I woke and found my self in a strange bed. I got up and looked out the door when it hit me I was in Jt's house, my mom kicked me out after I decided to be with Jt. I closed the door and looked at the clock on the nightstand it read 5:30. I shrugged I had to get ready, I gabbed my robe and went into the bathroom. I turned on the shower and shook out my ratty hair that formed when I slept. I stepped in the shower to wash before I started any venture.

As I stepped out into a steamed out bathroom I looked into the mirror and I looked a lot better. I actually looked like I got sleep and it did me good to have the bags gone from under my eyes. I put on my robe as I ventured out into the hall. Mrs. Yorke's bedroom door was closed. I ventured past Jt's room and decided to see if it was the same. I opened the door and saw the curtains were up all the way and the wood in the room was dusty, the thing that stuck out the most was his messy bed. I walked over to the bed and saw his phone. I knew I shouldn't but I picked it up. He had talked with Tobes asking him if he knew where oatmeal was and that a meatball sub was on vacation. I was thoroughly confused. I saw the messages he sent to Mia one conversation in particular after I turned down the day care.

Mia: I can't stand her, how can she continue to knock you down. No wonder you broke up with her she is a controlling bitch.

Jt: something was going on with her she usually isn't like that, that was like a liberty bot or something.

Mia: You still defend her, remember you were the one who called her liberty 3000.

Jt: Mia stop, I said that in anger and no matter how angry I was at her it isn't her fault and I shouldn't of said that, I was just so angry we gave the kid away, my son has moved and I tried to keep him but I failed now I wont be able to see him because hes moved to Seattle. It was hard on both of us.

Mia: I wouldn't of singed, I did it on my own why didn't you?

He had a message that he never sent.

Jt: It wouldn't be right to keep my son if the mother wasn't in the picture and I screwed up with her by overdosing on Oxycontin. I sold it and lost her it was my biggest mistake.

I was a little pissed at the Liberty 3000 comment but seeing him and knowing he was so sad that we had to give up our son didn't help. Things were rough between us because we didn't talk. I put the phone back not wanting to read anymore of his messages.

I walked back out into the hall and slipped into my room to get dressed. I realized I still hadn't written my English assignment nor the morning announcements. I grabbed my laptop and walked down to the kitchen table where I grabbed a bowl of cereal and began to write the morning denouncements. By the time I finished I saw the clock read seven and school started in a half hour. Mrs. Clooney came in the room.

"Liberty what are you doing up so early?"

"School today, I had to write somethings before class." I was glad of my study hall was before my English class today hoping I could write the assignment but if not hoping Kwan would give me an extension. I put my bowl in the sink and went to grab my backpack and a light jacket since there was a slight chill. I said goodbye before I drove off to Degrassi. I walked into the building fifteen minutes before the bell was to ring for home room I walked to the media room where Toby was directing everything.

"Liberty. Are you ready?" I sat on my customary stool as I was handed a script of the last day's events. The light went on and I did the announcements.

Liberty Van Zandt here still filling in for Jt Yorke, In current news students are reminded that fighting between the schools is still going to be punished. Students are not to linger in the halls to reduce traffic back up. The lady panthers clinched another win yesterday against school Bardell, our lady Panthers are now 5-0 go girls. In later news, Lakehurst students you are reminded that the lunch room is for eating not going around like crazy monkeys. As a last bit of news you Degrassi students should be happy to hear Jt finally woke up in the hospital and is doing well. This is Liberty Van Zandt signing off saying Keep the peace.

The light went off and I breathed a sigh of relief. Tobes took the script and I walked into Media Immersions. Mr. Simpson pulled me off to the side.

"Nice email but next time, can you try to not give big news so I lose my students?" I nodded before I went and sat down in my chair, the seat next to me may have remained empty but soon he would return. Prissy Mia came over to me.

"Liberty how do you know Jt is awake?" I wanted to say well I kissed him and your gone out the door good bye.

"I visited him and talked to him yesterday." She sat in his usually vacant seat.

"Did he say anything about me?" She only thought of her self not even a hows he doing.

"No."

"What did he say?"

"What he said is none of your business. It is between me and him, now unless you want another right hook I suggest you leave me alone." Mia got up and turned my chair so I was facing her, I noticed that Emma, Manny stood in the door, they waited and watched.

"No it is my business he is my boyfriend."

"No what I said to him and what he said to me is our business." I stood and was a fraction taller than her.

"You may think you have Jt but you will never know him like I do. I've been with him since day one, we might not be on the best terms all the time but I will never stop loving him even if you do." Mia raised her hand and bitched slapped me. Manny then walked over and pulled Mia back.

"You are a bitch, who drove him to drugs, you gave up your son with him and made him miserable, you never did deserve him, but then I guess if you put out then you will have his love." Emma came over to me.

"Go to your daughter and leave me the hell alone. You good for nothing bitch. Don't ever call me a slut, you are in no position to talk mommy." I struggled to get free from Emma but she held tight, Manny dragged Mia out in the hall and Mr. Simpson.

"Ms. Van Zandt and Ms. Jones detention tonight for your language and fighting." Emma let me go and I sat down. Mia walked over to her class and I just stared at the computer, did Jt really love me because we had a kid or was it me?

"Lib, Jt loves you for you, nothing you do will change that. Don't listen to her sweetie." Manny was right yet I had to sit detention with evil. I sat through class and went to study hall. I just stared at the computer screen and I thought of what to type.

My biggest mistake By Liberty Van Zandt... I only could get the title. What did I use there were so many. Giving up my child, Walking away from Jt, Telling Jt off, Losing my parents love.

To grow is to make mistakes, I have made many. Most are bigger than little ones, ones I cant take back and do over no matter how much I want to. I have not one but four major mistakes. These are mistakes I will regret and there nothing like a bad grade and where I can take a redo test. These are things that some can never be replaced like my son, or some that could be replaced but it would mean I have to give up what I love to be someone I'm not.

My first mistake that led to many problems was, I got pregnant last year and I waited five months before I told the baby's father. I was angry at him since I blamed it on him and his choice in size. Jt was worried he did something wrong and he did but it was ultimately my mistake, there was a lot I could of done in those five months but I chose to ignore it to the last minute where I screamed at him in a bit of anger that I was pregnant. In the following months he broke up with me, because I was controlling and took my frustration out on him. He said he wouldn't abandon me and the baby so we looked for places to live, but I put to much pressure on him, leading him to his mistake and me leaving him for good. I often wonder where we would stand if I gave him five more months to plan. Would I be standing here alone and baby less or would I be with him raising our child.

His mistake led to my biggest regret or mistake. After Jt was put in the hospital, put on suicide watch and ultimately unable to help the baby I realized we were to young, to raise this child on our own and we had no support so I went to the adoption agency where, I practically signed my baby away. Our child now lives in Seattle which means I can't even see him. I can't help him grow into a man like his father or show him he would be loved no matter what he does. Giving Sam away was the hardest thing I had to do and I did it alone.

My last mistake is not really a mistake for me but my parents. I got kicked out of my house for loving Jt, My parents don't see me for who I am. I'm no longer perfect and I can't be as shown to my fathers friends, all because I found love and made a mistake. They gave me an ultimatum him or them, and I chose him. I lost their love that day and it saddens me they won't watch me grow, watch me love and be loved, but mostly I regret not being able to have both. I made the mistakes I did and I don't regret having a child, especially after recent events. If Jt were to go a part of him would always walk this earth till the end of time.

Mistakes helped me grow, realize that perfection while sought after is not reachable. I was held under the tense be perfect and perfection will be you. But mistakes make us imperfect, Human. If I was perfect then life would be easy, I wouldn't be kicked out of my house, alone, and I would have my son in my arms, looking into his fathers brown eyes while he held jet black hair.

I printed my script to hand in thankful I got it done. The bell rang as the paper printed hot off the press. I walked into Kwan's class and sat in my seat towards the back. A lot of things had changed , I was on my own finally having to own up to responsibility and I figured id get a job, support my self and save till I went to college. The class filled up and Kwan walked in.

"Class today your papers are due and I think we will have you read them to the class, to show that no one is perfect and we all have our mistakes, Liberty shall you go first?" Oh no, Mia was going to kill me after I read this but maybe it will make her understand. I walked up to the front and looked to Jt's seat and knew he would want me to read my piece so that is what I did.

The class was silent after I finished and I waited with baited breath for someone to break the tension, Mia was glaring at me. Emma and Manny were just starring at me. Finally Toby asked a question I'm sure every one had.

"Where are you living?"

"Jt's house in the spare room, I was left back in my house after the adoption but kicked out last night again for reasons I would not share."

"Why are you living at my boyfriends house?" Mia spoke.

"Because Jt's grandma was always family to me, nice when my parents weren't and I just turned there." Mrs. Kwan finally spoke.

"Your piece is good Liberty. Objective is there, lots of mistakes as you put them to be, overall good job." I took my seat and waited the rest of my day out. I drove to the house after school and saw a note on the fridge.

Liberty,

Make your self at home I've gone to the store.

I walked to Jt's room and I saw a photo, It was of him, Danny and I while I was pregnant he looked happy, I did to.