2 months had passed since Edward and I had kissed and even though I felt myself falling back in love with Jasper, my feelings for Edward were still strong.
Me and Jasper lay on my bed, his hand entwined into mine.
I looked out the window at the rainy damp weather and sighed.
"What you thinking?" Jasper asked me.
"Just looking at the weather. I love the rain." I told him.
"You're a weird girl, Hermione." He smiled.
"I might go hunting in the rain. I'm hungry too." I said.
"You want me to come with you?" He asked me.
"Only if you're hungry." I said, looking at him.
I knew by his expression he wasn't and that he didn't fancy coming out in the rain.
I laughed and put my hand on his face.
"You don't have to if you don't want too. I am sure someone else will come with me." I said.
He smiled.
"Edward was saying he might go hunting today." Jasper said.
I dropped my hand from Jasper's face. I didn't want to be left with Edward on my own.
"Did anyone else want to go?" I asked suddenly.
Jasper shrugged his shoulders.
"I'll ask."
He left my bedroom at his vampire speed.
Its fine I told myself. Someone is bound to want to come.
I went downstairs and saw everyone just doing their own thing, as usual in the Cullen household.
"It's just Edward." Jasper told me.
"You know what I am actually not that fussed. I am only peckish." I said, catching a glimpse of Edward.
"Don't be stupid. You said you love the rain." Jasper smiled.
He leant to whisper into my ear.
"I'd come but not while it's raining." He said, laughing at me.
"That's fine." I said before planting a hard kiss onto him.
As I finished I saw Edward laughing slightly which made me angry.
"See you soon." Jasper said as me and Edward left.
I ran as fast I could, leaving Edward as far behind as possible, which wasn't as far as I wanted.
I did love the rain on my vampire skin though; I didn't even feel a little bit wet.
My wet hair stuck to my face but again I didn't care. I smelt deer blood and I headed straight towards the deer. I pinned it down and heard the crack as I broke its neck.
Edward stopped next to me. He had also spotted something and he jumped onto another unsuspecting deer, killing in the same way I killed mine.
We both drank in silence before finishing.
Edward composed himself as I watched him. His silence made me angry.
As he went to run off, I grabbed his arm.
"Want to explain why you were laughing at me and Jasper?" I asked him, the anger building.
"I wasn't laughing." He said, smiling his smile that made me melt.
"You haven't spoken to me in two months." I said, the anger turning into hurt.
"You have been shacked up with Jasper, I don't think I have seen you not glued to one another's side." He said, loosening his arm from my grip.
I went to say something but I didn't know what to say.
"Yes well… I am in a relationship with him." I finally said.
Edward raised an eyebrow.
"Ok." Was all he said.
"Don't question me like that." I said, a lump building in my throat.
This reminded me why we hadn't spoken in two months.
"I am not questioning anyone." He said, a serious look on his face.
I wanted to slap him. He was hell bent on making the situation worse.
I went to walk away.
"Although…" Edward started.
I turned to look at him.
"Two months ago you did tell me you didn't love him."
"A lot can change in two months."
"So now you love him?"
I just looked at the floor.
"Falling in love with him." I answered.
Edward just nodded.
We both just looked at one another.
"Then I won't question you any further." He said.
"Stop it Edward. Stop doing this. Why don't we talk about your feelings for once instead of mine all the time. Or are you to afraid to tell the truth for once in your life?!" I said, the anger getting the better of me.
Edward started at me and I watched as the rain dripped from off his golden hair and down into his face.
"You should understand Hermione that my feelings have to remain a secret as Jasper is like a brother to me." Edward said.
"I should feel like a sister to you then. Yet I know I don't" I said.
"I don't think you see how much this would hurt Jasper. It's quite selfish." He said.
I sighed.
"Just telling me how you feel would not be selfish."
"Why do you need to know?"
"Because it's only fair."
"It's not fair though. I can't see inside your mind to see how you truly feel."
"Then I'll tell you. I love you. I want to see what could happen between me and you. I feel different around you than I do around Jasper and that excites me. You have to remember Jasper just up and left me with no explanation and then turned me into this… monster! Through no choice of my own and in fact he sent his "brother" to do it for him. He has no-one but himself to blame." I said.
"And if Jasper had done it himself and killed you?"
"I was dying anyway." I informed him.
Edward sighed.
"The truth is Hermione I do have feelings for you. I do love you, but I also respect my family and I will not be the one that tears it apart." He said.
I just looked at him and nodded.
He was right. He had always been right.
I walked towards him and moved the piece of hair that was slowly falling into his face from the rain.
"I understand." I choked.
He took my hand and looked into my eyes. Even though we all had the same color eyes, Edwards were somehow so beautiful.
I took deep breathes as we just stared at each other, his fingers feeling their way around mine.
Suddenly he pulled me closer and wrapped his other hand around my waist.
His lips locked with mine and he kissed me passionately.
I completely forgot where I was and embraced the kiss, putting my hands through his hair.
He pulled me closer, pressing our bodies together as I pulled my fingers through his wet hair.
The kissing turned more passionate and more exciting as we got lost in the moment, Edward's tongue starting to caress mine.
He finally pulled us apart, both of us breathing heavily.
I couldn't say anything and neither could he.
We both just raced back to the Cullen's and acted innocent as Jasper gave me a towel to dry off.
I dried myself off as I watched Edward walk up the stairs.
I was only just getting my breathe back from that kiss.