Lucas, Freya and Callum ran back the way we had just come probably racing each other. I ran at a slower pace with Cynthia at my side. She asked me about what happened in the canteen and she too seemed angry but nowhere near as much as Lucas had been. Not far from our house I caught a different scent. It wasn't Cynthia, or even an animal. It was Alice. I stopped dead and listened ever so carefully. I could hear nothing but Cynthia's light footsteps and a few animals rustling around in the bushes. She stopped just as soon as I had and ran back to me.
'Bella? Come on, were almost there' she said urging me to move but my feet were planted firmly on the ground.
'Cynthia, can you do me a massive favour?' I pleaded. She sniffed the air and her body tensed slightly, she new exactly what I was going to ask.
'You want to see her don't you?' she whispered and then sighed 'Lucas is going to kill me'.
'Please, please, please' I begged 'you know she won't hurt me because we used to be best mates. I promise I'll make sure Lucas doesn't do anything'. She looked towards our house then back at me.
'Fine' she said giving in 'but you can only see the girl. I don't want you in anymore danger than you're already in and try to get back soon. I don't want to argue with Lucas all night'.
'Thank you so much' I said flinging my arms around her into a tight hug and smiling crazily.
'Don't be long' she reminded me and ran off towards our home. I ran in the opposite direction as fast as possible, eager to find Alice. The scent began to grow stronger the further into the forest I went and I became more excited every second that passed. Animals retreated when they heard me tearing through the wood, dodging the trees. I jumped over a river and carried on. I could sense her near me now, hear her breathing. I stopped twenty feet away from where she stood a young deer in her arms. When she heard me she dropped the deer and twisted into a crouching position growling. Of course I would have forgotten her reaction towards me. To her I was just a vampire threat trying to invade her territory. She wouldn't have recognized me seen as I had changed so much and it was at least sixty years ago since we last met.
I stared into her honey gold eyes and memorized her face that I had missed for so long. She was snarling at me threateningly and shifted her weight slightly ready to fight. In that moment my instincts took over and I couched down mimicking her position. She snarled again not once taking her eyes off me. I quickly shook my head trying to remember why I was here. Not to fight but to talk. I stood up straight ignoring my senses that there was danger near and stopped the low growling in my chest. Alice gave me a confused look but didn't relax her position.
'Alice' I said hoping she would recognize my voice though it must be completely different since I had become a vampire. She continued to stare at me viciously but confusion began to leak into her features.
'Please, Alice. Don't fight me' I whispered and her hard golden eyes grew a little softer. She stood up but was still tense. Confusion now covered her face.
'Do I know you?' she asked in her musical voice, now relaxing slightly as she saw I wouldn't try to hurt her. My mind brought in memories of speaking to Alice but her voice had never sounded as magical as this. My newly found thoughts hadn't done her justice at all.
'It's Bella' I told her, watching her expressions carefully 'Bella Swan'. When she heard my name a dozen emotions crossed her face in one long second. There was happiness, pain, confusion, excitement, understanding and at the end her eyes lit up.
'Bella? Really?' she asked staring a little wearily but she couldn't conceal her excitement. I just nodded and smiled.
'Since when did you become a – a vampire?' she asked almost in amazement seeing my pale skin and golden eyes.
'Since I decided I had had enough of trying to live without you' I said acid in my voice. We both knew I wasn't just talking about her but her whole family. I had been glad to some extent that I had forgotten my human experiences for most of my life. If I had to live with that I wouldn't have survived even though I was more durable than I had been.
'This is fantastic!' she cried, probably too excited to hear the pain in my voice of what I had just said 'Just you wait till I tell everyone!' A picture of Edward entered my head at that moment. He wouldn't be happy to see me. When he had left me he thought it was going to be the last time he would have to see me but now that I was a vampire, I would just be an eternal annoyance. It pained me to know this; would our lives have been better for the both of us if we had never met? I knew the answer would be yes but I couldn't imagine a world where Edward wasn't in it.
'Oh no, please Alice. Don't tell anyone I'm here, or at least not yet. I only came to talk to you. My mind has been so blank for so long' I told her remembering that I had a time limit. Even if I did want to see them Lucas would be enraged.
'What do you mean your mind has been so blank for so long?' she asked, obviously curious.
'When I became a vampire all my human memories had been lost. I only remembered them today after sixty years of being in the dark and trust me, it wasn't a pleasant surprise' I said coldly.
'Yeah, about that' she shifted her weight uncomfortably trying to find the right words 'I'm so sorry Bella. We shouldn't have left you like that and without a proper goodbye' she shook her head 'it was incredibly hard to stay away from you. You must know we did it for all the right reasons though'.
'Right reasons?! Alice you left me bleeding!' I shouted unable to keep my voice calm, anger visible all over my face 'if it wasn't for Lucas I'd be dead by now!'
'I know, I know and I'm so very sorry. It was wrong of us, we shouldn't of left. It didn't do much good anyway, he was wrong to think you would be safe on your own but you need to talk to Edward. There is so much he needs to tell you, so much you need to understand' she pleaded sadness in her eyes.
'I think I understand perfectly well. He didn't love me anymore so he left me. End of story' I snapped.
'Please Bella, just say you'll talk to him. For me? You really must know why' she was still pleading with me.
'Why should I? I already know anyway. Why would I want to talk to someone who hates me? Who has been out enjoying himself while I sat depressed putting on a show for Charlie?' I growled, it was hard to speak these words.
'He doesn't hate you!' Alice shouted back 'and if you think he was out enjoying himself then you must be sadly mistaken!' This surprised me and I was speechless. Alice took a deep breath while composing herself and looked back to me.
'Bella, your not the only one who has been through a depression' she said in a calm, quiet voice 'our whole family hasn't been the same without you. Edward doesn't move, doesn't speak and we always have to force him to hunt. It isn't right and I know it's impossible but he seems like he's dying. I know he would go to the Volturi if we let him but he's only holding onto a strand of hope and that's thinning rapidly'.
'What hope? And why would he be depressed?' I asked, through guilt maybe? He was the one who had caused my human death after all.
'We keep telling him that there's still a chance that you're alive seen as we never found your body. He knew this was extremely unlikely but he still held onto it. It's the only thing that's keeping him alive' her eyes grew darker and pain was in her musical voice. 'Please, please go see him'.
'Alice, I don't know if I can' I whispered, pain tearing through my chest. I had forgotten about it through the whole conversation and now it burned just as much as it had in the canteen.
'Maybe not now but will you promise you will come see us? Just to say hi at least? It would help our whole family if you would' she asked staring deep into my eyes. I sighed.
'Okay, but when I'm ready and I don't know how long that will be' I replied and her arms swung around me in a vice like grip.
'Thank you so much, Bella!' she said pulling away to smile at me. I looked at the sky and it was already dark. Dammit! I was in so much trouble at home.
'I really have to go now Alice but I'll talk to you tomorrow' I told her. She hugged me one last time and I turned to sprint away into the forest.
Hi =D Was that okay? I'm really not good at writing as Alice. Do you guys think I should do a part in Edwards P.O.V? I've been thinking about it and it might explain some things but I'm still not sure.