Journal entry N°23- Splinter's journal:
Worry.
A father's no shield for his child—
—Seamus Heaney, "Elegy"
…
Ever since destiny gave me the task, I took care of my four little blessings trying to make their lives the best with so little. I fed them, cleaned them up, dressed them and taught them about the world above and how to survive in it.
I taught them about honor and justice, about good and evil, about light and darkness.
Now they've grown up. The four of them became fine young men, ready to fight for their lives and the lives of those they love and deserve their protection. They're ready to face the world and its bitterness and injustice.
Still, I can't help but worry.
The night comes once more. My sons are out there, somewhere; running free, enjoying their youth, having some moments of peace and relaxation before their enemies interrupt them and they engage in yet another fight with an uncertain outcome.
And I can't help but worry.
When they return home, I feel relieved. Then I see their wounds, their bruises and I listen to their groans of pain while they nurse their injuries and my heart aches… and my soul cries.
I can't protect them from the dangers outside; I no longer have the strength I had in my younger years. Life slowly ceases to smile at me and Death offers me its skeletal hand instead.
I am slowly fading away and soon enough, my sons will be left without my guidance. Without my protection.
I wish I could keep them here, in the safety of our lair. Our home.
However, there is nothing hidden between Heaven and Earth. Sooner or later they had to know.
Tomorrow will come, their injuries will heal and they will go out again. They will fight to the death for what they think is right and I will be more proud of them awaiting their victorious return.
And although I trust my sons' abilities and skills at heart, I can't help but worry.
End of Journal entry N°23
…
…
No wonder Splinter's fur is all grey. Damn kids are always giving him death scares!
Yes, I still don't accept Nick turtles in my fics and never will. Only 2k3 and 2k7.
Get used to it.