From: Axel
To: Roxas
You...-rubs eyes and reads it again- You want me to go bald to see what I'd look like? Why would you ask that? It's fine. I've... I've got Aunt Sally's funeral to plan. -looks at feet- I wouldn't mind you calling, depending on the price that is.
I'm sorry about that, btw. Aunt Sally was coming over to help me pack but she was late. So I went to her house and there she was... on her floor... Shot three or four times in the chest, once in the leg, and twice in the head. I don't understand why somebody would shoot her. She's such a nice lady. -shakes head- Oh. She left you something in her will. Ask your dad if you can come back for the funeral. I'd buy your plane ticket, their's too if they really want to come.
I miss you so much too, Roxas. I'll try to get up early so that we can chat or something.
I'mso sorry that you're still in pain. -looks up at you, cups your cheeks- Don't... Please don't cry because of me. I'm not worth it, okay? And don't worry about Demyx. I haven't seen him in a while. I wouldn't mind you touching yourself either. Not now at least. -bites lip- You aren't pathetic, Roxas. I understand how you feel, Rox.
Are you sure you're okay?
I was on short notice. I wanted you to forgive me and look at me again. And Xion just so happened to be listening to that song and I just so happened to memorize the lyrics... Minus the fact that what's her name didn't have a guitar in her song.
Nah. Em tried to abuse Mickey so I gave him to some little kid who fell in love with Mickey at first glance. His animal abuse won't get too extreme. I think he just hates cats.
I'm sure youd find ways to be happy without me.
I didn't want your memory back just so that you can take care of your keyblades. They wereperfectly safe where they were. Riku's is the only one that got out and that's cause Kairi or Marluxia didn't do a good job at fully taking away Sora's memories and Sora and Riku are closely connected so when Sora remembered Riku got his keyblade back... Or something like that. Trust me, if I could, I would take it back in a heartbeat. I thought that something really bad was going to happen and I knew that you and your keyblades would be the only ones who would be able to stop it.
If you really believe that we are with each other just because of our past lives then you don't have to stay with me. I don't want to be the one to hold you back from finding somebody who'd make you happier than I would. But, know this, the love that I have for you won't be in just one life time. I love you too much for my love to be held in one lifetime. Don't be sorry either, Rox.
We'd meet again. We always do, right?
You aren't a failure. He just got lucky.I already knew that I shouldn't try to cheer you up from the beginning. I wouldn't be able to cheer you up at this moment either. With you gone and Aunt Sally gone the only person that I have with me now is Emery.
No. I can't name them that. We can't name them that. That's inhumane. We should just wait to know what they are before we pick out names though, right? -smiles slightly-
You can? -looks at hands- I wish I could feel them kicking now...
-blushes- If you were the cat... I'd consent with beasiality then. I wouldn't let you go then. I'm sorry. I'll try to not be such a perv.
Don't tell me not to worry. I worry more then, Roxas. Why won't you tell me what they are doing? Afraid I'd go to jail cause of them?
Nah. The school girls have nothing on you.
I don't really mind when we go on the honeymoon so long as I get to spend time with you.
Riku's thigh was lucky then. I shall have to kill the lucky bastard then. I don't know how to react to that besides to tell you to tell him that he's dead.
I'm glad you got the pictures. I was gunna send them again but I can't find them. I understand, Roxas. But at least we get to talk, right? Better than nothing.
I know you won't cheat on me, Roxas. f you really need to, go ahead and touch yourself. I don't mind now. You can't when you come home though, okay?
-wipes your tears away, feels helpless and useless- Don't be sorry.
-puts a hand over yourstomach- I'll use a condum next time... If you let me near you again. -smiles softly-
Yeah. I didn't like my old shampoo anyways. I've been meaning to change... I just didn't. Haha... Nah. I couldn't blow up the fabreeze company. Besides, I want your smell back in the house.
I think she'll know what I said. I hope they don't want you two together again. I miss the way you look though, Roxas. We never took any pictures when you were here. Please, just one picture?
I don't think he's really, really angry with you. I think he just feels like you don't care about your friendship with him. He hates me for taking you from him. I'm pissing people off by being with you, aren't I? You're parents don't like me, Sora hates me, and Ven doesn't like me either... Anybody else?
I'll kiss your ass. -winks and smirks-
-smiles and kisses you- Wait until you get home.
I wish I could massage your back. I can't seem to do anything right now though.
No. She is a female cat in heat. T_T "" She has to be a flirt. How do you think she survives? Sure as hell ain't her good looks... SHE'D BE DEAD BY NOW!-flails arms and ducks- Last time I said something like that she nearly killed me.
I'm glad that I have your heart. i can't say that it's okay that you humped his leg. Youre in trouble when you come home.
Emery's been staying with Zexion, btw. Until Aunt Sally's funeral passes and until the cops can finish their investigation and stuff. I'll let Emery know that you'll be home soon though.
Don't feel bad. He can't hate you. If he's anything like me, he'll still call you mama cause Rikku wasn't here but for a couple of months before her car accident. So, you really are his mother. You're taking care of him like a mother would, right?
Don't nuzzle up too close with Ven, okay? -jealous-
Haha... He's gunna be happy to head that. XD
-rubs nose- Nah. It's not just that. Remember when you left me for Riku? Well, Riku put Sora in the hospital. What happened was Sora and Riku were really close and got married. Their marrage was going great until Riku started to ignore Sora. Sora didn't think anything of it until Riku started beating him. Sora loved Riku, and I think he still does, so he didn't leave him. One day Riku beat Sora into a colma. Three days later Sora was pulled off of life support by Riku's consent. Three days later, Riku managed to get it into your head that I was cheating on you and you left me for him. I made sure that I never remembered that day and I made sure, so that Sora wasn't screwed up in the head every life time, forgot it too. I think you forgot on your own. But that's why Kairi hates Riku, she made sure to always remember. Somehow, Sora started to remember, and that's why he's so hostile towards Riku.
That's also the reason why I don't want you near him, Roxas. I don't know if he'd beat you or not. He's still an ahololic, right?
I'll try to get gmail. I'll remember that.
I think so. Well, Kingdom Hearts seems to change every lifetime. Kairi isn't allowed back in the house until she takes drug counseling. She's, thanks to Kingdom Hearts, addicted to crack and meth. She's not heavily addicted to them, but she is. And she only goes there when her and Namine fight. What happens is that you go there to get a "fix" of what your life would be like if you ended up with the person that you loved.
I want you too, Roxas. So badly.
You'll really remember that? No need to thank me. YOU are amazing, Roxas.
Thanks for kicking my self-esteem, Rox. I thought I looked pretty good in that dress. lol Kidding. I wouldn't mind to see you in it though. -grinning-
-shudders and twitches- GOD! YOU'RE SUCH A TEASE! I'm buying ice cream and whip cream when you come back. Maybe marshmellows and graham crackers and chocolate. We can make smores after the ice cream and whip cream.
Yeah. I'm glad too. It's pretty funny, but he doesn't like my mashed and soft foods.
I don't see how Riku is decent. I only dressed as a girl cause I didn't want them to disown you. I lost my parents, I don't want you to lose your's. I would do anything for you, Roxas. I'd even dye my hair blue for you (though I think I'd look like Saix in some ways if I did that). -kisses your pout-
God. I don't know what to do. Imma be so confused when you come back. I won't know if I should cry, hug you, kiss you, or just stand there like a crack head.
I miss you so much too, Roxas.
Don't get sick. Okay? Keep warm after your bath.
-smiles softly- Why is it that I always seem to smile when I'm talking to you in any way, shape, or form? Even when I don't wanna smile or anything.
I love you so much too, Roxas.
Don't... Don't hang out with Riku so much, okay? Please?