I was sitting across from him now. He studied me for a few moments before he spoke.
"No one gets over there first kill kills that easily. Even with Strigoi. And with everything else that happened that night. That's hard to deal with. He, sighed, then reached out and caught my hand in his.
"When I saw your face, when we found you in that house, you can't imagine how I felt." He said now rubbing circles on the top of my hand.
"How…..how did you feel?"
"Devastated…scared. You were alive, but the way you looked I didn't think you were ever going to recover. And it tore me apart to think that this has happened to you so young. You will recover, I know that now, and I'm glad. But you aren't there. Not yet. Losing someone you care about is never easy."
My eyes dropped from his and looked at the floor." It's my fault" I said in a small voice.
"Hmm?"
"Mason, Getting killed."
"Oh, Roza. No. You made some bad decisions, but you can't blame yourself. Mason made a bad decision. He chose to go there and it resulted in his death. You didn't kill him."
Tears filled up my eyes as I looked back up." I might as well have. The whole reason he went there was my fault."
A tear leaked from my eye and Dimitri delicately wiped it off my cheek. " You can't blame yourself for that." He told me. " Mason made his own decision to go there."
" I just wish there was, I don't know something I could have done." I said swallowing back more tears.
" No matter what you would have said to him would not have changed his decision. His mind was set and that is what he chose to do,"
I just nodded in agreement trying to keep my tears from falling down my face. I did feel better talking to Dimitri. It's like he always new what to say. Maybe because he's been through this before and learned how to deal with it.
" Roza, I will always be here for you. You will get through this, we will get through this together. I am never going to let anything happen to you" He said rubbing circles on my hand.
The tears that were filling my eyes were now face. Dimitri then wrapped his arms around me in a tight embrace. I couldn't help it. I snuggled into his arms and let the waterworks take over.
" SHHH.. Roza. It's going to be okay" He said rubbing my back.
But what about Tasha? Did he take her offer? That question kept lingering in my head.