Title: Jealousy.
Continuity: 'Phyllis' Wedding.' (Season Three's 15th episode.)
Song: 'Mr. Brightside', by The Killers.
Feedback: Of course, reviews are highly appreciated.
Warning/Comments: Slightly A/U. Hey. I'm using third-person narrative again in this chapter – I just hope it's not confusing, since we have a couple of women and a couple of men involved in the important scenes of this episode. I like the way Phyllis' Wedding was shot. It's one of my Season Three favorites. I hope you enjoy this.
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea…
He knows he should really, really be looking at his girlfriend's face as they slowly sway to the music that the band is playing, but he can't get his eyes off his best friend, who sits at an empty table right across the dance floor, looking sad and lonely.
She knows that watching him dance with his girlfriend is not exactly going to make her feel better, but she just can't help it, so she observes him (them) closely as they twirl together, his arms firmly placed around her waist, framing her tiny figure.
The girl couldn't be any freaking luckier. Pam wishes she would be the one he's holding in his arms, and sighs.
He knows he shouldn't care, but he can't not notice how beautiful she looks tonight. He's not paying attention to the girl he's holding inside his arms, because his mind's busy wondering what's going on with his best friend.
She finally grows tired of watching (wanting, loving) a man she can't have having a great time with his date, leaves her spot by the table and walks out of the room, looking for some place where she can cry quietly without being seen, so she won't lose the little dignity she's got left.
His eyes follow her as she exits the room. Is it my fault that she's leaving? The last thing he wants to do is hurting her, but he can't actually go and try to make her feel better, so he pretends that nothing happened and tries to focus on his girlfriend, who's on stage singing along with the band. He smiles.
She runs into Roy on her way out and he joins her, after which he asks her if she'll dance with him to their song, and she feels so upset and unhappy that she agrees.
He watches her walk away hand in hand with her ex-fiancé and it breaks his heart a little - a lot – knowing that she might come back to that guy.
She allows Roy to put his arms around her, leans her head on his chest and closes her eyes, dreaming that she is inside someone else's – her best friend's – embrace, in a perfect world where she did get her happy ending. She dreams that she leads the life she wants.
He tries to have fun with Karen and act as if he's happy - which is what he is supposed to do - but since he fails, he asks her to dance once again, so he can close his eyes for a second and wish for it all to be a dream, for the girl he's dancing with to be his best friend. He wishes the woman he loves could be happy, with or without him. Preferably with him.
She feels a few tears streaming down her cheeks, leaving wet spots in Roy's shirt, and she lets out only one quiet sob. He leans back a little and studies her face.
"Are you okay? Why are you crying?"He asks, more out of curiosity than concern.
"Oh don't worry. It's just… nostalgia."She lies through her teeth. "Just nostalgia."She mumbles, trying to sound reassuring as she blinks back a few more tears and wonders if the rest of her life is going to be like this – one lie after another.
She really wishes it isn't.