It's About A Kind Much Closer Than Friends Use, a twilight fanfic

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Songs for this chapter: Oh My Love by John Lennon

A Kind Much Closer Than Friends Use

EPOV

Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love

I followed her. I followed her deep into the sea of love to the point of no return. I was in the dark water no lights, and no sounds except for the ripples of the sea and her sleeping breaths. Of three things I was sure…first, sooner or later we'll have to face my past. Second, Monday looming in the distance brought uncertainty. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Isabella Marie Swan. She was my drug of choice. I've only truly tasted her once and already I was addicted.

When she wrapped her legs around me I felt her heat serge from between her core. She ground her hips into my erection searching for more friction, more release. She read my fucking mind! But something changed when I laid her down on the bed. The soft moon light flooded the room and danced across her face while her gorgeous hair fanned out around her head and her cheeks were flush from the heat of the passion. She was sexy, and…and beautiful. She was beautiful all the way through to her core. I could get lost in her brilliant chocolate eyes forever.

I lay next to her resting my weight on the arm underneath me, determined to take things slow, to make love to my Bella. I was nervous. Yeah, that's right, Edward fucking "king of fucking" Cullen was nervous about making love for the first time. That's what this was, love. I loved her she meant the world to me. This was so different from fucking to get off, or fucking period. With an unsteady hand, God I hope she didn't notice, I began to unbutton her shirt. One button, two buttons "rip/pop" my nerves got the best of me as the last button popped off when I ripped her shirt.

I looked down and my breath hitched at the sight of her creamy skin lying underneath the delicate blue lace bra she had on. "So beautiful", I whispered as I gently lowered my head to kiss her hip allowing my nose to skim across her body. I inhaled her delicious scent as I made my way up to the blue lace. I've dreamt about this moment for so long, hopping that one day this angel would be here in my bed beside me. "So long, for so long" I felt it unintentionally slip out when I began kneading and teasing her peaks through the thin fabric.

I felt her arch into the feel of me on her breasts so I carefully repositioned myself between her legs in order to gain a better angle. Her arousal teased my aching cock which was greedily pushing into her thigh. I needed more contact, to feel her underneath me. I sat up between her legs. I couldn't help but smile at the adorable frown she made when I pushed off of her. Like flipping a switch, understanding crossed her face when I pulled my shirt off, followed by pulling her up to release her upper body of the fabric that remained between us. I kissed her shoulders and continued down her body as I placed her back down onto the bed.

Picking up where I left off, I began to lick and tease her luscious breasts. They were perfect, round and perky, delicious pink nipples standing at attention calling out for my touch. She began to squirm and moan needing a small bit of release. "Please" she whimpered, I don't think she was even aware that she said it. I obliged by gently biting and sucking where she wanted me before moving to do the same routine to her other breast. After paying the other side sufficient attention I made my way further down kissing and worshiping every piece of flesh my lips touched.

When I reached the waist band of her jeans I teased her by licking the skin just underneath. I was rewarded by her hips jerking up into the sensation as her eyes closed. I unzipped and unbuttoned the jeans and slipped my fingers under her panties to pull everything down in one tug.

Perfect. She was perfect and I loved her. I needed to feel her. I needed her to feel me, to know how I felt about her before we went any further. It might kill me if she didn't share my feelings. I just needed a moment to be sure. I positioned myself back between her legs and laid my chest against hers. I rested most of my weight on her as I lowered my head to lie just over her heart and let out a deep calming sigh.

"I just wanna feel you" I whispered. Her heart beat like crazy with excitement, lust and anticipation. Slowly it began to even out and drum a calming rhythm in sync with my own. She soothed and massaged my hair and shoulders kissing me softly in between. Our heart beats matched, two hearts beating as one.

I just knew. I lifted my head to gaze into her eyes just to be sure. They reaffirmed my feelings. I loved her and she loved me back even though we might not be ready to say it out loud, there was no denying it was there. I pushed up and removed her fingers from my hair. I wanted to show her just how much she meant to me. So, I gently placed her hands above her head and kissed my way back down her body between the valley of her breasts, stopping only to taste her inviting belly button before continuing to her beautiful pussy.

Before I dove into paradise I stepped off of the bed and pulled her body down to the edge. I lowered myself to my knees and inhaled her mouthwatering scent and felt her body tense slightly under my fingers. I forgot how innocent she still is. She made sure to state her lack of virginity, but I was pretty confident she still had a lot of sexual exploring to do.

"Relax Isabella" I kissed her thigh allowing my hair to graze her entrance and felt her body loosen for me as her legs spread a little further apart. Now it was my turn to relax. I've done this before but being with Bella was like throwing out all of the rules. Nothing I knew applied this was all new to me as well. Just to be safe I took one finger and stroked between her folds. She moaned softly which encouraged me to continue with confidence. "You're so fucking wet" I could feel my eyes darken as lust and instinct took over. She was incredible. My tongue darted out to lick from her entrance to her clit "Mmm, Fucking exquisite". She screamed out in pleasure fisting her hands into the sheets. I loved hearing her moan and scream out. It was the most amazing sound I have ever heard.

I continued to suck on her clit as I pushed one finger into her and began to pump it in and out while twisting and wiggling it at the same time. Her delicate little hips pushed down on my hand seeking more. Two fingers, three fingers, her head was thrashing against the bed as I kept pulling her body along to its much needed release. I felt her begin to clench around my fingers as her pants became more and more desperate.

"That's right baby, I want you to come for me" I told her, then quickly returned my mouth to her clit. Once contact was made she came hard releasing her nectar all over my welcoming fingers and face.

"Edward" pushed out of her mouth loud and hard, it sounded like heaven calling me home. I released her before she fully came down wanting to truly feel the last breath of her orgasm. In record time my jeans where gone and the condom was on. Still standing off of the bed I thrusted my aching cock into her tight pussy allowing the remainder of her orgasm to play out around me. She screamed out in pleasure before relaxing underneath my arms.

Again, I needed more contact, she was too far away lying on the bed. As if Bella saw it in my eyes she pushed up to her elbows and I reached out to pull her towards my lips allowing me to kiss her tenderly. It was the kind of kiss that told her that I just wanted to love her passionately. I almost forgot I was still inside of her when she wrapped her legs around me digging her heels into my ass to pull me in as deep as possible. She hung from me, kissing me as I crawled us both back onto the bed with her under me.

After lying her down I began to move inside of her for the first time. She was heaven and hell all at the same time. Incredible can't even begin to describe her…

"You're so warm…and tight…I don't" I was desperately clinging to my self control when I lowered my head to the crook of her neck. Her small hands came to the side of my face forcing me to look up at her and into her mesmerizing lust and love filled pools. Her head fell back as I repositioned myself to my knees needing to get deeper into her temple, for this truly was a religious experience.

My body was winning the battle and I knew I wouldn't be able to hold on for much longer. She was so tight and it was as if we fit together like the way the sun just fits in the sky. She was made for me and I for her. Not to mention the fact that it has been a month since I've had sex, fuck, I have changed. Bella has changed me. Her body arched up and down for me as I played it like the most exquisite piano in the world.

"Uh..mmmm…my…gnaa" her eyes rolled back as she screamed out.

"Baby I'm so close…so close" I needed her to cum with me, to share the pleasure with me, so I reached a hand in between her legs and began pinching and stroking her clit. "Cum with me baby" it was almost like she was waiting to hear the words because not a second later her walls clenched around me and she came.

"Bella" I whined desperately as the best orgasm I've ever fucking had took me over.

I gently slowed our pace of movement allowing for a peaceful fall into complete bliss. Once thoroughly rocked out, I fell onto Bella lifelessly. She began stroking my hair and back while placing kisses anywhere and everywhere she could reach. It was peaceful, soothing. Normally I would have kicked whatever slut was underneath me out right about now, but with Bella I was content to just lay there, and enjoy the feel of her little body underneath me. Finally, I looked up and smiled, loving that she was still here and would be staying. Bella smiled back reassuringly and I placed a soft kiss on her lips before rolling out and off of her to head towards the bathroom.

Needing a human moment I shut the door behind me. I figured she probably wanted a moment to herself as well. This was all so new and overwhelming. I took the condom off and flushed it down the toilet before looking at myself in the mirror. Bella has changed me. For the first time in years I recognized the person staring back. It was me. Me as a child, the me I lost when she left the first time. A small panic began to rise in the pit of my stomach. If this doesn't work out, if she decides it's too hard, it will kill me.

Breathe Cullen. I took a few deep calming breaths before opening the door. A soft Whimper was sounding from the middle of my bed where Bella lay in the aftermath of our love. I ran over as my heart clenched thinking that I had hurt her. What if she wasn't ready to take that step with me? I'm such a fucking prick, I took advantage of her.

I scooped her up into my lap and rocked her gently back and forth shushing her and apologizing for my behavior. It was the greatest moment of my life but I had not yet considered how should would be feeling right now. Her sobs eventually calmed and I leaned back to look at her face.

"Baby, are you ok? Did I hurt you? What's going on?" I was frantic, dreading her response.

"I…I don't really. (Sigh) You left and…" She shook her head like she was trying to shake off the thoughts she was thinking. Now I was just…confused.

"Bella, please, tell me" She almost looked embarrassed. It was driving me insane not knowing what was going on in her head.

"Well, you got up and I began to think about all of the rumors I've heard about you conquering all the woman in Washington and" Fuck, I knew this was coming but I had hoped we would have at least a few blissful moments before we had to deal with the reality of the situation, the reality of my past. My head hung in shame as I realized what she was trying to tell me…"and then I remembered the look in your eyes and knew that wasn't it, that this was more" YES! This was more, so much more. I meet her eyes trying to will my feelings to jump from my eyes into hers. "But, then I started to think that maybe I wasn't…I mean was I…I've only done this twice, three times if you count this and you have so much more experience than I do and…"what? This silly beautify, sexy, amazing girl actually thinks that she wasn't the best thing that has ever happened to me both in and out of this damn bed. I couldn't help it, I chuckled at her assumption as I lifted her embarrassed face to look at me.

"Listen to me" I demanded sternly "that was the most incredible and intense experience I have ever been a part of. What is that ridiculous word my sister made up…oh ya, FUCKTASTIC." She laughed and nodded in understanding before burying her silly little head into the crook of my neck. As I played with her hair I thought about the past three weeks, the past 7 years, the first time I saw her all those ago. The whole thing reminded me of a song I had heard blasting from Alice's room a few nights back.

"If I should be so bold I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand" I sang to myself. The rest of the album was terrible, but this song, If it Kills Me was Bella and I to a T.

"Let's lay down" I finally said. She had to be tired and a bit drunk still. She scooted over to the side and snuggled under the comforter while I lay beside her. Her leg hitched up over my abdomen and I drew lazy circles on her thigh. My other hand stroked her hair as she laid her head on my chest. I continued to hum the song as her breathing evened out and she slipped off to sleep.

She was so beautiful and peaceful sleeping beside me. My mind on the other hand was racing a mile a minute…

Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love

I fell asleep around 3 am only to be woken up at 6 by my cell. She stirred and gripped me tighter at the beeping of the intrusive phone. I reached trying desperately not to wake her as I answered it.

"Carlisle"

"Edward do you have any idea what time it is"

"Early?"

"Nice, nice response, I'm sure your Grandfather will find that remark extremely amusing"

"What do you want Carlisle?"

"To make sure you're awake, obviously for good reason. My God Edward do you take anything seriously? If you know what's good for you, you will be at the country club at 7:45 sharp and not a minute later."

"Fine. Is that all?"

"Yes I believe that is all"

"Goodbye father (click) a fucking pleasure as always you fucking prick"

I ran my hands through my hair in frustration. Suddenly a soft little "mm" brought my mind back to the bed and the sleeping beauty beside me. I kissed her forehead before carefully slipping out from under her grasp. She frowned adorably in her sleep before rolling on her back leaving her inviting breasts open to me. I groaned involuntarily using every ounce of my self control to walk away from her. After a quick extremely cold shower I threw on my Ralph Lauren khakis and a red polo shirt along with my club blazer. I threw some moose in my hair and stood in my bath room door way watching her sleep. She was mesmerizing the way she tossed and murmured. I decided to leave her a note, not wanting her to wake up confused. After remembering her torn shirt, I pulled out the boxers and button I had let her wear the night we watched the Wizard of Oz, it was by far my most favorite outfit on her.

Ma Belle Bella,

Sorry to leave you but I have an unmissable 8am tee time with My Grandfather. I left a pair of boxers and a shirt for you over the desk chair, as your poor shirt met its demise last night (I imagine you're blushing a beautiful crimson right about now). I think Alice is home, if not you are welcome to anything you like in my room and the house. I'll be thinking about you all day.

Your

Edward

Flowers…I should leave a flower. Alice always says women love flowers. I just never loved a woman to give them too. I know sunflowers are her favorite. I have a picture of her from when we were kids. She was in my mother's garden out back sitting in the middle of a sunflower patch. It's tucked away in my closet. No one else knows it's there. It's something I never forgot. I tiptoed out of my room to call Geoffrey on the intercom.

"Sir?"

"Geoffrey could you please bring me the most beautiful and most perfect sunflower you can find from the garden as soon as possible?"

"Right away sir"

"Time is of the essence"

"Of course sir"

"And I'll take my coffee to go this morning Geoffrey"

"Yes Master Edward"

"Thank you Geoffrey"

I paced back and forth in front of my door waiting for Geoffrey to return.

"What the Fuck are you doing?" Jasper asked as he strolled my way. I assume he was headed towards the kitchen while my sister slept. The fucker was in his boxers. I hated that he slept with Alice. He wasn't good enough for her plain and simple. He could be, in time, but that would require giving up all the other pussy first…easier said than done. My sister on the other hand has fallen hard. She won't admit it and I know he doesn't see it but she has.

"Waiting for Geoffrey" I barked through gritted teeth.

"What the fuck is your problem douche"

"SHHH! You know what my fucking problem is. Last night it was my sister again, who the fuck is it gonna be tonight?"

"Oh please sultan of pussy. Who the fuck are you to judge? You know how things roll around here. Alice understands, hell she does the same fucking thing! And don't fucking shhhh me fag"

"I will shush you, Bella's sleeping" his jaw dropped "And Alice" fuck she's gonna kill me. It just flew out like word vomit "Alice hasn't slept with anyone else since January. She's been pinning after your sorry ass ever since you finally gave her the time of fucking day you asshole!"

"I-I…wait you slept with Bella?"

"Don't change the fucking subject"

"I didn't know"

"Well now you do so…I'm sick of seeing you here. Fucking do something about it or break it off. She can't take this, I know her. In or out make a fucking decision."

"Sir you're sunflower"

"Thank you Geoffrey"

"Sunflower?"

"Fuck off Jasper" I turned to my room leaving Jasper in the hallway. He gave me a heart to heart last night and now it was my turn. He and Alice are actually quite a match. I don't know if it was my changing for Bella or what, but I just wanted Alice to be happy. She deserves it.

I placed the sunflower on my desk and folded the note in half. I stood it up in a tent shape straddling the flower so that she would see it from the bed.

"I don't wanna go. I don't wan" she murmured tossing over to her side facing the balcony and the desk. I kissed her forehead and chuckled wondering what she could possibly be dreaming about. Again I tiptoed out of my room, this time with my keys, phone, and wallet in hand. Geoffrey handed me my coffee in the to-go cup at the bottom of the west side stairs as I put my sunglasses on and headed to the garage. I jumped in the Volvo and was off.

JPOVE

(Oh My Love by John Lennon)

Fucking Cullen! I had no idea how Alice really felt, hell I've been in love with that fucking girl since seventh grade. My biological mother died of cancer over winter break. It was our first day back to school and I was crying under the bleachers in the gym. She found me and allowed me to confide in her. Alice never told anyone about the hard time I was having. She just let me cry it out while she sat there silently, comforting, and…loving! AHHHH I'm a fucking idiot, she loves me!

"She loves me" I said to myself as I made my way back to her room. I crawled into her bed and wrapped my arms around her.

"mmmm where did you go?" she whispered sleepily. I kissed her shoulder and neck before resting my head back on the pillow allowing her to continue sleeping. I listened to her slow even breaths and felt her heart beat rhythmically under my arm.

I was too nervous and excited about my epiphany to fall back asleep. As soon as she woke up I would be ready to tackle this "situation" head on. I was "in it" as Edward said. And he was right I am a fucking asshole, I needed to make the past fucking year up to Alice. I had no idea. I was treating her like shit because I was a blind fucking idiot.

At 10 am she began to stir as her beautiful green eyes fluttered open.

"Jazz? You're still here?" She said through a heavy sleepy voice.

"Um yeah" I tightened my grip around her waist. "I need to talk to you" she turned to her other side to face me with a confused expression.

"About what?...wait let he brush my teeth first" her hand flew to her mouth as she giggled and hopped out of the bed. I'm usually gone by now. We've never done the morning thing before. I laced my hands behind my head and looked up at the ceiling trying to pull my nervous thoughts together.

"Ok" she sat back on her side of the bed with a beautiful smile.

"Petite I…" fuck where do I even begin "I'm an asshole" Again she looked at me confused

"uhhh ok…"

"Alice I've been in love with you since the seventh grade." Few, the rest just came tumbling out. "You are the most beautiful creature I've ever laid my eyes on. You're kind and caring, smart, funny, sexy as hell. You light up rooms with your rambunctious spirit and gorgeous smile. Now I know" a tear streamed down her face followed by another and another "that I have probably fucked up beyond repair because I was selfish and blind and stupid, but Ma Petite if you can forgive me I" before I could finish she tackled me with a kiss. Now straddling me she pulled away slightly to look me in the eyes.

"Where…what…how, I'm so confused. Happy, ecstatic but confused"

"Well, I ran in to Edward this morning…who slept with Bella by the way"

"NO!"

"Yup!"

"And he basically called me a blind douche for not realizing I was treating you like shit. And then I thought about everything and it all just clicked, we clicked."

"So what now?"

"So now…I guess… Petite, will you be my girl? Ok that was gay, please don't repeat that to anyone, I still have a reputation to uphold" She shook her cute little head yes and kissed me repeatedly bouncing up and down against my dick which was getting harder by the second. I grabbed hold of her face to really kiss her deeply. It was always more than just sex between us, but I was in denial, not wanting to see what was right in front of my face. I made love to my Alice for the first time with my eyes wide open.

A/N

So I had never intended on doing anyone elses POV, but it seemed fitting. 2 chapters of bliss, but it's not over yet! More drama to come. Grandfather Cullen has some pressing matters to discuss with young Edward. And, we'll find out more about Alice and Jasper, and Rosalie's feelings toward Emmett on the girls trip to LA. And, of course there will be some mama drama and Charlie moments. So as always stay tuned!!!

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