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"Bella, are you ok?" Edward asked quietly into my hair. I looked up at him and gazed into his eyes before responding.

"I'm sorry, for everything Edward" I said reaching up and touching his face. He grabbed my hand and just held it to his face.

"I forgive you love. I do; I'm just happy you came back to me." He said softly pulling me closer. I cuddled up to him and he let go of my hand and wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"But that still doesn't makeup for what I did." I stated looking away.

"It does when your tricked my Bella." He said sweetly.

"What do you mean tricked?" I asked looking back at him confused.

"It didn't hit me until the day you let your shield down subconsciously." He said looking off into space. "I never thought it could be possible." He started thinking aloud; I made his eyes meet mine.

"I'm confused Edward. What are you talking about?"

"How Chelsea broke our family tie. How she took you away from me." He stated softly touching my face. "When I saw her Monday it took all my strength not to jump over that table and attack." He added.

"I would have stopped you. Even now I would stop you." I told him getting up from his embrace. He came right up behind me after I put distance between us and filled it.

"Now you have confused me love. Why would you stop me from killing her? Especially after what she did to you, to us." Edward said wrapping his arms around me securely and whispering in my ear.

"Because, for one she and I got close. Chelsea is one of my best friends." I started to say looking down at the forest floor. "And for two, we were so close that she explained how her gift works. She's not the only one to blame for my betrayal."

"You are still confusing me love." he said whispering in my ear again between kissing my neck. So I explained her gift to him.

"The only way Chelsea's power can work is if there is doubt already in someone's system. Like your gift and mine there are limitations. That's why it has never worked with mates. Because they usually don't have doubts. So it wasn't all her doing." I stated with my head down. Edward loosened his grip a bit before responding.

" I see, that makes sense." he started then quietly and with pain in his voice added, "You have doubts about us." It wasn't a question.

"Had, not anymore. There are no doubts anymore." I said moving away from him again. He stayed where he was this time, but with pain in his voice responded.

"what were the doubts?"

"They aren't important anymore. They aren't a concern anymore. Like I said there are no doubts anymore." I stated with fear in my voice. He came up behind me and turned me to face him. I kept my head down as he talked.

"I still want to know my Bella. So that I don't give you those doubts again." He said with love.

"You never gave me the doubts; I gave me the doubts." I said still looking down. He pulled my face up to meet his.

"Please Bella, I want to know what pulled you away." he begged. I took a deep breathe and with lots of fear and looking into his eyes I responded.

"I doubted that we were meant to be Edward. I started to believe that we weren't suppose to be together. Everything we'd been through was a sign. If we were really meant to be we wouldn't have had to fight for our right to be together." I said watching his face. It showed pain and heartache. Before he could respond with words I continued.

"But all the years I spent away from you all I felt was pain and heartache. I spent many days and nights trying to convince myself I was right. I even tried to get you out of my mind physically, but I never could. I'd only go as far as making out. It didn't feel right. Everything was off; he wasn't you. It wasn't until I saw you again that I had to force myself to remember why I came here. I'll never have doubts again. My heart and soul can't live without you Edward, it wont. And if I could go back and change anything it would be when I first felt doubt." I said truful looking in his eyes. He pulled me into a tight hug and whispered in my ear.

"I wouldn't change a thing my Bella." I was confused if anyone would want to change anything about our life I would assume it to be him. I pulled back only enough to meet his eyes. Being in his arms felt so good.

"Why," is all I could ask interested.

"If we didn't go through everything we've been through we wouldn't be who we are right now. All those obstacles we went through made our love stronger and proved that we were meant to be. No matter what we go through our love has always lasted through it. Yes there were times were our love struggled but some how no matter what we did we couldn't stop loving the other and if we didn't go through all this then we wouldn't know that our love can do anything and no matter what happens we're always going to love each other. This was our one of our greatest problems of all and we came out with flying colors. I'd walk right back to every tear and broken heart I ever went through in my life. Simply because it all led to us here in this moment. One of my favorites, because I know just like I can't be without you, you can't be without me and we're always going to be connected. I'd never change anything about my life because in the end it all lead me here to you and that is the best feeling in the world. Loving you and knowing you'll always understand." he stated with love and truth. I didn't know what to say to that. It was so amazing and true and when I did respond I didn't think before I said it. It just came out.

"I came out of each one loving you more. And now I finally get what my dad said what he did at Jacob's funeral."

"you were at Jacob's funeral? I should have known even when Isabelle said you were there. What did he say to you?" he said thinking back.

"That you made me better and that he wouldn't change a thing that happened. Also that he still loved me and I would find my way back home to you and Isabelle. Then what touched me the most. Before her walked away he said 'I was never disappointed in you Isabella Marie until you walked away from your child and responsibility. If anyone has seen you change through the years it's me and both Edward and Jacob made you happier and better. No matter what you think they play a bigger part in your life then you realize and always will. I will always love you Bella. No matter what you do you'll always be my daughter and I will never feel different about you. I'm disappointed in you for the first time, but your still my baby girl and I will always love you. I will die knowing that you'll come back and I will be with you. You need us Bella and always will. I love you.' then he walked away." I told him as I remembered my dad's last words and face in my head.

"I don't care what fate says all our loved ones have always said we were meant to be. Even the dog. After we became good friends he told me I could bring you back. I said we were both a part of her heart and it would take both of us to bring you back. You brought us together Bella and we became just Jacob and Edward. He told me all of what you to did and how he remembered you and what happened when I left. He is your healer and I'm your love and we finally found common ground." It touched my heart and I could see it and knew that they really did find friendship through me. The thing I wished for everyday became real. I was really being protected and guided by something. What I had no clue. And what my life was when I was human and Darkness makes me who I am today and stronger.

"Just promise me that if you ever have doubts or feel like I'm pulling away again that you'll come talk to me. I can't have you away from me anymore. I will die." he added and I knew I could trust him.

"I promise and I love you." I said. He crushed his lips to mine in response and this time I reacted. My hands went up in his hair and I pulled him close to me. He put his hands around my waist and pulled me closer; there was no space between us. After a few seconds I moved my hands from his hair to his light blue shirt. I undid the buttons on his shirt without looking. My hands moved up and down his chest memorizing every feature. Edward moved his hand from my waist and slowly moved it down my thigh. When he got to my leg he moved it to his waist. After a few minutes we were on the grass. He was on top of me kissing my neck when I reluctantly had to stop him.

"Edward, we can't do this." I said as he started to move back to my lips.

"What do you mean we can't do this, of course we can." he responded then kissed me passionately, like he did the day of the box. I pushed carefully against his chest knowing he would respond like he always did. He pulled up and looked at me before responding. "Why not now Bella? It's been 120 yrs. And you want to make me suffer longer?" he pleaded. I chuckled.

" I know Edward, but I terrified Jamie and she knows everything and we still have problems. They'll go back to the Voltri and they will come for me." I told him. He sighed and stood up, pulling me with him. He swiftly and quickly re buttoned his shirt.

"Which one first?" he asked entwining our hands. We thought for a minute and then responded together.

"Jamie." He softly kissed me one more time, then we took off to set things right.