Dear, Mikan

Hi, um. I'm having trouble writing this. Sorry that the paper is wet, I just can't stop crying. Crying, because this will be my very last letter. For, if you are reading this you have just found out you're pregnant. How does it feel? Do you now understand why I kept telling you not to blame yourself for my death? You feel it, right? That love, that very intense love that you have never felt? You would do anything for him or her, right? I don't know what to say because I can't really give any decent advice about parenthood, I'll leave that to Hotaru. I bet your Dad was overjoyed and horrified. Because sure he will have a grandchild but it takes a certain action to get pregnant.

Hahaha, what face will he make when he realizes that his baby girl is having sex?

Dear God, I'm glad I won't have to listen to the rant. I can just imagine it, Bla. Bla. Polka, this is your fault, Bla Bla, Polka, did you have to have a girl? Bla Bla, I don't care if the sex of the baby depends on the male, it's still your fault. Bla Bla.

I know you will be a good mother because Hotaru's definitely going to be good mother figure.

I guess I will tell you one more story.

ooooo

I had just gotten out of bed and automatically went to go throw up then began to get ready, I had just gotten out of the shower when your father, to my annoyance walked in buttoning up his shirt. We were getting ready to go out for lunch with a few old friends.

It was at this lunch that I was told I would not live through labor.

We walked into the cafe and exchanged greetings and hugs. We had a friend that could predict someone's death and the minute she hugged me she gasped and whimpered my name.

Your father freaked out at her reaction and pulled her away to tell us what she saw and she did.

She saw me dying giving birth to you. That night your father and I had the biggest argument ever, he wanted me to abort you. I had refused. I want to make sure you understand that fathers aren't like mothers. They don't automatically feel the love we feel for our kids. They later on develop it but not like us. Not while they're still in us. I obviously won and he hated me for it. He just couldn't understand why I was so willing to leave him but I'm sure he gets it now and I know you do.

I love you sweetheart.

Enjoy life.

Tell your father I love him.

Love, Mikan Hyuuga.

P.S. The same friend told me about you, so don't worry you get to live a long and beautiful life.