sorry it took me so long to post this chapter i was gone all of last week and my Internet has been down this week. hope you enjoy it took a while to write.

it's still in Edwards point of view.

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-Blue Rose 818

I walked slowly through the graveyard searching for my mother's grave three nights later. As the fog grew I could barely see any stones. When I decided to give up I spotted it. Though it was difficult to read and the name was faded there were flowers on it. I fell to my knees right in front of it and started to talk. "Hey mom it's me, your baby boy. Sorry I haven't been to see you, I didn't have a reason. Unless you count the last 120 years. I have so much on my mind and many questions." I said looking at the gravestone. " I know they're right I should hate her. I mean she broke my heart, closed my daughter's, killed millions of innocent people, and dismembered our friends. Yet I still love her. They want to kill her and I should be with them, but I'm not." I stated to her. " I want to stop loving her. I want to but I can't, my heart won't let me. It refuses to let her go." Afterward the anger and furry came. "Why, why did you do this to me? Why did you beg him to save me?" I yelled banging on the stone with my fists. " If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be in this mess. I would have died when I was suppose to. If you didn't beg him to save me, I never would have ruined her life." I continued yelling, then I fell fully to the ground and sadly said, " She would have lived happy and safe if I never would have been there to intervene. If I had any way to change the past even if it meant never meeting Bella I'd do it. I'd change everything if it meant keeping her from turning into darkness. It's my fault she's like this. It's all my fault." With that said I burst into tears for the first time in hundreds of years. I stayed like that for hours before someone interrupted.

"Excuse me," she said as I looked up. When I turned to see her face I was speechless. She looked exactly like my older sister Anna. "Are you Edward Mason?" she asked. Getting up from the ground I told her, "I haven't been called that in years, but yes I'm Edward Mason. Can I help you?" I asked already reading her thoughts.

"I was told to give this to you." she said handing me a letter. As she was leaving she said, " Oh, my name's Sasha. If you need a place to stay I live right up the hill in the old white house. My doors always open."

"Thanks" I said as she hurried up the hill to start dinner for her family. After she was out of sight, I sat back down against the stone and read the letter.

Dear Edward,

My sweet baby boy, I know that if your reading this letter then the Spanish influenza got me. I also know that your confused and upset about a lot of things. I want you to know that you never disappointed me my son. That includes when you acted up. I'm proud of the man you are today Edward, your father would be to. Though we don't get to see you become a wise good man, I know you'll be all right. Not only did we leave you in good hands, but we know what you hold inside. Edward, you have the spirit of a lion, the strength of a bear, and the courage of your father. They will get you far in this life and the ones to come.

But your greatest strength, yet weakest is your heart. That's because you have the heart of your mother, of me. At times it will make you feel invincible and at times you'll feel like you can't go on. You'll find a way though, you always find a way my son.

There will come a time in your journey to find yourself, when all you want to do is close your heart and mind from the world. Just like me it will probably be a way to try to protect your heart from the pain and heartbreak. That's never the answer if anything it makes it worse. It will tear you up inside and take s you away from your self. That's no way to live Edward.

You might think I'm wrong, but if you look deep inside your self, I know you'll see different. You once said your self that the heart is a person's greatest weapon and it always will be. You told me that power doesn't come from strength or courage, but from your ability to love and your right about it all. Though there's more to it then that.

You've got to realize that your heart will get struck a lot in your life, good and bad. It will disagree with you often. Exactly like it did with your sister's father and me. I thought I'd never find anyone else, but then your father came along and took my heart as I took his. The love he gave tore me up inside yet also healed me as well. What I'm trying to say my son is that the love you give and receive is the strength of your power as well.

When you find her who will take your heart, it will change you. She'll have the power to make you feel things you never thought you could feel. The bond you'll share with her will be greater than any other. Somehow you will always find each other when you're separated, you'll share what you feel without speaking, know when she'll need you without hearing. Give all you have to keep her safe and healthy. You'll always find a way to love her no matter what she's done, you'll always think of her no matter where she's gone. You will always save her from what she fears most and the dark side that lies inside her. Edward, you'll love her more than life its self, just like I love your father.

The love the two of you will share will be the greatest love in all the earth. You'll never feel a love greater than the love you'll have for her and she'll have for you. That includes the love of a mother for her son.

I want you to know that I don't regret making the choices I made raising you, though it seemed different at times. That includes making sure you live before you die. I will take my last breath knowing you wouln't die from Spanish influenza. I also know you'll hate me for begging him to save you and I know you'll blame me for your problems, even your heart later in life. But I still wouln't change a thing, even if it meant having the ability to stop the Spanish influenza before it happened. If I change a thing that has happened and will happen in your life then you'll never be the man you're meant to be.

My baby remember love is never ending, you can always make more. Never give up on anything you do in life no matter what it is, nor how long it takes. I believe you have the ability to change the world. Never change a thing or regret my son. I'll always love you and never leave you. Remember the true love in your heart is your greatest strength. And the girl to receive that love will always find a way back to you and is the most blessed in the world. I'm always within. You'll find me in the wind that brushes your face, in the rain that falls from grace. I'm the lion of your spirit and the power of your heart.

I may physically die only when your seventeen, but I will live on through you. Every thing happens for a reason my son. When one door closes another opens always. Never forget your past Edward, nor ever run from your future. All the answers you seek will be found within. The past holds the key to the Future.

NEVER,NEVER FORGET ALWAYS REMEMBER THE LIFE BEFORE

With All My Love,

Mom

After that I wept.