I came out of my closet and walked into my flat and undressed I showered and washed off, I called Nathan back.
How was light travel?
"I went to the Estate"
When? How was it?
"light travel so much faster than shadow, and it was alright another probation worker died, killed Zombie cheerleaders."
He laughed
Nathan who are ya talking to? its Zarina. Tell her I say ello.
"Hello Marnie"
She says hello, oh about Holiday I asked mom and she said we can visit ya in Italy this year, you have the room and we could explore the countryside. It won't be Holland
"Ok, ill set the rooms up"
Perfect Marnie and Nathan Jr will be with us as well of course your mom and Darien
"Great thats all the family then"
Not quite
"Who am I missing?"
I pondered he took a breath
I think we should invite da
I started laughing
He aint got no one.
"Thats because hes a pathetic old drunk and no one wants ta be around him"
Yer following in his footsteps
"Id never walk out on my family,"
Calm down calm down, he just wants ta make things right with ya
"No"
Zarina
"No I don't like him and it won't turn out well"
Cause yer not letting go,
"Im sorry if I dont give a rats ass about the man who abandoned me as a child."
He abandoned me too love, just think about it.
I huffed and scowled
Don't go acting like a child he's still yer da
"Hes a jackass"
I know but hes family
"I'll think about it"
Its all we ask, well I love ya eat something and get yerself some cock ya won't be such a bitch
"Thanks alot"
Yer welcome
"Ok I love you brother ill talk to you later"
I love ya sister be safe ill talk ta ya tomorrow
I hung up and headed down stairs I looked at the other flats they were nice decorated just as pretty, I put my mom and Nathan on the same floor I would have to air them out and upkeep on cleaning. At least once a week until the holidays. I walked down toward the pool and popped open some moscato
"Hey stranger"
I looked up to see Felix
"Hello Felix"
I said and moved my hips and Imma be played I grinned and crimped in place
"Where you been"
"When?"
I asked confused I danced and mixed my drink I sipped and looked at him
"I was in my closet changing"
I said he stared at me
"My family is coming here for holiday, please whatever you do don't mention to my mother i'm gay, she hasn't accepted her own sister and I know she'll call the priest again for an exorcism. Just like she did for my cousin Niko, who put alkalizer in his pockets so when the cardinal dunked hi. The water boiled, its funny until you get beat for laughing"
Felix just laughed at me
"Your rude"
"You are so fucking weird"
'Im not good at social graces "
Came the thickest country accent I had I had my drink and sat by the pool
"Chelsea offered me food is she here?"
They stared at me I stared back
"What?"
"She offered you food last week"
"What no? That happened just this morning I passed out in the bathtub, took a bunch of E"
I said and pondered I was in the UK for a few days killing zombies and drinking. I blinked they looked at me frowning.
"Oh, well shit ok its fine ill just drink"
I took a dew bottles and headed to the loft
"No you must eat"
"Im not hungry, I ate yesterday"
I stared at him
"you ate?"
"Yeah"
"Really"
"Yup"
"What did you eat"
"Food"
"Ahat food Yesterday?"
"Uhm. Yesterday yesterday yesterday yesterday. um oh I ate three weed brownies right before I killed a bunch of zombie cheerleaders."
I said nodding and dropped two tabs of acid I sat in the floatie and looked at the water there was a big ass dragon under it. I was freaking out. Shit I moved inching closer and closer to the wall, it circled around caMe back and moved it taunted me I made it to the edge and crawled away shrieking. I ran down the hall I picked j
Up a heavy candelabra and ran, I hid gasping and breathed in I peeked and stared fuck a bunny. With a golf club. He was in a slick black suit and was a giant white rabbit. With red eyes. He was freaky looking I ran and saw a door with light I ran into it shifting through the shadows. I entered a huge room and stared there was dead bodies all over the floor I blinked. Zombies
"Good you guys killed the zombies the white rabbit is coming! Run"
I yelled and ran through the bodies to the opposite side the door broke and I flinched I turned and saw the white rabbit. Felix was in front of me
"Zarina are you all right?"
He asked I was freezing I was soaking wet and I kept slipping and falling and I had some bruises
"Im fine"
"What is that?"
"I dropped 2 tabs of acid and Jeffery said it would be mind blowing now all of the things I imagined are coming to life fucking LSD."
He stared at me
"What?"
"The zombies"
I said and all of the bodies begaN moving I screamed and smashed the closest ones head in
"Fucking zombies i'm kicking Jefferys ass when j see him! "
I screamed and smashed into all of their skulls, Felix was fighting the white rabbit. I stared he needed help it was strong I saw Dimitri and a zombie screamed and Aro punched his brain out.. With his bare hands, he looked at me wide eyed shocked worry on his features. I grinned
"Nice hit dude"
I said and smashed another zombies head in and I turned I saw a zombie running at me I backed away and shadows enveloped me and I stare the gray it was quite I w
Ran towards the shed and grabbed shovels I shifted to the door and walked back in to see the rabbit dead with all these dead zombies around it. I sighed
"North end of the garden or south end of the garden?"
Felix looked at me his eyes a deep blood red. Fucking acid.
"Now may not be a good time to mention the dragon in the pool,"
I said
"What is going on?"
Caius demanded Aro looked at me with worry and concern
"Well-"
I heard it the clicking I ran in and tried to slam the door
"Bad trip bad trip bad fucking trip"
I said and some things clawing at the door
"What is that?"
"Dont imagine flying monkeys don't imagine flying monkeys! Don't imagine flying monkeys!"
I yelled and they appeared shrinking ugly teeth gnashing devils with black wings. It flew at me and grabbed me I screamed and someone held me I groaned
"Let me go!"
I yelled and pointed my palm to the monkey a black burst of light shot out and it flew into the shadows I gasped
"Holy shit!"
The stinging hurt my arm I looked at it and it was nearly torn off socket I gasped and saw all the blood, I blinked
"Giant spiders"
I whispered to Aro his cold hand touched my face he frowned and I felt dizzy.
"Master!"
I saw Felix he was flying fighting the monkey I felt dizzy and blacked out the shadows fading around me. I woke up in the shadows and groaned my arm was sore I looked at it my sleeve torn and blood on me I blinked and stared my arm was fine, I sat up and looked around I went to my closet and removed my clothes, what happened? I showered and dressed going downstairs I had a headache, I looked around and saw felix he looked shocked at me
"Hey felix what's up?"
I ask he stared at me
"Zarina where have you been?"
I looked at him confused
"What?"
"You vanished for 13 days"
I blinked at him
"No I didn't"
"Yes you did"
I stare blinking
"I did drop a lot of acid the other day. Dude I had a bad trip I was fighting zombies, and then flying monkeys showed up it was nuts man, and they took my pipe"
I said and my stomach hurt badly
"Shit im hungry "
"You've been on drugs for days"
"Im fine, one second Hey brother"
Why in blazes haven't ya answered yer phone in 2 weeks?
I pulled the phone away
"Excuse me Felix my brother is screaming at me,"
I was worried ya went and binge drinking yourself inta a coma. What in blazes is wrong with ya? Bloody hell Zarina i've died twice of worry.
"Im fine Nathan I just went on a drug binge, i've been on acid for days, I got me arm torn off my a monkey fer christ sakes"
Oh acid from Jimmy? Don't use his stuff he puts something In it ta bring shit ta life. Dont mess with blood magic
Ya know he puffs crazy shit in his drugs!
"Yeah well unlike some people I can handle my fucking drugs,"
I said and saw Aro and Marcus I waved
Ya cant be doing so much alone ya need adult supervision I been tellin ya fer years
"I don't need adult supervision, me neighbors are here though so ill see ya soon right?"
I said as I lined up some coke
We fly out next Tuesday, and be sober
"I'm not making any promises but i'm staying off the acid for awhile I tripped and thought I killed like 60 people. "
No more LSD be safe I love you sister
"Ill be fine I love you brother"
I said and hung up I looked at Aro he was so close to me I hung up my phone
"Hello"
He just stared at me as if in shock I snorted a whole line and stood I was standing here he touched my arm I flinched it was sore
"Ow"
He stares at me he opened his mouth slightly and I could barely hear him
"What?"
I asked confused unable to hear him he cleared his throat and didn't say anything I waited
"Or not,"
My phone rang again and this time it was my mother, held up a hand
"Excuse me"
I said and answered big mistake she was screaming I pulled the phone from my ear wincing I held it down while she screamed at me.
"Mom, mom im fine"
Penses como Quasided me estas? Cuando tu Hermano Nathan tejis tu no estas hablando por muchos días ya estoy gritis. Estoy loca Zarina! Donde estas teje me esta hora Zarina, porque no tienes un corda para levante tu telefono.
I scoffed and out down the phone I rolled my hand and eyes Felix chuckled
"Ama calmette soy bien"
Cuando te via hacen tu Vida?
"Ama yo teigo un Vivan, yo soy Livin la vida loca!"
Ay dios mio santa santa maria madre de dios pOr favor ayudenme mi nina dios por favor
I sighed annoyed
"And she's praying"
I sighed and set my phone down, I looked at a bottle of scotch and poured myself a drink.
"You should eat real food"
"Maybe later"
I said and pulled out a blunt a lit up I put the phone to my ear and she was still praying
"Fuck this, ama estoy bien déjame en paz, cuando yo quiera busca amor, pero ahorita yo no mas qure a huga ye tomas ye hesion drogas."
Yo quiero nintas! Por favor mira claro its your duty to reproduce! Tu es un Ehja te dios
"Jesus christ its like talking to a fucking wall"
I hung up and tensed gulping
"Holy shit"
I said and dropped my phone like its cursed, it rang again I backed away
"Shouldn't you answer that?
"Im not going to answer it some some crazy spanish lady can cuss me out in Spanish. Fuck that I don't need that kinda negativity in my life."
I said I yawned and stretch it hurt I groan
"Fuck I need to stop passing out in closets and bathtubs. What's up guys"
I asked they stared at me I stare back at them the looked at me like I was crazy
"What?"
I asked and blinked and it rang I kicked it under the small chest of drawers. I yawned
"What was that the other day?"
"Oh I was on a lot of acid im sorry if I said or did something crazy, last time I woke up naked and covered in blood apparently I sacrifice dogs to Apollo the god of war when i'm on Acid"
They stared at me
"Maybe you should stop doing drugs"
"Maybe you should stop judging people"
I said to Caius, I went to the Piano and played a few keys.
"Do you play?"
I turned to the soft voice I stared at Aro
"So he speaks"
I said grinning he stared at me I played a few tones
"Ive been playing since I was four"
I said and began a soft tune it was my favorite song by Macklemore. I smiled
"know it?"
He shook his head my fingers glided over the keys it filled the silent room
When I was in the 3rd grade
I thought that I was gay
Because I could draw my uncle was and I kept my room straight
I told my mom tears rushing down my face
Shes like
Ben you've loved girls since before pre k
Trippin huh I guess she had a point didn't she bunch of stereotypes all in my head
I remember doing the math in my head like yeah
Im good at little league a preconceived idea of what it all meant
For those that liked sex
Had the same characteristics
the right wing conservatives think its a decision.
And you can be cured with some treatment and religion
Man made rewiring of a predisposition blame god
Oh no here we go America the brave, still fears what we don't know
God loves all his children yet somehow forgotten
But we paraphrase a hook written 35,000 years ago.
I dont know
Ba bah bah bah ba ba bah
And I can't change
Even if I rried
Even if I wanted tooooo
And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted toooo
My love my love my love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
she keeps me warm.
If I was gay I would think hip hop hates me
Have you read the Youtube comments lately?
Man thats gay,
Gets dropped on the daily
We become so numb to what were saying,
A culture founded from oppression,
Yet we don't have acceptance for em?
Call each other faggots behind the keys of a message board.
A word rooted in hate yet our Genre still ignores it.
Gay is Synonymous with the lesser.
Its the same hate thats caused wars from religion
Gender to skin color
The complexion of your pigment
The same fight that led people to walk outs and sit ins
Its human rights for everybody there is no difference,
Live on and be yourself
When I was at church they taught me something else
If you preach hate at the service, those words arent anointed
That holy water that you soak in has been poisoned.
When everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless
Rather than fighting for humans that have had their rights stolen.
I might not be the same
But thats not important no freedom till were equal
Damn right I support it.
And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted too
My love my love my love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
she keeps me warm.
We press play don't press pause,
Progress smart Shaun with the veil over our eyes we turn our back at the cause.
Till the day that my uncles can be united by law
Kids are walking around the hall way plagued by a pain in their heart
A world so hateful some would rather die than be who they are
And a certificate on paper isnt gonna solve it all.
But its a damn good place to start.
No law is going to change us
We have to change us
Whatever god you believe in we come from the same one.
Strip away the fear underneath its all the same love about time that we raised up since.
And I can't change
Even if tired
Even if I wanted too
And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even I wanted too
My love my love my love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
Love is patient
Love is kind
Love is patient
Love is kind
Love is patient
Love is kind
I sang and smiled as I played I looked at Aro he was just staring at me, I blinked he didn't move or speak or smile he just stared. Ok thats not fucken weird, I blinked
"Well i'm going to have a drink, hey Marcus can I get you drink too? Or a hooker, some percocets, blow. I just wanna see you smile."
Marcus chuckled at me I took his arm and led him out he followed me confused I walked casually.
"Miss. Valentine?"
"yes Mr. Volturi?"
I asked elegantly
"Where are we going?"
"I would care for a night stroll in the gardens, I wish you to accompany me"
He nodded politely he was a gentleman after all,
"Of course Miss. Valentine"
"That and those fucking gnomes are going to try and kidnap me again,"
I said and looked around I grabbed a candelabra and swung it in hand, he chuckled
"You're quite odd"
"And you're quite sad, lets have some tea and you can tell me all about it,"
I said patting his hand he gave me a interesting look not a smile but similar. The gardens were beautiful, the pale moon made the flowers darker, colorless I smiled I liked darkness perhaps thats why my powers were the shadows. I felt at ease comfortable we sat down and someone set tea down I jumped
"Apologies"
I looked at deep red eyes I blinked she was beautiful she looked like a preteen, she was pretty I looked at her
"Thank you Jane"
She nodded and bowed she wore a black dress and boots I watched her go
"Marcus?"
"Yes?'
He asked I looked at him his eyes were so pale dead empty, he was alone so utterly alone. I stared at him
"Marcus why are you sad?"
He almost smiled but it wasnt quite right.
"I've lost the only love i'll ever know"
I gasped slightly, I closed my lips and took his hand, no words could describe the ache I felt I grimaced and stared i'd use my power I smiled and thought of my love for Nathan it wasn't the same it could never be compared to that. I gulped and inhaled deep I sent it all my happiness the love I feel for my Brother he stares at me, his eyes widened slightly. I tensed he knew what I was doing, he knew his eyes recognized it immediately I pulled away feeling alarmed. He knew I had powers I gulped he held up a hand I felt my heart pounding fear I was petrified absolutely petrified
"All is well, all is well, Peace, calm lets all calm down."
I stared he wanted me to use my power, I read him like the way I understood Nathan. I felt the air rage anger and possessiveness. I gulped and sent out calm waves I didn't know where it was coming from. Marcus looked at me blinking we had a sibling language. I stared at him gulping
"You must eat, you will become sick you're very pale"
I stared he was right I need to eat I sat up and a plate was set in front of me I stared it was ravioli, alfredo cheese mushroom and bacon. Lots of them extra sauce I stared at the garlic bread, it was my favorite texas toast. And a caesar salad with extra croutons and egg. I stare this was my favorite dish, I looked up he had his tea and sipped it I stared.
"You must eat Miss. Valentine you wouldn't want Nathan to worry"
I glared at him and he shifted feeling my rage.
"You spoke to my brother?"
It was irrational I know I was angry why was I angry? I was just enraged
"He called the estate we took messages and he and I have had several conversations"
I stared at him he wasn't lying I blinked
"Yer brother is quite informative of you"
My eye twitched
"When I get my hands on that little imp im going to gut em and hang him by his intestines"
I said scowling I cut my food and took a small bite. I ate everything with the utmost etiquette
"Im impressed"
"I'm not a savage, I just drink like a lush"
He nodded and almost smiled, I sipped my tea it was really good I drank the whole thing
"Marcus"
I felt it hit me I was dizzy k blinked and stood I fell and I reached for the shadows I was swallowed I came too and groaned the darkness I sat up and waved my hands opening it became gray I blinked and shifted into the veranda I crawled from the bushes and stood up I dusted when I was attacked
"Gsr hed!"
I looked up to see the ugly potato faced gnomes, I was kicked
"Oi back off ya little fucker!"
I said and kicked one I was taken down they were grappling my arms I was pulling them off and tossing them. I glared
"You belong to us"
"get off me!"
I punched one in the face hard
"Ow"
One bit me
"Oh wanker!"
I heard a laugh and loomed up to see Caius
"Fuck you help me"
"Why should I"
I
My legs were tied up I was throwing gnomes now
"Fuck you gnomes fuck you"
I punched one and it bit me
"Ow fucking jew"
I yelled and was bleeding he sighed and lifted one sneered at it and punched it completely shattering it. They attacked him and he smashed them with ease I was already tied up and they ran he lifted me and walked me inside
"hey aren't you going to untie me?"
"I rather enjoy you without a smoke or drink in hand"
"Hey! Let me go Caius! You jerk you can't just bound and tie me"
He smiled and tossed me on the couch I groaned and rolled off he laughed I wiggle moving around I get my wrists loose and begin pulling I wiggle out of the binds and out of my cloths. I stand up and turn and stare at Aro he stares standing completely still not moving not breathing. I blinked
"Are you ok dude?"
I ask nothing Nd Felix enters
"Hey why are you naked?"
"Im not the gnomes tried to take me again and I just escaped those bastards, ya know they aIn't too smart gnomes just wave something shiny over their eyes and they think its the best thing ever."
I said he stared at me
"What? You don't know your gnome lore?"
"How do gnomes even exist?"
Felix asked me
"everything exists felix, we all live together in a delicate balance, however some things like fairies and gnomes can't sustain energy and cannot live in our realm. They thrive in shadows in in entry ways."
"Do you believe in vampires"
I laughed
"Dont be ridiculous vampires dont exist"
I said scoffing and opened my small necklace cross I snorted some coke and sniffed
"What is wrong with you?"
I rubbed my wrist on my hip
"Its the only time I feel alive oh and Marcus if you want to drug me just hand me the fucking drugs! Fucking date raper"
He looked alarmed
"No that was not master Marcus's idea it was Jane she wanted to take you"
Felix explained quickly I hadn't realized I lifted the glass table and chucked it at Marcus. I stared I backed away
"Fuck me"
I said and felt the endorphins my mind tripping I lifted the couch and threw it at the wall, I shook my head
'Fuck!"
I inhaled and shook my head
"What are you doing?'
"Its fucking hot in here! I feel like im on fire holy shit its hot "
"Don't take off your bra!"
I was naked I ran through the house on fire.
"Fucking LSD plants"
I yelled and dove in the swimming pool I got to the shadows and fell into the shadow realm I fell out behind the bar and coughed.
"Zarina"
"Ok maybe I should slow down on the drugs"
I said and someone put a coat Around me I was lifted up
"Put me the fuck down right now"
I snapped
"Your naked"
"I came into this world naked screaming and covered in blood and I intend to go out that way."
I said he stared at me I blinked I waited he set me down, I sighed and relaxed I walked well ran to my room.
"Shit"