I skipped off down the hall like a little school girl. It didn't matter I was 17. I was so full of life and happy, He loved me. Jt still loved me! After all the fighting and almost losing him I never thought it would be possible or I would ever hear those words again. I went out into the waiting room and went to the parking lot where I started Jt's old car since his grandma lent it to me so I could go visit him. Every one would be in school right now and I should have been to but I had a free period and decided just to throw caution to the wind and go. I sneaked back in the building and walked past the office hoping that they wouldn't notice I just walked in or that I had been out of study hall. Sneaking like I did today was great, it filled my veins with adrenaline and I knew now why Jt loved to be sneaky it was such a rush. I didn't feel like my self the one bit. I had been in a depression for weeks hoping that he would wake, not smiling and of course getting into fights with Mia, that princess that still thought she owned his heart. Well bitch he loved me. I didn't just think that. I walked into the library and got on to one of the computers and logged on to email. I sent an email to Emma, Manny and Toby.

Hey guys,

I went and visited Jt a few minutes ago, I'll explain later since I know Simpson can read these. But any ways he woke up! I stood at the window and watch as he couldn't talk and he needed the doctors attention so him being typical Jt instead of making noise he decided to throw a cup at the doctor and she jumped and gave a shriek because it hit her butt. I could see he was laughing, but that didn't last long because he wanted to gag at the tube being pulled out. He began talking to the doctor but I couldn't hear the conversation. Needless to say I talked to him and HE STILL LOVES ME. But I may of realized we run into a problem, I may have kissed Jt in the excitement and well he still stands with Mia right? All though he wants footage of our hospital fight. That was the first thing he spoke of how he wanted to watch a replay. Tobes ignore the next bit its for the girls,

Told you Manny! I knew it even though we fought. You said forget about him. But what do I do now, the doctor sorta kicked me out since I got Jt's heart running, oops.:)

Liberty.

I clicked send and I not even ten minutes later I heard the excitement from Manny and Emma, I heard Toby clearly say "Holly shit." I bit back my laughter and logged off and walked out into the hall where I heard Mr. Simpson, call for Manny and Emma to come back to class. They met me in the middle of the hall.

"You can't be serious Liberty." Emma spoke excitement dripping from her voice.

"Have I smiled since hes been out, I can't wipe this stupid grin off my face." It was true I couldn't. I could still feel his lips as if they sparked mine to life.

"How did you of all people sneak out? That is a so un Liberty thing to do." I truly don't know why I risked it in the first place yet now glad that I did. I looked at Manny.

"I'm not sure no one missed me. I just sneaked in and out. I just wanted to see him hoping maybe I wouldn't be so depressed." They gave me knowing looks. They tried to cheer me up but I walked around like a robot as Mia called me on fight number one.

"Well now all he has to do is say its over with Mia and you two can be happy again lord knows you two weren't with all the secret glances and the way he wouldn't joke like usual. He even was reserved with Mia." I knew they way he'd hug me in front of her, joke loudly as I passed by or yell at me for the student council incident. But I knew I had to change to keep him because I saw what the school was like with out him, how dull the halls were. No one who knew him joked because he usually started the jokes and the tensions ran high between the two schools that are now joined. Degrassi sat sullen and broken while Lakehurst ran around like monkeys. The bell rang and the halls filled with people, we separated ways till the end of the day. The Degrassi kids were getting sick of Lakehurst and really wanted them to go home. I still realized that only four knew that Jt was going to be ok I walked to the office and waited to talk to Hatzilakos. She showed me into her office.

"Now Ms. Van Zandt what can I do for you?" I explained to her of Jt waking and she asked of my visit.

"Now that I don't approve of students sneaking off grounds, especially the class president. But no one saw you which means I can't punish you for that fact. I do however think in tomorrows morning announcements you shall speak of Jt awakening. That will be all then please Liberty, go home, visit friends, live a little." I got out of my chair and went to the dot where I met up with Emma, Manny and Toby.

"So Liberty he's really awake?"

"Yes his dimwitted friend." I loved Toby but he sometimes was thick skull-ed and it took a lot of prodding to get anything through. But he remained loyal to Jt.

"So what are you going to tell your dad?" Oh shit. I forgot I would eventually had to tell them of Jt again. That would not go over well, Dad was still mad at me because I was tainted in his view ever since I got pregnant. It was like his friends meant more to him then his own daughter. He didn't even speak to me any more and didn't get excitement from my accomplishments.

"Lets just say were not seeing eye to eye currently." Toby understood but Emma and Manny had no idea. It was getting late when we parted ways and I drove home. My mom was in the kitchen.

"Hello dear."

"Hey mom, Jt woke up today." She turned to me.

"Oh yeah?" I started to falter under her glare she didn't exactly like Jt either.

"Yeah, and he still loves me." I said it, she looked like she slumped in defeat.

"Liberty be wise, you just started to seem to get better before that party. Look at all the bad." she would be the one to pop my bubble so to speak.

"Mom I love him and never stopped, we had a child together, we both made our mistakes but you can't believe he was the source of the problem when I made my own mistakes, you cant let what I've done obscure who I really am."

"So really your this girl who will keep running back to this guy all because he says he loves you? Hes broken you so many times, Liberty you can't want that again."

"I never stopped wanting him, I used to be young and had a huge crush on him and you didn't mind then, Why do you hate him so?" My mom steeled her self, and I stood full height. This happened a lot lately, any discussion of Jt was always an argument.

"I don't hate him, I'm angry with him. I've known him to be in trouble, he did drugs remember?"

"Only because I told him off, he made mistakes and I made mine, but you don't stop loving someone because of what happened. If something bad were to happen between you or dad would you stop loving him?" She broke she started to cry, she never was one to cry my mother was always apart of the high class, the people my dad associated her self with and those were the ones that sought perfection. I was the exact opposite of perfection in her mind I was an abomination.

"I wouldn't but Liberty if you go that road then I cannot help you, you would not be welcome here. Your father gave you stern warning after the drugs. Hes not the good kind." He was good, he made his mistakes but he had the right heart.

"No hes not perfect and neither am I. No one is perfection mom. But What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. Remember that saying mom, you used to say it to me every time I thought I wasn't perfect. But listen to the saying, you don't see what lies within Jt like I do. You only see his actions. If that is how I am to be viewed then I guess I don't want to live here any more." She collapsed but I felt free, now I could be viewed not by my actions, not have to strive to feel something I don't all so other people feel like I'm perfect. Screw what they think and screw them for not seeing what I actually am. I walked the carpeted floors and into my room where I grabbed a couple of duffel bags and shoved all the clothes I could in them. I grabbed my blanket and pillow and walked out the front door never to look back. I stowed my things in the trunk and only then did I realize that the car was a mess. I cleaned out all the garbage from the back seat and the front and did the most imperfect thing I could think of I threw the garbage all over my parents front yard before I slammed the door and sped off. I drove the cold Canada streets till I got to Jt's grandmas house. I knocked on the door and she answered.

"Liberty! I didn't expect to see you everything alright? Come in, Come in." I walked into the house and I sat down on the old sofa.

"I just came by to tell you Jt woke up today." She smiled at me.

"I know that boy called me and gave me a fright. Him and his jokes. He did say some interesting things though like you two kissed? He was a bit confused on what to do next." I smiled Jt would try and scare his grandmother and he would ask her for help.

"I'm not sure his next move is up to him." She looked at the clock and saw it was going on 9:30.

"Do your parents know your out this late?" I looked down at my hands, did I tell her my parents kicked me out or do I lie. My conscience won in the end.

"I got kicked out. My mom said if I was to love Jt I wasn't welcome." She moved over to me and wrapped an arm around me.

"That is a horrible thing for a parent to do but I know it happens. Jt's dad left him and his mom, so I took them in. I'm old in age and don't want to raise another child but if you would like to live here then you can have the spare room. I generally reserve for Jt's mom when she feels like visiting. You will have your fair share of work around here as does James but if you can handle that then I see no foul in you staying, since most likely James would want me to offer this to you. But only to you because I like you more than that Mia and saw the footage of the fights, Toby sent them to me. I never did think she was right for my James. By the way nice right hook." I had to laugh that Jt's grandmother was so nice and so there for me and on my side with the whole Mia thing. I went out side to grab my bags and put them in the room as I put a few things away and a few touches to the room I settled for sleep and it was the first night in weeks I hadn't cried my self to sleep.