Chapter 17

EPOV

She followed me up the stairs and through the hallway I stopped in front of her room. I hesitated a bit if I opened the door she would go in and I didn't knew how long it would take for me to see her again, on the other hand some time alone might help her remember. I opened the door and motioned for her to enter the room.

"Here it is. I said" I wanted to feel relaxed about this entire situation but it was just so frustrating. I ran my fingers through my hair. She entered the room. There was this awkward silence between us, one I wasn't used to.

"Well if there is anything else you need, please feel free to ask one of us." I was making my way out when she finally spoke.

"Wait" I turned to her. I waited for her to speak, but she was debating with herself rather to talk.

"Yes?" I asked encouraging her.

"Do I… Do I know you?" Yes, and you are the reason for my existence I wanted to tell her. I wanted to yell on the top of my lungs that I loved her.

"Careful Edward." Carlisle warned me through his mind. It would be so easy to tell her everything now, I wanted to but for some odd reason she just couldn´t remember me, she didn't remember any of us.

"No." I said my voice dry, my previous resolution of staying with her was escaping slowly through my fingers. I closed the door behind me.

What was I to do now? There was no point fighting to keep her from me now, she was no longer human, she was now more durable, my world was no longer a threat for her, now she belonged in it. I wished for a long time that she would forget me, but now that it was happening it was a nightmare, one I can't even begin to explain. I once wished she had a human life, but now that she was no longer human I could fight for her, I could win her again. There was no hope in the in my statement, I always thought I was the most fortunate being for her to love me the way she did, maybe this time lucky wouldn´t be at my side.

"She just needs time." Jasper thought trying to comfort me. I walked downstairs my family already waiting for me, they were all mixed up between relief and pity. Relief cause she was back, and that she was no longer human so that part of me that was constantly debating if I should or should not leave her was out of the way and pity because they couldn´t tell if the memory loss was temporary. I dropped to the couch and let myself sink.

"Fight Edward." Alice prompted in a whisper, now that she had inhuman hearing too we had to watch ourselves.

"Yeah bro." Emmet gave me a little punch on the shoulder.

"I might not be so lucky this time." I confessed no excitement in my voice.

"Edward." Rosalie now dropped to look into my eyes."Don´t fool yourself it was not luck that brought her to love you. It was fate. We can´t understand what happened to her, but it already happened, she is no longer human, and given that I can't oppose anymore. You gave her up once, and it made you miserable and now, now that you can fight for her I won´t allow you to forfeit, she was meant to be with you can´t you see that?" I was appalled, and so was everyone in the room, Rosalie giving out comfort words was a new thing, but it was also reassuring. I nodded.

"Good." She patted my knee.

"We just need a plan…" Alice said already scheming.

"No plans Alice." I commanded.

"Right, like I should listen to you. I promise I won´t force anything into her, but she could use a little push." She chanted in her annoying confident way.

"When we deal with patients like that in the hospital, we usually ask relatives to bring personal items…" Carlisle stopped, we could all hear her, she was coming.

"Hello Bella, how are you feeling?" Carlisle said.

"Fine, I think." She said touching her forehead.

"Is there anything we can do for you?" He asked.

"Maybe I should call my roommate, she is probably worried." I looked at Alice, she was confused as I was.

"Of course dear." Esme walked over to her."Follow me"

Bella followed Esme to the phone and Bella quickly dialed the number.

"Hey Julie." She sighed, we could hear Julie screaming on the other side.

"Oh my god Bella, do you want to kill me? I was worried you know? I thought you went home to see your father but he didn´t know about you either, he is going to kill you." She paused, Bella sighed. "Are you okay?"

"Sure sure, I´m fine Julie, I won´t be after I talk to Charlie though. Thanks." She responded annoyance in her voice.

"I´m sorry what did you want me to do, I was worried."

"I know Julie, I´m sorry, I´ll be home soon." She promised.

"Okay. Call your dad Bells."

"I will. Bye."

"Bye." She hung up and dialed again.

"Hi dad." She said her voice concerned.

"Isabella Marie Swan." He yelled on the other side. "Where the hell have you been?"

"Sorry dad, I was a bit stressed, I need some time off, so I decided to travel a bit." She was still a poor liar.

"Right. Next time you should at least tell someone, we were almost getting the FBI after you." He laughed now, relieved that his daughter was safe.

"I know dad. Sorry."

"Okay Bella I have to go, but call me later"

"Okay dad, bye."

"Bye."

She sighed in frustration and stood there looking at the phone. So she could remember everything, but us. That didn't seem natural, of course it wasn't natural. He would do that, if he could torture me just a little bit, of course he would. She looked around memorizing the house and stopped at the piano, she traced the piano with her small fingers stopping at the keys.

"Do you play?" Alice asked putting her plan in action, I could see it forming in her mind.

"No Bella." She said removing her fingers from the piano, and blushing. Emmet exploded in laughter making her blush even more.

"Still funny. I guess that will never leave her." He thought to himself but Rosalie threw her elbow on his ribs.

"Ouch Rose."

"Edward plays." Alice said a small grin on her face I sighed. "Go on Edward, play something for her" she said encouraging me.

I got up and moved to the piano, Bella shot me an apologetic look, seeing Alice was forcing me. It was not that I didn't want to play for her, if she wanted I would play for all eternity, but that little annoying pixie was putting her plan to action too fast. I sat and let my hands drift over the piano keys. I started playing Esme´s and Carlisle´s song. She looked at me with amazed eyes listening intently until it came to an end.

"Wow, you are good." She said bewildered I chuckled.

"Now play her song." Alice thought, making everyone leave the room.

I started playing her lullaby, and watched the emotions swept quickly along her face, first amazement, then shock, pain, sadness and then her face was a mix of confusion and understanding. I finished her lullaby and stood up getting away from the piano. What I wouldn't give to know what she was thinking when she heard it.

"That is my favorite you know?" She stated my eyes jumped to her face. Did she remember?

"It´s mine too." I answered, not showing my excitement.

"Who wrote it?" She asked moving closer to me now. She didn´t remember, it wouldn't be so easy, it was never easy with Bella.

"Nobody important." I sighed she was now inches from me, how I fought not to hug her right there.

"I see" She said looking at the floor."Can I ask you something?" She looked back up, her chocolate eyes burning into mine I nodded.

"Did you love her?" She caught me off guard. How could she know I wrote she couldn't could she? But she was always very perceptive. It was obvious I did love her, I still do. I just nodded.

"So, why aren't you still with her?" She asked her eyes still burning in mine.

"It´s complicated." I said avoiding her eyes. They could make me do something stupid.

"Try me." She said, giving me an encouraging smile.

"Well, I hurt her a long time ago, I left her." I confessed "I thought I was doing the right thing, you see, I was always putting her in danger, and in my mind it was the right thing to do." It was very easy to confess to her, she could ask anything from me and I would gladly do it.

"Go on"

"But then, after we moved here, I saw her again, and I just couldn't let her go. I was selfish and without knowing, I hurt her again and again. And now" I sighed "now I´m not sure she can forgive me." I could feel the defeat in my voice, she looked at me, feeling sorry, pity clear in her eyes. She threw her arms around my neck comforting me. I wanted that, I held her with much force I could, I wasn't ready to let her go, but way too son she broke out of my embrace.

"You are wrong." She stated no doubt in her voice. Her eyes analyzing my face.

"Why?" I asked raising one eyebrow.

"Because" She leaned in, her face too close, her sweet breath washing over my face "I do forgive you."

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