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Chapter 8

We were both sitting at the reception waiting either for someone to break the silence or for Alice to finish her shopping way earlier, tho we both knew the last one was not possible. I was twitching my fingers, trying to figure out a way to escape the situation.

"Bella, is there anything you want to do?" Edward asked picking my hands, I stopped playing with my fingers and laid my hands on my knees

"Ahm, not really? How about you?" He thought for a second and stood up "Maybe we should get you something to eat" I nodded

We walked in silence to the Hotel Restaurant, I could see words trying to form on his lips but never coming out, I didn´t push him. I picked some fruits and went for a small table in the corner of the big room. Edward sit in front of me while I ate my breakfast, I tried not to look at him but it was almost impossible not to pick his face, he was staring me, looking deep into my eyes, I blushed.

"I missed that" He said laughing.

I didn´t say anything I had so many questions that needed an answer but for the first time I didn´t feel comfortable enough around him to ask them. Who was that girl? What does she mean to him? Those are questions I better keep to myself, at least untill I try to figure out what to do or at least how to forget him...

"May I ask you something?" He asked while I played with my food

"Sure" I dropped my fork to pay attention to his questioning

"Why were you drinking last night?" I could feel the wave of shock running up my spine

"Well... I like beer and since it was a special occasion. Why not?" I looked at him and gave him a hint of a smile, I hope he didn´t see right through it, the effort behind the smile, the effort to keep my tears to myself.

"You know, this editing drives me insane" He turned to face the wall avoiding me.

"Again, you don´t want to know everything I have on my mind"

"You are wrong you know?" He turned his head to meet my gaze, his scorching golden eyes burned into mine and that crooked smile that i loved, this would always be too much I felt my entire body melt but before this could lead me into trouble I saw his jaw clenching and his body stiffened switching to a complete formal position.

"There you are!" A sweet angel like female voice came from behind me.

"Good morning Tania" He said in a composed face I couldn´t read. The liquid gold eyes were now hard, no trace of the Edward that was here 10 seconds ago. "Tania this is Bella, Bella this is Tania"

"Nice to meet you Bella" She spoke in a polite tone but I sensed a bit of resent on it, I recognized the golden eyes, pale skin and inhuman beauty. She had long strawberry blond hair falling down her collar bones. So this is the girl i´m loosing him to. There is no hope, no competition.

"Hello Tania" I gave her a polite smile and nodded towards her.

Before anything else could be said she threw both of her arms arround Edward's neck and kissed him on the cheek. I turned and faced my food, this was something I didn´t have to watch.

"So Edward, what are we doing today?" She asked sitting on a chair besides him.

"I´m not sure Tania. Is there something you wish to do?"

"I don´t know, maybe just walk around and know the town. Nothing we do will overcome last night anyway" Ok I didn´t need the details on this. I had to leave and I had to leave now.

"Ahm, if you don´t mind, I´m going back to my bedroom, I still have a bit hang over. Enjoy your day and nice to meet you Tania." I got up as fast as I spoke the words and darted to the elevator, before I could get to the door I already felt the tears rolling down my face giving away all the pain that this small chat caused me.

"Bella" I heard his voice calling me, I smashed the buttons to make the elevator get here faster but I knew I was trapped. I swallow down my cry and wiped the tears off my face.

"Yes?"

"Are you okay? Do you want me to get you to a doctor?" He pulled my chin up searching my face and I could see the despair spreading in his.

"I´m fine, I just need some more sleep" I escaped from his hold and faced the ground

"Please Bella don´t lie to me" he pleaded

"I am not. A bit sensitive to light that´s all. Don´t let me ruin your day. I´ll be fine." The doors opened and I got in, he didn´t say a word.

I got myself to the hotel reception, a slender women with beautiful bronze skin helped me checking out, calling for a cab and making a ticket reservation for the next flight back. I made sure to leave a note for Alice, even though I knew with her visions, this wouldn´t be necessary, but I needed time for myself and most of all I need distance from Edward. Even knowing I promised to be friends and that I was aware that he would sooner or later find someone else this happened a bit too early.

Thinking about every moment we shared and what his depart caused me four years ago made the flight back home shorter. The entire view was covered with ice, everything seemed like frozen in time, I felt I was frozen in time, that these four years didn´t make me forget or stop loving him, instead seeing him after this long reassured me that he was the one I would want and love forever, no matter if he loved me back.

I trailed in and out everything that happened in this trip and tried to make sense of every reaction he had since he was back in my life, but this was a different Edward, this looked the Edward that tried to warn me he was too dangerous for me, long before I knew about his secret life. The Edward that would keep his thoughts for himself, so different from my Edward, maybe because he was not my Edward anymore, he was Tania´s now.