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Mikan's POV

I went to my uncle's office to see him dressed in black as well. "Good morning oji-san."

"Good morning Mikan are you alright? You seem tired."

"I'm fine please don't worry about me. May we go now?"

"We'll teleport."

I nodded and then we went to the graves.

Natsume's POV

What exactly happened last night? I was trying to get Sakura from going t out. But then suddenly I was knocked out.

Flashback

"Natsume, Are you alright," asked Ruka.

"What the happened?"

"You were found near the back door unconscious."

"Where's Sakura?"

"I don't know, she left somewhere in the middle of the play. Why?"

"No reason."

Then Naru jumped in the room wearing ballerina outfit. "Good morning my darlings! Thanks for a successful play! So it's a free period today."

"Sensei, where's Sakura," asked Imai.

"Um… she's just out for today so you can ask her tomorrow."

Then he skipped out of the room. Hmm… wonder where she could be?"

Mikan's POV

We bowed and put the essence in the pot. The Oji kneeled in front of the graves.

"My little brother and sister in law please continue to watch over us from heaven. I promise that I'll continue to watch your daughter."

Then Oji put some chocolate bread on the graves and stood up. "I'll go down first and wait for you. You must have a lot to say to them."

Then he went down the hill. "Mamma, Daddy it's been a while. "

I broke down crying. "I'm really sorry about what happened. I understand everything. It's all my fault. If I could make it so I wasn't an Alice I would. If I just knew how to control my power before you wouldn't be like this. If I could do anything to change the past I would. If I died instead of you… If I could bring you back… " Every word I said the tears grew.

"Would you really," asked a voice.

I wiped my eyes so I could see better then turned around to see a middle aged man with black hair and eyes. The AAO's president. "If you had the chance to revive your parents would you?"

"Yes."

"Then work for me. I'll give you the Alice stone that has the Alice of life and two people to transfer their life span into your parents."

"I refuse to work for you."

"Then wouldn't it be best for you just to die?"

He left before I could say anything. If I die… maybe I'll be forgiven. I made a knife then stabbed myself in my leg. I winced in pain. Then I pulled the knife out of my leg and stabbed one of my arms.

HSP's POV

Mikan's taking a long time. I would at least see her come down the hill by now. I decided to see what was keeping her. When I finally got back on the top of the hill I saw Mikan holding a knife toward her chest with her clothes were stained by blood, her leg was flooding with blood as well as her arm. Then she moved the knife closer to her chest. I ran to her and push the knife so it hit her shoulder.

"Mikan, what were you trying to do? You could've died!"

She didn't answer instead she pulled the knife out of her shoulder and tried to stab her chest again. I took the knife from her hands. "Stop that. Your parents wouldn't want you to do this."

"Mama and Daddy… I want to go where they are if I can't then at least I don't have to live carrying this sin. Oji onegai! Let me go through with this," she pleaded.

Her eyes… they're sad, pleading, with tears. I've never seen her like this. But I can't let her die. I teleported us back to my office. When there she formed a knife and tried to stab herself. But I threw the knife away from her. She kept desperately trying to form sharp object to pierce herself. Then I opened a box on my desk which contained control devices. I locked two on her wrist. She tried to take them off with no success. Then I put more devices on her ears, neck, and ankles. Good thing that only the person who put them on could them off.

"Mikan, what happened to you back there?"

She didn't answer and tried to rip the devices off. Then she finally gave up. "Oji I can no longer live with myself. So I wanted to kill myself to at least try to repay my sin. That is all I can do."

"Mikan, your parents wouldn't have wanted you to do that."

"How would you know? They're dead because of me! Wouldn't you be glad to get rid of me? Jii-chan would be happy!"

She fell crying. While crying she slowly fell unconscious because of the blood loss. I called for Nobara. The door opened. "You wanted me sir?"

"Nobara can you take Mikan back to her dorm and stay with her?"

"What happened to her? She's covered with blood."

"She tried to kill herself. I don't know what happened. We were just visiting her parents' graves."

"She can't go to school like this tomorrow."

"She's going to be like this for about a week. Please just stay with her until she's not as suicidal."

"I got it."

Then she left with my niece to her dorm. Mikan, what's wrong? It's not like you to suddenly break down.

Nobara's POV

Mikan-chan. When we were at her dorm I changed her clothes to a black two piece pajama set.

"Nobara, please let me die," a hoarsely voice pleaded.

"Mikan-chan."

Then she fell unconscious once more. I found a first aid then cleaned, disinfected, and patched up her. Then set her in bed. I'll make sure to take care of her. That's what friends are for.

A few days later.

Mikan-chan still hasn't woken up. Maybe it was all the blood she lost? Then there was a knock at the door. I opened it to reveal a little girl with short lilac hair in the elementary school uniform holding a small bouquet of flowers.

"Miku, you're visiting Mikan-chan again?"

"Hai, Noba-nee-chan. I want to make sure that Onee-chan is going to be better."

She came in the room and put the flowers in a vase next to Mikan. "Mikan-onee-chan please get well soon I have a lot to tell you."

She's a really sweet child. I took out a batch of cookies that had just finished baking. They're still a little too hot. I cooled them down to the perfect temperature.

"Miku, do you want some cookies?"

"Hai!"

She ran in the kitchen part of the dorm. I set down a plate of cookies and two glasses of milk. She started eating them happily.

Meanwhile Hotaru's POV

Baka! Baka! Baka! Baka!

I kept hitting Narumi with my ultra strong Baka gun. Mikan hasn't been here ever since the play.

"Where is she? Answer the question and I'll stop hitting you."

"I don't- ouch- know- ouch- where- ouch- Sakura is."

"Hotaru why don't we go visit her dorm," suggested my money making boyfriend. I love him but I also love money. Can you blame me?

"I tried but the ice princess didn't let me. She kept saying she's not there."

"Did you get Natsume to come with you? She's scared of him."

"He said that he didn't care even if I blackmailed him."

"Um… Hotaru maybe you should stop."

I looked at Narumi he wasn't moving. "Don't worry he's still alive."

Them Ruka went to Hyuuga. "Natsume why don't come visit Mikan with us?"

"No."

Then Narumi raised his head. "Natsume-kun can you deliver Sakura's assignments to her? You are her partner and it would be bad if she falls behind."

"You do know you're talking about someone who's solved a difficult math equation with one look," I said.

"Still…"

"Fine."

Then he handed Hyuuga a small stack of paper. "Good luck!" And with that he jumped out of the door.

"So let's go I need to burn Naru after this."

We nodded and went to the dorm next to his. Then knocked. A little girl opened the door.

"Who are you," she asked tilting her head. A control earring gleamed.

"Miku who is it?"

Then the ice princess can to the door. "N-Natsume what are you doing here?"

"We're here to see Sakura," he said with a glare.

"Um… she's not h-here. S-so can you leave?'

"Then let us see the inside of her dorm," Ruka said.

"Mikan-onee-chan is sleeping."

Then the ice princess picked the girl up and closed the door.

Nobara's POV

"Miku, why did you say that?"

"Cause its true."

"Miku don't say anything about Mikan to people you don't know."

"But I know the person holding the papers. He's from ability classes."

Okay breathe Nobara. I've got an idea. Then I reopened the door to see 3 pissed off people.

"She's sleeping," the girl asked in disbelief.

"She's unconscious in the hospital. So she's sleeping."

"Then why did my brother who works at the hospital say that she's not there?"

"Um…"

"And why are you here then?"

"Can I please get a word in?"

They nodded. "Well, I thought that she was in hospital and I am here because I'm… watering her plants."

"And the girl," asked Natsume.

"I have a name."

"Well, Miku is here to play."

"Can we go inside?"

"No, it's one of Mikan's rules. No one can go in unless she wants you to."

Then Natsume dropped the pile of papers in my hands and walked away. Then I closed the door before I said, "Good bye."

I set the papers on the table. Then I went to go check on Mikan and checked the blood. There were a few nasty marks. I put on the medicine and rewrapped her. Mikan… wake up soon.

At Night Mikan's POV

I wake up to silence. It's night. How long have I been sleeping? I got out of bed and noticed that Nobara was sleeping peacefully on the couch. She must have been taking care of me. I touched me wrapped shoulder. Then went in the bathroom to make sure my contacts were in place and went to my balcony. It's really peaceful at night. Then I heard a sound.

"Hyuuga what brings you here?"

I turned around to see Hyuuga on my balcony. Why is he here? He didn't answer and it looked like he was examining something.

"When did you have so many control items?"

"I always have control items I just make them invisible."

"Where have you been?"

Since when does he care? "None of your business. I'll be going to school tomorrow."

"The wounds."

I noticed that I was careless because my arm bandaging showed. I covered them with my hand.

"Who are you?"

It was shocking to see him talk this much but what shocked me even more was the question. "Obviously I am Sakura Mikan. Why are you asking so many questions?"

"Because you interest me. You're cold but smile for Nobara. You changed Nobara so she is more confident. You're strong. You have a flat chest and you wear a polka dot bra."

Polka dots? I looked down the top part of my bra was showing. "Perverted bastard."

"Not my fault if you show me."

"Can you go? I just woke up and I don't feel like dealing with you."

Then he went toward me and softly kissed me on the cheek. Before I could hit him he jumped on his balcony and went in.

Why did he do that?

Next morning

I was cooking some breakfast for Nobara. Now that I think about why have I been eating in the cafeteria? Oh yeah I'm lazy. Then Nobara walked in.

"Mikan- chan when did you wake up?"

"Well I've been up for a while and I thought that I would make us some breakfast," I said then put the plates down. She sat down and took a bite of the omelets.

"It's really good."

"Happy to hear that."

"Miku will be so happy to know that you're awake."

"She's been coming?"

"Almost everyday. She really likes you Mikan."

When we were done eating it started raining. Then Nobara headed to her class as I headed to mine. Both of us had umbrellas in our hands.

Classes Still Mikan's POV

Right when I sat down Koizumi can up to me. I ignored her. But sadly she had to speak.

"I know who you are."

I put my book down and looked at her. "Yes I'm Sakura Mikan and you are Koizumi."

I started to read again but she took my book. "I know that you murdered your parents and how your Grandpa hates you. I had my dad get your information."

I looked around the chattering around us had stopped everyone was listening. "You're a murder. Your parents protected you from your own flames and they died. Your grandpa hated you after that. "

I continued to say nothing."You don't deserve your uncle's kindness. You don't deserve to be in this school. You don't even deserve to be alive. Bitch. You call me a bitch but at least I haven't killed anyone."

I looked at Hotaru. "Mikan is that true?"

"Yes all of it is true. So do us all a favor and die you fucking bitch."

Then Naru hopped in the room with another gay costume. "Good morning my beautiful students! Sakura-san you're finally back!"

Then I stood up and walked to the window and jumped out the building. "Sakura class just started!"

I made myself invisible and ran under the rain. Then I came to a sakura tree and cried for what seemed to be forever.

Natsume's POV

There is something that I never expected. She's a murder?

"Well free period!" Then Naru skipped out of the room. Imai stood up and walked over to Luna then slapped her.

"How dare you hit me!"

"Liar, Mikan didn't kill anyone."

"You still believe that? She doesn't even treat you as a friend anymore and you protect her. I bet that you knew about that and never told her."

"Shut up."

"Which is why she doesn't like you."

"Shut up."

"Imai even though some people call you smart you're really dumb."

"Shut up!"

"Shut up both of you," I said coldly.

They both looked at me. "Natsume-kun you believe me right," Luna asked in a gross cutely voice.

"Wrong bitch. I rather believe that Anna would become Goth before I believe you."

I walk out of the room to my tree.

Mikan's POV

"Mikan are you okay?"

I looked up. It was Mitsukai holding an umbrella. I stood up with tears still covering my face and hugged her.

"Mitsukai it really hurts!"

She allowed me to cry and patted my back while saying, "Let it all out. It'll be okay."

When I finally calmed down she asked, "Mikan, do you wanna go to the store?"

I nodded. Then we left the tree. When we got to the store Mitsuki greeted us with towels. Then she got tea as I changed out of my wet clothes. When we got settled we started talking.

"Feel better," Mitsuki asked as she handed me a cup of tea.

I nodded. "Mikan explain what happened."

I told them everything. Starting from when I went to the graves. I don't know why through. Was it because we were friends or because I need to talk about it? It took a while for one of them to response.

"Mikan I think that you aren't a murder."

I looked at Mitsukai. "But I…"

Mitsuki cut me off. "You were young how were you suppose to know that your Alice can be used in your sleep?"

"But it was still my fault."

"That may be true but, for you to go to the AAO just to revive them… You made the right choice not to go. Your parents probably don't want you to die. I think that they forgive you. They did save your life didn't they?"

"Yes but I still feel the guilt. I feel like I don't deserve to live."

"Mikan everyone has a right to live. But of course there are some people who don't have that right but that's not you."

I… have the right… to be alive. Then Mitsukai spoke.

"Mikan, do you want to go back to school?"

I shook my head. Then Mitsukai got a phone out. "Then we should at least tell your uncle."

After talking to Oji about this he said that I don't have to go to school because I have the highest grades. Mitsuki went go work on something while Mitsukai stayed and talked with me.

"Hey Mikan what were you like in the past?"

"Cheerful, happy, annoying, and always immature. Then I found out that I was the cause of my parents' death and changed into this."

"Is that so? Well no one came imagine that you were like that before."

"Yeah."

"Mikan can you answer my next question being completely honest?"

"I guess."

"How do you feel about Hyuuga Natsume?"

How do I feel about him? He's annoying and perverted. But… he can be kinda nice once in a while like last night. I felt my face starting to burn.

"Mitsukai what did you ask Mikan," Mitsuki said with a dark aura around her.

She looked back and forth at both of us. Then took a deep breath.

"I want to make sure he's alive," I said softly.

Mitsuki looked confused. Then glared at her younger sister who cowered in fear.

"Mikan is a kind person."

I looked up at her. "You are kind because you're doing everything you can so that no one has to die. You are never going to be cruel because you think of others before yourself."

"Thank you that's the first kind thing anyone said to me for a long time."'

"Now I have a favor to ask of you. Can you put on some of outfits and model them for Mitsukai? They're for next week's new outfits."

"It's the least I can do for what you did for me today. But no long skirts."

"Don't worry the only outfits that are like that are the gowns that aren't even done yet."

Then Mitsuki went back to work while Mitsukai was examining each outfit I tried on.

Natsume's POV

I sit at my sakura tree to try to not get wet by the rain. Where is that girl anyway? I would have thought that if she gone anywhere then it would be here. Wait why do I care? Now that I think about it why did I kiss her on the cheek last night? Then I went to sleep without knowing it.

"Hyuuga… Wake up if you continue to sleep here."

I opened my eyes to see Mika-Sakura in front of me wearing jeans with a purple belt, black jacket and boots. She was also holding a black umbrella. Her hair was also undone and wet.

"Unless you're planning on catching a cold, then you shouldn't sleep here."

"Polka I'm touch I never thought that you would care."

She twitched in anger. "You pervert."

"Again it's not my fault you showed me."

"What are you doing here anyway?"

I didn't say anything. "Well later then."

She walked away. She is a really interesting girl. She's pretty, smart, and powerful. But she refuses to smile and let anyone really close to her. I closed my eyes and kept wondering what kind of person she was before. Then something was thrown at me. I opened my eyes again to see Polk- Mika- I mean Sakura in front of me again and an umbrella in my lap. Then I felt warmer. I touch my arm that was wet dried. I gave her a questioning look.

"You shouldn't use your Alice for useless things like drying yourself. That's it."

She left once more. She really is interesting. I opened the umbrella and held it above me. She's cold yet kind in the weirdest of ways.

Mikan's POV

It's because I don't want anyone else who has a reason and a will to live. That's why I did that. Even through they said I have a right to live but I don't have a will to live. But I can't do anything with these control items on me or I won't because of the pain it gives me.

I went to my uncle's office. He was surprised and happy to see that I've come well and not suicidal.

"Hello Oji. I'm really sorry for the way I acted last time. "

"Just don't scare me like that again."

"Oji you sound like a worried mother. But there's a reason I came. I have to do a mission tonight so can you take me control items off?"

"Of course."

He gestured for me to come closer and removed all of my items except for a few control earrings. Probably so I won't destroy anything in case I went ballistic again.

"By the way I'm not going to classes for a week or two. Later."

Before he could say anything I left. What shall I do for the next few weeks? I headed toward my dorm and at my door I saw Miku.

"Miku, what are you doing here?"

She looked at me then ran to hug my legs. "Mikan-nee-chan you're better!"

I patted her head. "I'm sorry to make you worry Miku."

She looked up at me excitedly. "I have so much to tell you!"

'The let's go inside my dorm and drink some hot coco while you tell me."

Natsume's POV

I felt someone kicking my foot. I looked at them. It was the pink streaked twin.

"I thought you were unconscious for a second."

"What do you want," I asked in a go away before I burn you tone.

"I just wanted to know if you were going go to the masquerade in a couple of weeks."

I raised one of my eyebrows in question. "No."

"Why not?"

"Don't wanna."

"Can you say at least more than two word sentences?"

"I'm not going."

"Three words, amazing. You know you should."

She left without another word. To tell the truth I am going to the thing. But I am not wearing a suit probably. The girl ran back at an amazing speed.

"You are going! Onee-chan has a suit you can wear."

Then she pulled me to her shop. I'm going to kill this girl. "Kill me and Onee-chan will tell Mikan that you like her."

Shit! Did she read my mind? "Yes I did. We're back!"

We were in a shop that was designed with ice. The other twin popped out. "I'll go get the suit."

What did I get myself into? She came out with a simple tux with a red tie. "Wait! I never said I'll go or wear a suit."

They looked at each other. "You never said that-"

"But you thought it. Mitsukai has a mind control Alice so she can read your thoughts-"

"Put thoughts in and out. Still can't believe that you like Mikan."

"When did I think that?"

"Costumes."

"Mikan."

"In a dress."

"With her hair down."

"I never thought that."

"No but-"

"You basically implied-"

"That you did."

"Do you two always do that?"

"Not always," they said at the same time.

"Putting that aside you're going right," Blue asked.

"I guess. Why?"

"Because Masquerades are always fun and who knows you might find the person you'll love forever."

"Doubt that she's going."

"But you might find someone that you like even more."

She brought the suit closer to me. "Fine how much?"

"Free and comes with a mask."

The other rushed to find it and eventually came out with a red mask with a painted black flame.

"Isn't bad to give things away for free?"

"No we always mange. "

She got a bag out and neatly put everything in then handed it to me. These two are really weird but nice in a bizarre way.

"Is that a good thing or a bad thing?"

I shrugged. "Good I guess."

At night Normal POV

Mitsukai was looking blankly at nothing.

"Mitsukai, what's wrong?"

"Nothing Onee-chan I just can't help but think that I may have endangered Mikan even more."

"Well we can't do anything about it. They were already starting to fall for each other, we just gave them a push. But she is going to go through some challenges. Some might change her forever."

Moon: One really long chapter. I think it's about three chapters worth of reading. Well hope you enjoyed. R&R!