The Definition of Love
After new moon. When Alice makes a terrible mistake, how will it affect the Cullens? And more importantly how will it affect Bella? Told from Bella's POV.
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AN: Thanks to Hyper-Hayls-13, Silver Ice Bullet, Vel Angelus Vox, Imagination Genius and xXxZellyxXx for reviewing. I hope you all like this one, it kinda gives you the heads up of where this story is going.....
BTW, this is the first time i write a story from someone's POV, so i'm having some trouble not being able to express everyone's thoughs and feelings, and it might get a little confusing. That being said, feel free to ask any questions or give any tips (over this or anything else) on anything that's bothering you.... ;)
Now, enough talking, let's get to the interesting part.... lol
Chapter 2 - In the Arms of an Angel
And after all my search, I'm disappointed to say that I did not love Edward Cullen.
That didn't mean, however, that I was about to tell him that. I mean, he was my first boyfriend, the first guy that took an interest in me, Mike Newton excluded, and apart from the leaving me to keep me safe thing he had been the perfect boyfriend. He treated me like a queen. Why would I want to let that go?
Besides Edward had admitted countless times that he was in love with me, and I saw no reason to break his heart. So instead, I decided to tell him exactly what he wanted to hear.
"I love you too, Edward."
I kind of felt weird saying that now that I know it is not true, kind of dirty. But I was able to convince myself that it was not wrong to lie, as long as you do it for the right reasons. Right? And he liked to hear it so much, there is no way telling him this could be something wrong, even if my conscience was telling me otherwise.
It's been like this for a few weeks now; things were almost back to normal. With the exception that now Charlie had declared war against Edward, my father blamed him for my depression when he left and for my absence from the US for a few days, which meant that there were strict hours that I was allowed to see Edward. Not that we followed it really, I mean he was a vampire, for crying out loud, he could come in and out of my room whenever he chose to.
It was actually funny that Edward was the only one to take the blame for my dark time, as Charlie referred to it; even it was his entire family that had left me. I wasn't about to point that out to him though, this way I was allowed to see any of the other Cullens as much as I wanted, and by the other Cullens of course I mean Alice. Not that I didn't like any of the others, but it was different with her, don't ask me why.
I was kind of happy, I think. I had my boyfriend and my best female friend back, Jacob was still mad at me for choosing a vampire over him, but I hoped that he would get over it someday.
Speaking of best friends, here we were, Alice and I taking a walk in the woods. The others were all at minding their own business, Edward included; it was just me and her, and I really liked when it was just the two of us. I mean, she was different when there was no one else around. I know she was always carefree, but when there was only the two of us, it was like she was lighter, like someone lifted the world from her shoulders and it made me happy to see her like this.
It was like she wasn't holding anything back, it was like she could actually be herself. I didn't know if anyone else got the privilege to see her this way, if she let everything else go whenever she was alone with someone. I liked to think that I was special somehow, that not even Jasper was allowed to see this side of her. I know that it was wishful thinking, but can you blame me?
Alice decided to show me her favorite spot in Forks, and I have to say that we walked quite a bit to the point that if she let me here, there was no way that I could ever find my way back. We had walked for a few hours at least, but I think that in vampire speed she would have no problem getting to wherever she wanted to get to a few minutes at the most. This walk must be really tedious for her, I mean, look at me and look at her. She is a vampire; this must be like slow motion for her, especially with me falling down every five minutes or so. But in spite all that, she never complained, and she always held me before I fell face first to the ground.
Right now, she was smiling at something I said. I don't even remember what I said, not with her perfect smile dazzling me. I wish I could remember, so that I could say it again, and hopefully get the same reaction. Without my command, my lips reflected hers, smiling at my best friend, as I stared into her eyes.
I saw when her eyes left my face and traveled down my body, taking me in. Something told me I should be bothered by it, but I could not find it in me to care. She was staring at me, openly so, and I liked it. Her eyes traveled back up, and stayed fixated in my lips. I almost didn't realize that mine were doing the same, and her smirk told me that she had noticed it. It was if she was calling me to her, as if there was something pulling me, and I didn't want to resist.
You see, I'm really an accident prone person, even when I'm paying attention to what I'm doing, imagine what happens when I am not. I almost fell down, again, but Alice caught me just before I hit the ground. Weird, usually, she catches me much before that. Maybe she got distracted.
What was even weirder was the fact that even though she had already helped me up, she was still holding onto me. I was just about to ask her about that, when a look at her eyes made me shut my mouth. They were completely black.
If it was a normal person, it wouldn't be a problem, but here is another thing I haven't told you about vampires. Their hunger, their lust for blood is reflected through their eyes. The darker they get, the more likely you are to become their latest snack.
"Alice?" I asked, but she wasn't listening, she was too far gone. Looking at her, I wondered if this was how I was gonna die. In the arms of an angel. It was funny really, after everything we went through, after all the enemies we had faced; it would be Alice that killed me. We were too distant from the Cullen's house for me to call for help, not even a vampire's sensitive hearing would be able hear me so far away. And if someone else heard, and came to help, it would only put them in harm's way. It was best that I kept quiet.
For a moment, I wondered if she had planned this, taking me away, somewhere her family couldn't interfere. But I dismissed the idea as quickly as it came. Alice would never plan my death, besides the fact that she was a vegetarian; she was also my best friend. She would never do something like this to anyone, much less to me.
I felt more than saw her lips descend on me. I wasn't paying attention to anything other than the fact that Alice was beautiful. Some remote memory came into my mind: Edward was telling me that vampires could draw their victims in, putting you under some kind of thrall that made it impossible for you to defy. And I supposed that it was what Alice was doing, for I felt no desire within me to escape. There was nowhere else in the world I wanted to be in.
To my surprise, her lips did not reach my neck, as I expected. It was not a kiss from death; it was a real kiss, for Alice's lips were now on my own.
It took me a second to understand what was happening, but once I did I let my eyes fall closed as I kissed her back. It started slow, gentle, but it quickly escalated, and soon we were fighting for dominance. Not that I had any chance of winning, but I could only dream.
One of her hands was in my hair, holding our lips together. The other was in my ass, moving me up and down with her superhuman strength, creating some kind of friction between our bodies.
Her skin was cold, but it was a nice change from the heat that was building inside of me. Her body was indestructible, but it still bended to my will as I touched and kissed her. I could feel a tree behind my back, but I couldn't fathom how it got there. All I knew was Alice, all I felt was Alice. It was like we were caught in a bubble, and for a moment nothing else existed.
I was the first to come, calling out her name, with her right after me. Only her way of showing it was distinctive to say the least. She bit me as she came. Alice sunk her teeth into my neck and drank avidly. Looks like I'm not getting out of this alive after all. The last thing I heard before I succumbed to a world of darkness was her angelic voice.
"Oh, no!"
And just after the moment of most pleasure of my entire life, came the pain. Unbearable. Agonizing. Excruciating. Pain.
And this is it.... What do you think will happen next? You have three guesses.... lol
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