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This is another longer chapter, but from what most of you have p.m.'d me, you prefer them longer.

Jensen's Petunia

Jensen felt a tremor of fear pass through his body at Cougar's words. Oh no. No. No. No. Please God don't let him know. He can't know. I couldn't bear it.

Cougar stared silently at Jensen but didn't make a move to say anything else.

Oh no. Jensen peered into Cougar's eyes looking for any sign that Cougar knew his secret. Please don't let Cougar know that I've fallen in love with him. Please God don't let Cougar know I love him.

After several more minutes of silent stillness Cougar finally moved. Slowly, so as not to startle Jensen, Cougar reached up and took Jensen's face in his hands. He caressed the hacker's stubbly face. He moved his hands slowly down Jensen's jawline, stroked the young man's firm neck and lightly felt the Adam's apple that bobbed rapidly as Jensen kept swallowing nervously. From there Cougar rubbed the blonde's firm shoulders and continued feeling his way down Jensen's well-toned arms. Finally, he took Jensen's hands in his.

With a firm grip on Jensen's hands and his dark eyes locked on Jensen's blue ones Cougar said what he needed to say. "I love you Jake Jensen."

Cougar watched in horror as the eyes of the man he loved rolled up into the back of Jensen's head and Jensen began to fall forward. "Jensen?" Cougar caught Jensen before he hit the ground. He gently laid his unconscious teammate down and knelt beside him. After checking that the hacker still had a pulse and was still breathing Cougar gently shook him. "Jensen mi amor. Please open your eyes." When there was still no response Cougar shook a little harder. "Jake!"

Jensen could hear someone calling his name but he couldn't see them. Maybe if I opened my eyes. That would help.

Jensen opened his eyes and looked straight into Cougar's concerned ones. Then it all came back to Jensen. Firewood, Wolfe, almost kissed by the wrong man, Cougar finding them together, Cougar telling Jensen that he loved him. That was what caused the young man to pass out. All the stress of worrying what would happen if Cougar ever found out how Jensen felt for him was suddenly gone. That relief was monumental.

He loves me. Cougar loves me. He won't hate me for being in love with him. Thank you God. Jensen couldn't hold back the giant goofy grin that rapidly brightened his face if his life had depended on it.

Cougar had been feeling such tremendous fear that Jensen's disgust and hate had been too much for him and had knocked him out. But seeing Jensen's smile upon his awakening gave the sniper pause.

Jensen still couldn't believe it. Maybe it had been a dream. Jensen sat up and felt warmth flood his body as Cougar reached out to help steady him. He took the silent man's hand and looked him square in the eye. "You love me Cougar? Really, truly love me?"

Cougar didn't hesitate for a second. "Yes Jake Jensen, I love you." He took Jensen's other hand in his as he said, "With all my soul."

Jensen squeezed Cougar's hands to emphasize his responding statement. "And I love you Carlos Alvarez, with all my soul."

They basked in their love for a whole minute before Jensen could restrain himself no longer. "Oh Thank God! Cougar, you don't know how long I've been in love with you. All this time being near you while trying to hide it from you was pure hell."

"No love, knowing that I may have been too late when I saw you and Wolfe holding hands and about to kiss; that was hell." Cougar could feel his anger start to rise again.

Jensen could see the darkness enter Cougar's eyes. He would do whatever he had to do to wipe the darkness from Cougar's eyes permanently. He decided to start by reassuring his dark Spaniard that nothing was going to happen between him and Wolfe. "Cougar, nothing was going to happen between Wolfe and me."

At the mention of the other sniper's name Cougar growled. It was a very sexy sound.

"Yes, I knew that as soon as I saw you realize what was happening. You jumped back as if he were a spider." Cougar began chuckling at Jensen's phobia.

"Hey man, those things can climb inside you while you sleep and lay their eggs. There was this one case, where-" Jensen cut himself off when he saw Cougar start to shake his head. "You knew that?"

Cougar became serious once again. "Yes Jake. I also saw you shake your head no and he still began towards you."

"And then you were there between us." Jensen added.

"Yes. He had already touched you and then had dared to attempt a kiss. I was not about to let him use his size as an advantage to pressuring you to do something that you did not want to do." Cougar felt surprisingly calm as he talked to Jensen. The memories of what had happened should be reigniting his temper but they were not.

Jensen tilted his head as he looked at Cougar inquisitively. "I'm bigger than you Cougs."

Cougar smirked as he responded, "Yes you are Jensen. But you are nowhere near as deadly as I am."

Jensen chuckled. "You got me there buddy."

Cougar became serious once again. "I would like to be more than just your buddy. When I saw the disgust that came over your face when he made his move on you, I was…" It was hard for Cougar to admit this next feeling. "I was so afraid that you would be disgusted by me as well when I told you how I felt. I was afraid to tell you to begin with. I didn't want to lose our friendship. If I couldn't have you as my lover, than I at least wanted you as my friend."

Jensen smiled warmly. "Yet you still told me anyway. I'm glad."

Cougar smiled back and shook his head as a thought came back to him. "I had already given Clay my word that I would tell you." Jensen looked as if he was about to interrupt so Cougar held up his hands in a silent plea not to. "Yes, he knows. They all know how I feel about you. They have for some time now. Apparently my overprotectiveness was a big indicator. I was practically ordered to tell you."

Jensen and Cougar shared some laughter. Cougar smoothly shifted from his knees onto his firm behind. He stared at Jensen in amazement. He still couldn't believe that Jensen loved him. It was a blessed miracle.

"Like I said Cougar, I'm glad. You know…I never thought of myself as being gay." He paused to see if Cougar would say anything to that. He should have known better. Cougar just sat there patiently listening.

"When I was growing up, I absolutely adored women. All women: big, small, tall, short. I loved them all. But I never had time to pursue any of them. I was always taking care of Sarah. Then I was taking care of Sarah and Analicia." Jensen smiled at the memories of his sister and niece. He didn't regret his ladies one bit. They were and still are his life. They just had to share him with one more person now.

"And then I was in the military and just never had the opportunity or the desire. All that changed two years ago. I was transferred to the Losers and I met you. You changed everything. No longer did I desire women. I tried. " He shook his head as he tried to fight the memories of his past. He had been so stupid.

"I flirted with any and all women that I crossed paths with. I even tried making out with a couple but I just couldn't do it. Every time I closed my eyes all I could see were your dark eyes staring back at me." Jensen smiled to himself. "I knew then that even if I couldn't tell you how I felt, I could not do anything to betray the love I felt for you."

Cougar looked at Jensen in shock. He knew about Jensen's flirtations. They always made him jealous. That's the reason he started staying with Jensen at the bars and giving anyone who even turned in Jensen's direction the meanest look imaginable. But that wasn't until after several months of torture watching Jensen leave with other women. He too had been fighting the feelings he was having. But surely Jensen had...he had to have…with at least one of them. Didn't he?

"Jensen, mi corazon, are you telling me that you've never been with-"

"Yes Cougar. That's what I'm saying." Jensen withdrew his hands into his lap and stared at them as if they held all the answers in the world. A bright blush flushed his face as he waited to hear teasing. He really should try to remember who he's with. It's not Roque.

Cougar felt a huge smile cover his face. He snatched Jensen's hands back into his grasp.

Jensen's head snapped up at the sudden movement. When he did he was rewarded with the biggest smile he's ever seen on the Spaniard's face. Holy shit. He's actually smiling. Not a smirk or a raised eyebrow. A smile. Wow. It's a very beautiful smile. Cougar is such a beautiful being.

Cougar leaned closer to Jensen. He slowly moved himself so that Jensen could tell he was moving in for a kiss. Cougar wanted to give Jensen ample time to decide whether he wanted this kiss or not.

Jensen was tired of waiting for Cougar to slowly make his way to finally kissing him. So he buried his fingers in the sniper's thick dark locks and yanked the beautiful sniper against him. Jensen's mouth found Cougar's and fastened onto him. Unfortunately Jensen was unsure of how to kiss another man. He didn't know if he should treat Cougar like he would a woman or if he should just go with his instincts.

Cougar was trying to be patient but after Jensen's unsure fumbling took control of the kiss. And they both experienced pure bliss. Jensen was thoroughly enjoying having his mouth dominated by Cougar.

Cougar started soft and sweet. He traced the outline of Jensen's kiss-swollen lips with his luscious tongue. Then he began nibbling on the blonde's bottom lip. Jensen began moaning and Cougar took that as an invitation to thrust his tongue past Jensen's parted lips and start exploring the moist, warm heat of his soon-to-be-lover's mouth.

Jensen followed Cougar's lead and started rubbing his tongue against Cougar's. He knew he was doing a good job as he felt and heard the growl that came from deep within Cougar's chest. He untangled his hands from Cougar's hair as he felt the need to explore the smaller man's body. Firm shoulders. Taut back muscles that urged Jensen to caress them. From there he moved down to fondle Cougar's firm buttocks. He used his current hold to urge Cougar harder against him. Then he lowered himself so that his back was on the ground and Cougar was above him.

Cougar forced himself to regain control as he felt Jensen thrust up against his hips. He disentangled himself from Jensen and sat back on his behind, which was surprisingly cool now that a certain pair of hands no longer clutched them. "No Jake. Not here. Not like this. No."

Jensen reopened his eyes and sucked in as much air as he could take. He didn't want to stop. "It's okay Carlos. I want to. Really I do." Jensen reached out to take Cougar back into his arms.

Cougar shook his head and firmly said, "No Jake. It will be your first time and we will do this right."

Jensen tried once again to convince Cougar to continue. "Carlos please, as long as my first time is with you, it will be right."

Once again Cougar shook his head. "No. We will wait until after this mission. When we are home and can be in either your or my bed." Jensen kept a room at his sister's house. So did Cougar. When Sarah found out that Cougar had no one and nowhere to go, she made a room for him in their house. Whenever they were off-mission both men would stay there. "Please do this for me Jake. Wait until we can be home?"

Jensen smiled at Cougar. "In case you haven't noticed Carlos, but for you I would do anything. I would even be gay for you." He paused as he wanted Cougar to realize that this next part was very important. "But only for you."

Cougar helped Jensen up and was helping him to clean the dirt and brush from his body when Cougar had a very distressing thought.

"What's wrong?" Jensen prayed that Cougar wasn't having second thoughts about them.

"How will we tell Sarah and Ana?" Cougar had such a look of panic on his face that it made Jensen want to burst out laughing. So he did.

"It's okay Cougs. Sarah already knows. She has for a long time." Jensen continued laughing.

Cougar looked at Jensen in curiosity. "What?"

Jensen started nodding as he tried to control his laughter. "Yeah. Sarah guessed my feelings for you the first time the team came to the house to meet them. She watched us the whole weekend and barely waited until after you guys had left to go back to the base to confront me about it. I could never hide anything from her." Jensen shook his head as he remembered that long ago weekend.

"She made me tell her everything. Not that I wouldn't have anyway. I told her how I felt about you, how I knew you were the only person that I would ever love, how-"

"You knew then that I am the only person you would ever love?" Cougar couldn't believe his ears.

"Yeah I did. The way you made me feel…I just knew. I then proceeded to tell her how I worried because you had no one outside of our unit and if anything ever happened there wouldn't be anyone to claim you. So that's when she volunteered to be your next of kin. Then we were off-mission that one time when you were stabbed by that nutjob. We didn't know about it until after you were already out of the hospital because you didn't have an emergency contact, not even Clay. She couldn't stand seeing me the way I was that day. So she offered to be your emergency contact and to be the one to make decisions in case you were unable."

Cougar smiled as he remembered how forceful Sarah had been when she demanded that he make her his next of kin and emergency contact. Volunteered? Mierda, I'd hate to see how she is when she is really demanding.

"We'll have to add you to both too Jake. Don't worry, the military won't ask. They won't want to look too closely at all. Besides, if they try to give us any trouble at all, Clay will handle them."

TBC in Chapter 6. (Which is a small chapter, I warn you now. It sets the stage for Chapter 7.)