Yes yes, I know it took me a long time to update, I´m really sorry. Hope you enjoy this chapter.
Chapter 11
Except from my heartbeats and my breathing there was complete silence. I had no idea where I was but the distinct and familiar smell pointed to a hospital. Forming cohesive thoughts was easier but the control over my body was not restored and resting was the best option.
"How long Carlisle?" I heard Edward asking on my few seconds back, but I was so tired I slept once again.
I felt a cold hand into mine and I wondered who that was, this time it was easier to stay awake. How long have I been out I thought to myself
"Bella?" He asked but I still couldn´t find the strength to answer or open my eyes.
"Please wake up." He pleaded and squeezed my hand into his.
I am awake! I wish I could answer, he sounded in agony, I put all effort I had to try at least opening my eyes but I couldn´t, all I could do was lay there. It was hard to make sense of time I was not aware how long have I been out, maybe some hours at maximum half a day. After few moments trying to figuring it out I heard the door opening.
"How is she son?" I heard Carlisle
"Not a change" He answered in a grave tone
"You should rest Edward, Alice can keep her company"
"I don´t want to leave her Carlisle and you know we don´t need to rest"
"I will be fine" He answered a silent question.
I was finally able to open my eyes. What time is it? It must be night all lights are on.
"Bella?" He squeezed my hand.
"Hi" I smiled. I could see his entire body relaxing while he exhaled a long breath.
"How are you feeling?" He asked laying his cold hand on my forehead.
"A bit sleepy but I´m ok." He analyzed my face for half a second confirming my statement and gave me a relieved smile.
As I studied his face I could see how dark his eyes were the black deep circles under them pointed he was there for days rather than hours as I was thinking. He had fresh clothes on but it was clear he didn´t hunt for a while.
"How long have you been here?" I asked
"I never left this room." He smiled
"Okay, but how long have I been out. I mean I thought it would be few hours maybe a day but…" He interrupted me before I could go on he already got my point.
"About… four days" He pondered
"Wow, that´s a lot more than what I had in mind."
"I was starting to wonder if I should find you a prince charming to wake you up." He laughed
"Not funny" I turned my head to the other side I already have my prince charming
"I see" he said in a grave tone.
"See what Edward?" I turned to look at him
"That you already have your, well you know" He said staring at the ceiling
"How could you know that?" I questioned him. How could he assume that I would have someone other than him.
"Well Bella, you just said it"
"I what?" I gasped for a second I thought I was going to pass out, how did he…
"Are you ok?" He rushed to me trying to help.
"I´m just… I didn´t say anything" I stared into his eye. He seemed even more confused than I was.
"I just thought it… How can you? I thought…" crap
"Oh!" He gave me a huge smile finally understanding that what he was hearing was my thoughts. He felt so smug I wanted to hit him, but I gave up the idea, I would end up with a broken hand or something.
"No no no no! You stay out of my head!" This can´t be happening
"You know it´s not something I can control Bella" There was a lot of humor in him now, and I was not enjoying it. How many times I was thankful he couldn´t get into my head, it´s like a nightmare, There is no way I can keep things from him this way.
"Well, do you best, I don´t know go to Canada or somewhere you can´t listen" I never thought I would tell him to stay away from me, but this, this was something else, something I couldn´t control.
"I won´t. We can´t tell for sure if this is permanent, it´s an unique chance to get a glimpse of your mind" He chuckled
"Stop it, right now! I don´t want you picking my brain. But, what do you mean by not being permanent? Do you think you won´t be able to listen anymore?" This was interesting me, I didn´t want him to be away from me, and if it was not permanent maybe a few weeks could solve it.
"Well I´m not entirely sure, Carlisle think you might have been drugged but we couldn´t find any trace in your system. Maybe it affected your brain in some way so I think when it´s completely off your system you should be back to normal" I felt a bit disappointment in his voice
"I see." I smiled
"I would rather it was permanent" He said
"Well, I don´t. My thoughts are private you know."
"Not anymore" He laughed I groaned.
I didn´t want to think about anything, so I had to find something to distract my mind. I started thinking about tasks to be finished at home or paper dues.
"When can I go back home?" I asked still annoyed about the entire situation
"Carlisle will release you in a bit under one condition" He gave me a crooked smile, I fought not to think about it. Do the dishes, do the laundry, clean the windows…
"What is this condition?"
"You must have someone to help you at least for a couple of days, until you are fully recovered"
"I guess Julie can do that"
"Well I had someone else in mind…"
"Alice?"I prompted I didn´t want him eavesdropping. He looked disappointed by my answer, but he was always a gentleman
"Yes, Alice"
"Deal!"
Soon enough Carlisle came to let me out. Edward drove me home and kept me company until Alice arrived.
The next few days were pretty much the same Edward spent the day sitting in a chair laughing every now and then from something I thought. I was getting good at controlling my thoughts when he was around, but when I was asleep it was another story, I was glad Alice was the one spending the night. For days I had the same weird dream. I was trapped in the middle of a crowd and I saw Edward in a distance, I tried to call out and reach for him but I couldn´t move or talk, I tried harder but there was no response from my body, he turned and looked at me with pleading eyes, I wanted to make it okay, to attend his pleading "Please Bella, don´t go". I used all my strength to try to respond, I wouldn´t go, as long as he wanted me I would never go. Without wishing for it my body started responding, but instead of running towards him I turned around. I could hear him yelling, calling out for me but I kept moving and this time I didn´t want to turn, I was moving on for the first time and I didn´t miss him.
The first time I had this dream was the only thing I could think of, I tried to diverge my thoughts somewhere else but it was hard. I had to wait for the few moments I had alone to think about it. What was the meaning of this dream? Did I wish to move on? Was I ready to live a life without him? It was clear he was moving on, he had Tania now, maybe I was supposed to move on, to live a bit and then I remembered, I remembered when he wasn´t there, when he seemed nothing but a distant dream, and the memories hurt. I still loved him and a life without him was near impossible. If I could stay near him, I would, didn't matter if it was friend or mate, as long as I could have a part of him.
The dream kept repeating in my mind, specially the part where I tuned and didn´t look back the part where I wouldn´t missing.
"Hmm. What was that about?" An unexpected voice came from behind me. I felt my heart bouncing inside me with the scare he gave me
"Gah! You should announce when you come in you know?" I reached for my heart trying to keep it inside me.
"I´m sorry I startled you. But what was that? Where are you planning to go?" He asked raising one eyebrow
"Nowhere. Just this weird dream I´ve been having" I pointed
"Tell me?"
"Never" I smiled with sarcasm
"Maybe I´ll just have to sneak in when you are sleeping to know what you are talking about" He laughed
"Well, if that´s the game we are playing, I can simply skip sleeping" He scoffed. He mumbled something unintelligible but let it go. I won this round.
"You know, I´m glad I can hear you" He said no mocking in his tone
"I know you are"
"I mean, at some point I thought I was going insane at the hospital, I could hear you speaking but you were laying there without moving or opening his eyes"
"Funny, I was awake I just couldn´t move. Have you any idea how horrible that is?"
"I can only imagine how that would feel like"
"Thank you" I said
"For ..?"
"Well, if you weren´t there I can´t even imagine about what could have happened" His fist tightened
"Please Bella let´s not talk about this…"
"Okay, what do you want to talk about?" I asked
"Hm… What are your plans for the weekend?"
"Well I have to go to the library on saturday, I need to do a research."
"Are you sure, you shouldn´t be alone, at least not yet. I can hunt with Emmet on sunday" He was concerned
"The deal was a couple of days, you guys have been watching me for a week now. I´m all better. Besides you should enjoy your weekend." I knew he must have other plans other than watch over me. I bet Tania misses him, but again he must be spending all nights with her after all they don't need sleep.
"I´m not sure about this Bella" I´m sure I could give in, I still have a month to finish it and I was not behind, but the constant watching was driving me insane.
"I´ll be perfectly fine. It´s just a library"
"I´m sure you could find some sort of trouble in a library."
"Ha ha, very funny. I´m going rather you want it or not. You are not in charge of my life"
"You are right." He almost choked to let those words out, but he recomposed in matter of seconds, stood up and left. What have I done, I didn´t mean to say that, it was not supposed to come out that way sure the overprotecting was driving me insane but I didn´t need to be rude. What´s going on with me?
Edward didn´t visit me for the rest of the week, so I figured I might as well just go and do my research, I thought about calling him several times, but I was not sure what to say. I as looking the shelves for several books related to english literature when someone called my name.
"Hello Bella" I turned to see who was it but I didn´t recognize the face. It was a tall muscular men with black hair and deep green eyes. He was gorgeous, his traces were rough and masculine contrasting with the sweetness in his eyes.
"I´m sorry do I know you?" I was stunned
"I hope you enjoyed the roses" He said charmingly approaching me
"What?" I did remember the roses but he was so handsome I was not being able to concentrate or focus, I was dazzled
"The roses I sent you. We also met at the masquerade."
"Oh that, was you."
"Yes, that was me. Haven´t seen you in a while. Is everything ok?" He asked coming even closer
"Yeah, I was a bit sick these last weeks, but there is something, you never told me your name"
"I´m sorry about that, but as promised last time I´m Henry" He took my hand and gently kissed it, I felt sparks running through my body. I wanted to pull my hand, there was something I was forgetting but I couldn´t remember what it was.
"Well Henry, nice meeting you, I´m sorry I can´t stay longer and talk I have a research to do and I´m a bit late." I lied. I was starting to feel almost embarrassed by the way he was looking at me, it was like he saw right through me.
"I completely understand. Good luck with your research, hope we meet again soon"
I waved goodbye and after I left him he was the only thing I could think off, the only face I had in my mind was his.
A bit of a turn for our boy Ed isn´t it? I hope to update the next chapter today as well. Have been working hard on the next 3 chapters. Next chapters will probably be in EPOV. Please review it.
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