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I lay in bed staring up at the ceiling. I couldn't shake the image of me and Edward out of my head.

I sat up sharply. If I had been human, I would have definitely have gotten a head rush.

But this was all wrong wasn't it? It was Jasper I was suppose to be feeling this way about not Edward.

I couldn't deny there was something between me and Edward. Something he did make me forget about everyone else around me, including Jasper.

Jasper had saved my life though.

Even though Edward was the one who turned me, Jasper had sent him to do it. Jasper had loved me that much he didn't want to see me die.

But he left me! No warning, no explanation, just gone!

And the next time I see him, I am some immortal vampire who has to hunt deer blood!

Is that what a relationship should be based on? Hell no.

Ahhh I should stop arguing with myself. In fact I should stop looking for a reason that makes me and Edward right.

That people would actually sit back and allow us to just be in a relationship in front of Jasper.

I belonged with Jasper. No matter what excuse I looked for, I had to be with him.

So that's what I'll do. No more messing about.

Being with Jasper will take my mind of Edward.

Yes.

I got up off the bed and made my way into Jasper's room.

Seeing him brought the guilt back to me. I didn't love him anymore and I knew it just by looking at him.

But it was the right thing to do.

"Are you OK?" He asked me, slowly getting up.

Right now I was glad vampires couldn't cry.

"Yeah." I whispered. "I've just been doing a lot of thinking."

He looked confused so I carried on.

"I didn't think I was ready for us to go back to what we was… but the truth is I was scared. I am ready, if you are." I said.

He beamed from ear to ear and the guilt hit me once again.

"Do you mean that Hermione?" He smiled.

I nodded.

He came over to me and gave me a hug.

"I love you." He said, kissing me.

I kissed him back.

"I love you too." I said, the guilt making me hurt.

He kissed me again.

Jasper twirled my fingers through his and smiled at me.

I forced a smile back.

"What changed your mind?" He asked me.

"You did." I lied. What a cheesy line as well.

But he still smiled.

"I feel like hunting, do you?" He said.

I shook my head.

"No thanks but you go on." I said.

He kissed me on the forehead and whispered bye.

I sighed as he left.

What the hell was I doing? Was this actually the right thing to do?

I convinced myself that I could fall back in love with Jasper but could I?

The Cullens had done so much for me and I could be ripping it all apart and for what?

A boy.

I heard the front door shut and it sounded as though some of the others had gone with Jasper.

I ran to my room at my vampire speed to see Jasper, Rosaline, Emmett and Carlisle racing into the forest.

A knock came at the door.

I didn't shout for them to come in but they did anyway.

"Hermione?" Came his voice.

I turned around quickly to see Edward standing at the door.

"I assume Jasper told you." I could see it in his eyes.

"Yes, he couldn't wait to tell us in fact." He replied.

"Then you're happy for me?" I asked, cursing the lump building in my throat.

Edward laughed slightly and smiled his crooked smile.

"I should be." He said, creasing his eyebrows together. "Yet I'm not."

I just nodded, unsure what to say or do.

"Just tell me how you feel about me. And maybe I can walk away." He said.

"What I will tell you won't make you walk away." I told him.

His eyebrows creased further together.

"Then can you explain why you are leading Jasper on." He said.

"I have to." I whispered angrily. "That is what is suppose to happen."

"Do you love him?"

I stood mouth open.

Edward just looked at me.

"For the first time in two months, I wish you could get inside my head. I am so confused right now and I thought you could give me some answers. I want to do what's best for everyone." I said, my voice croaky.

Edward looked at the floor, the anguish clear in his face.

"Do you love him?" He repeated.

I shook my head.

Edward nodded slowly.

"For some reason I didn't need to read your mind to know that."

"Then why ask?" I said.

"I needed to hear you say it."

We just looked at one another for what felt like hours but couldn't have been any longer than a few seconds.

"OK, I think I have my answers." He said, going to leave.

"No!" I yelled, grabbing his arm.

He looked at me.

"Please don't leave it like this. You have to tell me what to do." I pleaded.

He loosened his arm from my grip.

"Just like you said the right thing." He said.

"But what if it's not the right thing."

"Only you can figure that out, Hermione."

"Tell me how you feel about me, please." I said, the lump in my throat starting to hurt.

"What I have to say won't make you walk away." He said, leaving the room.

I kicked the door shut in frustration and held the scream back in my throat.

I breathed deeply, needing to breathe for the first time since being a vampire.

I heard Jasper and the other returning and tried to gain some composure.

The door slowly opened and I faked a smile as Jasper walked in.

He hugged me and kissed me.

"You OK?" He asked.

"Never better." I replied.