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Warnings: yaoi, suicide attempts, ALTERNATE UNIVERSE! RAPE!
Pairings: GaaNaru, SasuNaru, and more
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto
"talking" English
"talking" japanese
Chapter Three
Naruto woke with his alarm going off, he felt and arm draped across his stomach, and he knew it wouldn't belong to Sasuke, turning his body. He came into sight of blazing crimson hair.
He wanted to stay in that bed, it felt so warm and comforting, but he was dirty now. He didn't want to taint the red hair. Getting himself ready, he looked back at empty pools of blue. Lifeless. He no longer wanted to live, he had nothing to live for. Sasuke was what he lived for, his father is what he lived for. Now he lost both of them, it was his fault, it had to have been.
Naruto returned to the bed room, he wouldn't let people know that he was hurting anymore. He would hide, he would drown himself in something. What though, he didn't work enough. School. He was good at math, but he was okay at the other subjects. He would be come the best at school. For now at least.
He woke Gaara, "time for school, sleepy head" Naruto smiled brightly. Gaara was slightly confused, he figured wouldn't want to go to the same place that had Sasuke with a 50 foot distance.
"Are you sure you want to go? We can stay here." He suggested. Naruto just smiled, it didn't seem real.
"Why wouldn't I want to go? I have work I need to catch up on, with what I missed this last week. I need to go," he stated firmly. Gaara said nothing after that, got dressed, and both headed for the good walk to school.
To everyone it seemed like nothing had happened, but two knew better than that. They watched carefully, but nothing seemed amiss. They figured it was his way of coping, although not a good way. They didn't bother him with answers.
Naruto worked hard at school, got top grades on all his tests. Teachers praised the hard work, but it fell on death ears, Naruto would berate himself to try harder. He had to have perfect scores.
Naruto studied harder than anyone, memorizing, reworking, rewriting. Everything had to be perfect. It even started to effect his home life. His apartment was spotless. He got commended at work for being one of the best employees the owner ever had. He did his best at everything. He never broke, never showed a weakness.
He wasn't Naruto.
-GaaNaru-
Naruto walked into his last period of the day, math. He smiled a giant smile, that seemed to never leave his face. He still sat in front of Sasuke, but Sasuke was dead to him now. Naruto didn't even know the name Sasuke anymore. Setting about to get his stuff ready for class, he worked out more problems before Iruka would walk in.
Gaara came in and sat next to Naruto, they started up a small conversation. Naruto smiled through the entire thing.
"I'm worried about you Naruto, you've been working really hard, you should take a break sometime."
Naruto shrugged him off, "don't worry, I'm fine, and so are my grades now."
Gaara left it at the that, the last he badgered Naruto he didn't talk to him for a week, he didn't want that. Naruto had to be in his life.
Iruka walked in, "Pop quiz" every groaned, but Naruto. He thought he would be ready for this test, with as much as he practiced.
"You'll fail," came a voice. Naruto whipped around and Sasuke had his head on his desk. He was asleep, but it sounded so much like him.
Naruto trembled as the paper was handed back to him. He looked at it, he couldn't figure anything out. He knew he could do this problems, he had done hundreds before, he panicked.
He pulled at his hair, nothing made sense. It was all confusing, the numbers blended and meld together, he couldn't read anything. He couldn't breathe, he gasped. He had to get out side. There was air there.
Jumping from his seat he bolted out of the room. Gaara was seconds behind him.
Naruto ran through the door almost taking them off the hinges, he didn't notice. He kept running, running to the only place where he could be himself. Home.
He tore down the street, dodging cars, and people. He struggled with his keys still gasping for breath. Numbers ran across his eyes, finally opening the door. Everything went black.
"Naruto!" Gaara yelled after him, running up the broken steps. He saw Naruto on the ground in front of his apartment passed out with the keys in the door lock. He checked over Naruto, he was completely fine.
Sitting beside the fallen form, he caught his breath. He finally made a decision to get Naruto in his apartment. He hadn't been in it, since the last time. A time he didn't want to remember.
Compared to that time though, it was a model apartment.
-GaaNaru-
Gaara watched as Naruto slept, it wasn't peaceful, it was pain filled. Naruto shook and trembled, Gaara didn't know what to do. Gaara found himself in the corner of the room. He always went to the corner, but only when he couldn't figure out what to do, when he was cornered.
Naruto woke, he saw dark walls. He failed, he couldn't do it. He sat up, seeing that Gaara was slumped in the corner. Naruto felt wetness on his cheeks. He couldn't do this, he had to get away. He couldn't face his life anymore, silently he moved about the room.
The things important to him were in bags by the door, it wasn't much but enough to start his new life. He was going far, far away. His father had left him enough money to last him quite a while, a long while. Sitting at the table he wrote a letter to Gaara. It was simple, "I'm leaving, you won't find me. When I am ready I'll reappear, but for now I need to heal."
Naruto kissed Gaara on top of his head. He smiled sadly and disappeared out of the door.
-GaaNaru-
Naruto stared at the airplane boards. He knew he would go to the states, but where in the states. It was pretty big. A big city, L.A. California, was pretty big as far as he knew, so was New York.
L.A. was leaving first though, and he didn't want to waste time. Deciding, he bought his ticket. The lady behind the counter looked at him weirdly.
"May I help you?" Naruto asked politely.
She shook her head, "you look like a model."
Naruto frowned, "I'm sorry, but I'm not. Just moving."
She smiled, "then here you go, your ticket! Have a good…Move!"
Naruto nodded and grabbed his carry on. He would keep up with his studies, especially if he was moving to the states. He needed to practice his English. He was pretty fluent now, but practice would help.
-GaaNaru-
Gaara frowned at the sun on his face, he shot up. Naruto was gone! Looking at his feet at the out of place paper. It had his name on it, dread filled his stomach.
Gaara tore open the letter. He read it slowly five times. He did the only thing he could think of, he ran to Kiba.
Kiba stared at the teen in front of him catching his breath, he frowned when Gaara handed over the letter. Gaara fell to his knees, crying. Kiba was stock still, but smiled sadly.
Kneeling down the distraught boy, "It's okay Gaara, he'll be okay. Where ever he is, he'll be okay now. We just have to trust him on his decision."
Gaara cried harder, but Kiba held him.
-GaaNaru-
Naruto got off the plane, he took in the air. It was different. He smiled, he wanted different.
He would need to do a few things, find a apartment, enroll into a school, and find a job.
"Kyuubi! Come with us!" Naruto was drug off some where, this wasn't what he was expecting, but he didn't like it.
Not thinking, "I'm not Kyuubi, my name is Naruto!"
They didn't listen to him, trying to observe the situation, it seemed more like they were covering him. He supposed they wouldn't hurt him, if they were trying to protect him.
-GaaNaru-
Naruto was dumped on to a fluffy couch, he yelled at them, "what the hell is your problem! I'm not some property! Don't throw me on a couch! What the hell is going on!"
Another man walked in, he had lop-side silver hair. He looked over at the two guys who had carried him in, "You do know, you picked up the wrong one, right?"
The guards about wet themselves, but the silver haired man shrugged, "My name is Kakashi Hatake, what's yours?"
Naruto thought a moment and then spoke, "My name is Naruto, Naruto Uzumaki." Kakashi's miss-matched eyes widen at that.
A door burst opened, "Kakashi! Your guards didn't pick me up again! I had to walk all the way here! Do you know how hot it is!" The firey red head finally turned to the kid on the couch.
"Those guards picked 'him' up. Out of all the people, they picked Naruto up."
The red head went through many emotions, you could see clearly on his face. Naruto was a little frightened.
"What's going on!" he wasn't thinking clearly! He was having difficulty thinking straight.
Kyuubi mumbled something in Japanese, that only Naruto could understand.
"What do you mean by that!" Naruto replied.
"You know Japanese?" Kyuubi inquired looking at the smaller boy.
Naruto looked at him like he was crazy, "well of course I do, I just came from Japan!"
Kyuubi looked angry, he stormed out of the room. Naruto was frightened by the angry man. He curled up on the couch, he berated himself. Shaking his head, he looked up at Kakashi.
"What is his name?" Naruto asked, he still needed work on his English.
"His name is Kyuubi, Kyuubi Uzumaki. He is your older brother." Naruto thought through what Kakashi said, when he finish translating in his head, his head shot up.
"Brother! I don't have a brother!" Naruto yelled the man expecting him to know what he said.
"Assuming what you said is you don't have a brother? Then you are truly mistaken, he is your brother. You should go talk to him." Kakashi urged the boy on in the direction of Kyuubi.
Naruto was getting really tired of English, he knew that it was the main language here, but it wasn't complete in his studies of it. He stood in front of a door, he heard smashing going on behind the door. He opened it, with empty eyes. He emptied his mind to deal with what seemed to be his older brother.
Kyuubi looked up at the door opening, he had never seen such empty eyes before. The life in the blue eyes were completely gone, he wanted to fix it.
"Naruto, he told you didn't he?" Kyuubi talked to himself, "of course he did. You look so much like him, like father." Naruto turned his head and sadness filled his eyes. It amazed Kyuubi how much emotion could be displayed in his eyes.
"Father died, about 10 days ago," Naruto willed the tears away, then he remember something, "Dad said, 'if you find the kitsune, then you'll find mother,' Do you know where mom is?"
"You talked to dad? I thought he was undercover?" Kyuubi didn't seem effected by his death, why should he, he didn't know the man, but he didn't hate him either.
Naruto nodded, "he was, he was killed while undercover…It was my fault, they found out. They thought he giving their secrets out, so they killed him. It's my fault!" Naruto fell to his knees.
Kyuubi stood there awkwardly, he wanted to help him, but he didn't know how to. He did the only thing he thought he could, he sat in front of the boy. He pulled Naruto into his lap, and held him. He held the body as the trembling stopped, even though slightly awkward, it felt right.
"Naruto, do you want to go meet mom?" Naruto shot his head up.
"Can I?" Kyuubi nodded and lead Naruto to the exit of the building only after grabbing keys from the front desk for a company car.
Naruto bounced happily in the passenger. They came to a small house in a small comfortable neighborhood. He saw a women come out from the door, she looked just like a picture dad had given him.
Kyuubi exited the car, Naruto took that as his que to get out of the car as well.
"Mom, I found him." The lady seemed to go into shock and looked at the smaller teen.
"N-Naruto?" she held her hands to her mouth.
Naruto smiled brightly, "the one and only!"
-GaaNaru- chapter end
So this took a couple days to write, started it then finished it. Now I think I found most of the mistakes in it! Although, my 'g' button has been messing up!
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Tell me what you think, remember this is an AU.
I was actually thinking of changing the pairing of the story to someone else. Poll time
Who should be with Naruto,
Itachi
Shikamaru
Neji
Gaara
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