Jasper and I sat on his bed and I watched as he twirled his fingers round mine.
I hadn't taken a breath in ages, a completely different subject on my mind.
Jasper smiled at me and I forced a smile back. Maybe I wasn't falling back in love with Jasper, I had been fooling myself.
Or maybe I was trying to make the choice easier by pretending Jasper meant nothing to me.
But looking into his eyes, I knew he did mean something to me. In fact he meant a lot.
All of a sudden the bedroom door opened and Alice stood in the doorway.
"Follow me, now." She demanded.
I was too scared not to obey so I did as I was told.
Jasper and I followed her downstairs where I saw Carlisle talking to Edward, the frustration written all over his face.
I panicked, had he just told everyone about our kiss in the woods?
"You can't go." Alice said.
I raised an eyebrow. Now I was confused.
"I know what is going to happen." I heard Alice whisper.
"Not if I go away for a few days." He said the pleading clear in his eyes.
I saw Alice nod slightly and the frustration on Edwards face deepened.
"What's going on?" Jasper finally asked.
"I am just going away for a few days. Just to sort my head out about certain things." Edward told us.
"Whatever problems this family has we work out together." Esme said.
Edward chuckled.
"There are no problems; I just want a few days on my own." Edward smiled.
"He is going to come back." Alice said.
We all looked at her. She was never wrong about these things.
"Thanks." Edward said.
We all watched him leave through the back door into the garage.
I looked at Alice and she looked at Esme and reassured her.
My breathing started to become heavy and I squeezed Jasper's hand before sneaking off into the garage.
I watched Edward's Volvo pull away. Without thinking, I jumped into Rosalie's red Porsche and followed him.
No way was I allowing him to run away from this. And Alice knew something and I wanted to know what she knew. Alice wouldn't tell me but Edward would.
I had been following Edward for about an hour when he finally pulled into a hotel at the side of the road.
I discreetly followed him onto the car park. Turning my lights off, I watched him walk into the hotel.
I decided to wait a moment before following him in. I knew he was going to be mad I had followed him so I had to pick my moment carefully.
BANG! The loud noise made me jump about a foot in the air as I turned to see Edward at the driver's window.
"Get out of the car." He instructed.
It was still raining and the rain was dripping down his face.
I did as he told me to do. He held out his hand and I put the car keys in his hand.
"Well this doesn't look suspicious at all. You and me gone to a hotel for a few days. Did you tell Jasper?" He asked me.
I just silently shook my head.
Ed Jasper and I sat on his bed and I watched as he twirled his fingers round mine.
I hadn't taken a breath in ages, a completely different subject on my mind.
Jasper smiled at me and I forced a smile back. Maybe I wasn't falling back in love with Jasper, I had been fooling myself.
Or maybe I was trying to make the choice easier by pretending Jasper meant nothing to me.
But looking into his eyes, I knew he did mean something to me. In fact he meant a lot.
All of a sudden the bedroom door opened and Alice stood in the doorway.
"Follow me, now." She demanded.
I was too scared not to obey so I did as I was told.
Jasper and I followed her downstairs where I saw Carlisle talking to Edward, the frustration written all over his face.
I panicked, had he just told everyone about our kiss in the woods?
"You can't go." Alice said.
I raised an eyebrow. Now I was confused.
"I know what is going to happen." I heard Alice whisper.
"Not if I go away for a few days." He said the pleading clear in his eyes.
I saw Alice nod slightly and the frustration on Edwards face deepened.
"What's going on?" Jasper finally asked.
"I am just going away for a few days. Just to sort my head out about certain things." Edward told us.
"Whatever problems this family has we work out together." Esme said.
Edward chuckled.
"There are no problems; I just want a few days on my own." Edward smiled.
"He is going to come back." Alice said.
We all looked at her. She was never wrong about these things.
"Thanks." Edward said.
We all watched him leave through the back door into the garage.
I looked at Alice and she looked at Esme and reassured her.
My breathing started to become heavy and I squeezed Jasper's hand before sneaking off into the garage.
I watched Edward's Volvo pull away. Without thinking, I jumped into Rosalie's red Porsche and followed him.
No way was I allowing him to run away from this. And Alice knew something and I wanted to know what she knew. Alice wouldn't tell me but Edward would.
I had been following Edward for about an hour when he finally pulled into a hotel at the side of the road.
I discreetly followed him onto the car park. Turning my lights off, I watched him walk into the hotel.
I decided to wait a moment before following him in. I knew he was going to be mad I had followed him so I had to pick my moment carefully.
BANG! The loud noise made me jump about a foot in the air as I turned to see Edward at the driver's window.
"Get out of the car." He instructed.
It was still raining and the rain was dripping down his face.
I did as he told me to do. He held out his hand and I put the car keys in his hand.
"Well this doesn't look suspicious at all. You and me gone to a hotel for a few days. Did you tell Jasper?" He asked.
I just silently shook my head.
Edward looked at me.
"Great." He whispered.
"Sorry." I whispered back.
"It's a bit late now. Come on." He said.
I followed him into the hotel.
It was quite posh hotel with a big reception.
The smell of all the human blood over took me though. And I held my breath to stop myself jumping on someone. It was overpowering and I held on the back of Edward's shirt. He didn't flinch or notice.
"Room for two please." He asked the receptionist.
She smiled at Edward and battered her eyelashes at him.
Stupid cow, for all she knew I could have been his girlfriend and here she was blatantly flirting with him.
Bet she wouldn't like it if I broke her neck and drained the blood from her.
I shook the thoughts out of my head.
Edward took the room key from her and I just carried on holding onto Edward's shirt.
We walked into the lift where a man, a woman and their two kids were inside as well. I took a sharp intake of breath and strengthened my grip on Edward. The kids smiled at Edward and smiled back. I couldn't smile at them, I'd have killed them.
We left the lift after what felt like hours and Edward opened the room door. I ran in and threw myself on the bed.
"You really don't think before you do things do you?" Edward asked as he closed the door.
"Yes well the last thing on my mind was human blood to be honest." I told him, my head in my arms.
I heard him chuckle.
"It should have been the first." He said.
I mocked him in my arms.
I heard him shuffling around and finally lifted my head to look at the room. It was beautiful; God knows how much Edward had just paid for this room.
I looked at him and he looked at me.
"So what things do you need to sort out?" I asked.
"A lot." Was all he said.
I scoffed at him.
"You can't run away from this." I said, getting up from the bed.
Edward shook his head.
"That is the last thing I want to do." He said.
I laughed again.
"So what do you call this?" I demanded.
"It's hardly running away from YOU when YOU follow me here is it!" He said, not raising his voice which was beginning to annoy me.
"Yes… well… You should have read Alice's mind and saw that I was following you." I said, trying to act smug.
"I have already seen what Alice has seen." He said.
"And?"
"And nothing."
"Nothing?"
"Yes, nothing. Nothing is ever going to happen between me and you because you are the love of Jasper's life and I care about Jasper too much to hurt because of your infatuation…"
"My infatuation!!!" I screamed at him. "Don't you dare make this one sided Edward because it is not. You kissed me in the woods, you told me you love me. So infatuation has nothing, NOTHING, to do with it."
I started to shake with anger.
"I lied. You make me sick how much you disregard Jasper's feelings for your own selfish attitude!"
I looked at Edward and my body went numb.
"You're lying now." I said, knowing if it was possible for me to cry the tears would have been flooding by now.
He shook his head.
"You're lying." I repeated.
I grabbed his shirt and pushed him against the wall.
"Please say you are lying." I said.
He just smiled his crooked smile and my heart melted as usual.
I loosened my grip from his shirt and slumped to the floor.
Edward grabbed my arm and lifted me so we were face to face.
Suddenly he pushed me against the wall.
I stared him in the eyes, suddenly scared.
"I'm lying." He said, before planting a hard kiss on my lips.
He grabbed my waist and pulled me into his body, my hairs entwining with his hair.
He started kissing my neck and I rubbed my hands down his back.
He grabbed my legs and pulled them around his waist, carrying me to the bed.
He slowly pushed me down onto it, his lips once again caressing mine.
I unbuttoned his shirt as he pulled my jumper over my head.
I was suddenly lost in the moment as Edward rubbed his fingers across my stomach.