I´m so sorry I took this long to update. This weekends was crazy. My life changed into something I didnt expect at all. Things should come back to normal now. Thank you for the reviews, I followed your advices and changed the - for "", hope its easier on the eyes now.

Chapter 6

I was with Edward in our meadow, we were laughing, everything was easier with him, he held my hands into his he smiled constantly at me. All of the sudden he turned his head into a different direction, he glowed in happiness. After a few moments the most gorgeous creature I´ve ever seen appeared from the trees, she had a long deep dark brown hair, her eyes were liquid gold, she had perfect marble skin and moved with such grace that would made a human girl cry. Edward held his arms wide to her, she darted out from the woods and rested her head on his chest. This was painful. They were the same, two gods loving each other in their perfection. Nothing could separate them. I begged him to look at me to explain, to make me understand, but he just said "Bella, be a good friend and say hi to my wife". I felt the air being punched out of my lungs. Wife? They traded many love words and every second of that scene killed a part of me. I started crying, asking why he would make me suffer like that, but when the sun came out, I could understand. Her skin threw sparkles through the entire meadow I stared at Edward and he just looked at her, dazzled. I started screaming but nothing I did could make them look at me. He was mine, and she was taking him away from me. I screamed louder and louder. I felt the world shaking, as if the entire world would crack.

"Bella" I heard someone calling me and shaking me. I opened my eyes filled with tears, still sobbing from my terrible nightmare. "It´s going to be ok"

"Wh-what are you doing here?" I managed to speak and started into my despair again

"Shhh. Don´t talk now. It was just a nightmare." My angel was comforting me, he rubbed my back, I rested my head on his shoulders shaking from my desperate cry, tears rolling down my cheeks, I was crying like there was no tomorrow. But if that dream ever happened, there would be no tomorrow for me.

"It´s going to be ok" He said and pulled me to his lap cuddling me and shaking me slowly until the sobs stopped.

"Thank you" I cleaned my eyes and looked at him hurting from the memory. Just picturing him with someone other than me would be enough to make me fall apart, but knowing it was someone I couldn´t compete with was just torture. Knowing that he would never say those words to me again hurt even more.

"What happened Bella?" He held my face up fixing hair locks behind my ears. His eyes were soft and burned in agony.

"Jus-Just a bad dream" I looked down, I started moving back to my place on the couch, he tighten his grip around me holding me closer in his chest. It´s almost like he was warm. the cold touch of his skin felt like sun after months of winter.

"Want to talk about it?" I shook my head

"What are you doing here?" I asked finally putting my feet into reality

"I came to get your answer" Ouch. After the dream I had how could I accept this? This was torture I felt like I was the masochist. I looked into his eyes, they were burning into mine, they were liquid now, not cold , not hard. He wanted this, I could see in his eyes. I would have to be strong enough for him. He would do the same if he still loved me.

"I guess we can make it work out" I looked away from his gaze, he hugged me so tight I forgot why I was crying, I forgot the hole in my chest, nothing else matters. Just him. He let go of his hug and had a smile so beautiful It was hard for me to bear it. Yes. This is why I can endure this, for his smile. "I need a minute"

I got up and went to the bathroom and washed my face, my eyes were red almost popping out of my head. I brushed my teeth methodically trying to use the movements to calm my self. I washed my face again and brushed my hair. I stared at the mirror for a long minute, trying to make all the pain and despair gone from my face, it was hard, but I could do it, I had done it for Charlie. I would do this for him. Three deep breaths knowing that even if I broke down time and time again, I was not to show him my pain. I was to make him happy, even in my own way. I smiled to the mirror and left.

I came back to the room, trying to hold my decision in place. He stared at me like I was crazy, or like he didn´t trust me. This was bothering me

"What?" I asked impatient

"How are you feeling?" He asked looking into my eyes and placing his hand on my forehead, expecting me to go into shock.

"I´m fine" I forced a laugh and shook his hand off me "I´m not going into shock"

"I don´t believe you" He frowned

"How do you expect us to be friends if you don´t believe me?"

"I believe you won´t go into shock. But fine would be the last description for you now." He was worried, I could see that in his eyes

"You know how vivid my nightmares can be" I mumbled trying to seem annoyed from his eavesdropping my nights of sleep.

"True. So as a friend, do you mind if I ask a question?"

"You already did" I smiled

"Then another one" He chuckled, this sound was like music to my ears.

"Ok."

"What was this dream about? You yelled so much I thought you were hurt" He was staring at the ceiling now

"I really don´t want to talk about. Please let it go" Yes I was hurt, he just couldn´t see it

"I guess the nightmare was about me, since you yelled my name and spoke it many times" I felt the stab on my heart. No, be strong Bella. You have to be strong.

"I guess I was just scared you would bite my head off if I didn´t want to be friends" I chuckled

"Be serious Bella" His voice was hard

"It was nothing really" He won´t fall for it, lie, tell him about another nightmare. Yes, this would work! "It was just about that time in Phoenix, when we met James." I heard the low hiss between his teeth. It worked. "Don´t worry about it, I got used to the nightmare routine."

"I´m sorry that still bother you, I wish there was something I could to make it better." He looked at me repentant

"You already did" I smiled, he looked confused so I kept going "You were here and I needed you."

"Perfect timing" He said laughing with a smug expression

"I would call it stalking" I teased and we laughed together.

There was a long minute of silence, this kind of silence between us is an odd thing, not natural at all, I had so many question for him, but how would I start? How not to scare him off? I searched my head for one that didn´t have to do about the time he left me, something new...

"My turn" He looked like pulled him from a trail of thoughts "My blood, It doesn´t bother you anymore?" He thought about it for a second

"Hmm, I guess not in that way, you still are the most delicious thing I ever smelled. It is harder after all this time, but I care about you enough not to kill you."He took a deep breath as he said it and leaned even closer to me, with a heartbreaking smile. I felt smug. This I would always have over any other girl he wants. I let a smile escape my lips

"Is it funny for you?"

"It was just an inside joke" He didn´t love me, this wasn´t funny at all, but at least he cared about me, he wanted to be friends so he must care a bit about me that means the doesn´t hate me as much as I thought. That thought soothed some of my pain

"Mind to share?"

"Actually I do." I trailed off, If I explained this joke to him I would have to explain the dream, and that would just ruin everything.

Before he could push me further into the matter the bell door rang. I hurried up to get it but I tripped. Edward caught me mid air pulling me closer to him. His face was so close to mine I could feel his cold breath brushing my lips, it tingled, he trailed his fingers on my right cheek moving the hair from my face I felt daze from his scent his, eyes were a mix of amusement and desire but before I could do anything stupid he put me back to my feet. I went back to the door, watching my steps not to trip again measuring my breaths to calm myself and make my heart beat in a calm rhythm again.

I was a bit confused about the scene at my door. It was a tall boy, with deep blue eyes and perfect traces holding a huge bouquet of red roses. I thought for a second and remembered Julie, that explain things.

"I´m Sorry but Julie is not here, she left early" Julie was a nice girl. Having admirers was only natural for her.

"No, I´m looking for a Miss Swan" He said in a polite voice, I raised my eyebrows in disbelief, but as he looked at his paper I noticed his deliver uniform.

"It´s me" I said stunned by the surprise.

"Just sign here" I signed a sheet and gave it back to him taking the roses and placing on the kitchen counter. I stared at them for a minute wondering who was the sender and what was the motive.

"I see you still got your charm" His velvet voice came from behind me. I felt the urge to stick my tongue out as if I were 5 again the surprise bothered but the teasing made me wanna yell. But I heard something in his voice I never heard before. What was it?

"Well, I don´t see how that is possible the only guy I know is Mike, and this is not his style, plus he know what would wait for him" I said frowning at the roses. He let out a low chuckle

"Still not a big fan of gifts" He said "But I wonder what would have happened if poor Mike sent you those?"

"Well beat him to death would be an understatement" He laughed at this and recomposed as he saw the confusion burning in my eyes. "Is there a card?"

"Hmm..." I wondered while searching the roses. There was a small white card hidden among the huge roses. I opened. The message made me gasp.

" These will never be able to match your beauty, but It´s time I let you know that you have and admirer. I wonder if you will go out with me if I tell you my name."

I dropped the card and grabbed a trash can. I started throwing the roses away whoever did this had the darkest sense of humor, specially to send those while Edward was here, I felt the air escaping my lungs in a sharp exhale.

"What is it?" He asked

"Just a sick joke" I added, he thought about it for a second and looked at the kitchen watch

"It´s a bit late, I should let you sleep" Right... like I would be able to sleep it was 3 AM but I wasn´t tired at all. Maybe I would just spend the rest of the night thinking about how to pull my self out of this mess.

"I guess it is" I added, I needed time alone, as painful as it was to be apart from him, I needed time to organize my thoughts

"Ok, I guess I´ll call you tomorrow to see if there is anything you want to do." I nodded and before I could realize he was gone.

I spent the rest of the night thinking about what I would have to be ready to face, every possibility. Even though he didn´t love me, he still cared for me, I loved him and I could go through anything to make him happy, if this is what he needed I would give it to him no matter the cost to me, at least I would always know that I could make him happy in some way.