That night however Kim found herself tossing and turning as all she could think of was Shego. So she decided to start from the beginning. Back when Kim was little she had followed the exploits of team go. She had especially liked Shego. Shego was only 15 and yet she was a superhero. Being only 12 at the time she yet to start saving the world but followed her favorite heroine. Her room had a huge signed poster of Shego herself in it at that time and although she would admit it to no one she still had that poster on her closet wall. 3 years later things changed. She remembered the night that had all gone downhill, it was the same night she had returned from her first mission of saving a rare cuddle buddy and its owner from the cuddle buddies protection security grid. She had sat down to watch the news and was shocked as the reporter came on. "Terrible news for Go City and the world at large ladies and gentleman. Shego formally of Team Go has turned to evil. It turns out that she has been behind a rash of thieveries over the last 6 months during her supposed leave of absence." Kim had sat on the couch and stared then rushed to her room torn her poster down and jumped on her bed and cried into her pandaroo for hours. Her next mission had been bad. When wade came on the communicator and said Shego was mission Kim had pretended not to know her but deep inside she felt like her insides were being ripped apart. She had always wanted to meet her hero but not like this. Fighting her had been tough way too tough. Shego just grinned that trademark grin Kim had always seen her wear on TV. Then came the pet names on later missions this made Kim very curious. Was Shego just trying to mess with her or what.
Snapping back to the present Kim felt no more in control of her new thoughts and feelings than she had been before. She thought of all the guys she had dated. First she had wanted to try a kiss so her and so she had been with a good friend named Walter Nelson. She had asked him to kiss her but that had ended in disaster with braces stuck together, laughing parents, and finally a laughing orthodontist. Josh Mankey came next she liked him didn't she? Thinking on it though was differenent. "I mean he is sooo cute isn't he or am I just confused" she thought "but if I liked him why did I just get all nervous I mean im never nervous why was I there. Was it a sign. Do I only like him because as a girl society has told me that's who I should like. I mean ive always noticed girls but that's just seeing what they look like compared to me." Then a horrible thought occurred to her. "wait when did I start liking Josh" she wondered, "wait I know its when Bonnie decided she liked him" This brought her up short "wait do I only go after Josh to out shine Bonnie" she wondered. "I mean sure he is attractive by definition but what do I really like about him." she questioned herself. The conclusion was quite scary too her. "o my god I don't like him like that I was living a lie just to be better than Bonnie. It must have been my kimness.
This new revelation shocked Kim to her core. "ok so I don't like Josh maybe I like another guy" she decided "Wait what about ummm Hirotaka wait no that was because Bonnie showed some interest in him and that led to me fighting with Monique." "OK there has to be one guy I like" She thought but for the life of her she couldn't think of a one. "ok" thought Kim "so maybe I don't like guys maybe im a a a a lesbian" This hit her all at once. All of her memories of looking at Bonnie Tara or another of the cheerleaders in the showers, her reaction to Shego in the bikini, and her lack of real attraction to men all seemed to confirm the realization. She looked over at the clock and seeing it only read 9:16 she quickly rushed downstairs to see if her mother was still awake. Kim despretly needed someone to talk to and Monique was grounded. She knew Ron wouldn't understand and that left one Mrs. Dr. Possible to talk to. She quietly went into her mothers home office and seeing her there sat down in one of the chairs.
Anne looked up from her work seeing her daughter sitting there wringing her hands and looking quite flustered. Quickly standing up Anne rushed over to Kim and wrapped her arms around her. "whats wrong sweetie" she asked concern filling her voice. Kim looked up at her mother and said "mom I think" pausing for along moment then suddenly bursting into tears kim sobbed "." she mumbled quickly through her tears. Anne sat there, holding her daughter, stunned. She knew Kim handt had that much success with boys but how was she sure she was a lesbian. "Kim, honey" why do you think that" she asked. "buh because I realized the only guys ive ever seemed to like ive only liked because Bonnie did and I had to get them before she did" cried Kim "ive always noticed other girls but always thought that it was because I didn't have big boobs like them or something. But now I realize I was just lieing to myself I …. im gay mom a dyke a lesbian and o god I don't know what to do." Looking up at her mother through her tears she asked "You don't hate me do you mom" Kim steeled herself to the reply hoping against all odds her mother wouldn't grab her drag her to the front door and throw her out of the house for being some sort of abomination in her eyes. "id never hate you Bubblebut" said Anne "I will always love you and if you're a lesbian I promise to support who you are." Kim smiled at her mom and said "thanks so much mom I love you" With that Kim climbed up the stairs and fell into a sound sleep with a small smile on her face.
her dreams that night only seemed to confirm her realization.
Kims Dream
Slowly Kim drifted down to dreamland. Slowly Kim awoke in dreamland. Looking around she realized she was in Shegos bedroom only this time she was clad in a tight leather outfit with a spiked collar around her neck looking down at the collar she saw the words Shego's Property Kim Possible. Then Suddenly the door opened and in walked Shego clad in her usual green and black outfit. And Suddenly she heard a crash
Reality
Kim awake with a start covered in sweat. Looking around she realized she had fallen off her bed. As she climbed back in bed she thought back on her dream. "do I really want all that I mean I just came to terms with my sexuality and now im dreaming of belonging to Shego what is wrong with me." Kim shook her head and fell into a dreamless sleep.
And that's Chapter 2 folks im not that happy with it but I hope u enjoy and please read and review.
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