I know this chapter isn't all that exciting, but the next one will be a lot better action wise..or at least it'll have more violence. So thanks to all of those who have reviewed and like always I;m open to criticism.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Attack on Titan characters only my own, which is Sina.

Chapter 3

Thunder roared and rain poured down. Crackling sounds were the only sound that could trespass the brick walls. Trees bend sideways as if they were made out of rubber. Leaves and debris floated along with the current of the wind, I sat in a small room inside a local hotel, looking outside the window. The storm had gotten us off guard and led us to spending the night inside the town right next to Wall Rosa. Erwin was kind enough to pay for my room, even though I told him I didn't mind sleeping with the dogs. We had just left the hospital, when the clouds suddenly began to form a huge gray sheet that covered the whole sky. As the rain fell many people begin to run and look for shelter.

Erwin led me and Levi to this hotel and had the kind old lady in charge of the building to allow us to borrow three rooms. As she guided us through the hallways towards our sleeping quarters she said that the rain was a blessing. That it was God crying for all the citizens that had fallen to their deaths because of the armored Titan. I remained silent and followed them, but now that I found myself alone, I couldn't bring myself to sleep. My mind still felt numb, but at the same time it felt like it was going to explode.

Silently I stood up from the bed and walked towards the window. It was small, just like the room. It had a simple wooden frame and no curtains to cover it. The only furniture in the room was a king sized bed with white sheets that had turned into a pale yellow, since I suppose they have been worn out. A small chair was resting right next to the door and facing a small wooden table that was positioned at the center of everything. It was closed to nothing, but I had grown up poor, so it didn't bother me, Turning my attention back at the glass window I stared outside, trying to peer through the misty glass, but unfortunately all I could see was the rain drops hit it. They would crash against the glass and then they would roll off slowly towards the ground as gravity pulled them downwards. Sometimes on their way down they met another and crashed together, merging with each other, and forming an even larger one. For a second I watched them and followed their actions with vigorous concentration, but I grew bored and threw myself onto the bed. The old mattress squeaked in disapproval and the springs lightly poked my back as they were being forced down by my weight.

I fixed my eyes onto the ceiling and started thinking of what I should do tomorrow. Erwin asked me to meet him at his room in the morning saying that he needed to have a talk with me. I wondered what it could be. It was almost impossible to know what he was thinking, especially when it came to Levi. His blue, sharp eyes were still carved into my mind and so was the chill that they provoked in me. They felt too analyzing, too suspicious for some reason. I shook my head, I didn't have the time to be thinking about him right now, I needed to clear my mind for the morning. There was still too many things that I haven't yet fully processed.

My biggest shock was still Jane's death, though I don't feel like I want to kill anyone, but just the thought of her makes my eyes swell up with tears that I refuse to let go of. I've never morned anyone in my life. My parents didn't like their family, saying that they were all idiots for being so happy even though there were all poor as dirt. Their way of thinking and personality led them to not having any friends either, therefore I never had the need to go to a funeral when a family member died or when a neighbor passed on. I was strictly confined to the cage I called home, with my little sister keeping me company. She wasn't allowed to go out either, so she was my everything and I was hers. My world consisted of that house, my parents and my Jane. Now that world was shattered and torn apart, I was having difficulty adjusting, understanding, with this mind of mine that was cultivated by that small, narrow minded world.

I sighed form frustration. Shaking my head I twisted my body so I was laying on my side and stared at the brick wall. Soon I was counting the bricks one by one, but I soon stopped once I landed on the number ten. I didn't know anymore form that. I was never taught any more than that, since as my mother used to put it, I am a girl and girls are not meant to be smart, but simply to serve their husbands. Husbands, I thought. That reminds me of Erik. I wonder if him and his family made it safely out of Wall Maria. Hopefully he isn't looking for me, I don't want to go back with him or his wealthy family. He has no use for me now, all he was good for was for his money, but now I don't want it. I just want to...I want to see those monsters again.

Looking back, when that one Titan held the man within his grasps so easily, I could feel my whole body tremble and still now I can feel the after shock. It's goofy, idiotic smile was maddening. I try to close my eyes, but I can't stop myself from thinking about them. I want to know more, I want to see them up close and be able to feel their skin, even if it burns me. These sort of thoughts are pretty much suicidal, but it doesn't feel like their out of place.

Once again I want to feel that adrenaline coursing through my veins, it's like I've fallen addicted to the feeling. The feeling of being out of control, out of my shell and completely free. With those last thoughts I allowed my eye lids to fall and as they closed the world became dim, and the outside thunder subsided.

When morning came I awoke to a brightly lid room, with rays of sunlight piercing through the curtain less window. As I rose my muscles ached and throbbed in pain as if they were sore form all the events of last night. A small knock on the door forced me to move and sit up. Slowly, still in a sleep filled trans I rose up and headed towards the door. As I opened it I was expecting the old lady to be on the other side or Erwin telling me that I over slept and was late to meeting him, but to my surprise it was Levi standing there looking quite bored. He stared at me for a few seconds, inspecting my body from head to toe, and apparently he didn't like what he saw.

"You look disgusting, here," he shoved some clothes unto me, "wear this." For a moment I was stunned at the sudden action of Levi handing me clothes. I was too sleepy and distracted to fully react and it resulted in me not being able to catch the clothes, They slipped off my fingers and into the floor. So I absently minded bend down to retrieve them, thats when my brain fully registered what Levi had just said, and as I stood up once again I stared at him. I don't know for how long, but it must have been a lot since he crossed his arms and stared at me annoyed, "What."

Ever since I was little never once have I heard someone call me ugly or disgusting. And it surprised me how off guard it caught me when it finally happened. Then suddenly all the tension that had build up since yesterday dropped off my shoulders and released me. A bubbling feeling rose up in my stomach and I soon found myself laughing uncontrollably in front of Levi.

"What's so funny?" He kind of looked pissed off, but I was too busy laughing to care. So I simply waved my hand in front of me and walked away towards the public bathroom the old lady had showed me before, still holding onto my stomach as I departed laughing out loud.

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After I finished taking my shower I changed into the dress that Levi had given me. I looked in the mirror and stared at my reflection. My hair was down and damp from the shower and my left cheek held a dark colored bruise on it form the punch I had received not too long ago. The dress was a light purple, but it was old and faded. It reached the top of my knees and showed no cleavage whats so ever, completely covering my chest all the way to my neck. I took a few seconds contemplating on my appearance when I finally decided, 'What the hell.'

In a hurry I returned to my room and placed my dirty, ripped dress inside and left towards Erwin's room. As I approached it the old lady from last night came out holding an empty tray. She smiled at me with warm eyes and said, "I knew that dress would fit you perfectly. I used to wear it when I was about your age, ah the good old days." With that she smiled once more and scurried on towards her next destination.

Upon opening the door I was greeted by the fresh smell of baked bread and warm mint tea. Erwin was sitting on a desk that was perfectly placed behind a pair of huge red curtains, but aside from that the room held nothing more, but a bed. Soon I found myself sitting down staring at him. Levi was standing next to him as if he was a guard dog protecting his master. The stare he gave me made be feel slightly belittled by him, and that caused me to sit a little taller. I don't know why, but Levi's presence makes me feel uneasy, especially those blue, cold eyes.

"Do you know why I asked to speak with you, Sina." Erwin was the first to break the silence.

He knew my name, even though I hadn't told him yet. So I guess he had done some research on me. "I'm guessing you want to know about me, given the fact you researched my name." I tried to keep my voice casual. For the first time in my life I felt nervous, worried that I wasn't going to be accepted.

He smirked at my answer, "Yes, exactly that, but I only have three questions to ask you." His expression turned serious once again, and I knew that I needed to answer these questions as truthfully as I could. So without speaking another word I nodded as a signal for him to go on.
"I searched up your name in the hospital last night, but when you summited the paper work you signed it with no last name, why?

My answer was quick and clear. "I don't have a last name. The family that raised me sold me off to a wealthy man the day of the attack. I was to marry him, but in the commotion I was separated from them. I didn't become this his legal wife by any means, therefore I don't belong to him, but I don't belong to my dead family either. That's why I signed the papers with no last name."

He simply nodded and proceeded to the next question. "Why are you willing to enter the Survey Corps?"

This question was expected to be asked, but I hesitated to answer, not knowing if the truth was the right thing to say, but none the less my bluntness knows no limit. "I want to see the Titans again." At this response, his facial expressions actually reacted towards my answer. His eyes narrowed as if silently commanding me to explain further. "I don't hate them, not entirely. They seem so... so interesting, with those goofy smiles and I just want to know more, more about how they are, what makes them tick. To see if I can find some sort of weakness that they may posses. Basically I want to know how much fun I can have with them, before I either die or get killed by them." In my mind I thought, I want to lose control again, I want to feel the blood running through my veins,

A small pause followed my answer, but then he soon recovered and asked the last question, "What are you willing to give up?" The weight of this question could be felt the second it dropped from his lips. His eyes looked stern and hard. This question could make or break my chances of him allowing my entrance in the military. So I thought about it, wondering what it was that I could give up, what I could sacrifice, and the more I thought the more I realized that I had nothing much to offer, but myself.

"Everything, I'm willing to give up myself, my being and my sanity with no regrets." My gaze was straight and unfaltering. I felt no doubt as I spoke those words, and I will definitely not take them back either.

His harden expressions suddenly softened and became less tense. The tension in the room was now dispersing and clearing itself form the air.

"That will be all. You are to stay here with Lucy, the owner of the building, until you are called to go as a recruit to the camp. You will start from the beginning, and will not be given any special treatment. If you are to fail there will not be any second chances, understood?"

"Yes..."

He rose from his chair and walked towards the door with Levi falling close behind. "Another thing before I leave. If anyone asks, you are eighteen, and all your legal papers were lost inside Wall Maria."

I smiled, "I understand," and with that they left, leaving me behind, alone in the room staring out the window. I watched Wall Rosa for a while, never shifting my eye to look at something else. Just looking at the wall caused my skin to crawl. I no longer wanted to be restricted by a cage, I wanted to be free, and as I stared at the wall I made myself promise one thing. That I would never let anything trap me inside again, no matter if it be a cage or a wall.