Bad Idea.

(Day and Night by Kid Cudi)

Right when I reached the door way I saw that wench, Lauren, wrap her slimy arms with her tacky French tipped nails around Edwards neck as he flipped through a large stack of cash at the poker table. She bent down and whispered something in his ear causing him to furrow his brow as he glanced at me locking eyes. About a second before, another girl I recognized from Kirkland…Rebecca or some shit…slithered up with a glass of dark liquor. She placed the drink on the table and "fell" into Edwards lap. I blushed furiously and turned to scurry down the hall looking at the ground. I was fighting back tears and searching for another empty room or bath room to slip into when

"oof" I bumped into something…or someone

"We gotta stop meeting like this beautiful Bella" The familiar voice cooed "what's the matter, you look like your puppy just died" James, not the comfort I was looking for but at this point a welcomed distraction.

"Um what? No I'm fine" He quirked an eyebrow at me. "Really it's nothing" I mumbled under my breath "so what's going on? Do they actually play poker here or what?"

He chuckled at my obvious frustration and irritation. "Slow down turbo…yeah they play eventually. Once the men secure their "lady lucks" for the evening the games begin. And once they run low on cash they bet their "ladies" for the evening. You see, each girl pairs off with either the guy she's fucking at the moment or the guy she thinks will win…long standing Kirkland Preparatory tradition dating back generations." He nodded mater of factly.

My mouth fell open slightly. He can't be serious "they what" I stated a bit louder then intended.

"Relax, it's all in good fun and the girls know what they're getting into" he winked at me.

"You don't, I mean don't think that I…"

"I'm not the betting type, Bella. I came to watch. If this shit is anything like I remember it'll start to get entertaining real soon" I couldn't help the dead puppy look that crept back to my face. Really I wanted to run into a room and cry about the despicable Edward who just broke my heart, but the alcohol already in me was having none of that. Instead I found myself thinking what would any other Kirkland girl do? What would Alice or Lauren do?

(Poison by New Edition/Bell Biv Devo)

"You wanna get another drink" I smiled up at James flirtatiously through my lashes. As we walked back past the game room I linked my arm through his and laughed like he said the funniest thing I had ever heard. Childish I know, but it seemed fitting. Now I know that this is out of character for me, but with the courage of patron on my side Edward can kiss it!

Before we made it back to the bar we were bombarded by a super drunk Angela and Ben.

"BELLA!" she screamed leaning into Ben who looked sublimely happy to be holding her up. "Bella have you met Ben? Ben this is Mi Bell!" I rolled my eyes. Not only had she picked up "Mi Bella" from the Cullen pixie, but Ben and I have met…several times.

"Wow, she's gone" Bella Swan observant as ever.

"Yeah…but don't worry, I'll make sure she gets home safe, her parents are gone for some conference so…wait that's not what I meant, shit I…." He was so nervous I had to chuckle at his rambling, now I know what I must sound like 90% of the time. James out right laughed and I smacked him in the arm to make him stop.

"I trust you Ben" I said in mock seriousness as I shook my head and walked past him making my way back to the bar.

The others had disappeared leaving James and I alone. One shot, 2 shots done! After two shots Laurent made me a weak mixed drink which I pretended to sip on determined not to end up hunched over the porcelain train. We talked about school, the Kirkland Community, and the bullshit of it all and then his eyes changed…

"I just don't get it…Cullen? I mean you could do better, he doesn't even treat you right" What's that supposed to mean. He has no idea how Edward treats me! Wait, why am I mentally defending him when I just saw him with not one but two girls draped over him?

"I have no idea what you're talking about" I took a real sip this time. This definitely was not a conversation I wanted to have with James. I liked James, really I did. And if there were no such thing as Edward Cullen I could even see us having something. He has a bad rep but I can see that he means well…at least with me anyway. But, I'm a pathetic masochist who continues to pine after someone who I thought wanted me too, but apparently doesn't.

And then again don't I deserve to be happy and normal, what's so wrong about moving on or going out on an innocent date with someone else. After all why should I hold up to my end of our promise when he obviously wasn't?

I gulped the liquid in my mouth down hard as James took a step into me, backing me into the bar. Laurent was paid "not to see" anything, it was like he wasn't even there.

(Creep by Radio Head)

"Beautiful Bella" he whispered as he reached up and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear while gazing into my eyes. And before I knew what was what he leaned in and kissed me. I was paralyzed, my lips refused to respond to the assault. It was wrong, all wrong! Instead of tingles and passion I felt nothing but vomit rising up. My body was screaming at me to end this violation and finally I pulled away.

"James I…" he breathed out a heavy sigh

"Cullen" He whispered. I looked down not wanting to see the rejection in his eyes. A look I knew all too well.

"What the fuck James! I thought I told you to stay away from my girl" Edward stormed up like a bull in pursuit.

"Wow Cullen, never thought I'd live to see the tables flipped where it was your girl getting swooped on" James had a smug grin on his face as he attempted to walk past Edward who responded by shoving him into the bar. I saw Laurent jump back with his arms thrown in the air not willing to interfere with his paycheck.

"Edward stop it!" I yelled stepping in between the two of them to face James. "I am so sorry, are you ok?"

"Yeah fine…why don't you man the fuck up already Cullen?"

"Ok James not helping" I glared at him as I checked to make sure there really was no damage done before turning back around.

"What the hell is the matter with you!? And I'm not your girl, you've made sure of that" My tongue was sharp and my eyes were furious as I pushed past Edward and headed for the back yard. I just needed fresh air. I couldn't believe what just happened. Who the hell does he think he is? I fucking saw him in there dripping in skank and now he tries to pull that "my girl" bullshit.

"Bella" he whispered from behind me. I could feel his close proximity without turning around.

A/N

IDK if y'all noticed (and no, I'm not southern lol I'm a Cali girl born and raised I just like "y'all") but Bella's mouth got intentionally worse as she drank. She went from the sober "F*ing" to full blown "fucking" by the end haha

Again this is 9 and the next one is 9.5 so don't worry I'm not leaving you with all of this build up and no meat lol…yall should know me better than that. Stay tuned!