Chapter 9: Answers
Riley's POV:
"I know were only seniors right now, but the one thing that I am sure of, is that you are the love of my life, Riley Matthews. We can get through anything together because like you said, we make a good team. So will you please give us another chance?" Lucas said. We were standing an inch away from each other, then he took my left hand and placed it onto his heart. Our foreheads started to touch, along with our noses. But the only things that didn't touch were our lips. "Lucas, we can't do this." I said as I took a step back. "What do you mean?" he asked. "This. We can't do this. I'm sorry if I led you on by bringing you up here. But we just can't do this again. Especially since we just got out of a relationship. It's too soon," I said. "Then we can wait. Until you feel the time is right, I'll wait for you, Riley Matthews because I know what we have is worth it. You're worth it to me. I know we can do this. I have enough love for the both of us." He said as he took a step closer to me. "Riley, I know I made the mistake of leaving when the whole incident happened, but I promise you, I am not going to leave your side again." he said.
I looked at him for a moment then shook my head, "Lucas, not only did you leave, but you threw away the trust we had. Trust is a big thing to me and our trust broke when you left." I said. Lucas stood in silence. "The trust we have, is going to take a while to repair. But I promise you, things are going to be better this time." he said. All of a sudden we heard everyone counting down. "3…2...1... Happy New Year!" we heard everyone cheering, music playing, and confetti falling. But the only noise we didn't hear, was us, "Happy New Year." Lucas said quietly. Lucas and I walked back down in silence. We joined everyone downstairs and gave hugs. Then Lucas left after that. "Did you get your New Year's kiss from cowboy?" Maya teased as she walked over to me. "Riles? Are you okay?" she asked. "Yeah, why wouldn't I be? It is finally a new year and it's time for changes!" I said trying to cover up. But Maya knew me too well to tell that I was not fine. "Bay window." She said as she pulled me upstairs.
"Alright, what's going on?" she asked as we sat down. "Nothing." I said. "Riley, Lucas walked out of here looking completely shattered, what happened?" she asked, "I took Lucas up to the roof, I don't know why but I just wanted to. Then he started to tell me about how he wanted to start over this year, but with me. Then he sort of told me that I was the love of his life." I said. Maya looked confused. "And?" she asked, "I told him we couldn't do it." I said feeling ashamed. "Why? You're still in love with him! Why are you completely throwing away everything you guys built?" she asked. "Because he threw away our trust when he left me for Eva." I said. Maya sighed. "Riley, Lucas is insane about you. I would use the word crazy but crazy wouldn't define how he feels about you. Lucas got all of the courage he had to finally telling you how he truly felt about you, and you turned him down. Now how do you think he's feeling right now?" she said. I looked at her in amusement. "Why are you taking his side?" I asked. "I'm not, I'm just trying to get you to see it from his point of view. Riley, you need to learn how to forgive. You need to learn how to forgive Lucas. Otherwise, you guys will be hung up on each other for the rest of your life." she said.
Lucas had been avoiding me for a week, even in class. We had to do an assignment together and he barely made eye contact with me. I mean I was still in love with him, it was just the fear of getting hurt again, and the fear of hurting him again. I was walking to my locker and saw the whole baseball team in one corner, they were all preparing for their game. I opened my locker and starting putting books in and taking books out, then Maya came up to me. "He's been looking at you ever since you walked up to your locker." Maya said. "Then let him look." I said. "Riley, you guys need to talk." She said. "We already did, we tried being friends and look how that turned out." I said as I closed my locker and turned to look at her. We passed the baseball team and I tried my best to not look at him. It was hard. But I just couldn't look at him without feeling so guilty. I felt his eyes on me as we walked by.
Lucas's POV:
It's been so hard to not talk to Riley since New Year's. But I knew it was best if I avoided her. I barely made eye contact with her when we had to do that history assignment together. I couldn't stand to look her in her eyes without knowing that I will never get her back. I just had to remind myself that it wasn't meant to be. Then when I was hanging out with the team, I saw Riley walking to her locker and I couldn't keep my eyes off of her. She looked so beautiful. I was waiting for her to glance at me so that I can give her some sort of sign that I am not angry with her. But she never did.
We were all warming up for the game and Farkle and I were throwing the baseball back and forth to each other. I never told him about what happened with me and Riley. I just couldn't get my mind off of it. I couldn't even catch or hit the baseball. I was losing my mind. "Lucas, are you alright?" Farkle asked as he walked up to me. "I'm fine." I said. "No, you're not. You've been acting distant since New Year's. What's going on?" he asked. "On New Year's, Riley took me up to the roof and we had a special moment together, and then I told her how I felt about her and I told her everything. I told her I wanted to start over with her and do things the right way. I told her she was the love of my life. But then she told me that we couldn't do it. We couldn't get back together because it was too soon. I told her I would wait for her but then she said something that really got me. She told me our trust broke when I left her for Eva. That was the stupidest thing I have ever done. She doesn't want to give us another chance." I said as tears started roll down my eyes. Farkle was silent, but only because he knew I just wanted him to listen.
Riley's POV:
I was sitting at my bay window thinking about how everything has been since the New Year started. I didn't get the fresh start I wanted. I shattered Lucas's heart, again. Why was I so afraid of getting hurt again? I mean it's okay to be afraid and maybe Lucas was right, maybe things would be better this time. Then everything hit me, I quickly grabbed my car keys and drove off to the baseball game. It was so hard to find parking, but I finally did and walked to the game. Our team was playing outfield right now and I went sat in the bleachers by myself. Lucas was doing really bad out there, and it was all my fault. The first half of the game was done, and the team went and sat in the dugout. I had to make my move, I couldn't stay still anymore.
I walked through the dugout and made my way through. "Young lady, you are not supposed to be back here," the coach said. "I don't care. I have something I need to say and I need to say it right now! So may you please move out of my way." I said as the coach obeyed. "Lucas!" I yelled. He got up. All the baseball players started teasing him by whistling, and hollering etc. "Riley, what're you doing in here? You're not supposed to be here." he said. "I need to talk to you." I said. "Well, whatever it is, it can wait." He snapped back. "No it can't, Lucas, I'm sorry for what happened on New Year's Eve, but I realized that the only reason why I said all of that is because I'm afraid of getting hurt again, but that's a risk I'm willing to take again because I'm still in love with you, Lucas Friar. I don't want to and I don't plan on being with anyone else because you're the only one I want, even when I was with someone else, it was still you. I want to continue to see the world with you, and hopefully grow old with you because you're worth it, we are worth it. Do we still have a chance?" I said.
I saw Farkle sniffling from the corner of my eye, but the only eyes I was looking at was Lucas's. He took a step towards me. He ran his hands through my hair, then rested them on my cheeks, then he grinned. "We're not going to live in a nursery home, right?" he teased. I smiled. "No," I said. Then he pulled me into a kiss and we heard Farkle crying, and the baseball team cheering. Our kiss deepened then he hugged me and picked me up. He couldn't spin me around because there was no room for that. Once he put me down, he gave me another kiss. It was time to get back to the game, "Go kill 'em out there" I said as I gave him another kiss and left. I saw Farkle jump on him and started cheering, along with the rest of his team.
I went back and sat in the bleachers and Lucas was playing much better this time. Although, he couldn't stop looking over at me. I didn't blame him. We won the game and the whole baseball team was going to go celebrate at the diner. I was walking out of the bleachers when all of a sudden, someone picked me up, "You're not getting away that easy." Lucas said as he put me down and kissed me. "I missed doing that." He said. "Aren't you supposed to go celebrate with your team?" I asked. "Yes, and I'm taking you with me!" He said as he threw me over his shoulders. "But I drove here!' I yelled as he carried me towards the parking lot. "We can park it at your house." He said as he put me down and kissed me. "I don't want to leave your side, I just got you back." He said as he kept his arms around my waist. We were standing by my car now. "It will only be a five minute drive, I'll park my car and then drive with you to the diner." I said. "That's too long." He said as he gave me a kiss on the forehead. He really did miss kissing me. "We can race there." I said with a smile. "You're on." He teased. We both jumped into our cars, and raced out of the parking lot.
Sorry for the long wait, there will be more chapters coming because I can't finish off senior year without prom and graduation right? xx