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I slowly opened the door to Jasper's room.

As I saw him sitting on the end of a couch in his room, staring out the window into nothing, I realized this was the first time ever I didn't know what to say to him.

Sitting down next to him on the couch, I decided to let him make the next move.

I saw Jasper look down at the floor before he looked straight into my new vampire red eyes.

"I am so sorry." He whispered.

I raised an eyebrow at him. I wanted more than an apology.

Pulling my eyes away from his, I ignored his sorry.

"Hermione, I owe you an explanation. Just promise me you won't get mad." He said, taking my hand.

"I can't promise you something I won't keep." I answered him.

He smiled slightly and nodded.

"I understand that. Hermione, I never meant to break your heart but things happened beyond my control. And I am going to start right from the beginning."

Jasper looked back into my eyes again and if it was possible for me to cry, I am pretty sure tears would have been flooding down my face.

"A month before I left, I got diagnosed with a brain aneurism. I didn't know how to tell you but I had felt weak for a while. One day I passed out for no reason and rushed to hospital where they told me about the aneurism. They told me it was inoperable and couldn't give me a… lets call it a deadline for how long I would live. Aneurisms can rupture and this can cause severe complications or death."

"I couldn't live my life to the full knowing that I could just drop dead at any given moment. I tried to put on a face for you and my family but it was hard. Carlisle was a doctor at the hospital and after a lot of digging and snooping I discovered what he was. I begged him to turn me, to give me this immortality. It took me a while, a good two weeks, to convince Carlisle that even though it could be years before I could die, I still had a death sentence over my head."

"He agreed and that's when I came to see you. I didn't know how to tell you I was about to become a vampire and that I had a life threatening condition. I didn't think you would even believe me. I also knew you would think I didn't trust you because I hadn't told you about my condition and to be honest I didn't want to ruin your life for you."

"Now I wish I had told you because maybe we wouldn't be sitting here right now with you also in the same position as me. I fooled myself into thinking you would be OK. And I apologize for being so stupid. I want you to know being a vampire has been a tough ride for me and I still don't know how resistant I am to human blood six months later. Even you are doing better than me." Jasper smiled as he said the last sentence.

I slowly let go of his hand. I still felt unfulfilled by his explanation.

"How did you find out about me?" I asked him.

"Alice saw a vision of your parents being told you had days to live. When she told me I blamed myself straight away…" He started.

"It wasn't just your fault. I changed into a completely different person when you left. I wasn't the same person and I don't think I ever will be. I am not saying you weren't partly to blame. But it was probably 90/10. You did break my heart but I didn't handle it in the right way." I interrupted.

"No I am to blame. I left you no explanation, no reason. I would have handled it the same way." He said, touching my hand again.

"Once Alice told me I knew I needed to do something. I couldn't ask Carlisle to do it because I had already asked too much of him so I asked Edward. He really wasn't happy at first and told me I was being stupid. I think when he seen how much I cared for you, he changed his mind. I owe Edward a lot for this." Jasper continued.

"Why didn't you come and change me yourself?"

"Because I didn't know if I could have stopped. What if I had killed you? I was already the reason you were on your death bed, I needed to help you. Like I said I am still struggling resisting human blood and I may not have stopped. I knew Edward was capable of stopping enough to change you. He has been a vampire for hundreds of years. I felt like I needed to give you another chance at life." He finished.

I looked at him and was lost for words again.

"You don't forgive me do you?" He said quietly.

"No I forgive you. It all makes much more sense now and I have you, and Edward, to thank for saving my life. As you put it another chance at life. So for that I do forgive you." I told him.

He smiled at me and squeezed my hand.

"Thank you. That is more than I deserve."

I looked at him and smiled at him.

"I am going to do things properly this time. I am not going to hurt you again. We have forever to make this work." He said.

I shook my hand away from his grip.

"No. I am not ready to do that yet. I have changed in more ways than I ever could have imagined. This is going to take a lot of getting use to. Even you haven't after six months and I am a day old. Edward and Emmett may have been impressed with me in the forest but there is still a long way to go. I need to get my head around all this first before I can go back to what we were." I said.

It literally broke my heart to see Jasper's face as I told him this but deep down it was the right thing to do.

I had just become a vampire and the last thing to do right now would be to jump feet first into a serious relationship.

"I understand." Was all Jasper said.

This time I took his hand and made him stare into my eyes.

"I do forgive you, I promise but let's just be friends for now and see what happens. Like you said, we have forever." I said.

His smile seemed genuine and he nodded.

"OK." He said.

I kissed him on the cheek and left his room, closing the door slowly behind me.

As I leaned back on the door I took a moment to consider what had just happened.

Jasper's face would never leave my mind.

Esme lead me into the furthest room down the hall way.

"I hope you like it, Jasper told me you were a pink kind of girl." She smiled.

I looked open mouthed around the room. It was beautiful.

The walls were a pale pink and a bright pink lampshade hung from the light. There was a black couch in the corner of the room, a big pink wardrobe, a gorgeous black table which had a pink jewelry box on top.

I looked as Esme and smiled.

"It's fantastic." I said to her.

"Alice wants a list of clothes from you as she is dying to go clothes shopping for you." Esme said.

"I'll get a move on then."

I sat at the table and starting writing a long list of clothes.

After half an hour, I had finished and was bored.

Not being able to sleep meant the day had dragged. Especially with everything that happened today.

I sighed with boredom and got up determined to find something to do.

I knocked on the door of the room next to mine and Edward told me to come in.

"I am bored." I declared to him, slumping down onto his couch.

He smiled at me, that crooked smile he had smiled earlier.

"How did it go with Jasper?" He asked.

I sighed.

"As I expected. I told him I needed time." I said.

Edward just nodded.

"Do you think that was the right thing to do?" I asked him.

Edward looked at me.

"Only you can decide that."

I looked back into his golden eyes and wished that my eyes matched his.

He chucked me a book which landed on the couch next to me. I looked at the cover.

Jane Eyre.

I raised an eyebrow at him.

"It's a classic." He smiled.

I picked it up and looked at the book, almost inspecting it.

I smiled back at him and shrugged my shoulders.

"Suppose I got nothing else to do right now." I said.

I got up from the couch and made my way to the door.

I turned to Edward before I left.

"I want to thank you for not killing me when you changed me." I said.

He smiled that crooked smile again.

"No problem." He whispered.

I left his room and lay back on the black couch in my new room and turned to the first page of Jane Eyre.