"Why am I so clumsy?" I wondered in the late tuesday night "I forgot my digivice at Taichi's, it's even more important than my cellphone!"
"It's ok Mimi," said Palmon trying to get me to calm down "We'll have to go there and pick it, it's not that far..."
"I know it is not so far but..."
"But?"
"I can't believe I forgot something as important as my digivice... What if you needed digivolve?" I asked as I covered my face.
"That's why we have to get it back as soon as posible" answered Palmon.
"I guess you're right... I'm such a stupid!" I screamed once again, I hated the idea of losing my digivice "Just... wait right here, I'll be back in a second."
"But, Mimi!"
I did not hear what Palmon wanted to tell me, I had already crossed the door.
The day before that, a monday after school, all of the digidestined met at Yagami's house. It wasn't any diferent to any meeting we had before:
Digimons sitting beside us as they ate some candies, Yamato and Taichi in the lead of the group with Sora sitting close to them in case they started any fight. I was sitting next to her as we listened Koushiro theories, Jyou sitting on the other side, trying hard to understand everything.
And in the corner, almost caught in their own conversation, were Hikari and Takeru, the youngers of the group.
I couldn't wait till the day those two became a couple...
And like that, lost in my own thoughts, I arrived Taichi's apartment.
I knocked the door thinking about the jokes Taichi was going to make once I had told him my problem...
But there weren't any jokes, because no one answered the door.
I knocked again, and again, and again, but no one did answer.
'Maybe they're not at home...'
So I tried opening the door, not expecting for it to open...
But I guess it was wrong.
Unlike the usual, Yagami's residence was in absolute silence: there wasn't any Agumon yelling, or any Taichi's videogames...
"Hello?"
No one did answer, so I just got into the house to pick my digivice. But once I got inside, a weird sound got my attention, and it seemed to come from Hikari's room.
'Is that Hikari crying?' I wondered.
"Mi-Miyako, please..." was everything I could hear before she began to sob.
The fact of hearing Hikari sobs made me worry, so I just got into the room, without knocking first or any.
"Hikari? Why are you crying?" I asked, I didn't care very much if that was out of place: Hikari, my friend, was crying.
"Mi-Mimi? What are you doing here?"
Hikari's wattering eyes looked at me a little bit scared, maybe it wasn't for the best to get into her room like that...
"I... I..." ok, admiting the reason was really embarrasing "I forgot my digivice here..."
"Oh, of course..." she said as she focused her eyes on the floor "Taichi said he was going to your place to return it to you."
"Oh, that's a shame since I got here for the same reason." Hikari didn't look at me, she was actually avoiding me "But it doesn't matter, I guess I could wait right here until he's back so I could get my digivice"
I took a seat on Hikari's bed, getting ready to help her.
"But Hikari, that's not important right now," I told her "The important thing is that you were crying, and I want to know why."
"It isn't a big deal, Mimi..."
"Of course it is a big deal!" I argumented "I don't know what happened, but it made you cry and that makes it important."
She looked at me directly in the eyes, silently, until twars began to roll down her cheeks and the sobbing started once more.
"I hate this! I seriously hate this!" screamed Hikari "I don't think I can take it anymore!"
"What?" Hikari was acting strange and I didn't get anything about what she was saying "Hikari, could you explain to me what are you talking about?"
"It's... it's..."
"What is it?"
"It's Takeru!"
That took me by surprise.
"Ta-Takeru?"
"Yes! Takeru!" she yelled as she began to sob stronger and stronger "He's my bestfriend and all but lately... I can't deal with it! It's just frustrating and desesparating and... and..."
"And?"
"I really thought that we could go on as always but... I don't think we can... Specially since Miyako left me alone!"
Miyako?
"Wait, wait, wait." I interrupted "What does Miyako have to do with this?"
It's just... she's been my bestfriend since we were twelve, she has helped me to hold on with Takeru's friendship and all, but lately..."
"What happened?"
"I haven't seen her, and she isn't answering the phone, just like Daisuke."
Wait... how did Daisuke got into the conversation?
"Daisuke? Why did you try to talk with Daisuke?"
Hikari stood quiet for a moment, as her face turned red.
"It's just... well, it's been almost a week ago..."
"A week ago?" I asked "A week ago since when."
"Since Daisuke and I went on a date..."
Hikari aparted her face as I looked at her in surprise.
"Daisuke... and Hikari... on a date?"
That sounded weird, really weird.
"Just please don't tell anybody!" she yelled "I can explain!"
"Explain? Is there something to explain?"
'When did Hikari grew up so much' was everything I could think about.
"It's just... He sent me a text about a week ago..."
"Hikari i don't understand!" I screamed as I got up "What it's happening? You dated Daisuke? You fought with Takeru? ARE YOU EVEN HIKARI?!"
She stood silently for a minute, sitting in her bed while she looked at me with her wattering eyes.
"Oh no, Hikari I didn't mean to..."
"No, no," she said as a little smile got to show in her mouth "you're right... I can't understand what's happening either."
I sort of felt bad for her, every fourteen year old girl needs a friend, and Hikari's one wasn't answering the phone or any, like if she had disapeared suddenly.
And suddenly I made a desition: Hikari needed a friend, someone who, unlike Takeru, could not just suport her: someone that could understand her; I knew that a girl needed another girl for that job, and I was perfect for that as long as Miyako couldn't do it.
"So... this is what we'll do: you and I will have a girls conversation and you are going to tell me everything"
"E-everything?"
"Yup" I said as I took a seat next to her.
"But... where do I start?" she asked as she aparted her eyes.
"From the begining maybe?"
She took a deep breath in and looked at me once again before she would start talking.
"Takeru and I were at school, like any other day..."
Hikari' and Takeru were at the rooftop eating their meals, everything was perfectly normal until Hikari's phone started to beep.
"Huh? You got a message." said Takeru as he picked some piece of chicken.
"Yeah, it's probably Taichi..."
But it wasn't.
Daisuke 13:03
Hi there Hikari! Are you doing something today?
"What does he want?" asked Takeru taking for sure that the text was from Taichi.
"Nothing... nothing important." lied Hikari without even knowing why.
Hikari 13:04
No, why?
"Really? Are you sure?" he asked again "Your face doesn't seem to think the same."
"It's nothing, I swear"
Takeru frowned as he tried to spy Hikari's texting by the corner of his eye.
"Why are you so nervous?" he insisted "You can't lie to me, Hikari."
She stood silently as her cheeks started blushing.
Daisuke 13:05
I was wondering if we could go out.
"Come on Hikari," continued Takeru "tell me what happened, I won't judge."
He didn't get an answer.
Hikari 13:05
Yeah! Great! You want me to tell Takeru? Did you already tell Miyako and the others?
"Tell me! Tell me!" he insisted, begining to get closer so he could read the messaging.
Hikari got apart, she just didn't want for Takeru to see her conversation.
Daisuke 13:06
Well, that's not what I meant.
Hikari 13:06
Oh, so what did you mean?
"Hikari, won't you tell me?" asked Takeru once more "Is it a guy?"
Hikari's heart stopped beating.
Daisuke 13:07
What if it is just you and I?
"Hikari?"
Daisuke 13:07
Like on a date.
Hikari felt the need to run away. She didn't noticed when she stopped breathing until Takeru talked to her again.
"It's a guy, right?" insisted Takeru "Who is it? Do I know it?"
"Takeru, it's not..."
"Come on Hikari, you always know about the girls I date, won't you tell me who is it?"
Hikari 13:09
I don't know Daisuke.
"Hikari, I wanna know!"
Daisuke 13:09
Hikari, I swear I won't try to do anything you don't want me to.
"Could you talk to me at least?"
Daisuke 13:10
Just give me this oportunity, if you still see me in the same way we'll be just friends.
"Why you don't want to tell me?"
Daisuke 13:10
I promise.
"It's just private, Takeru." said Hikari without looking at his friend
"Why is that guy so private?" he asked.
"Because it is."
Hikari 13:11
Okay, but just once.
"Just... I'll tell you later, ok?" said Hikari.
Takeru stared at Hikari in confusion, without getting the situation right.
"O-ok."
Daisuke 13:12
Thank you! I promise it'll be all!
"And did tell Takeru about this?" I asked, intrigued by the story.
"I just couldn't, and I don't know why." answered Hikari.
"And what did you tell him instead?"
She just looked sadly at the floor for a minute.
"I told him that a guy from Taichi's football tem had confessed to me."
"Oh." I said as i got my eyes apart from Hikari "And have you told anyone about your date?"
Hikari denied with her head.
"I was going to tell Miyako but..." al little tear slipped down her cheek "she didn't answer the phone."
"So... what happened in the date? Something interesting?"
"Not actually," she explained "we just ate some sushi and talked, I actually had a great time, except..."
"except?"
"Except at the end, when he was walking me home." answered Hikari.
"What? What happened?"
"Well, it was beggining to get dark, so..."
"...Yeah, so I was like 'who's this girl?' and..."
"Hikari," said Daisuke interrupting her "did-did tou have a good time?"
She looked at him with her sad eyes, he knew that wasn't a nice question for her, but he had to know the answer.
"Yes, I had fun with you Daisuke."
The way she said it... Daisuke knew inmediatly what it meant, she knew it.
"But nothing has changed between us, right?" he asked once again.
"I'm sorry Daisuke."
Them both stood in silence, looking at the pavement.
"Don't be sorry, I knew this was going to happen." he said as he turned his back to Hikari "I knew nothing was going to change, and I knew you would never run to my arms when you were scared, and I knew you'd never smile because of my presence."
"Daisuke..." she murmured.
"I knew Takeru was going to keep all of the things that I wanted for myself, and I knew I couldn't do anything about it."
"Daisuke, you're a great guy and I swear..."
"There's nothing for you to say, Hikari, you've already said it all." he faced her once more, fulling hisself with courage "The next time I see you, we'll be just friends, just like we've ever been.
He stood in silence for a few minutes.
"Goddam! Even as a friend you'd preefer Takeru, right?" he suddenly screamed.
Hikari felt the tears rolling down her cheeks as she listened to Daisuke's words, specially because she knew they were true.
"Yeah, I knew." he confirmed to hisself "Takeru is the only one for you, it doesn't matter what."
"Takeru is just..."
"Just a friend?" completed Daisuke "I don't know where did you two get that, but it's enough, I've lived with it for three years and I got tired of it."
Hikari didn't say a word, what was she suposed to answer? It wasn't true, right? Or that's what she wanted to believe?
"Hikari, if you ever dare to confess your feelings to Takeru... or vice versa, would you give this to him?" he tent her a little piece of paper "I don't want you to read it, it's for him."
She looked at the small folded paper, wondering what had Daisuke wrote on it.
"I hope you guys have confessed each other the next time I'll see you, cause if you don't..." unlike Hikari, he wasn't crying... until that moment "if you don't, it'll be even more painfull."
He smiled at her once more and turned aside "Good luck, Hikari."
I cried.
What? It's not like I can deny it, that story got me crying just like Hikari.
Why did the poor Daisuke had to have a crush on her?
"The worst part" continued Hikari "is that I couln't talk to him after that. Just like Miyako he isn't answering my messages, or calls, or anything. I'm worried."
"Have you talked with Takeru about this?"
She denied with her head.
"I'm too scared to do so," explained Hikari "it's like I can't speak with Takeru as I did before."
"Why? What happened wit him?" I asked.
"It's just... he's been dating so many girls lately..."
'Wait...'
"And it's just frustrating!"
'Is that jeloussy?'
"So... you don't like watching Takeru with other girls?" I asked, beggining to get excited.
"Well... sort of," she answered "it's just... Takeru dates them for a few weeks at much and then... he leaves them and it's just..."
"Oh, I get your point," I said a little bit angry. Why did the cute and sweet Takeru I knew become a womanizer? "and I totally agreed with you."
"Right?! I'm tired of it: they cry a lot, and they hate me and..."
"Wait a minute," I interrupted "why do they hate you?"
She lowered her face shyly.
"They say it's my fault, that I'm the reason why Takeru leaves them all."
'Yes! Yes! Yes! This is fanthastic! I have to tell Sora about this!'
"Really?! But it isn't!"
"Well, it is in some way..." se answered "The most of his relationships end on tuesdays."
"Tuesday?"
What did that mean?
"Yeah, tuesday, is the day Takeru and I go out to eat some ice crean together."
"Every tuesday?"
"Yes, every tuesday."
'Cutest thing ever!'
"Takeru tells them he won't go on a date with them because it is tuezday and that's why they fight..."
"But that's cute, isn't it?" I told Hikari "He prefers going out with you before going on a date with them."
"Yeah, but no, I mean... agh! This is frustrating!" she yelled "It's just, it happens ever week and... I don't know... I feel like it's Takeru dates or me and..."
"You don't know wich one is better?"
"Exactly." she affirmed "I want Takeru to be happy with some girl but... I don't want him to leave me because of any girl."
She started crying again.
"I'm afraid I'll have to pick soon." she said between sobs.
"Oh c'mon Hikari, don't cry!" I huged her "Takeru will never leave you for any girl, he'll be happy anyways."
"It's just I don't think so!" she cried once again.
"Hikari, it won't be like that..."
"I told him something awfull today!" she exclaimed, making me get apart from her.
"What?"
"I said I was glad we weren't a couple," se explained "because I couldn't deal with a broken heart!"
She began to sob really strong. I started to cry too, why did it have to be so complicated?!
"And you meant it?" I asked.
She looked at me in confusion, probably thinking what to say.
"I- I don't know..." she answered "Somehow I did, I don't know what I would do if Takeru did to me what he does to other girl but... I know he is an amazing guy, and he'll be the best once he loves someone..."
'OMG, does that mean...?'
"Hikari," I began "what do you feel for Takeru?"
I'd like to say she blushed, but the tears that covered her face didn't let me know.
"I don't know," she answer "sometimes, I want to stop the time and stay just as we are forever, but sometimes... I just want to be even closer to him."
"Even closer to him?"
'Yes! I got it!'
"Hikari...do you like Takeru?"
There it was, I asked her the question.
"Like Takeru?" she doubted, but I knew she did... "Well, I think..."
"Hikari!" yelled Gatomon as she opened the door "Taichi is here!"
"Oh! Yeah, I'll go inmediatly... I'll just go to the bathroom a little bit."
And Hikari ran away.
And my hopes broke completely.
'I was so close..."
"Hey! Hikari!" said Taichi as he got into the room "Mimi wasn't at home so I just... Mimi?! What are you doing here? Where's my sister?"
"She's in the bathroom," I answered coldly "NOW GIVE ME MY DIGIVICE!"
"Hey! Ok! Calm down!" he exclaimed as he tent her de digivice "What happened to you?"
"It´s your fault, Taichi." she replied "Everything is your fault. Goodbye."
And like that, I went home, knowing that because of Taichi I couldn't hear Hikari's confession.
Ok, I decided to make a Hikari second par. Maybe I'll write the moment when they talk to each other and that would be all.
I hope yo liked it ;)