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I think of all the chapters I made and gonna make this is my favorite

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"Andy," Sam began, "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen to you. It should be me lying in this hospital bed. I should have been the ones with the bullets not you" he places his hands on mine, "the doctors told me that speaking to a person in a coma helps them wake up. So after what I'm gonna tell you, you better wake."

"The first time I saw you when you came busting threw the door, I could tell you were a rookie. My first thought of you was you were like an angel, so beautiful. But I couldn't just sit there and stare at you I had to make a run for it so my cover wouldn't get blown. But when you found me I was so surprised and kind of proud to see you found me. I thought I was going get away but you caught me. Then when you took me down and you had your hands on me, it sent tingles all threw my body."

Oh my god! I couldn't believe I was hearing that coming from Sam's mouth. It was like a dream come true.

"Then when you came into the locker room and I was pissed off and you asked me about the kid, I was going to tell you nothing but I couldn't stand not helping you out. Later on at the Penny and you asked if you could by me a drink. That was the exact moment I fell for you. The moment I knew I liked you. You made me feel like I was back in high school having a crush on the prettiest girl in school" he laughed.

"The next day when I saw you coming through the doors with a suspect I was really proud of you. Then when I heard I was going to be your training officer, I must have been one of the happiest guys on the universe. When I told you that you weren't my type I was lying. Trying to hide my feelings like usual."

He doesn't know how much I just want to kiss him right now. If only I wasn't in this stupid coma. I wish he knew how I really truly felt.

"The look on you face when I beat up that guy, it was hilarious" he laughs, "then when I went to Anton Hills alone and you came and saved my ass. You don't even know how glad I was to see you. At the end of the day when you followed me out in the parking lot and told me you weren't scared because I was there, I wanted to kiss you so bad. And when you started leaning in closer and closer, my heart started to beat faster and faster. But when you pulled away I was really disappointed but I couldn't let it show."

"Then fight night morning I saw you talking to Callaghan I just had to interrupt, I couldn't have you getting involved with him. But when night came and I saw you enter the bar I was hoping you were going to sit next to me, but instead you walked straight over to him. I hate to admit it but I was jealous."

Sam jealous. Wow, that's a shocker.

"When you were undercover as a prostitute, I was really worried about you and actually glad that Boyko wanted you back at the barn. But when you went to go check out a tip and were at gunpoint, you scared the crap out of me."

"That morning when were about to load your gun and then Luke interrupted and was pissy that you left him in bed after you two slept together, I was so disgusted and pissed off you slept with the asshole!"

"When you were in that house alone and the son was still there my heart started to race. And when I heard about your mom leaving you 14 years ago, I could hear all the pain in your voice, and I just wanted to make it all go away. I've never felt this way Andy. Never. "

Felt what? Felt how? What the hell does that mean? That was the only thing I could think about now. How does he feel about me? I needed to know. I need to know now. God I wish that I could just get out of this flipping coma already!

"Remember that day I had a really bad hang over and then Callaghan wanted to take you with him. If I didn't have a hang over I would have told him to shove it. And then you called me telling me you lost Benny. "Sam laughs.

"So I come and pick you up and then you wanted to borrow my truck. My baby. By the way I never lent anyone my truck. And then when you were at his house and I heard that shots rang out there I swear my heart was ready to jump out of my chest. Then Benny died, and I could see the Luke wasn't there for you. You know in my opinion he doesn't really deserve you. You deserve someone better. Someone who's there for you actually cares for you."

He was right. I do deserve someone better then him. Someone like Sam Swarek. And I could have him if I would just wake up!

"Then on the day of the blackout, and you were in that building and I heard the shots, I couldn't get out of the barn fast enough to get to you. And then when I got there and I heard more gun shots and you screamed, I honestly think that my heart stopped beating. Then I realized that you shot him. You killed him. And you were in so much pain. Then unexpectedly you showed up at my door step. I asked you if you needed to talk and I was really surprised when you said no and then you pushed me against the wall and kissed me. That was when I realized I had true feelings for you. There was so much passion between us, then the lights came back on and I knew I had to get up and turn them off."

"Then I came back into the room and you were putting your shirt back on. Someone tore my heart right out of the chest. I wished so much more happened that night. It was the best night of my life so far yet the saddest."

True feelings? Like what kind? Love? Or just like? I really hope that its love. I hope he feels the same way I do.

"A week later when it was your first day back, I brought you coffee. I was so excited to see you. Even Noelle could tell. Then when your stupid boyfriend cam to me and told me that you guys are going to his fishing cabin and it was your idea. I just wanted to be the crap out of him right then and there so he couldn't even move anymore. Later on in the retraining exercises and peck had put us together I knew he didn't have the chance. I knew I was gonna beat the crap out of him and I did. It was so much fun, but to see the look on your face basically ruined the moment."

"Then at the Penny I was going to tell you it wasn't what it was, but then you told it was so I just gave up. Andy, that night was so special to me. It meant a lot to me, I just wish I could know how you feel."

Well if I could get out of this coma I could tell him. But I don't think I am. It was getting harder and harder to stay 'awake', I felt as though I was falling, and I was going to hit the ground soon. Die basically.

Sams POV

She looks so peaceful. She looks as though she sleeping but she's not.

"Andy," I paused, "I love you. Im in love with you, I finally said it! I love you Andy McNally. You better wake up soon. Because I didn't just pour my heart out for nothing."

I stopped talking as soon as I heard someone coughing behind me…