Chapter Four: Hitting Girls
"Martinez!" I groan loud, I don't think anyone has come to hate their last name as much as I hate mine right now. I am seriously considering changing my name to Axel Axel, just to see if someone would finally call me by the proper name. I turn and glare down at the person addressing me, it's Roxas of course and he's grinning at me like he's just won the lottery.
I try and kill the butterflies fluttering around when he looks at me with his big blue eyes, because I just can't feel like this around him. The guy is probably doing this for the kicks of dating me, I couldn't risk actually falling for him though I highly doubt that would ever happen. He's an asshole. A very cute asshole…
"You better be at the game after school today," he says and I raise a thin red brow high on my forehead. He did not just ask me to go to a school sporting event.
"Do you pluck your eyebrows?" he asks next and I scrunch my criticized eyebrows together, before waving the question away and answering his first one.
"I'm not going to the game," I say and turn to leave; Roxas grabs my sleeve and spins me around to face him. I don't even know why I try anymore.
"Yeah you are, I'm on the field and I'm gonna fucking rock your world," he says with a smirk the devil would envy and I roll my eye skyward. I just want to go to my last class and get this day over with!
"I. Hate. Sports. You should know this, considering I am your boyfriend," I say sarcastically because I know for a fact that he knows nothing about me. I don't know why that disappoints me.
"I do know that, idiot. But you have to show your support, seeing as I am your boyfriend," he says before turning and walking in the opposite direction, probably heading towards the field. The football team always gets to miss their last class of the day before a game. Makes me wish I was even slightly talented so that I'd get to fuck around for an hour instead of being in a boring class
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Guess where I am? Yeah, I'm sitting on the cold metal bleachers watching Roxas make fools out of everyone on the field even attempting to catch him. I know I said I wouldn't show up, but I have no will power. I've always wanted to see Roxas play, I've always wanted a reason to come and sit on these bleachers and just watch him. He looks fucking beautiful out on the field, his short, muscular legs stretching as he takes quick, elegant strides to get away from all the idiots chasing him. He really is amazing, and I can see why the coach cums in his track pants every time he watches him play.
The game goes by faster then I'd like to admit, and I actually found myself getting anxious whenever the opposite team had the ball or pig skin or whatever the hell they call it. I will never admit it to anyone though; I was going to act as miserable as I could to show Roxas how displeased I was with this entire thing. Though it wasn't really as bad as I thought it would be. I watch with disgust as the cheerleaders gush and mewl after the players while they jog off the field, chanting about their victory and how utterly amazing they were. The losing team heads back to their school bus with their heads hung low in shame.
I slide off the bleacher and try to snake around the hoards of people rushing to go try and see who can brown-nose the best. It makes me slightly sick to my stomach to watch them, each person telling the team how "great" or how "fucking rad" or how "totally stellar" they were on the field. As if they don't fucking know, I doubt they need the fucking ego boosts, idiots. I scowl and quickly make my leave; I spot Kairi trying to talk to Roxas, but being ignored in favor of the Silver haired douche muncher from before who is fondling this hyper brunette. I found out Sora (which is the brunette's name) is Roxas' brother from Demyx who was in Drama with the queer-as-hell teenager in grade ten. Why Demyx shared this tid-bit of information I will never know.
I'm close to disappearing into the crowd when a scream of my god-damned last name catches my attention and I stiffen. I turn and see Roxas walking over to me, his helmet held against his side by his arm and his cheeks are flushed red because of all the running in the cold. I realize he's actually a little sweaty, his golden bangs sticking to his forehead and temples. He actually looks more then a bit high, but I'm guessing it's the post-victory euphoria people talk about. I wouldn't know, I've never won anything in my life.
"You came!" he says, for once he smiles and it's genuine. I can tell because it makes his eyes shine and my heart clenches at the sight. He is one of the most gorgeous people I have ever seen in my damn life.
"Yeah, guess I did," I say fighting my blush tooth and nail because he's still smiling at me and I really wonder why.
"I thought you wouldn't. Shows you actually care a little huh?" he says, the smile changing into a smirk and I roll my jade eyes.
"Oh yeah, I care so much about you," I say as sarcastically as possible hiding the fact that I might care a little and he just chuckles before running a hand through his hair. His eyes suddenly zero in on my nose and he looks kind of horrified. I blink, lifting my index finger up to see if there was any snot or anything but there isn't.
"What the fuck is that in your nose?" he says, and comes up close to examine my nose, he tugs on my exposed septum ring and I wince, swatting his hand away.
"It's a piercing," I say with a shrug and he looks mortified yet curious. He's twisting his head every which way and looking at the horseshoe ring from every angle.
"How come I've never seen it before?" he asks and I shrug again, pushing the ring into my nose and hiding it from his view. His eyes widen in realization.
"I have to hide it during school hours, or else they'll get on my case," I say with another shrug and suddenly Roxas is called by his team. He grabs my wrist and it hurts but I don't say anything as he drags me towards the group of cave men, I mean, jocks…But is there a difference?
"Well if it isn't the love birds!" one of them coos, all of them laughing but it really wasn't that funny. Roxas shoots the person a glare, quickly shutting them up and Sora bounces up to me, his smile is enough to blind me for a few seconds.
"Hey! You're Axel right? I've heard lots about you," he says and I stare down at him, he looks exactly like Roxas only he has brown hair and seems a little nicer though underneath it all, I could see some evil. It's kind of creepy, but he called me Axel so I like him.
"Yeah, I'm the great Axel," I say and he giggles cutely but he's quickly pulled away and into the chest of the silver haired douche that I hate so much.
"Don't you have your own Anderson to pester?" he sneers and the brunette scowls, worming out of his grasp and standing by my side with a cute little look that was supposed to be a glare.
"Riku, leave him alone! He's nice," Sora says and Riku rolls his eyes, pulling him back and that's when I realize Kairi is trailing behind Roxas like a lost puppy. I raise a brow at her but she ignores me, and instead tries to talk to Roxas again. The boy just rolls his eyes and turns to Riku mumbling something about how annoying girls could be. I watch with amusement as my sister makes a complete idiot out of herself until Roxas jabs me in the ribs and I look at him angrily.
"I'm gonna head home now, want a ride?" he asks and I shrug. I know he's going to force me into his car anyway so I just follow him. I ignore the cat-calls, the jeers and the laughter of the team as we head towards the car. There is one I cannot ignore though.
"Bring your earplugs Roxas, he's a screamer!" and I turn sharply, eyes set to kill because the person who just said that is Kairi. She's glaring at me angrily and my mouth goes completely dry. It seems that no one else heard her, or understood her well enough to actually know what she meant by that but I did. The scars on my wrist burn as she smirks at me and I just can't wrap my head around it. The fact is Kairi is a fucking bitch, and that's just about it. I see red, and by the time the colour is gone I realize I just punched Kairi in the nose and there's blood streaming through the seams of her fingers as she holds her nose and cries loudly.
"You fucking bastard!" she howls and staggers to get up, the girls in the cheer squad are screaming things at me but I don't pay attention to them. All my rage is focused on Kairi because I cannot get past the sting I feel in my chest. I always knew she was a bitch, I always knew she could be heartless and completely evil but I never imagined it to be this bad. I mean, I'm her fucking brother! Never in my life would I have done something like this to her, no matter how bad things got between us because no matter who she is or what she does she's my sister and deep down I love her.
Well not anymore, fucking heartless bitch! I feel my fist twitch and I know I'm going to hit her again.
"You fucking bitch!" I scream and throw another punch; I know she can take a hit though. She always took them from Dad easy enough. "You fucking heartless bitch!" I scream and a huge jock grabs me by the neck roughly and pushes me away from the girl who's sprawled on her back. She gets back up though without any help and glares at me heatedly; I know she wants to kill me. I can see it. She's been looking at me like that since I was eleven.
I try to breathe but I think that idiot crushed my Adam's apple, I'm on my back and Kairi comes to stand over me. The blood is slowly drying and her cheek is swollen but besides that she's perfectly fine. I glare up at her and I notice my eyes are watering; I blame it on the lack of oxygen though.
Roxas is standing a few feet away too shocked to do anything, half the football team is just staring as the scene unfolds in front of them. Kairi leans down to whisper "I hate you Axel, I fucking do," and with that she turns, walks towards the terrified cheer squad and they lead her away. The jocks are staring at me, and one looks sick.
"You're a freak," he spits and they all leave, Roxas finally walks over and he looks at me angrily.
"Why the hell did you just punch a girl? Don't you know it's wrong to hit women?" he hisses and I stand up, rubbing my neck and trying not to choke on the tears that are threatening to fall. I will not cry though, I'd rather choke to death then cry because of what Kairi said. Those memories she brought up are buried again as I slide on my mask of indifference. Roxas looks at me like he knows something is wrong, but he just doesn't care enough to press.
"Kairi isn't a girl, she's a fucking demon," I say angrily and Roxas actually swats my hand from my neck and looks at the slowly forming bruises where the huge idiot pressed into my skin.
"You bruise easy or something?" he asks completely dropping the subject of Kairi and for that I'm grateful.
"Yeah, always have," I say and I feel the bitterness dripping off my tongue and leaving a sour taste on my lips. Roxas just watches me and starts walking to his car making sure I follow. I do because I want to get home before Kairi; I want to tell Reno that I punched her before he sees the damage himself. I groan as I climb into the passenger seat and let my head smack into the dashboard.
"He's gonna fucking call her, I know he is," I mumble to myself quietly because after Reno see's the way I lashed out at Kairi he's going to send me back to Aerith, that god damned social worker.
"Who's going to call who?" I realize Roxas got around the large car a lot faster then I anticipated and he heard my crazy grumbling. I sit up straight and click on my seatbelt, completely ignoring his question as he starts up the gas-guzzler and pulls out of the lot.
"You're really fucked up, you know that?" he says as he drives, he's a good driver, attentive to the road and obeying the laws. Even when he speeds up, I don't feel my heart jack hammering into my ribs like it used to when my father would drive. I feel…safe in his car.
"Yeah, I know," I sigh and rest my forehead against the cool glass; I can feel a killer migraine forming slowly behind my eyes and spreading over my brain like a nice tight blanket.
"What the hell is wrong with you? You're acting all weird," Roxas groans and shoots a look at me from the corner of his eye. I don't want to act affected by the things Kairi says, but it's so hard to just ignore the blow after it's dealt. You know, it's like when someone punches you in the face and you try to ignore the pain but it's there and it's not going away no matter how much you don't want to show that it hurts.
"I'm fine, just take me home," I say quietly and it must shock him into silence because he doesn't say anything, he just drives. I'm glad he stops talking; I probably would have started to actually cry if he kept pestering me. He stops in front of my apartment and I climb out of the car, when I turn to close the door I look at him and he's watching me strangely. I send him a weak smile and his eyes widen.
"Thanks for the ride," I say and he seems so confused for a second but then he just smirks and flicks his blonde hair out of his eyes. I notice he's still in his foot ball gear.
"Thanks for showing up, and you owe me a kiss," he winks at me and I feel my throat clenching as I step on the ledge of the car and heave myself over the passenger seat and peck him on the cheek. I smirk as I pull away and shut the door. He rolls his eyes but I see a faint smile tugging at his lips as he reverses and merges back to the street with the other cars. I realize that I'm starting to like him even more then I did before, and that really fucking sucks.
I walk quickly up the few steps and head upstairs to my apartment. I know Reno's home, as I approach the door and see the light from underneath. I unlock it and slowly push it open, my heart's pounding hard because I know once Kairi walks in with her face all black and blue Reno's going to call Aerith again and I'm going to have to go back to those horrible sessions. I take a deep breath and walk in, closing the door softly and heading towards the kitchen where he usually is, eating or something.
"Yo squirt…Axel? Are you okay?" he says and gets up when he sees my face, I must look pretty angry or something, I'm not really paying attention. Reno slides off the kitchen chair and comes over to me, gripping my shoulder and giving me a rough shake.
"Yo, Axel?" he says again and I pull away, turning and walking out of the kitchen.
"I punched Kairi in the face," I say as I quickly hurry to get into my room but Reno's always been faster then me. He grabs my arm and tugs me back, I dully note that everyone these days can freaking pull me around easily.
"What?" Reno asks his eyes wide as he stares at my face, seeing I'm completely serious. The front door opens and Kairi steps in, Reno sees her face and lets go of me going directly towards her and she throws her arms around him, sobbing like a fucking drama queen. She didn't cry at school.
"R-R-Reno, h-h-he punched me," she says burying her face in his chest and he looks at me over his shoulder, I'm glaring at Kairi because she's so fake that I don't even know what to do about it. I want to light her hair on fire, I want to spit on her, I want to fucking punch her again.
"Axel…Kairi calm down…" Reno seems torn between being angry with me and hearing the story first. I stare at Kairi as I decide to tell Reno what happened but she beats me to it and looks up at my brother. Putting on her best I'm-a-poor- helpless-little-angel face and it's the fucking court case all over again.
"He just came at me after the foot ball game, I-I-I don't even know why!" she says and I see her trembling. Someone give the girl a fucking Oscar, this is too much! She always manages to make me seem like a lying sack of shit.
"You lying bitch! You know perfectly well why I punched you!" I scream and Reno shoots me a look, cradling her head against his chest protectively. I feel my heart clench at the sight, and I realize Kairi is peaking from her spot with a cruel smirk on her lips. I feel a million times angrier and I stomp right over to them until I'm standing nose to nose with Reno.
"She's fucking lying! I wouldn't just hit her for no reason!" I say, my voice low and the hatred for that fucking bitch is clearly visible. Kairi hiccups and sniffles from some where a few inches below me and Reno is staring at me like he doesn't know who to believe.
"What's your reason then?" he says and his tone hurts me because he's usually so cool and seeing him go on this maturity mode makes me really wish mom was still here.
"She…she fucking brought it up!" I hiss and Kairi pulls away from Reno's chest and looks at me, I can see the disgust on her face but Reno can't cause she's standing with her back to him.
"Get off it Axel, we all know it was just a lie! You ruined our family with your lies!" she yells and I lunge at her, Reno moving quickly to stop me. My teeth are bared and I feel the tears welling up in my eyes as I fight harshly against Reno's grip but he's fucking strong. Why is everyone stronger then me?
"FUCK YOU KAIRI, FUCK YOU!" I scream and I'm hysterical at this point, I'm chocking on tears that I can't stop and she's glaring at me, her fake tears dried as my real ones suffocate me.
"You know it's true," she whispers and I see the hate in her eyes, as she's blaming it all on me all over again and I can't fucking take it!
"Kairi, get to your fucking room!" Reno screams and the girl is momentarily shocked. She looks at me seeing the damage done walks past us coolly, completely unfazed by the fact that she just wreaked havoc on my mental state and locks herself in her room. I stare at the door, with every intention of going over there, splintering the wood and wringing her neck.
"Axel, calm down yo," Reno says, his grip still tight, but I know he'll let me go if I stop looking so rabid. I take a deep breath, exhaling through my nose and I feel a little better, though if Kairi were to appear I know I'd be ready to kill her in ten seconds flat.
"Now tell me what the hell happened," he says and I remember when we were smaller for some reason. It seems so long ago, but I remember it now as I look at him. Ever since… things happened he had to grow up, and he never wanted to grow up this fast. He's only 21 and he already has to take care of two kids alone. I remember how he used to be, and now there are only fragments of that left. I feel something inside of me twist at the sight of his tired face.
"I'm sorry," I whisper and look down. If there's anything Axel Martinez cares about at all, it would be Reno and my friends, I'd say my family but all I have left is Reno and my mom and she isn't here.
"For what, bro?" Reno says, and his smile is tired and I really wish he could just go live his life.
"For fucking up," I say bitterly and Reno shifts on the couch, I know he's always been uncomfortable when it came to giving advice or even listening to problems so I stop myself and look away.
"Ax, I think I should call Dr. Aerith," Reno says quietly and I bit my lip to stop myself from lashing out at him. I don't want to go back to her; I don't want to deal with any of this anymore.
"Fine," I say and stand up, but Reno stops me, staring up at me expectantly.
"Why'd you deck her in the face?" he asks and I sigh, dropping back onto the couch and staring straight.
"I did it because she called me…a screamer, and no one else knew what she meant by it but I did Reno…and I just lost it, alright?" I say and he places his hand on my shoulder, looking directly at me and even if it's a small gesture it means a lot to me.
"You're pretty fucked up Ax," he says and I go to get up but he stops me again, shaking his head "I don't say that to hurt you, stop being so damn sensitive. What I mean is that you need this help, and you're gonna get it, you keep waking up with those…night terrors and now you almost broke Kairi's nose," he looks at me and I see he's completely serious about this and that means no one is going to change his mind. I nod and he gets up, heading to the kitchen and grabbing the phone. I groan but he just chuckles as he dials the number he's actually memorized.
"Can I go to my room?" I say and he nods, holding the phone with his shoulder and I walk past him, stopping at the door frame "Just…tell me when the appointment is," I say and he nods again and I leave and head to my room.
This is all Kairi's fault I conclude, I mean; if she would have just kept her mouth shut I would have never hit her. I plop onto my bed and my body feels drained, today was way too long and I just want to sleep for years!
I hear my cell phone ringing and I figure it's Demyx seeing as he's the only one who'd ever call me. I answer it with a bored "Yes?"
"Hey there," and it's Roxas talking instead of Demyx, there's a few sounds in the background but I ignore them and focus on the question of why the hell is he calling me?
"Why are you calling me?" I ask and there's a few snickers in the background, I'm not sure if it's him laughing or someone else.
"Can't I call my beloved?" he asks and again the snickers. It's starting to get on my nerves and I clutch the small phone tightly.
"No, you can't. Leave me alone," I hiss and Roxas makes a shocked sound, then he's laughing like crazy and I'm almost sure there's someone else on the other side with him.
"Awe but Axel," he says, and he holds the 'L' in my name for a few extra seconds "I miss you! I mean, you were being such a prick on the drive home, I never even got my good-bye hand job!" he says snickering and I feel my face go completely red.
"What are you talking about?" I ask angrily, he's making it seem like I always fucking jack him off when he drives me home.
"Aww, always so shy Axel," he laughs and I know for a fact there are other people there because along with his laugh, I hear others. I also take note of the slur in his voice, is he drunk…on a weekday? Wow.
I vaguely wonder why I don't break up with him, he's such a major fucking douche-bag but I feel my heart race when he starts talking though I'm not paying attention. His voice alone brings the butterflies back, and I can picture his face in my mind's eye, so perfect and I've wanted this since the moment I saw him. I don't think I've even liked anyone like this in my entire life. I groan loudly because I know that no matter how shit awful he treats me, I wouldn't have the guts to break up with him. I couldn't just stop my supply of kisses or touches; I've wanted them for so long. I had been ignored by him for 3 years, and now he noticed me. I'm not going to throw that away, even if it does make me seem a little pathetic, this is probably the best thing that's happened to me in years.
"What's the matter Axel? Getting a little hot under the collar?" Roxas says referring to my groan in one of the most seductive voices I've ever heard in my life, the tone alone makes heat pool right under my belly button.
"N-n-no," I stutter like a complete jackass and I hear Roxas laughing with his friends, at me. I swallow thickly and before I can say good-bye he's talking again.
"It's okay Axie-Kins, don't be so shy! What happened to your bite and that entire tough guy act you have at school?" he asks and I can hear the smirk in his voice. I glare at the wall.
"It isn't an act, now I have to go…I'll see you tomorrow," I say quickly and hang up before he can say anything else and keep me on the line making myself look even freakier then usual. I push my face into my pillow and start the process of trying to suffocate myself, pulling up and gasping when the need for air gets to be too much. If you're wondering what the fuck I'm doing, I couldn't even tell you. It's just that ever since I was little, holding my face into a pillow and holding my breath until my lungs ached always helped me relax. After all these years, it still works.
My room door opens and I pull away from the pillow gasping for air and staring at Reno. He has an eyebrow raised high on his face, almost disappearing into his hair line, but he knows what I'm doing so he just ignores me gaping at him like a creep.
"You have an appointment on Friday, now get your ass our here and eat," he says and walks away leaving my door open. I sigh and get up, feeling a lot calmer and knowing that if I see Kairi, I'm not going to try and stab her with a kitchen utensil.
I realize today is Thursday, and I wonder why Reno just didn't say tomorrow. I shrug to myself and walk out into the dinning room. Kairi isn't there and I smile, Reno must have told her to stay in her room. I sit down in front of my food and start pushing things aside until I see Reno and he tosses me a box of my chocolate milk. I smile brightly as I stick the straw in, I hear him chuckling and I look up.
"I swear that's the only thing that makes you happy, yo" he says and I roll my eyes just drinking the milk. I like kissing Roxas so much cause he kind of tastes like chocolate, okay that's part of the reason.
"It tastes just how mom used to make it," I say and Reno goes quiet, before sitting and drinking his own milk box.
"Yeah, it kind of does," he says and we smile before finishing dinner in silence.
A/N: Ahh, I've been so busy these last couple days!
This one is for you Jenny!
Anyways, enjoy some Nose Milk ;D
and wonder wtf is wrong with Martinez, lol.