I don't own Twilight…

I love that everyone loved the last chapter! I was watching the film But I'm A Cheerleader (it's a dark comedy about teens that get sent to "straight camp" to make then straight lol) and I was like 'self, wouldn't it be interesting if Tanya turned out to be a lesbian' so yeah there ya go!

Moving on to this chapter…

Songs: Fuck Was I, Jenny Owen Youngs; Ice Cream, Sarah Mclachlan; Happiness Is A Warm Gun, The Beatles; Make Damn Sure, Taking Back Sunday; Girls Just Wanna Have Fun, Cindy Lauper; Dying, Hole; Girls Just Wanna Have Fun (Acoustic Cover), Greg Laswell

14 Page Six

EPOV

(Fuck Was I, Jenny Owen Youngs)

Riiiinnnnnngggg, riiiiiiinnnnnnngggggggg

"Pick up the fucking-…Alice" I groaned sleepily into the phone "What the fuck are you going on about?"

"Edward seriously, this is low even for you. When she sees that you played her she's gonna fucking flip, or jump off a building or some shit. I mean Tanya, really? It's been four years. And I thought she never even talked to you. The whole thing is bizarre and shady and I just can't believe you would do this to Bella. I really thought you cared about her. I'm ashamed-"

"Will you fucking shut up for two seconds…sorry" I sighed "I'm not fucking Tanya. She's…look it's not what you think, trust me."

"Trust you? You're hanging out with the woman who popped your cherry who's now all grown up and Miss New York City socialite and your-"

"Alice!" I groaned

"What?!"

"Please, just trust me. And keep Bella away from the fucking tabloids. I don't think she even reads that shit but I could name a few people who would make it their fucking business to point them out. Tanya is…Tanya. I don't know how else to say but it's not what you think. I'll be home Thursday before your little vacation. I promise I'll explain everything then."

"Fine. Are you in love with her, Bella I mean?"

"Yes."

"You fucking better be!"

Click

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"Wake the fuck up bitch"

"Cullen what the fuck?"

"Jasper I need you to do me a favor. You're the only one I can trust to get this shit right"

Rosalie's a bitch, Alice has a big fucking mouth and Emmett might as well be one of the fucking gossip girls. Jasper's the only person I can trust to really look out for Bella while I'm gone. Before we left the gala Tanya asked me to do her a favor. Fuck if I don't owe her my entire sexual existence. "People are starting to suspect" she said. So, I agreed to help her throw off the tabloids while I'm in town.

"Dude fuck it's…um it's…fucking 7 in the morning"

"And I let you fuck my sister"

"Touché"

"Keep Bella distracted. The tabloids caught me with Tanya last night"

"No. Man! Alice is gonna castrate me if I get involved"

"AHHH, She's a fucking lesbian bro. Tanya…it's not what it looks like at all. I'm just doin her a favor while I'm town to because Me, you, and the chick she's bangin are the only ones who know"

"AHAHAH, you're fucking with me right? T's a Lesie? The infamous Tanya-fucking-Denali licks the carpet like the rest of us. Well shit man….yeah, but what the fuck am I supposed to do?"

"I don't know take her to school, keep Alice and Rosalie's fat fucking mouths shut, distract her. Can I trust you?"

"Yeah man no worries. I'm on it. Operation keep B la petite in the dark"

*

BPOV

(Ice Cream, Sarah Mclachlan)

I sat in the dark starring up at the small cracks in my ceiling. They made odd shapes, a house, a tea pot, and eventually I found a way to connect them into Edwards face. God, I have f*ing issues. I called Alice the second I got off the phone with him yesterday and she gave me the rundown on the ambush situation…and I thought my family was fucked up. At least I have choices. I'm not held prisoner by my name at least not the way that Edward and Alice are.

"Ma petite, you have to understand. Edward is the only son of the only son. He gets everything. It's stupid and old fashioned, but it's the way it is. Up until now he's done everything to ignore or forget that fact but-"

"It's ok Alice I get it. I just feel bad for him. I know he doesn't want to be there."

"He'll be fine. I'm sure he'll be boozing it up and getting into trouble like he always does."

Great, just what I needed. An uncommitted Edward running around New York playing with my heart like it's an f*ing yoyo. I sighed, Alice must have heard it.

"He cares about you Bella. More than I've ever seen him care about anyone. He always has"

Silence

"Bella?"

"I'm here, thanks Alice. Um I gotta go I'll talk to you later"

"Don't forget to check your email. I sent you the itinerary for next weekend…and no complaining! It took me hours to make everything perfect"

"Ya-ya, I'm on it" I gave a salute to the phone and hung up. She means well, but really I was scared to even look at what she had planned for this trip which was supposed to just be me visiting Rene in rehab. I still haven't looked at it.

Later that night Edward had called me again for a very different reason…

"Heeelllooo" I had only been asleep for about an hour, but boy was it a good f*ing hour filled with flashbacks of the night before. I woke up to wet panties and Drunkward in my ear.

"Heyyy Baby, shhh Paul it's her" What the f? I sat up, and was a bit more alert when I head another drunken voice in the background.

"Edward what's going on? Where are you? Are you ok?"

"I am at the New York pent house drunk with my good friend Paul the driver" Who? As long it wasn't a girl it didn't matter. So I shrugged the other voice off.

"Um ok…" Slience. I took the phone away from my ear to check the time "Oh my gosh Edward Anthony Cullen it's 12:30 am here that means it's 3:30 there what the …"

Was he insane? I mean I know the boy likes to party but come on. And he had the nerve to call me drunk right now. Honestly I was more pissed that he was too far away to fool around with than I was at how late he was up.

"Shhhh Baby, Baby…Baby"

"Yes?!" I huffed annoyed at the situation.

"What are you wearing?" seriously Cullen? It's bad enough this bitch fills my dreams. Now he has to teases me from across the country, that's just cruel.

(Happiness Is A Warm Gun, The Beatles)

"Shut the fuck up Cullen" I chuckled softly.

"I'm dead serious! Paul just passed out, I'm walking into my room and locking the door…I just took my pants off and oomf" I heard a loud thud and a giggle before he continued "now my shirt is gone. So my beautiful sexy girlfriend, what are you wearing?" Did he just say that? Does it still count if he's drunk? Jury the verdict please…Nope, doesn't count, at least not when he's this sloshed. Wishful thinking Swan.

"Wow, girlfriend huh? I didn't know you did those Mr. Cullen" I tried to lighten the mood and my awkwardness about his drunken slip. At least this meant he was thinking about it, that's good right?

"Call me Mr. Cullen again and you can have whatever title you want"

I chuckled and thought for a moment as the ach between my legs became more painful every time his sexy ass opened that GD smoothing talking mouth of his.

"Love and Sex Goddess, Mr. Cullen" I teased "…blue lace panties and a small, tight, white t-shirt."

My hormones gave into the voice. I knew where he was going with this. Because I would blindly follow that velvet voice anywhere, I decided to lay back, put him on speaker phone, and enjoy the ride.

That was last night. Today, not so much as a text. Maybe he scared himself with his little Freudian slip…but he called me his girlfriend twice. I became more and more confused as my thoughts chased each other around in circles. Just when I thought I was getting somewhere a new thought about his cryptic behavior would join the party and they would be back to running in G-damn circles again.

I know he has friends in New York. They've all mentioned various trips and escapades in the big apple, getting quiet or awkwardly coughing to skip over the women Edward conquered during such times. I tried not to think the worst, but not hearing from him all day was really doing a number on my trust issues.

Beep beep

E- Sorry I was tied up. Thought about u all day. What ru wearing? ; )

B- Y ru still up? Sok, I missed u. perv

I rolled my eyes at the phone. This boy seriously has a one tracked mind.

E – U like my filthy fucking mouth. Miss u2. Home from the gala

I'm never gonna live that down. That's right! I forgot he had the gala tonight. Now I feel like an idiot for even considering the worst. He was at the gala with his grandfather. I'm sure he was with him all day playing perfect Cullen.

B- U tired?

E- Fuck ya! But I hadn't talked to u all day

B- Go to bed Cullen!!

E- Night beautiful

B- Gnight : )

*

"Mi Bella! Ma petit amie!"

I stood on my porch with my arms crossed and narrowed my eyes at Jasper and his fully restored sapphire blue "tricked out" 67 Corvette.

"What the hell are you doing here Jaz? And you do realize that those are two different languages right?" He rolled his eyes and leaned against the door.

"Eddie boy called and told me to come pick you up. Something about your death trap truck sucking in the rain or some shit. Which frankly now that I'm getting a good look at this POS I have to agree. B, What the fuck?"

"Stop talking shit about my baby Whitlock" I stuck my tongue out. It began to rain and as much as I hate to admit it Cheery wasn't really a weather car. So I shrugged and trekked towards his car that screamed 'pissing off parents'.

"Whatever" I sighed slipping into the passenger seat.

"So, he called you?"

"mmm what?" he was distracted scrolling through his ipod. "yeahh um, it was only a two second conversation telling me to get my sorry ass over here to pick you up or Alice would be staring at my balls in a jar instead of holding them in her mouth"

"Uh nice visual, thanks"

(Make Damn Sure, Taking Back Sunday)

"Any time…

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses
You start shaking at the thought
You are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not"

He began to sing. Taking Back Sunday? I would have pegged him as more of a classic rock kid but I love this song so I wasn't complaining. I joined in and he smiled and turned up the volume. I was positive we could be heard from outside. Jasper drove almost as bad as Edward. We were pulling into campus in record time.

By now we were in full rock out mode as he parked the car next to Alice's Porsche. She and Rosalie gracefully emerged with umbrellas, but we were too into the "muzack", as Jasper called it, to notice. The two of them stood there and stared as we banged our heads and bounced around to the beat. I hadn't had a good old fashioned rock out in a long time. I needed this. Jasper has quickly become the comic relief in my life. He never gets caught up in the drama. Instead he just spews some smart as crack about sex drugs and rock'n'roll before downing 3 more shots.

"I'm gonna make damn sure"

I screamed as loud as I could, while he screamed the second part and the song came to a close.

"Why am I not surprised" he shook his head at me and looked over towards Alice.

"Listen Bella" oh shit, here we go. Jasper has never once just called me Bella. "Edward's life is...complicated. But, I know he really cares about you so just remember that."

I smiled and watched him flip the on switch to smooth talking jokester Jasper Whitlock the ass of Kirkland prep. He took Alice's umbrella with one hand and pulled her in for a kiss with the other. I knew something was up when he left the Cullen house on Saturday morning but Alice hadn't mentioned anything new.

"Gross! Get a fucking room"

"Awe don't be jealous snow bitch. Maybe if you thawed your frigid fucking snatch out you could get a man to make out with in public to…owe! Alice no nipple pinching outside of the bedroom!"

"Fuck off Whitbitch" Rosalie sneered and clicked her heels towards the building. Alice took back her umbrella a rolled her eyes as she ran towards me.

"What did I say?" He held his hands out innocently. I chuckled at Jasper and huddled under the umbrella with Alice as we strutted into the school.

Kirkland Prep was weird without him there. Lauren and her bitch squad nearly gave me a heart attack.

"Hey Swan" Lauren called pointing her tits in my direction. I stopped dead in my tracks and turned to look at her.

"Mallory?" I said with a raised eyebrow shifting my weight to one side. This should be good.

"Your shoes where cute on Friday. What brand were they?" What the fuck? Is she serious? She pushed off of the locker they were congregated around and walk towards me.

"Prada" I answered not really sure where this was going.

"Hmm, I'll have to go shopping. See you around Bella" She over pronounced my name as if to prove that she knew it.

"What was that about?" Angela walked towards me confused.

"I honestly have no idea"

"Wow, pretty boy leaves and all social order goes to hell. I guess that just goes to show the powers of Edward Cullen"

"Mm." I mumbled from inside my locker.

Even James seemed out of sorts. When I walked into political theory he was already seated with his ibuds in his ears. As I approached my seat he glanced up and smiled like a lost little puppy. Could he actually have feelings for me? Up until last Friday I thought it was all just a game to him. I was just a tool that allowed him to get the upper hand on Edward. But when he kissed me Friday he was different. I could see it in his eyes.

I slipped him a note about 10 minutes into our class.

You ok?

I did a fake yawn to drop it on his desk behind me. I heard him chuckle. Good. If I did have anything to do with his sad mood I felt horrible and wanted to fix it. Whatever his motives he has never been anything but nice to me. I felt his finger tips gently brush my exposed forearm to get my attention.

Peachy. Where's Eddie?

I sighed before scribbling back

New York. Family business.

I knew Friday night was at least one of his issues this morning. I couldn't help it. If Edward had never of existed I could see myself happy with James. But, he does exist, for me. We were meant to be. Two unstoppable forces meant to collide.

Class ended and he dropped the note back on my desk before running out without a word.

Right

What's that supposed to mean?

Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday went down about the same. Jasper would pick me up for school and we would rock out and laugh over the stupidest things before heading in for class.

"No I'm telling you Katharine Heigl was on to something 'She's got electric boobs and combat boots you know I read it in a magazaheeein ooh B-B-B-Beni and the Jets'"

"Swan you're so wrong!" he pinched the bridge of his nose in frustration "I'm goggling that shit right now!" He pulled out his blackberry and took a sip from his flask while we waited for Alice to arrive at school on Wednesday.

Lauren and her cronies would smile whenever they passed, but by Thursday it became an 'I know something you don't' type of smile. Not interested in anything she could possibly have to say, I shrugged her off.

James hadn't said more than 4 words to me. We would exchange smiles and work together on our new group project with Emmett but actual sentences outside of class work seemed to be a no go at the moment.

Tonight Rose and I are sleeping at Alice's in preparation for our trip tomorrow. Edward is supposed to get in late tonight. 'I wonder if it would be too presumptuous for me to simply wait naked in his bed?' I thought as I sat on my porch and waited for Rosalie to come and pick me up.

HOOONNNKKK

"Dad, I'm going, I'll see you on Sunday night!" I yelled into the house.

"Alright Bells have a good time. Remember, your mom might not be herself yet so don't go in expecting the world you know. I don't want you to be disappointed."

"I know" I smiled weakly. Charlie waved to Rosalie and hugged me good bye after helping me with my suitcase.

Shocking, it began to rain as soon as I opened the car door.

"Thanks for giving me a ride Rose"

"Yeah well, I'm sick of your piece of shit messing with the Kirkland flow if you know what I mean"

I rolled my eyes and leaned back in the seat.

"So, what type or torture, I mean fun girl bondingness, does Alice have planned for us this time"

"Who cares? As long it involves a fucking martini I'm in."

…2 hours and 4 Martini's later…

"That's all they really waaaaaaant
Some fuuuuun
When the working day is done
Girls - they want to have fu-un
Oh girls just want to have fun


They want to have fun,
They want to have fun..."

We fell back on Alice's bed giggling and out of breath.

"So bitch" Rose started "What the Fuck is going on with you and Whitless?"

"Um yeah Al, you never really clarified what's going on."

"Nothing really" she shrugged and stood up to head towards the bathroom. "He asked me to be his girlfriend and I accepted" she continued in a matter of fact tone of voice before sprinting to the toilet and slamming the door shut on us.

"What!" Rosalie screamed "I knew it! You little slut! I knew you two were together!"

I doubled over in hysterics almost falling off of the bed.

"Hey Alice I'm gonna change the song." I screamed from across her ginormous room. She had a few windows up underneath her Itunes page. I switched the song to You're So Last Summer (acoustic) by Taking Back Sunday before flipping thru the tabs that were up. E! News, US Weekly, Page Six…The world stopped and moved at hyper speed all at the same time.

'Watch out Brangelina, there's a new royal couple in town. Edward Cullen was spotted with Miss Tanya Denali at last night's benefit. The two looked happy and cozy as they made their way thru the red carpet. The new couple was later spotted leaving in the same car…'

"I-…I-"

"Bella? Bella what is-, Alice!"

"I-"

"Oh NO! Bell I can explain I-" Alice ran over to us and pulled the plug on her desktop. She can explain, that means she knew.

"You knew? You knew he was seeing someone in New York? You knew he…I'm gonna be sick"

"Bella, he said it's not what it looks like and if I could just distract you he would explain when he gets back tonight."

"Yeah, it never is. Did you know?!" I looked at Rose

"No. This all the work of the bobsey twins"

"Who is she?"

My face was bright red as the hot tears began to trail down my cheeks. She was pretty. Prettier than me. Blond, tall, full figured, sophisticated, everything I'm not.

"Alice" I meant it to come out pissed and scornful, but instead it dripped out as whisper.

"Tanya Denali. She took his virginity. They never dated or anything like that. It was weird actually. He was 14 and told me they never even talked. She just pulled him into a towel closet at the country club and wham bam thank you-"

"That's enough, I get it. She was his first."

"No, No, No!" Rosalie yelled with that stab-a-bitch look in her eyes "You're his first! She might have been, but you're his first, and his only, and I'm gonna fucking murder your twin Alice!"

"I wanna go home. I don't wanna be here when…" I franticly ran around Alice's room collecting my things.

"Bella there's nobody at your house remember? Charle's out of town. And I don't want you-"

"Fine, take me to Emmett's or I'll go sleep in Rose's bed with Jasper. I don't fucking care! I just don't wanna be here anymore"

"I'll take her to Em's, you call dipshit and tell him to make his peace with God."

Alice must have agreed. I wasn't really sure. I packed my things and waited for Rose down stairs.

"Ready?"

"Rose (sniff) I slept with him. I love him. How-"

"I know" she squeezed my hand "come on I'm taking you to Emmett's. You can sleep in your room there, and your aunt and Uncle are there. You'll meet us at the plane in the morning."

I nodded through my sobs and we headed out the door followed by Geoffrey with my bags.

It was pouring, the worst I've seen thus far. It felt like a scene from a movie or book where the girls world comes crashing down under a thundering sky for added effect because her love interest turns out to be a selfish ass who will never change.

As I sat in her car my emotions began to grow from hurt to angry. He confirmed my worst fear. I meant nothing to him. Just another prize to go write about. Yeah, I know about the journal. I just never thought I would ever grace its pages.

"What kind of person can convey so much love and emotion in their eyes, the windows to their soul, and just…I feel so stupid. I knew this would happen. In the back of my mind I knew. I wanted him to be my Edward from all those years ago…so much so that I just…" I shook the memory out of my head. "But he's not is he. He's never…" I didn't finish. I gave up and leaned my head back against the seat as new tears trickled down to wash away the dried salt trail left from the old ones.

"Bella listen to me. Edward is a selfish brat. He has a shitty way of showing that he cares to his own family let alone anyone else. I blame Carlisle, but that's beside the point. My point is, you knew from the get go that this is how he is. People don't change. I mean look at me and Emmett. We want it to work out with us but I just don't trust that either of us can change enough to make it happen. Here's some tough love, the ugly truth if you will" I closed my eyes and ran my hand through my tangled hair as her pointed words sunk in. "He's never gonna get it right. If I were you, I would either accept it and play the game which I know you won't do because you're, well you, or I would just cut my losses and try to move on to a happier healthier relationship."

My eyes flew open and I stared at her with a gapping mouth unable to speak. Move on? You don't just 'move on' from the love of your life. You…well I don't know what you do but I don't foresee moving on anywhere in my immediate future.

The car rolled to a stop and I saw a big umbrella clad glob run towards my door.

(Dying, Hole)

"B! Here take this. I'll get you bags" Emmett thrusted the umbrella at me. I felt my hand reach out to take it but it was like I was watching from a distance through another set of eyes. My body seemed to be on auto pilot. The tears had dried up again and my zombied form made its way up the steps and into the house.

"I'm gonna fucking kill my best friend. He's fucking dead!" I heard Emmett boom from outside accompanied by a loud rip of thunder followed by a peaceful lightening strike.

I dropped the umbrella without closing it and walked towards the living room. The door slammed shut in the distance but I didn't flinch or turn. I kept walking until I reached the couch and I sat. Stiff and unmoving I sat and replayed everything. Every moment, every touch, every caress. He couldn't have lied. It couldn't have meant nothing. But I don't understand how he could want to voluntarily hurt me.

"Bed, I just wanna go to bed" I said standing up from the couch snapping out of my trance.

"Bella we should-"

"No" I shook my head violently "No. I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I don't want anyone else's opinions. I know what I saw in his eyes and I know what I saw on the computer screen. Until I figure things out for myself I just wanna go to bed" I was shouting. I didn't mean to, it just came out. Emmett looked at me as though he was waiting for me to self destruct. Great I look crazy, I feel crazy, I just want this fucking night to be over.

I dragged ass up the stairs to my room. I didn't bother turning on the light. The bed called my name and I willingly accepted its sweet invitation. After kicking my shoes off I laid my head on the pillow and brought my hands to my face to cry…but nothing came out. Truth be told I was more exhausted than anything else.

Falling for you falling for you, I fell for you

Edward's ring-tone, ignore.

Falling for you falling for you, I fell for you

Ignore!

BEEP BEEP

E - Please baby, just talk to me

I sat the alarm and turned the ringer off. I just can't right now. I need…space. Time to think and be sure that this is still what I want. I know I love him, but is love enough? We still have another year left of high school and then college. College, what then? Were we supposed to go to the same school and get married and have little miserable clone babies? It didn't work for Charlie and Rene that's for damn sure. We haven't even gone official yet and already we're breaking up. Maybe it's just not meant to be.

*

"yehua OH MY GOD"

"No Kyle, who are you?"

I was startled awake by a little boy peeking over my bed.

"Kyle? Is your mom Barbra?" He nodded vigorously. Barbra was aunt Patricia's sister.

"I'm your cousin Bella" I sat up and held out my hand. He studied it for a few seconds before placing his little paw in mine.

"You're pretty" I laughed as he ran out embarrassed.

Today is a new day (sigh). I looked at my phone. 10 missed calls, 3 from Jasper, and the rest were Edward's. I wasn't returning any of them because if Alice knew then that means Jasper did too.

"Coffee?"Uncle Trent handed me a mug when I finally mad my way down stairs.

"Thanks. So what's with Kyle?" I chuckled

"Kyle is visiting. And by visiting I mean destroying everything he touches and driving me insane."

"Nice." I nodded

"Breakfast?"

"Um no. Em and I gotta get going"

"Right. Be careful with the jet please. And don't give Archie a hard time. I know how you girls can be."

"No worries. Trust me, after the past few days I'm sure we'll be tame"

"Bells let's go!" Emmett yelled from the front door.

"Bye Uncle Trent" I said in a sing-song voice before kissing him on the cheek.

"Later kid. Give your mom a hug for me. Tell her I'll be up next week sometime"

Emmett's ridiculous hummer roared to life.

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

"Nope" I said popping the "p"

The Cullen Limo was waiting near the plane when we pulled up. Edward was the first one out of the car. I wasn't surprised. I was expecting him considering I've ignored all 20 of his calls.

"Do you wanna talk to him? I can push him away, just say the words."

"No it's ok. Um can you just give us a minute? Maybe go sit in the limo or something." I locked eyes with Edward who was getting soaked standing in the rain waiting for the go-ahead to get into the Hummer.

(Girls Just Wanna Have Fun (Acoustic Cover), Greg Laswell)

"It wa-wa-wasn't what it looked like" Edward stammered as he slid into the Hummer and shut the door. "C-c-can we turn on the heat it's fucking freezing?"

"Well no one told you to stand out in the rain."

"You wouldn't answer my calls."

"Yeah well-"

"She's a lesbian" he blurted out cutting me off.

"Excuse me?"

"Tanya. She's a lesbian"

"O-kay…" He proceeded to fill me in on how he lost his V-card, why Tanya did it, and how he was just helping her keep her life a secret.

"She means nothing to me. Bella, you have to be believe me" He grabbed my hand and looked as though he was about to cry. "I-"

"I believe you" I spat out before he could continue, and I did. He had no reason to lie to me and though I had many reasons not to, I just…knew. I just knew that he was telling me the truth. But it didn't change anything.

"Bella" he whispered as we leaned towards each other. His lips brushed against mine light as a feather. He tasted sweet and salty. I'm crying, that explains the salt. His delicious sent permeated the Hummer. It was a mixture of forest and musk, intoxicating. He bit my bottom lip causing them to part thus inviting his tongue inside. Because I wasn't sure when I would have this again, I let him in. I took on the kiss and threw myself whole heartedly into the passion. When we broke apart our foreheads held each other up as we desperately tried to catch our breath.

"Edward…Edward, I need time. I just…I just need some space. Some time to think about us and what I want"

"I know what I want, I want you. More than anything else in the world, I want you"

"I know. But, I need time. So, I'm gonna go and visit my mom, and I'm gonna take some time and for now we'll see what happens."

"Please don't do this. Bella, I- I lost you once. You left and I-" tears began to stream down his face. He squeezed his eyes shut to wipe them away before reopening them and looking into my own tear filled windows.

"Shhhh" I placed my palm on his scruffy cheek and kissed his lips one last time. "It'll be ok. I just need some time" Finally he conceded with a small nod.

"I'm gonna go now. Please don't come out, it'll be too hard" Without saying a word he took my hand and placed a gentle kiss on my palm. When he let it go I opened the door and stepped out.

A/N

I hope everyone likes this ending. It's been my experience that with break ups like this, It's not really over. You can't just turn off your emotions or want and need for that person and neither can Bella. They might end up together (come on it's Twilight, if you're worried then you've never actually read the whole series!) or they might not. He knows what he wants, but she's not quite there yet. Plus she's emotionally heavy at the moment considering that she's getting ready to see her mom for the first time since her last party binge so…enough explanation, I hope you enjoyed it and I will try to update soon!