I woke up in the shadows I blinked and looked around where the hell was I? My powers protected me I was in the castle pool area Looked around I walked across the shadows to my apartment I fell on my bed and lied down I just wanted to rest I plugged my phone in and slept it rang groaned and answered

"Yeah?"

Zarina como estas?

"Mama? Soy bien, soy ordmethia"

Ah con promesas, tu dredmate llame me cuando vanten

"Si mama te quiero mucho me Amo"

Me amor tambien mi mouniqa

I smiled and hung up I loved my mother her and Nathan we were all each other had and now our family was growing. would I ever want a family some day? No I wanted to drink and party and smoke and fuck. I wasnt ready for a relationship. I knew wasn't I got up and showered scrubbing I blared benni benassi satisfaction and shaved and showered. I scrubbed and washed I stepped out and put on underwear. I was in purple lace panites with light blue ribbons. It was from victoria secrets dark angel collection. I loved these underwear I brushed my hair and teeth and groomed I put on long socks and grabbed a robe I danced across my wood floor and slid and danced like a moron. I skipped in place and turned I started to see Caius he was grinning at me viciously laughter in his eyes he.

"you call that dancing?"

He yelled I stared at him blinking it was loud I pushed it and put my long hair up I stared at him the weird guy he seemed frozen unmoving he was staring openly I placed a hand on my hip he looked at me

"Would you like a picture? It lasts longer"

Be looked shocked Caius smirked he didn't say anything I narrowed my eyes

"Look you're in my house and I wear whatever the hell I want, next time knock, how did you get in here anyway?"

I asked caius he smiled holding up keys I walked up and snatched them he stared surprised I had the gall,

"What a drink? "

"Should you be drinking at this hour? When was the last time you fed?"

"You're right I should eat? Are you hungry? I love that sandwich place on Vetta"

I said I pondered this

"That involves going outside are you certain you want to do that?"

"Ill just order out, "

I said and walked towards my couch I plopped down and grabbed my phone

"You're not going to put cloths on?"

"Again this is my house"

"My brother is quite embarrassed and would prefer it"

I shrugged and stood up I went to my room and grabbed a cotton red spring dress and went to my couch and ordered online.

"Would you guys like anything to eat?"

I asked looking up Aro looked at me I stared he gulped and shook his head he wore a very expensive suit and his hair tied back I tilted my head and blinked

"You've conformed to society, im disappointed I shall save you from the dark side and return you to gaming world."

He stared at me unresponsive his mouth opened slightly and he didn't speak I blinked ok I cleared my throat and looked at Caius. The door buzzed oh thank god

"Chinese express"

I stared and grabbed the food I had lo mein and inhaled it pork fried rice. 12 pot stickers egg drop soup. Five egg rolls and sweet and sour sauce. I looked at Caius who seemed alarmed

"Hungry?"

"I haven't eaten in days and I feel great I think its nap time"

"We have come for a reason"

"Oh whats up?"

He looked at Aro I looked at him blinking locking eyes he didn't say anything he looked stuck and hs took a breath and was about to speak when there was a knock I looked up and went to the door and saw Ciela I smiled

"Hey stranger"

"Zarina having fun?"

"Yeah I love the Estate come on in thank you for knocking by the way"

I said she looked confused and saw Caius I pushed play and I went to the fridge and stared shocked

"Woah hey! Who bought food?"

I asked confused I looked up

"And wheres my goddamn booze?"

"I bought you food, your brother contacted me about the Estate he wanted to maKe sure you weren't paRtying"

"Fuck that,"

I scoffed and pushed play project x blared I grinned and sang

Im on the pursuit of happiness and I know

Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold,

Hey i'll be fine once I get Head

Hey i'll be good

I moved and danced all the way outside standing in the sun and moving my hips and had. Drink in hand I sipped it and sang moving my head. I relaxed on the hammock

"Zarina"

"Say my name say my name"

I sang

"Say my name say my name"

She laughed I lied on the hammock

"Nap time"

"You need to eat"

"I just stuffed myself like a starved african child I wamt to take a nap sip on my drink and bask in the sunlight before darkness takes me over"

I said opened a smaLl red container I dropped two tabs and smiled

"What is that are you eating paper"

I smiled and grinned like. Cheshire cat I ignored her and moved to the music I put on headphones and sprawl on the hammock and relax into the pillows I swing and fall into peace.

I walked around the city it was pretty I found favorite lunch spots and clubs. I started going out to raves and other things. I loved Volterra and true to my word to Caius I didn't bother them. But I always felt paranoid like I was being followed. I wore my black and red hot dress one strap red and a red frill going down I had planned to get laid tonight its been awhile since I was with a anyone. Or gotten laid. I walked downstairs and stood in my high heels. My hair curled around me I looked up and saw Chris he looked shocked to see me. And scared I stare and saw Aro and Caius I smiled

"Hi Caius"

I said and looked at him he turned and looked at me the anger melted into surprise and shock he smiled I stared

"You're wearing actual cloths"

"I dont plan to be wearing anything tonight, I have a date"

"And what will you be doing on this date?"

I turned who said that it was so soft I barely heard it.

"What will you be doing on this date"

Caius asked I smiled wickedly

"Do you really wanna know? cause i'll tell you, no shame in my game honey"

He chuckled and looked at his brother I looked at Aro I stared he stared at me I smiled

"Hello"

He stared his mouth open slightly he looked surprised and then just stared was he a mute? Was he deaf? I stare yeah or just fucking stare at me. Because thats just better then not responding. I felt annoyed

"Or not, by the way i'm throwing a party this weekend so were going to be in the pool area"

"What?"

"Im throwing a party, with people unlike you antisocial butterflies I like having fun, you and anyone else is welcome to come, be warned there are going to be massive amounts of drugs. and i'm probably going to trashed the entire night. "

"As opposed to every other night"

I laughed and agreed

"Well this was lovely thank for stopping by,"

"How are you getting to the rave?"

I looked at Chris he was going too

"i'm walking"

He stared

"Why don't you drive?"

"I don't own a car"

"What why?"

"Because gas is 8.89, but a bottle of moscato on sale is 4.35. And I don't believe in driving under the influence"

I said pointing my well manicured finger at him Caius just started laughing I put a blunt to my lips and lit up

"See ya there"

I said and walked outside It was dark I headed toward the parking lot and fell into shadow I found I could shift the shadows around me, moving in them just by standing in place I went through the darkest parts and wound up in the warehouse area I walked out and smiled at the other ravers I paid my fee and went inside I got to the bar area and ordered a drink the music blared I hung out in my favorite boot half covered in shadow. It said private and I had a drink in hand. I watched and set out my cocaine I cut it and snorted a few lines I moved shifting to the dance floor I bought an ounce and hid my purse in the shadows I danced blaring to eat sleep rave repeat. I danced and danced the drugs coursing through me. I danced and moved I was tapped on the shoulder and I turned and smiled seeing Chris he looked surprised

"When did you get here?"

He yelled I laughed and danced moving my hips, i smiled and kissed a girl I was having a blast and just dancing when chris pulled me

"Hey come on you've been dancing for hours you need water"

I laughed but let him get me two water bottles I did more coke and shivered smiling.

"Im going to be heading home soon its almost 2am, do you need a ride?"

"No im good im going home with that guy"

I said and walked toward the bar smiling at a really hot italian man. He smiled he was hunky brawny tall green eyes sun kissed skin. I flirted and found myself screaming in his apartment. We had sex for hours. I pant it was almost 11. I was sore I felt great I smiled we had used so many condoms. I smiled he fell asleep I left my number and shifted through the gray, I got home and walked across the lawn I felt as if someone was looking at me. I looked up my high heels I hand I saw a long tower window and stared I saw a woman she looked down at me through stained glass windows. I blinked and got into the building I went to my flat and walked in I removed my clothes and showered. i slept off the next few days responding to my mom and brother at intervals.I wore my bathing suit and a robe I walked out to the pool with my weed and drugs in hand. I sat down outside basking in the sunlight. I smiled listened to some music and relaxed I smiled remembering the sex I just had. It was good thats all it ever was it just feels good. But the feeling always leaves me. I always feel empty, I frowned I wasn't going to have sex anymore. I basked in the sun I had bruises on my legs arms and neck. We got violent I went inside as it got darker and went to the bar