I stared up at the ceiling, not sure quite what to do now.

Edward couldn't look at me and had been starting at the opposite wall for what felt like 20 minutes.

"Well… this is nice." I said sarcastically.

I heard Edward sigh.

"Are you not angry at yourself?" He said.

I mulled that thought over in my head. Should I be mad at myself? And if so what for?

"No." I finally answered.

Edward finally turned over, both of us starting up at the ceiling now.

"Alice saw this coming." He said. "That was the vision she had when I said I was leaving for a few days."

I just looked at him, a thousand questions running through my mind.

"So why did you still go?"

"Because I wanted to see if it would. Maybe because I wanted it to happen."

"Then why are you angry?"

"You don't see how much this is going to hurt Jasper do you?"

I sighed.

"Yes I do. I know I can be a selfish madam at times but I do realize how this affects Jasper. I am not stupid. But maybe, just maybe, I thought if it happened he would understand. I thought of a million ways to tell him without hurting him but there is no way. So I figured if it happened, if something happened, he would realize it was for real and not to purposely hurt him. I know that doesn't make any sense." I said, laughing slightly.

"It does." Edward said. "Are you still mad at him for leaving?"

"Yes." I answered "But I didn't think I would… fall out of love with him."

Edward looked at me and I looked back at him.

"So what happens now?" I asked.

He shrugged his shoulders.

So we just continued to lie there.

Edward handed the room key back to the receptionist and she looked at him all gooey eyed like a deer caught in the head lights. I scoffed at her.

As we walked to the car, Edward laughed.

"Sometimes I don't have to read your mind." He said.

I just looked at him and held my hand out for the car keys.

"Meet you back home." He said, putting the car keys in my hand.

I nodded, suddenly becoming nervous.

The drive to the Cullen's didn't take long and Edward pulled up right behind me.

We both walked in together and Esme was the first to greet us.

"Oh my gosh, where have you two been?" She asked, giving us both a hug.

I forced a smile at her, the guilt now beginning to take over me.

Alice came over next and I felt disgusted with myself as she looked at me.

Edward nodded at her and she sat back down.

Everyone now was in the living room looking at us but I could not meet Jasper's gaze.

He finally came over to me and went to hug me but I moved from him.

"Please don't touch me." I whispered.

He just looked at me and then at Edward.

"What happened?" He asked.

"I think we should let Hermione and Edward settle back in, it's been a long night." Carlisle said.

"What happened?" Jasper repeated, through gritted teeth.

I let out a little sob though no tears fell from my eyes.

He looked at me and I could see the pure anger in his eyes.

"You followed him and expected me to just accept it?" He said.

I couldn't speak; it was as though my voice had gone. I just shook my head.

"GIVE ME SOME ANSWERS!" He yelled, making me jump.

"Do I need to say it out loud?" I finally said.

Jasper took a deep breath and I stared at him. Everybody else was looking at Jasper as well.

"I should have known." He said.

"It's your fault." I snapped. I put my hand to my mouth, not realizing I had said that.

Jasper looked at me with that angered look on his face again.

"What?" He growled.

"I mean… it kind of is your fault." I said.

I saw Edward looking at me in shock.

"You just expected things to go back to the way they were right away, and I forced myself to try and love you again but I just couldn't so it pushed me closer and closer to Edward." I said. It was like verbal vomit, I couldn't stop myself.

"You sleep with him and then blame me?! Because I left you like 6 months ago. And you think that makes me forgive you?" He said.

"I don't want you to forgive me." I said. "I don't need you to forgive me. In fact I don't care if you don't forgive me! Ever! You left me with no explanation, no reason not even a see you soon. NOTHING! All those times you told me you loved me and I was your world. How we would spend the rest of our lives together and you couldn't even be bothered to tell me you were dying let along running off to become some deer eating vampire!! You couldn't even tell your own girlfriend that you were dying! And don't tell me you did it to spare my feelings because that's a lie. You did it because you are a coward! To cowardly to tell me you were seriously ill. To cowardly to face up to that fact and then you were too cowardly to come and turn me into a vampire. You sat here living your life of luxury while I starved myself to death, felt guilty and sorry for yourself so felt like you owed me. But instead of coming to do the favor yourself, you sent Edward to do it for you. I was dying anyway so if you had killed me who would of noticed the difference?! You actually expected me to waltz back into your arms and all would be forgiven but I can't look at you without being disgusted and disappointed, you are not a man you're a boy! A stupid cowardly little boy who takes the easy options out. And you are a liar if you say you knew nothing about me and Edward because you even to scared to face up to that fact. I am not saying I am not in any way to blame but none of this would have happened if you had just been straight with me from the start so don't you dare stand there and assume I want your forgiveness because you can stuff it Jasper!"

Now all eyes were on me but I just stared back at Jasper.

He looked at the floor and then looked at Edward before leaving the room.

I stared back at the Cullen's and sighed.

"Please excuse me." I left and ran upstairs to my room.

I grabbed a bag and stuffed as much stuff as possible in it.

As I pulled it downstairs, Alice was at the bottom.

"Don't go." She said.

"I have too." I said pushing past her.

"It will be fine." She said, grabbing my arm.

I pulled my arm.

"That's the first time I have not believed you, Alice." I choked.

The Cullen's all looked at me and I looked at Edward.

"Please no-one follow me, my mind is made up." I said.

"Where will you go? This is your home." Esme pleaded.

I shook my head.

"I don't deserve to call this my home." I said. "Thank you for you hospitality and I am sorry I ruined it."

I pulled my bag onto my shoulder and I went to leave. Edward grabbed me and I stared into his topaz eyes.

"Don't…" He started.

"You said it would be you who would rip this family apart but the truth is it's me. So I am leaving so you can fix it. Your brother is more important to you than I am." I said, stroking his cheek.

I looked at the Cullen's one last time before closing the door behind me.