For a good 15 minutes nobody said a word. Jasper had gone to the opposite side of the room and everyone seemed to avoid my gaze.
Unable to stand it anymore, I left the room.
Walking out the back door of the house, I felt like running as fast as I could to feel the wind in my hair but it's as though my feet refused to meet the speed.
Instead I walked slowly to the edge of the forest at the back of the Cullen's house.
Plonking myself down onto the floor, I forgot about the fact I was wearing a posh floor length gown and just immersed myself in thought.
The Volturi frightened me; there was no other way to put it.
The way little Jane had caused Jasper so much pain he fell to his feet. The way Aro had the ability to read EVERY thought Edward had ever had. How Marcus had seen something between me and Edward.
And yet Aro could not read MY mind, Jane could not cause ME pain. And yet I still didn't know.
I had no clue, no inkling, to how I had this ability to block people from getting into my mind.
Maybe that was my special power. That I could protect my mind from invaders.
I shrugged my shoulders and held my head in my hands.
I heard footsteps and looked up to see Edward walking towards me.
Suddenly I felt awkward as he sat next to me.
"You OK?" He asked.
I just nodded. "I think so." I whispered.
He also nodded.
"The Volturi won't hurt you; they are just interested in you." He told me.
"But why?" I asked him.
"Because even though you don't believe it Hermione you are a special vampire." He said, looking deep into my eyes.
I laughed a little.
"And the more I hear it, the less I believe it." I said.
He smiled his crooked smile and it made me smile more.
"I got a little satisfaction knowing Aro also couldn't read your mind." He said.
I looked at him.
"I don't even think Aro was frustrated as you." I laughed.
Edward laughed as well and made a face at me.
"OK I am thinking of colour, guess it."
"Hermione, stop it."
"I am thinking of a number guess it."
"Seriously…"
"I am thinking of an animal, bet you can't guess it."
"Oh shut up."
He playfully punched me on the arm.
"I am thinking of a piece of food, have a guess." I said, getting up.
Edward followed me and laughed.
"This is real torment." He smiled.
He tried to grab me and missed so I ran back down towards the Cullen's.
"I am thinking of a TV Show… well…" I shouted back at him.
I heard him laughing and as we got to the Cullen's back door, he grabbed my arm and turned me to face him.
I hadn't breathed in ages.
"I am thinking of someone, who do you think it is?" I asked him, staring straight into his eyes.
I saw him take a big gulp and all of a sudden the back door opened. Zafrina stood looking at me and Edward.
Edward dropped my arm out of his grip and nodded at Zafrina before going past her.
I also walked past her and looked back into the living room when a conversation was slightly buzzing again.
I looked around the room and I couldn't see Jasper so I made my way upstairs to find him.
I knocked on his door and slowly opened it. I saw him standing and staring out the window.
"You OK?" I asked him.
He didn't look at me.
"I'll take that as a no." I muttered, knowing Jasper would hear it.
I sat down on the couch in his room and just stared at the back of him as he looked out the window.
"Please talk to me Jasper." I pleaded.
He finally turned around and faced me. His face was blank.
"I am sorry about the Volturi." He said, quietly.
I just shook my head and whispered it's OK.
He turned back to the window.
I got up from the couch and stood next to him, putting my hand on his shoulder.
"It was cute how you came to protect me." I told him.
He scoffed.
"Edward protected you much more than I did." He said.
"No, Edward didn't take Jane's power so I say you did more protecting." I smiled.
I saw Jasper try to stifle a smile.
Jasper turned to me.
"I'll do everything to make sure the Volturi never hurt you." He said.
He pulled me into a hug and I smiled as he did so.
I was upset that everyone had to leave especially Zafrina but she had told me I was welcome to visit them whenever I wanted.
I knew I would take them up on that offer.
Finally every guest had left and for some strange reason the house felt empty.
I sat staring at the ceiling in my room. I thought my boredom could be cured by counting the tiles on the ceiling but I got to 15 and gave up.
Sighing I decided to try another count.
I got to 10 before I heard a knock on the door. Thankful for the company I instantly told them to come in.
It was Esme.
She sat on the end of the couch by my feet.
"I just wanted to check you were OK. I know the party was a few days ago but I just wanted to make sure." She said softly.
"The Volturi don't scare me." I told her firmly.
Even though they did, I didn't want the Cullen's thinking I was weak.
She nodded and smiled.
"And what about everything else? Nothing else bothering you?" She asked me.
I sighed. There was something bothering me.
"I… miss my Mom and Dad." I told her.
She looked at me sympathetically and sighed herself.
"I know its hard being away from your family but soon when those human urges are completely gone you'll be safe enough to see them." She told me.
In fact she told me the exact same thing Jasper had done when I ask him just 2 weeks after being turned into a vampire.
But I told myself if I could stop myself killing a complete stranger, I would have no problem around my parents.
I wanted them to know I was OK and I suppose… happy.
One minute I was dying and the next I had just disappeared from the hospital bed. I couldn't begin to imagine what was going through their heads right now.
I turned to look at Esme in the eyes. She still had that sympathetic look on her face.
I sighed again.
"I won't go looking for them on my own but I am worried about them." I said.
"I understand that but I think you should leave it a bit longer. I know you are strong against human blood but we must be careful." She said her voice still soft.
I just nodded.
"What about you and Jasper? Given anymore thought to that?" She asked.
I continued to look into her eyes.
"A little." I told her.
This was an honest answer.
"And?" She pushed.
"I am still feeling the same way." I answered.
She nodded silently.
I watched as she smiled at me before leaving the room.
Why did everyone push me for answers in everything? Was it because Edward couldn't get in my mind and tell them for me? I had not seen Esme feel the need to ask Rosalie or Alice all these questions. Why me?
I lay back down on the couch and started counting the tiles yet again.
I got to three before jumping off the bed and making my way to Jasper's room.
"Hey." He greeted me, kissing me on the cheek also.
"I need to ask you a favour." I said to him.
He smiled and nodded.
"I want to go and talk to my Mom and Dad." I said.
Jasper looked at me and then to the floor.
"Hermione, it's not safe." He said.
"That's what you said last time, and what Esme just said, but I know I am ready. They are my parents; I know I won't kill them." I pleaded.
Jasper just looked at me.
"Regardless you are a month old vampire, you have urges. It's not safe." He repeated.
I sighed an angry sigh and stormed out the room.
Stuff him, I could find them without his help.
I walked into the living room where Rosalie and Emmett were sitting and tried to look as innocent as possible.
Walking into the Cullen's garage, I looked at each individual car.
Boy, they had some nice cars.
I stared at each one for a while before settling on the red BMW.
Grabbing the keys off the key hook, I opened the car and got in.
But just before I started the engine, a hand slammed against the window.
I jumped and turned to see Alice staring at me.
I looked at her angry.
She opened the door and smiled at me smugly.
"I don't think this is such a good idea." She said, calmly.
"I'll be fine." I said through gritted teeth.
"Mmm I see that you won't." She said again.
I hated it when she did that.
"How do you know I won't change my mind when I get there?" I said.
"You are a newborn vampire even someone who doesn't see into the future could predict what will happen."
"They are my parents, please Alice." I looked at her and pleaded with my eyes.
"If you drive out of this garage I will tell Jasper where you have gone." She said, ignoring my eyes.
"Fine." I said, slamming the door shut and revving the car out of the garage.