The Long Way Home
A/N I do not own anything CH and AB do. Any mistakes are my own.
Chapter 5
I was woken up by the bus driver at the Mexican border. I was in Mexico? Well I just hoped it was far enough. Once safely across, I assessed my situation. In my purse I found five thousand in travellers cheques, seven hundred in cash and twelve hundred in the deposit bag that me and Jay never got to deposit. This was the money I was going to take on my honeymoon, my honeymoon that I'll never have.
My ticket was for Monterrey but I decided to go a little farther and got off in Leon. I took a cab to the nearest cheap motel and got a room with a small kitchenette. Once inside I went straight to bed and cried. I blamed everyone but myself. Where was Claudine wasn't she suppose to come when I needed it. Why had she abandoned me and let Jay die.
"I hate you Claudine where were you when I needed you. You abandoned me like everyone else" I yelled to no one. POP.
"Now Sookie I didn't abandon you, I could not interfere" came Claudine's voice from the corner of the room.
"Yes you did" I replied like a petulant child.
"I was watching and ready to intervene if you needed me. When the vampires grabbed you I sent you power and you were able to get away. I'm sorry Sookie but Jared was not mine to protect" she soothed.
"He was to be my husband, the one I spent my life with" I sobbed.
"I want you to think about something Sookie. When you looked at Jared what did you see, who did you see? Yeah you loved him but was he in your heart? Or did your heart belong to someone else?" she kissed my forehead and disappeared.
Did Jay have my heart? Who did I see? The image that popped into my mind was that of Eric. My Eric when we had connected in the office that day it was more than our bodies that rejoiced. I felt deep down that he was my other half. It didn't bother me that my soul mate was a vampire love is love. When Eric died I thought I would never love again but along came Jay. Jay was exactly what I needed and he became apart of me but my heart belonged to Eric. Would always belong to him.
The more I thought about it the more I realized I chose Jay for his resemblance to Eric. I mean it wasn't that he just looked like Eric but he acted like him somewhat as well. He was charming, sneaky and a little possessive. I don't feel that I used Jay but I gave him all I could give and I hope that it had been enough.
After a few days of grieving I got up. I showered, had something to eat and decided for the baby's sake to live. I got dressed in the same clothes I had worn the past few days and headed out to find a mall. I bought some clothes, food and water. I rented a car and decided to do some site seeing. I bought a disposable camera and decided to make a photo album in memory of Jared. To show that I was alive and would be strong for the baby. I realized then that I would always have apart of Jay, that he would infact live on.
I started to get practical and realized that the money wouldn't last long and that Dean must wonder what happened. I mean when they found Jay, wouldn't they wonder what happened to me? What was I going to do about my bar? If I stayed away I could lose everything. Could I risk going back? I might have to. If I went back after the baby was born they might take him/her. I still had a lot to think about and I was still alone.
I was lost in deep thought when I heard knocking at the door. Why would someone be knocking at my door? I sent out my feelers and felt a void. Shit! I grabbed the silver knife under my bed and began to panic.
"Relax Sookie and open the door" came Pam's voice. I slightly relaxed and opened the door.
"You found me, it took ya awhile" I said.
"Well, your in Mexico Sookie that's a lot farther then New York. The bond we share isn't a homing device where I can see your red dot and pin point your exact location" she argued.
"Ok, I'm sorry. Why did you come? I'm not your responsibility, besides people have a habit of dying around me and if you died to, that might break me" I confessed.
"Your not broken now?" she asked genuinely confused.
"No. I cared for Jay but he wasn't the one that held my heart" I said sadness sweeping threw me at the thought of Eric.
"Good. You need to be strong" that's Pam for ya. I kind of laughed at the thought. That's when I realized that there was another void just outside the door. I held the knife towards Pam and scowled.
"Did you bring someone else to help take me back?" I sneered.
"No I could do that on my own. Don't look at me like that. I brought you a present" she said with a smile. She went to the door and opened it. My breath was stolen away when I realized Eric was standing there in the doorway. My beautiful Viking. I slowly approached the door taking in the site before me. Eric looked like he was memorizing me as well. He placed his left hand on the barrier that kept him out. I placed my left hand against his.
"Come in Eric" I said and then well I passed out.
When I came to I was laying on the bed, Eric beside me stroking his fingers through my hair. He was watching me intently.
"Your really here? I thought it was all a dream" I said.
"I'm here" he replied.
"How?" I asked. Then I remembered.
"The ring, it worked? What happened to Jay?" I asked.
"He was dying Sookie and he must have let me in. I'm sorry" Eric said and he seemed sincere.
"It's ok Eric. He was a wonderful man and he was there when I needed him but my heart has always belonged to you. I wished we had more time together the first time but now your back and with me. Your staying right?" I asked fear in my voice.
"It was you who brought me back Sookie, your love set me free. I'm yours" he said and kissed me. Oh how I missed those lips, missed this vampire, my vampire. I pulled back and looked him in the eye.
"And I, I'm yours" I said and kissed him back.
TBC