Chapter 14: Revelation (revised)

**Revelation**

Jacob felt Renesmee's tension immediately so he followed her after she politely made her excuses. Jake found her walking alone on the beach a couple miles from the house.

"Nessie, what's wrong."

"Nothing." she shrugged, careful to keep her face away from his.

Even if her back hadn't been facing him, he would've known better.

"Don't you dare lie to me," he said circling in front of her. He gasped when he saw her tear streaked face. "Baby, tell me, what happened?"

She raised her hand to Jacob's face caressing it and slowly images began to pass in front of Jacob's eyes: Billy…aging, then a picture of Jake's face in her mind. Tears overflowed her eyes.

"Will you…" she whispered but couldn't form the words to say…

"Baby, are you afraid I will get old and die, leaving you? Is that what you are afraid of?" Jacob asked tenderly holding her hands on his face, lowering his gaze to meet her eyes.

She nodded silently in affirmation.

Jacob smiled reassuringly, and sighed deeply, pulling her close to his chest, "baby, I'll never leave you. I guess we never talked about it…" he murmured in her hair. "I won't age as long as I keep phasing… the drive to phase is always present with vampires near…" Returning his gaze to equal hers he smiled, "I'll live as long as you do."

Light filled Renesmee's heart shining through her eyes. "Really?" she said excitedly.

Jacob laughed quietly, "Yes my precious. You are my life."

Enthralled, she threw herself into kissing him.

Her kiss was at first hard, passionate and demanding, then soft and sweet.

"Renesmee," he said pulling her back from him, "do you want me forever?" he asked searching into her eyes, as if to read her heart.

Were he able to hear her heart, this is what he would have heard:

It's too much, the fear terrifies me. You are too much, you give too much.

Why do you give so much?

When my heart is abandoned it's so small, and I feel smaller and smaller.

With you, I'm raised up. The vast sky above me yields to my cries.

Without you my soul dies.

What do you imagine me to be that you would give so much to me?

I can't lose you, but I thought I couldn't have you. The fear overtook. The pleasure of having you causes so much pain; too much. It's too much.

Why would you give me so much, when you stand to with so much to lose? Why?

I do love you. But it's not enough. I want more. I need more. It's not there to give you.

Do you feel the cracks of my heart? Can you see into the fissures that carve out the insides of me?

You fill me completely, but what will it mean if you aren't with me? What will it mean when we are finished?

I cherish the time I spend with you, but I can't. I can't. It's too much. The fear, the loss that is impending.

I've been nowhere and seen nothing in my short lifetime, how could I promise you what's not mine to give? Will you be there through my bad decisions? Will you pick up the pieces with me? Will we remain after? Will you stand by my side?

How can I give my imperfect self over to you? You deserve so much more than I can give you.

You always taught me precious secrets of a true love, withholding nothing:

You kissed my tears that cursed you for my vulnerability.

You never reproached me.

You never took your love from me.

How could I not love you?

How could I not slave for you?

I feel alone in my fear, isolated on an abandoned island, left, forgotten, starving, but you rescue me with a glance. Every time.

Your eyes anchor my soul, you are a tether for my heart to a stronghold when it wants to float away in insanity. Jacob, my heart, I carry you in my very soul, you are in my blood, you are the life in my veins.

You taught me love. Now I'm so much better. You've made me better. You're love has made me better.

Jacob's mind suddenly filled with visions of Sam and Emily, Rachel and Paul and Quill and Claire, then with their reflection, "are we like them?" She asked simply.

Jake smiled sweetly, overjoyed that she knew the connection they shared, "Yes love. They are all soul mates for life, so are we."

"You've imprinted... on me?"

Jacob was surprised to hear the word cross her lips. "How did you know?" he asked gently.

"Somehow, I've always known..." she said looking at her hands bashfully, "I heard Emily say it once and I asked her what it meant, and I realized the feeling...a feeling I had always remembered, but I didn't want to believe it."

"Why Nessie?" Jake said surprised, "tell me why."

"I didn't know what I had done to deserve you, and..." she said shifting in discomfort away from him, "...and then I thought that perhaps it would go away, and then I feared you would leave me." Tears poured out of her eyes as she continued, "so when I went to school I figured, if I changed enough you wouldn't want me anymore, and then I would never have to lose you, Jake..." Looking up at his eyes through her tears, she continued her confession, "when I came back, I was almost certain I could make you un-imprint if you hated me enough... but I couldn't finish...Jake, I couldn't, and now I'm so ashamed." Nessie blubbered and pressed herself into Jake's chest, crying, "I'm so sorry Jacob, I'm so sorry."

"Oh my Nessie… you precious, crazy, precocious girl, I could never un-imprint. We are matched for life. Ever since I first laid eyes on you; you gave my life meaning even then and I knew immediately that you were the only person for me as long as I lived."

Unable to believe his words and his unconditional love, Renesmee stared in wonder. How could someone speak so freely their heart and withhold nothing? Wasn't he afraid?

"Nessie, marry me. Promise me you'll stay with me." Jacob asked her simply.

Her thoughts continued to race:

More than fear of love, is the fear of not having you. If you were to cease, the universe would cease. Promise to always be my anchor and I will never leave you.

Promise to find me when I'm hiding. Hiding behind fear, hiding behind lust, hiding behind childish nightmares and monsters. Promise me when my life is over, you will carry me with you until you stop breathing.

Your love sings in my heart, sings in my soul, sings in my blood, your love motivates my heart to beat its song for you.

If it is only once that I can give you that which you want, will it be enough? Will you carry me those extra steps when I constantly fall short? When you fill me and my heart and take me to the place where love is sure, will you hold me and keep me from falling?

Renesmee dropped to her knees, "you must know that you're everything to me, you're all that I live for."

Is there a time that when something is so amazing that to wish for more is a sin?

Is there anything I would deny him? Is there anything that I wouldn't be for him? Is there anything that I wouldn't do to hear his voice in my ear, whispering my name? Is there anything that I wouldn't be for him? I would go, do, be, say anything for him. Isn't that all he's asking? For all of me? Doesn't it feel completely natural to say yes to him? Am I conquered or am I triumphant; triumphant over anything that would take him away from me, or conquered because I can't say no?

Jacob lowered himself still holding her hands as she continued.

"When we were apart all I could think was how I'd give my life just to hold you," she confessed, "So many nights, I cried, and the tears lulled me to sleep, I was terrified that I would come back and you would have moved on, or your love would have cooled. But now I know you love me and if you can forgive me now I can forgive myself. Because you love me, I love myself," she continued abandoning herself in a vulnerability that was frightening.

I feel good with him. She reassured herself, I feel amazing with him. I feel powerful with him. I feel right when we are together. There is no one who makes me feel this good. I would do anything to make him feel this good. I would give anything to make him understand this feeling I have, the feeling that he gives me, she promised. Is that not love? Is not this love pure? Is this not the most blissful, right feeling that could possibly exist? I can't say no.

Yes! Yes to everything! I am conquered. I am triumphant. I am love, I am fear. I am free, I am captured. I am happy, I am everything. I can fly, I am anchored.

As long as he is my own, the answer is 'Yes, I am." I am in existence, I am in love, I am.

He makes me.

Only Jacob

Love is more than a feeling, it's more than Jacob. It's what we become. Love is the triumph, love is the fear. Love is the pain, love is the pleasure. Love is. I am, and love is.

Is this a dream that I must wake up from? Never may that be so; may Jake be my dreams, may Jake be my waking nightmare, just say not that there is anything that isn't Jacob. He is everything, and now I see.

"Jacob, I never thought I would say this: Jacob, I'm in love with you. Somehow I'll show you that you are my endless night. Yes. I'll marry you. I'll stay with you forever," she promised, tears streaming down her face.

Jacob still on his knees raised her up with him and embraced his life, his Nessie. They stood unmoving in their oasis on the beach for an immeasurable moment. Suddenly Renesmee felt the revelation of love, and freedom.

**A Familial Scene**

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A ringing phone in Jake's pocket broke their reverie.

"Alice?" Jake said answering the phone.

"Oh my god Jake! Congratulations little brother. Please, please, please, let me plan you wedding?"

"How did you know?" he asked, "I thought you couldn't see me."

"I don't know why, you've been getting clearer. Maybe because we know each other so well. I know what fuels you, I understand what motivates you. You aren't unpredictable to me, you aren't a mystery anymore. I saw this decision because you were sure of it. You've been sure of it. I didnt know when you would ask, but it just appeared!"

A chuckle escaped his lips, "well, I guess we have bonded then, if you can see me. Here, I'll give you to Nessie, I know you want to talk to her."

"What, are you a mind reader now?"

"Ha! No, you're predictable," he laughed handing the phone to his fiancee. "It's for you Nessie," he said, wiping the tears from her eyes.

The smile that broke across Renesmee's face was enchanting, she began to laugh.

'Is it true? Did he ask you and you said yes?'

"Yes, Auntie it's true."

'Nessie please, let me do your wedding, you won't be disappointed I promise.'

"Of course, you can…"

'When are you guys coming back to Seattle?'

Nessie looked up at Jake who was smitten, he circled his finger in the air, giving her the answer, "we're coming right now Auntie."

'Okay, hurry up, guess you're not going to classes today anyway. I'll get your work for you and explain to your professors don't worry about anything, I'll see you soon.'

Nessie laughed and hung up the phone. "Guess we should get back huh."

"Yea. But not before we go 'shopping'!" Jake said mimicking Alice. "What kind of ring would you like my darling?"

"Oh, do by a great big one Jake," Nessie said with a huge grin.

"So, Scarlett O'Hara." Jake said pulling his Nessie in for a hug, walking back up the rocky slope toward the house.

"You can say whatever you like 'Captain Butler.'"

...

"So, you're tyin' the knot, aye Jake?" Embry laughed punching Jake in the shoulder, "gonna finally get some."

The return punch Embry received was in the gut, making him double over, partially from surprise, partially from laughter.

"I'm really happy for you man," Quill said with a seemingly forlorn grin.

"Congratulations Nessie," Claire said hugging her tight, she was barely half her height now at about eleven years old, "can I be a bride's maid?"

"Of course precious." Nessie replied picking up the young girl.

"You got so tall, Nessie." Claire commented.

"I eat vegetables." Nessie laughed.

"Ugh, I hate vegetables." Claire said with a look of disgust wiggling to get down. She wasn't a little girl anymore, even if all her friends were giants.

"Actually I was hoping that all the wolf girls would walk in my train," Nessie said with a smile toward Jake.

His glow was like the glow of the sun at sunset, his smile so serene. Renesmee was drawn to him like gravity, being received by his arms.

"Alice will be thrilled to be in charge of such a production." Jake mused.

"Do you think they will all do it?"

"I for one would be honored, anything for Jake's Nessie." Emily said with a warm smile walking over arms extended for a hug, which Nessie accepted with gratitude. "I'm sure they will all be honored. Jake's our brother, and you are our sister."

They hugged again and lingered in an embrace.

"We really should get going," Jake said at last, "we were supposed to be in class today."

"Nice way to be responsible Jake," Seth said chiding in Edward's tone perfectly.

The small assembly of friends roared in laughter and our two lovers left, heading out to Seattle.

Renesmee's singing iPhone alerted her to Alice's call.

"We're coming Auntie, promise," she said answering the call.

"That's what you said four hours ago."

"Really, we're driving." Jake called out to the phone.

"I know, that's why I called, come to my house."

"Don't be exasperated Auntie, everyone wanted to congratulate us at La Push, besides, I got a bunch of bride's maids now," Nessie said hoping to ease the irritation of her auntie.

"Really? How many?"

"All of the 'wolf girls', well hopefully."

The glee in Alice's voice assured Renesmee that she was forgiven all the while Jake drove with a contented smile. His world was perfection.

The miles melted away in the GT and they made it to Seattle in a little more than two hours without incident. The silence was comfortable. They found themselves lost in thought. Renesmee about this new freedom, while Jacob was lost in the realization that everything was just as it should be, the way Bella said it would be one day. Nessie was everything: funny, smart, sassy, beautiful and his. His heart swelled and he wondered how anyone could ever feel this full of love and life. They didn't even have to be doing anything, it was just being with her that made life what must have been intended by the gods.

Jacob let Ness off at Alice and Jasper's house.

"I'll be back in a few hours Miss Cullen. It would be my pleasure to take you to dinner tonight."

She smiled, "like a date?" she smiled, "our first date comes after we are engaged?"

"Oh it will be the first of many, I plan on dating you for the rest of eternity," Jake murmured raising his hand to her face, sinking his fingers into her lush hair and bringing her face close for a chaste kiss that took Renesmee's breath away.

"Pick you up in two hours."

Jake sped home to the Fiji house changed his clothes in record time and descended the stairs in a shiny Giorgio Armani suit that Alice had given him as a present for Renesmee's returned. He wore it with a black shirt, open collar and Cartier cuff links and timepiece. He checked his back pocket for his wallet, thankful for the limitless credit card Edward had given him.

'You never know with Nessie, when this may come in handy. You're part of the family now Jake, there's no reason to every think of money ever again.' Edward had said when he gave it to him. He never used it, but he would make use of it tonight. Nothing was too good for his Nessie.

Jake found himself thirty minutes later, thanks to light traffic downtown Seattle on pulling into the garage at Pacific Place. Throwing the keys to a valet, he ran up the escalator and through double doors. Thankfully Tiffany's was still open.

Heading to the nearest person he motioned for assistance. His attire demanded that he be taken very seriously.

"Hi," Jake said nervously, "I need an engagement ring."

"Certainly," the professional said reaching for a jewelry pad and a cloth, "what did you have in mind?"

"Oh, nothing that you have on the floor," he said casually in a low tone. Turning from side to side, he checked to make sure no one was within ear shot… he still felt kind of embarrassed. "Uhm," he cleared his throat a little, "I need something amazing. Hearts on Fire," he said glancing again from right to left "at least three carats, I would prefer four carat, D, Flawless, but I'll settle for something VVS."

Alice's voice rang clear with instructions. 'I know what's in your heart Jake, trust me, if you want to make her practically pass out, go to Tiffany's in a suit, ask for Hearts on Fire and tell them this exact carat, color and clarity. They will almost fall over, but they will get it for you. I don't know how long it will take, but that's what she wants.'

"Okay, well you know what you want, let me be right back." She said blushing fiercely and moving with a quick step behind some curtains. Afterward a tall gentleman in a black suit appeared with a huge smile on his face.

"You must be Jacob Black." The man said.

Jake frowned how did people just automatically know who he was?

"Your father in law called, Edward Cullen, he said you would be by to pick this up."

The woman reappeared with several blue boxes, "Please join me over here," the gentleman said.

Jacob was lead to a mahogany desk and the boxes were opened and he was presented with a note that was hand written on a stiff card.

"To my son: There is nothing that gives me greater pleasure at this moment than to make this gift to you and my daughter. Dear Jake, you can't just go give her this ring, first you must take her on a series of dates and present her with these presents, and on the final date, will be the engagement feast in which you will present her with her engagement ring. Give the man the card I gave you. It was always intended for this purpose. Present her with the smallest box first, the one with the studs in it, followed by the necklace, then the bracelet followed at last by the ring.

Welcome to the family.

Love,

Edward and Bella"

Jacob gulped and the placed the note back on the desk. The boxes were then opened for him one at a time, in the order he would present them to Renesmee.

Words cannot describe the beauty that was before him in the shape of brilliant white diamonds that would soon bedeck his lovely bride to be.

Taking the Black Amex card from his wallet, he slid it across the table, and waited to be presented with something to sign.

Jacob was fully overwhelmed and drove back up to fetch Renesmee, he was running a little late, because he also stopped to buy a single blood red rose.

When he arrived at the house he parked on the street and headed for the stairs. Within a few seconds, a limousine pulled up on the street and the driver let him know he was there for him, and he figured this was also part of the production.

Jacob went up to get Ness and was greeted by the woman of his dreams in a sapphire blue silk halter dress. His eyes were overwhelmed at her perfection. Her skin glowed, her hair shone brightly, even in the dim light her eyes were electric. Her dress hung and clung perfectly to her perfect curves and fell to her knee showing her perfect legs and simple black stilettos that he adored with an open toe showing her perfect French pedicure.

He presented her with her rose and kissed her sweetly.

Alice beamed from the background with Bella, Rosalie, and Esme clasping hands in joy and anticipation for their lovely girl.