Meiko – "Leave the Lights On" 763 words. K+ very mild angst

JJ swam back to consciousness slowly, a lovely ache settled prominently in her muscles. When she opened her eyes Emily's face came into focus, watching her intently. Emily smiled and kissed the blonde.

"Welcome back to the land of the living." Emily said smugly. She didn't get as much time with JJ as she liked so when she did, she prided herself on being able to overload the younger woman's senses with so much pleasure that she passed out.

"Shut up." JJ laughed kissing Emily again. What they were doing was so wrong, JJ was with Will, but nothing had ever felt so right either. JJ didn't mark herself as a cheater, at least she never had before Emily, but she felt more like she was cheating on Emily with Will than the other way around more often than not. "I really should go." She sighed, making no move to get out of Emily's bed.

"I wish you could stay." Emily murmured against the shell of JJ's ear and pulled her closer, not in any hurry to encourage her to leave either.

"I know but he's waiting for me."

Emily gave a morose sigh she tried to cover up as a regular expulsion of air but JJ saw through it the second air left from between her lips. "You're right." She acquiesced, rolling over onto her back and releasing her hold on the blonde.

JJ rolled onto her stomach and cupped a hand over Emily's cheek but Emily still wouldn't meet her gaze. "Let's do this, Em." She whispered.

"Do what?"

"I know that this is supposed to be a secret and that I have to keep it, but I don't want to anymore."

"Jennifer…" Emily trailed off with a warning. They both knew this arrangement had been her idea in the first place.

"I'm trying hard to make you see that all that you are is all that I need." JJ said seriously, ghosting her lips over Emily's. Emily did turn her head to look at her then. "I want to bring this to the light of day, I'm tired of hiding in the dark about how I feel about you, how I think you feel about me. We both know what's between these sheets; it's been more than just sex for a long time. Maybe it's never been just sex."

Emily closed her eyes and inhaled sharply through her nose. The room still smelled like sex, like her and JJ. She wanted JJ to be serious. "What about Will? And Henry?"

"Henry will adjust, he loves you. As for Will, I don't know. He's not going to take it well but he deserves to know. I'm yours Emily. I always have been. I've felt more like I've been playing you than I have been playing Will the last eight months. I can't keep doing this because it's tearing me apart and I know it must be doing the same to you."

Emily shrugged slightly. "I'm willing to be with you in whatever capacity you'll have me, Jennifer. I…I love you, you're everything to me. If that means sharing you with Will, I'll deal."

"Emily you useless lesbian." JJ laughed, kissing Emily languidly. "I'm telling you that you won't have to share me. I don't want to be shared. I want to be yours and only yours. I have been yours and only yours but I want to make it official. I want to leave the lights on and not do this in the dark, hiding like we're doing something wrong."

"Aren't we though?"

"I'm doing Will a disservice by staying with him. I love you, Emily. I want to be with you all the time, not just times I can make excuses for working late or when we're away on cases."

"When would you tell him?"

JJ yawned with a stretch and scooted out of bed, collecting her clothes. "Soon. Tonight. I have to do it in person, I owe him that much."

Emily nodded. "But what about what everyone's going to say? Isn't this going to be trouble?"

JJ shimmied into her jeans and shrugged, looking around for her bra. "I don't wanna run away anymore. It's going to be a mess but I want this and if you want this too, that's all that matters to me. You do want this, don't you?"

Emily lay on her side and propped her head up with one hand. "More than anything." She said smiling lazily.

"Then I'm going to tell him tonight and I'll be back. Leave the lights on?"

"Always."