Title: Examination of a bad decision.
Continuity: 'The Negotiation.' (Season Three's 18th episode.)
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Warning/Comments: Slightly A/U. Drabble. Hey. Writing this was hard. My muse seems to have gone on vacations – where could she go, I don't know- so she sends me inspiration on postcards. And there's not really much space to write in on a postcard. (That would explain my lack of ideas.) Okay, I'm not crazy, just tired. School is the worst thing ever. As always, I hope this isn't confusing/disappointing/boring and that you enjoy reading it.
"Sorry I almost got you killed. "The woman seemed to shrink, as if she wanted to disappear. To stop existing right there and then, for feeling the coldness he oozed was killing her.
"Yeah, that was nuts."
"He could have broken your nose or something. Crazy. It's just so stupid. I mean, getting back with Roy and everything. I mean, what was I thinking, right?"
"No, I mean, you guys really seem to have a strong connection."His voice was steady, slow, and almost too calm to sound true.
"Not anymore. It's, um... It's completely over now."
"We'll see." He half-chuckled to cover up the fear. "I'm sure you guys will... find you way back to one another someday."Never in his life had he wanted more badly to be wrong.
"Jim…"She softly called after him, trying to make him see the way he was hurting her. "I am really... sorry."
"Oh, yeah. Don't worry about it."He walked away.
Why?
Why did I ever think Roy deserved a second chance?
(Maybe I thought one more bad decision wouldn't make a big difference.)
Why did I have to tell him the truth?
("Watch out world, Old Pammy's getting what she wants.")
Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut?
Why did Roy have to get so pissed about the kiss?
(The kiss was nothing compared to the feelings that bottled up inside of me for such a long time.)
Why did he have to attack Jim?
(He lost it.)
Why didn't I see it coming?
Why wasn't I the one to save him, instead of Dwight?
(Because I was terrified- no, paralyzed. That's why. But thank God Dwight was there.)
Why does he have to be so mean to me?
(He probably is just pissed that he almost got his ass kicked by a lunatic over a woman he never really had.)
Why does he act like I did this on purpose?
(… When in fact the last thing I want to do is hurting him.)
Why doesn't he see I was just trying to be honest for the first time in years?
Why does he act like every single thing that goes wrong is my fault?
(After all, it takes two to tango. Or three, in our case. Or four.)
Why am I even apologizing?
(Perhaps I think begging and humiliating myself is going to help making things better.)
Why does this hurt so much?
(It just does.)
Why does everything I do just come undone?