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Chapter 12

EPOV

"Have you talked to her Alice?" I was desperate for some kind of news I didn´t have the courage to come back after our last talk. And bad enough she was avoiding everyone, including Alice, her best friend.

"No Edward. She won´t return my calls and she made it pretty clear she was busy. What happened? Are you sure you told me everything?"

"Yes. What about Julie?'

"I´m not sure she knows much more than we do Edward. She is concerned as well. She said Bella was acting weird this last week." Alice hung her head.

"What does she mean?"

"She told Julie she met someone, at first Julie told she was floating with happiness but soon she started changing, she said it turned into some kind of obsession. She is getting irritable by the hour, and started to shut Julie off as well. According to her it´s impossible to run a two minute conversation with Bella without upsetting her, she only talks with this guy she said she met, but even Julie never saw him" She met someone… I knew how Bella could be stubborn when she wanted something, but this didn´t sound like my Bella. I was upset by the fact she met someone, but the fact that she was acting like she was out of her mind was more disturbing. I had to put my jealousy aside and deal with it later.

"Do you think I should go see her?" I wondered if there was something I could do about it. I knew one day I was the one to make it better, but now it seemed an impossible task.

"I´m not sure about that. She could be even more upset maybe you could watch her just to make sure everything is all right." Alice was extremely anxious, she wasn´t able to see her anymore, adding that to the fact that we were not desired in her life made Alice suffer.

"Be careful Edward we don´t know what is going on" I nodded and darted out the door

As I rushed to her house I thought about this guy she met, it could only be a monster, a monster worse than myself. Even when I had to fight the urge to kill her I tried to make her happy, to protect her. Everything I ever did was to protect her. I could not allow her to be with someone that made her unhappy. Her voice rang in my mind "You are not in charge of my life" and I wasn´t, I gave up the right to protest her decisions the moment I left her in the woods. She was completely right, as always. She was not the naive innocent girl I thought she was. She was not the Bella I left behind. That intrigued me even more. She had turned into something different, but deep inside she was still my Bella. I could see that in her warm chocolate eyes and I could assure that from picking her brain, as she called. She was always worried about others, she thought about her mother and father in a lovely way, a Bella way. She thought about Jacob sometimes, I could feel jealous but I could see the bond they had, she missed him. She was still innocent, she still thought about others, how to please everyone, that was her nature, but she had something now I couldn´t explain, it was something that came to her mind frequently, but I never could understand it, she would block me and turn her thoughts to somewhere else before I could even make sense of what it was.

I finally got to her house, I watched from a distance, she was sitting on her bed with her legs up curled in a ball. She didn´t move for several minutes and every second that passed the desire to jump inside her bedroom and put her in my arms grew. She stood up and came to the window, I could see what was wrong, it was clear for me. She had dark circles under her eyes and looked thinner, her warm chocolate eyes seemed blurry now, she was completely oblivious to the world outside. Finally she gave some sign of life. She smiled. It was not comforting to see that smile, it was rather disturbing and then I saw him, climbing up her window.

"Henry" She let out a deep breath

"My sweet Bella" He got in and took her by the hand.

I could feel the rage raising and the jealousy taking over every particle of me. They sat on her bed, I saw him leaning in closer reaching for her lips, I had to fight the urge to jump through her window directly to his neck the monster inside me growled and my vision turned red. I was hoping she would fight him, push him away, instead she threw her arms around him. I had to stop it, I was not able to endure that, Bella calling his name was the proof I needed to know that I couldn´t let her go. I grabbed the first thing my hands reached and threw inside her room. Even though it was dark and I was from a considerate distance he was able to see me, it was unusual for humans to see that far, especially when it was dark, but he saw me, he looked right into my eyes and smiled, a sarcastic smile, almost like a pedant enemy after crushing his adversary.

"I must go Bella it´s getting late. I don´t want to keep you from resting anymore" He gave her a peck on the forehead, I growled
"Please don´t. Stay, just tonight." She begged

"You know I can´t. I will come back tomorrow." He caressed her cheek and start leaving.

"Henry, don´t. Please. I need you. I need you to stay." She cried her entire body shook. I could see how much she was suffering. It was like he would never come back.

"Good night Bella."He left, not even looking behind, leaving her there suffering. It was a nightmare, watching her, how could she be suffering so much for someone that didn´t even care.

I watched over her the entire night, She walked inside her room from one side to the other, her entire body shook and she sobs took a long time to cease. It was clear her body felt tired and drained but Bella wouldn´t give in to her sleep. I still could hear her thoughts, but nothing came, except for his face, not for a second she thought about how she was tired or that she needed food, just his face. Something had to be done if things kept going this I don´t know what could happen to her. I reached for my phone inside my pocket and called Alice.

"Alice, you need to come, fast!" I rushed the words out

"I´ll be there soon" She turned off, from the sound she was already in her way, her visions were pretty convenient. Soon enough she arrived.

Alice gasped watching Bella in that state. I could see in her eyes the despair and confusion.

"What… What is this Edward? What happened to her?" Alice begged for some kind of explanation.

"I´m not sure Alice. She´s been like that since the moment I got here. The only time she looked a bit like herself was when that monster was here." I could feel the monster growling inside me.

"What is going on Edward?" What do we do?" She pleaded

"I´m not sure. I don´t think it would be the best idea to try to convince her of anything at this point. I need you to watch her. I´ll try to figure something out I need to talk to Carlisle." I didn´t want to go, but I had to, if there was anyone who could make sense of what was happening was Carlisle.

I rushed to the hospital where Carlisle worked. And found him in his room, the minute I got in his room he could see something was utterly wrong.

"What is it Edward?"

"It´s Bella, Carlisle. We don´t know what is wrong. She won´t sleep and apparently she is not eating as well. I don´t know what to do." I was desperate

"Have you talked to her?"

"No. I didn´t have the courage, It didn´t seem Bella, and from what Julie said would be impossible to convince her of anything."

"When did it start?" He was now Carlisle the doctor, not the father.

"According to her roommate, about a week." He put his hand under his chin probably one thousand causes crossed his mind.

"I don´t think it´s a disease, Carlisle." I prompted

"Hm?"

"She met a guy." I could see his thoughts wrapping around the idea I was jealous and was ignoring the most obvious.

"It´s not like that! He has some force over her, almost like a magnet. She is completely out of herself when he is not around she won´t sleep even if her body is giving up, I´m almost sure she is not eating as well. I don´t know what to do. I still can her thoughts, but they are not thoughts at all, just the image of his face, she won´t think about anything. There is not a thought about him or anything else, just a picture of his face." I felt defeated, I couldn't form even one idea about what was happening.

"Calm down son, I´m sure we are going to figure a way to help her. I´m going to do some research and I´ll check up on her later in the mean time you should try to reason with her, I´m pretty sure she will listen to you" He patted my shoulder turning me to the door.

He was so sure she would listen to me, I was not. It was hard to see some sign of her beneath all that. I was not even sure she would even let any of us in the door. I was afraid to face the fact that she no longer wanted me, that she no longer loved me. I would just watch from a distance, to see if she would improve and if that wasn´t the case I would intervene. I wondered around thinking about what could be done, when night game I went to her house to replace.

"Is she any better?"

"No, she hasn´t eat at all, she didn´t even move. And she is getting more agitated as the night is falling." She hung her head.

"We will figure this out Alice. Go home." She nodded and left.

I watched her as she was the same from last night. She was curled in a ball waiting, the same she did the day before. She came to the window and waited, waited for long hours, but he never came that night. She cried and it was easy to see she was losing it. I decided it was time for me to do something. I decided I would take the door this time. I rang the bell and waited for an answer but there was none, I tried to sear for Julie´s thoughts but she wasn´t home. I let myself in and head to her bedroom. I knocked twice on the door.

"Henry" She shouted before I could open the door. I could hear the excitement in her voice.

"No, It´s just me." I could see a mix of sock, anger and anguish in her eyes.

"You!" She was mad at me, Why? What was my mistake?

"What have I done?"

"He won´t come! He won´t come because of you!" She shouted, angry tears rolled down her cheeks.

"Bella, I have done nothing to keep him from seeing you."

"You are here. That´s enough reason. He told me you would do that. That you would work your way to keep us apart. That as soon as you saw me with someone that made me happier than you ever did you would find a way to separate us." She fell on the floor, her hands covering her face.

"I´m sorry Bella but you don´t seem happy. Everyone is concerned about you. Look at you, how long have you been depriving yourself from food and sleep? It´s clear you are not well."

"I am fine. I would be fine. If he was here, and he is not. He won´t come because of you." I couldn't understand why I would be the reason for him not to show up.

"Bella please, be reasonable. He won´t come because he doesn´t want to, not because I´m here."

"It´s because of you. He doesn´t like you. He said you make me hurt." I made her hurt? In what way could I make her hurt? She couldn´t possibly be hurting, I never did a thing to hurt her, I only want her to be safe.

"Bella I only want you to be safe. I would never do anything for you to be hurt."

"You left me don't you remember, is your vampire memory failing? You hurt me time and time again."

"Let me explain…." She cut me off.

"No, now you listen, I've held this inside me for long enough, it´s time you learn the truth." She got up and looked deeply inside my eyes, there was pure anger and resentment.

"You´ve left me once, you took every part of me with you I felt broken, dead, alone… And then you come and ask me to be your friend. Do you have any idea how painful it was for me to watch you with Tania? Do you know what is like to know the one thing you love and want the most will never be yours?"

"Bella you are being absurd"

"SHUT UP! I loved you every day since the day you left me. What I had was nothing close to what you call a happy human life. I went through hell Edward. If it wasn´t for Jake I would still be in hell…" She trailed off.

"Please, try to understand I only did that because I didn´t want you to be in danger." I pleaded

"You didn´t want me, you left and never looked behind. I was just another diversion, and when you got tired of me you discarded me, and now, now that I am happy, that I got over you, you want me to leave him and believe in you? That´s ironical isn´t it?" I was lost, what have I done? Why did I have to leave her? I wanted her. From the moment I first saw her again I wanted her.

"Bella, if he was right for you I would step back and Tania are you crazy? She is nothing but a friend. She wishes otherwise but there´s always been just one person."

"Leave, and please don´t come back. I don´t want to see you or talk to you. I don´t need you anymore, I don´t love you anymore" Her eyes hesitated a tiny bit, the blur was gone for a second, but soon enough it was there again. That was what I needed. She was not sure, and as long she was not sure I would fight for her.

"Never, until you are better I will never let go." I darted out the windows.

I was mad, my body was filled with anger. If I wasn't such a coward I wouldn't have left her and this would never happen. I had to find a way to make her see, to understand that he was no good for her. In my mind no one was good for her except me. I knew she loved me that she wanted me, she said that, if she only knew we felt the same way, if I had told her early. I was filled with regret, all of this was my fault. I can´t believe that she got over me in a week, if she didn´t in four years in a week would be impossible. I kept telling me that until I was fully convinced. I wasn't sure what to do, the only thing I was sure is that I would fight for her to the end.