Journal entry N°7-Raph's journal:
Not always a lone wolf.
Sorry to disappoint but I don't always like to be left alone… or at least not for long periods of time.
True, I enjoy my solitude and who really doesn't! But there are moments when a part of me desperately searches for company even though my exterior form doesn't show it up at all.
Donnie learned to read the "signs" as he calls them first than anyone else; he ain't called genius for no reason. He knows when I wanna talk and when I want them just to shut the fuck up and be there for me. His company has taught me patience pays up; more than once after waiting for hours, I end up telling him what bothers me.
He doesn't need to pressure me or convince me, he just waits.
And he always wins.
Casey's company is a mixture of hotheadedness and maturity. Yeah, the bonehead can be mature when he really wants to. After the adrenaline rush, the following heart to heart we have allows me to get rid of so many things in my head and I even get to learn stuff from him.
Who would've thought, huh.
Mikey's company is what the doctor prescribes every time I need a good time, a laugh and some of innocence. Lil' kid is as pure as a dove, even more; when I'm with him I feel like some of my own innocence is being restored and that's always a good thing, no?
I guess I'm lucky to have him.
We all are.
April's company is the equivalent of having a mother sitting beside you after a rough day at job, school, etc. She's almost as patient as Donnie when it comes to bear with me and my thoughts; she's an absolute angel. I wish I' d spend more time with her than I actually do, maybe if I did I wouldn't be so angry all the time picking up fights on the streets and my own home.
Which lead us to the next person in my list of companions: Leo.
Father once told me the reason of our daily quarrels is because we are opposite sides of the same coin. We have such heated friction between us because we are similar, not disparate; we need each other to function perfectly. This is why even though his company is the one I avoid the most I also yearn for it, need it even.
I know there are times when we can't be alone in the same room without trying to kill each other but it's not always like that; we can actually co-exist and somehow bond sitting side by side in absolute silence.
Leo may not know this but his company is the one I like the most; after all, I'm still the little brother who needs his big brother.
I'll never tell him that, though.
And at last but never least, Master Splinter. As our Father his company will always be needed and appreciated; although my temper gets in the way of a good father-son morning talk sometimes, he never ceases to amaze me with his infinite wisdom, understanding and never ending love for us, for me.
I mean, who else would waste his time trying to understand and love someone like me? Only my father.
Thank god he hasn't given up on me.
True, I ain't always a lone wolf; you can't blame me for liking to talk to the air every once in a while though. As much as I love my family and their company, a lone wolf like me will always need some time alone… but not too much.
End of Journal entry N°7
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"I guess I'm pretty much a lone wolf. I don't say I don't quite like people at all but, to tell you the truth I only like them if I have a chance to look deep into their hearts and minds."
-Bela Lugosi