It's No Sacrifice Chapter 10, a grey's anatomy fanfic

It's No Sacrifice Chapter 10
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: NC-17 (just to be safe)
Summary: Arizona is kidnapped and Callie is dealing with the aftermath

VERY hard chapter to write, I haven't made up my mind if I like it or not yet lol ... I kinda describe the rape moment (not too graphic and not directly talking about Arizona...but still it might be too crude for some so tread carefully).

Just in case you didn't read the A/N
WARNING RAPE DESCRIPTION AHEAD :S

All GA characters belong to Shonda Rhimes, no infringement is intended.

If you have any opinions or suggestions don't be afraid to write, they are very much appreciated.

CHAPTER 10

Heavy rainfall and floods had been assaulting Seattle for the better part of the week increasing car accidents, near-drownings and slip and falls throughout the city, which consequently meant more work for the doctors and nurses at Seattle Grace-Mercy West hospital.

Arizona Robbins, wearing blue scrubs and a pink butterfly surgical cap, opened the door to the attendings' locker room, sighing in relief when she saw it was empty.

She had just gotten out of supervising a three hour long surgery. A ten year old boy had lost control of his bike and had hit his unprotected head on a curve. The peds' surgeon shook her head, not understanding some parents' lack of responsibility towards their children. Luckily, the surgery was a success and the little boy would be riding his bike soon enough…hopefully wearing a helmet this time.

Arizona tried to banish thoughts of little boys and accidents from her over worked brain. All she wanted to do right now was change into something more comfortable and go find her girlfriend who she hadn't seen in over 48 hours.

It was mid November, three months had passed since the group of hikers had found her unconscious by the side of the Napeequa River. Most of her injuries had healed, except for her left arm which was now in a light pink brace that stopped right below the elbow. She was able to move her hand now and with the help of a physical therapist it looked like she would be able to perform surgery again within the next few months. Meanwhile, the last thirty days had been filled with post ops, surgery supervisions and infinite piles of paper work. She was so grateful to be back at work, but she was a surgeon…a surgeon who wasn't operating and that was definitely getting to her.

The blonde attending opened her locker and rifled through the few items of clothing she had while she distractedly stroked her round belly. She was now almost eight months pregnant, her baby bump apparent for all to see.

The small blonde had been talking to a wonderful couple in Illinois who had contacted her through an adoption agency a couple of months back. After their last phone conversation yesterday evening, she had decided that Michael and Sonya Ericsson were the best possible parents for the unborn infant… or, at least that was what she was currently trying to convince herself of.

She had yet to inform Callie of her decision, and although she was sure the brunette would keep quiet and support her no matter what, Arizona knew that the young attending had gotten attached to the little person growing inside her. And, if she had to be totally honest with herself, so had she, even though she had tried everything to stop that from happening. The truth was, Arizona would not be able to handle looking into the small childs' eyes and be reminded of him.

The peds' surgeon was terrified of the very real possibility that she would relive everything she had gone through the moment the baby was born and she was even more terrified of resenting it. With a heavy sigh, Arizona removed her surgical cap and scrub top, leaving her torso clad only in a simple but stylish black bra. She proceeded to unfold the shirt she had chosen to put on when she heard the door open, followed immediately by the sound of someone slamming into the wall of lockers on the opposite side of the room and a surprised "Whoa! Sorry,sorry…" Arizona smiled, slowly turning her head knowing exactly who she would see.

Callie was quickly making her way over to her locker, looking straight ahead. She was clearly making a huge effort not to direct her gaze at the semi-nude doctor to her left. Arizona could see a small blush making its way to the Latinas' cheeks. The blonde looked down at herself and shook her head in disbelief. She felt swollen and fat and just plane unappealing in general but Calliope had a way of erasing all that with just one adoring, lust filled gaze.

They had been going out for a little over two months now and Callie was making good on her promise of taking things slow…Yes, things were going slow…very slow…frustratingly slow if you asked Arizona. But, she knew, in the end, it was for the best.

Even though she had very little control of herself when she was in the presence of the Latina, when she was alone and especially in her therapy sessions with Dr. Gibson, she realized that there was a lot she needed to overcome before she could give herself completely over to the ortho surgeon, not just physically, but emotionally and mentally as well.

Her nightmares had only gotten worse over the past months and she had found herself frequently feeling watched or followed. On some occasions she had succumbed to full blown anxiety attacks, thankfully, none of them in the presence of Calliope. They usually hit her when she was at home, alone, which was generally when she felt most vulnerable.

She had made it a point not to sleep over the ortho surgeons' apartment…ever. It would just be too easy to hide in the beautiful womans' arms and she didn't want the Latina to have to worry, or look at her with pity if -god forbid- she had a nightmare or suffered a crushing anxiety attack in front of her.

Arizona kept her eyes on the raven haired woman who was now giving her back to the peds' surgeon. Callie hastily opened her locker and quickly put away her stethoscope and some files she had been carrying. The blonde crossed her arms over her chest, waiting to see how long the younger attending planned to ignore her.

After a few moments, Callie slammed her locker closed and leaned her forehead against it.

"You are so damn beautiful" she whispered softly, making Arizona blush.

Callie slowly turned around, leaning her back against her locker and simply stared at the smaller woman, her gaze so intense Arizona quickly became self conscious of her body and had to force herself not to look away. Her first instinct was to cover herself, but seeing the awe struck look on the other womans' face she changed her mind. Instead, she simply lifted her right hand, inviting the brunette to come closer.

Callie gave her a crooked smile as she slowly made her way towards her, carefully walking around the long bench in the middle of the room that separated them both. As she neared the blonde, she lifted her arm and grasped Arizonas' outstretched hand. The peds' surgeon gently pulled, propelling the taller woman closer to her. When they finally stood mere inches apart, the blonde slowly placed the younger womans' soft hand over her stomach, something she had not done before.

A white, dazzling smile appeared on Callies' face as she traced her hand over the blondes' belly. Both of the women gasped in surprise when they felt the baby give a strong kick.

"Oh my god! The baby's kicking!" Arizona childishly exclaimed, sincerely excited that the baby appeared to be responding to Callies' touch.

"Oh wow" Callie softly uttered in surprise as she placed her other hand over the blondes' belly, another kick soon resonating through it.

"The baby likes you Calliope" Arizona happily declared, a proud smile on her face.

Callie shook her head in disbelief, her heart tightening as she felt another powerful kick.

"You know what? I think she does" Callie agreed in wonder, not realizing her slipup.

Arizonas' eyes widened in shock, her smile disappearing as the meaning of the ortho surgeons' words hit her.

"'She'? Did-did you just say 'she'? Cause I'm pretty sure I just heard you say 'she' A-as in a little girl…is growing…inside me-she". Arizona stammered.

Callie opened her mouth and quickly closed it, mentally kicking herself for her carelessness.

"D-did I say…that? I'm sure I didn't say that…I couldn't have, you must be hearing things Arizona" She tried to cover, not fooling anyone with her nervous laughter.

"I'm having a girl?...I'm having a girl" Arizona answered her own question softly, not knowing if she was thrilled or just plain scared...Definitely both, she concluded after a few seconds.

"I'm sorry, Ari… with-with all the-the touching and the kicking—it-it just came out" Callie apologized, trying to read Arizonas' reaction to the unexpected news…news she had worked very hard to keep a secret for a very long time.

APPROXIMATELY TWO MONTHS EARLIER

Callie, Arizona and Officer Michel stepped out of the elevator on the third floor. Both surgeons were wearing long coats, having just enjoyed an early dinner on the roof. Dr. Robbins was sitting on her wheelchair, Tupperware in hand, making light conversation with the young police officer who was pushing her chair along, while next to her, the ortho surgeon was absorbed reading a text message from Mark.

As they made their way to room 3021, Callie suddenly let out a loud chuckle. Both Arizona and Chris looked up at the raven haired woman with curious expressions on their faces. Callie sensed their eyes on her and distractedly waved them off as she texted another message.

"It's just Mark…being Mark" She said as she handed the cell phone over to the blonde.

"Ew, Now why would he think we'd be doing that on a roof?...is that even humanly possible?" Arizona asked, scrunching her nose.

"Uh ye—" Callie started to say with a distracted, wry snort as she turned her attention to the peds' surgeon who was staring at her with an arched eyebrow and an amused smile on her face "-I have no idea" The brunette quickly corrected, clearing her throat.

"oo look who's here, Addie" the ortho surgeon swiftly changed the subject as she picked up her pace and headed towards her friend, leaving Arizona and Chris staring off after her.

"Let me see" the young officer said as he took the cell from the attendings' hand and proceeded to read the text message.

"Whoa, she is one freaky doc" He said with a light chuckle, handing the phone back.

"Huh, tell me about it" Arizona answered, still staring at the brunette with the same arched eyebrow.

"Callie, hey I-" Addison started to greet the ortho surgeon who had walked up beside her.

"Why are you running tests now? Do-do you think something's wrong with the baby?" The ortho surgeon interrupted her friend, all traces of her good mood gone.
Dr. Montgomery sighed heavily and closed the chart she had been examining. "Callie, we've been running tests on the baby every week since Arizona got here…this is nothing new…I'm leaving tonight and I'd feel better if I got one more look, that's all" she assured the younger woman while placing a comforting hand on her friends' shoulder.

"Yeah, but with the Gamma Hydroxy-what if-"

"What if nothing…we'll cross that bridge when and if we get to it…ok?" The neonatal surgeon said, giving her friends' shoulder a tight squeeze.

"Hey Addie" Arizona cheerfully greeted as Chris maneuvered the wheelchair into the room.

"Arizona…how are we feeling today?" The redhead asked lightly as she followed them in.

"Fat and a little bloated…but other than that we're doing just fine" She answered with a smile as she let Callie help her sit on the bed.

"Here, let me get this off you..." Callie gently uttered as she unzipped her coat.

"Ow,ow,ow…" The blonde attending yelped in pain as the younger woman carefully removed the garment.

"Hey, I've been wondering…you can barely stand up by yourself, let alone put on a jacket without howling like a maniac…how is it that you showed up at the apartment wearing jeans and a shirt?" Callie pondered curiously referring to Arizonas' surprise appearance at Marks' party the night before.

"Umm, yeah...about that…" Arizona awkwardly stated as she shot a nervous glance over at the young police officer who quickly averted his eyes to the floor and placed his hand on the back of his neck.

Callie looked from the attending to the police officer and then back again, her eyes widening as realization sunk in.

"You?" She barked, directing her attention to Officer Michel before turning around to look at the blonde surgeon.

"Him?" She asked with the same tone.

"I-I needed help and he was here, so…" The blonde surgeon lamely tried to explain, while giving the raven haired attending her most charismatic smile.

"I swear I didn't see anything!-" Chris blurted out nervously "-Well, of course I saw something-" At that Callie raised a warning eyebrow…"-but I-I just don't look at Arizona that way-"

The ped surgeons' eyebrow shot up as well "-not-not that you're not hot…cause believe me…you are!" The brunette crossed her arms over her chest, patiently waiting for the young man to dig his own grave, while Addison covered her mouth with the chart she was holding and looked away trying desperately to keep from laughing out loud…"—but-but..." Chris took a deep breath, attempting, in vain, to organize his thoughts.

"I'm engaged-"he started again "to a beautiful woman…and-and you're beautiful-the both-no… all-all three of you are gorgeous…it's not like I'm oblivious to that, 'cause I'm not… I'm not gay or anything…" he joked with a nervous laugh before realizing he just stuck his foot further into his mouth.

Arizona and Addison crossed their arms, imitating Callies' posture as they quietly continued to listen to the train wreck that was Christopher Michel…"Not-not that I think there's anything wrong with it, I have lots of gay friends…A-Arizona being one of them…well, she-she's actually more like a sister to me-my point is…" Chris stared blankly at the white wall behind Arizona, clearly at a loss for words. After a few awkward seconds he continued" I-I better go" He finished bashfully, pointing to the door.

"Go!" all three women agreed in unison

"Ok then…I will see you later Ar-Dr. Robbins…Have a nice evening ladies" He gave a slight nod and with that, he quickly turned and walked out, closing the door quietly behind him.

The three women stared at each other in utter silence for a few seconds before succumbing to a fit of laughter.

"Oh my god, is he for real?" Addison asked as she dabbed at her teary eyes.

"That, right there, was Seattles' finest" Callie quipped as she slowly guided the peds surgeon onto her back, accommodating the pillow behind her and bending down to give her a kiss on the lips.

"Can we call it even?" Arizona offered as she reached out for another kiss.

Callie chuckled "We're even" she agreed with a smile as she placed another loving kiss on the beautiful womans' mouth.

"Ok, everything appears to look normal…I'll get the blood work analyzed before I leave but nothing's come up before so I don't see why it would now" Addison reassured the younger women as she expertly maneuvered the transducer over Arizonas' belly. The blonde surgeon was lying on the bed, watching the small monitor to her right. Her left hand was tightly intertwined with Callies' who was sitting in a plastic chair to her left, staring intently at the image before her.

"You're about four and half months pregnant…so, if the baby is positioned appropriately, it's possible we can find out the sex if you want." The redhead suggested.

Arizona immediately searched Callies' eyes, fear and doubt taking over her. She had thought she wanted to know but now, faced with the decision, she didn't think she could handle it.

So far, the baby was and had been this abstract, formless thought she could just push to the back of her mind, just like everything else that had happened to her…but, if she accepted the fact that a little boy or a little girl was growing inside her, then it would turn into a real, live person she would eventually have to confront. Arizona did not want to think about that day, which loomed over her head like a guillotine about ready to drop. The blonde sometimes' felt like she was holding on by a thread and the only defense she had was her ability to compartmentalize her feelings. And all the feelings that had to do with the rape and the baby were currently buried deep inside her where she didn't have to analyze or deal with them, and that's how she wanted things to stay.

"It's ok Ari…It's ok if you don't want to" Callie tried to comfort the blonde woman.

"I'm- I'm sorry...I can't" The peds' attending whispered, averting her eyes in shame.

"That's all right…you don't have to know now…it doesn't matter as long as it's healthy, right?" Addison tried to lift the younger womans' spirits'.

Arizonas' eyes watered over; she was trying her best to hold back the tears. She nodded her head, agreeing as a few escaped her eyes despite her efforts.

Addison held her right hand and gave it a gentle squeeze before continuing" You know I'll have to look so I can finish my examination and make sure the baby is completely fine…I'm gonna put some more gel on you-there—and you look at Callie for me ok?" Addison gently prompted her friend.

Arizona wordlessly turned her head to the left, her eyes settling on the raven haired woman. She exhaled a shaky breath before attempting to give a worried looking Callie a reassuring smile.

The ortho surgeon returned the smile and inched her face closer to Arizonas', nuzzling her nose with her own. "You are so brave Ari…I love you so much" She whispered into her ear. At this the blonde let out a soft whimper, placing her hand behind the Latinas' neck and pressing the younger woman tightly to her.

"Well, everything looks great…that is one perfect, healthy little baby" Addison beamed as she made to turn off the ultrasound machine.

"Calliope, you can look if you want" Arizona offered the brunette who was at the moment leaning her right elbow on the bed, covering her eyes with her hand, trying her best not to direct her gaze at the monitor. The blonde took the orthos' hand and pulled it away from her face, waiting patiently for an answer.

"No, it's fine Ari-I-I don't have to know, it's really not that important" She said as her eyes inadvertently shot to the monitor. Before she could get a look she promptly returned her gaze back to the blonde attending. Arizona smiled, shaking her head.

"Calliope, I trust you…I-I want you to know" She quietly admitted.

The brunette tightened her hold on the ped surgeons hand and slowly looked up. As soon as she saw the baby, Callie cleared her throat and tried to put on the most impassive face she could muster, failing miserably. A crooked smile made its way to her face and she let out a surprised "huh...".

Arizona kept her eyes on the beautiful woman, enjoying the different emotions that crossed her features.

"Well…" The Latina cleared her throat again before continuing "Like Addie said, It's-it's perfectly fine…" She turned her attention back to the woman lying on the bed "And let me tell you... you have quite a looker right there" She smiled affectionately. Arizona grinned at that, comforted by the raven haired womans' words.

"Yes you do" the redhead agreed with a warm smile, her expression turning serious a moment later.

"Listen Arizona…I know we've talked a little about your choice to give the baby up for adoption but, I think it would be a good idea to start looking into adoption agencies…I know you, and I know you're going to want to make an informed decision about the parents, and the sooner you start looking the more time you'll have to get to know them" The neonatal surgeon advised. She got up and went over to her purse which was hanging on a nearby chair.

"Here are some brochures on the best adoption agencies across the state. You don't have to decide on anything tonight, but I recommend you do this sooner rather than later" She said as she handed over the brochures and then rested her hand on the womans' leg.

Arizona gave her a quick nod and quietly rifled through them.

Addison looked over at the brunette who was still tightly clasping the blondes' hand, a far away look in her eyes. Callie felt her friends' eyes on her and quickly looked up. Addie arched her eyebrow and gave the younger woman a stern look.

"Hey Ari, I'm gonna head out for a sec and look for Cristina so she can take the left over food home…I'll be right back" she promised and gave her a kiss on the temple. Arizona leaned into the soft touch, closing her eyes before she continued to scan one of the pamphlets.

"Oo can you leave the lasagna? I so want lasagna for later" She suddenly blurted out, giving Callie a cheeky grin.

Callie simply nodded, leaving a container on the bedside table before heading out.

Once outside she walked over to Officer Michel who was leaning against the wall next to the room. He quickly averted his eyes, and bit his tongue to keep from blurting something else that would get him into trouble.

"Here" Callie stated curtly as she handed him a container filled with food. The handsome young man smiled at her kindly and gave a slight nod in thanks. The brunette smirked, giving him an overly exaggerated malicious stare, prompting a short chuckle from the young man.

"It'll never happen again Dr. Torres…You have my word" He assured the attending.

Callie simply sized him up before turning to make her way to the elevators.

"Hey, Callie wait up" Addison called out as she rushed to her side.

"You're not leaving yet are you? This'll just take a minute" She stated motioning to the left overs, wanting to spend some quality time with her best friend before her flight.

"No, I still have a few hours before I have to head out" The taller woman replied before looking away and changing the subject

"Listen Callie…I-I know you and I know that look in your eyes…and-and it's crazy, and you have to stop it right now" Addison blurted out rapidly.

"What are you talking about?" Callie asked as she turned and continued her trip to the elevators, prompting Addison to follow.

"You can't fall in love with that baby Callie" The older attending warned.

Callie abruptly stopped in her tracks and turned around with a disbelieving look on her face.

"Some sick, demented prick forced himself on her and left her pregnant…You-you get that right? That baby is a direct result of someone raping your girlfriend"

"Addison!" Callie almost yelled at the older attending, a warning look in her eyes.

"No! You're going to listen to me because you're off playing house while your girlfriend is going through god knows what. You have to be there for her and support her in any and every decision she makes. And you falling for that child isn't going to help either of you…if she sees that in your eyes, it'll break her". She tried to reason with the brunette who was staring menacingly at her.

"Arizona is going to give that baby up because she knows it'll always remind her of him…it is a part of him whether you want to acknowledge it or not, and you can't pretend to simply ignore that and create this perfect little family in your head, because that isn't going to happen Callie…and I'm sorry I'm the one that has to tell you this, but I love you and I love Arizona and the best thing you can do is to get through these next 4 months and then give the baby to a loving family where it can grow up without anybody resenting it, and then you two can move on with your lives" Addison reasoned.

She never planned on having this conversation with the woman standing before her but she had seen the look in her eyes and she knew how potentially dangerous that look could be.. After all, she was a neonatal surgeon and she had treated many rape victims, too many. Addison understood Arizonas' decision to give the baby up and she didn't want Callie to get her hopes up. She wanted to make her understand that Arizona would not be the only one who might see Seger reflected in the baby. The redhead didn't think that either women had processed or confronted their situation yet which was all the more reason to steer Callie away from creating any kind of bond with the child.

"Are you finished?" Callie asked, clearly smoldering behind her stoic face.

Addison nodded prepared for the retaliation. She accepted any consequence her little outburst might have created, she loved her friend and she would never keep quiet if her happiness or well being was on the line.

"I know perfectly well what happened to Arizona, ok?…I know what that fuck did to her, that's all I think about…she's all I think about…and if I ever get my hands on him I swear to god I'm going to kill him. So-so don't come here and accuse me of being this-this self absorbed, baby-crazed, delusional woman ok?" Callie hissed. She knew Addison only had her best interest at heart, but she was frustrated, confused, scared and above all she was pissed off and she knew perfectly well she was taking it out on her friend; but frankly she was beyond caring at this point.

"-I know how that baby got here-god damn it-" She finished with an enraged tone, holding her free hand to her forehead and taking a deep breath to calm herself. Addison made to put a hand on her friends' arm but Callie took a step back, not wanting to be touched right now.

"I get that that little girl is a part of Seger, really I do, but she's also a part of Arizona…and I love her so much, you know how much I love her" Callie declared, waiting for the taller woman to acknowledge her feelings. Addison nodded her head and looked down at the floor, tears forming in her eyes.

"I know" she whispered, looking back up at the brunette "I know" she repeated, louder this time

Callie clenched her jaw and continued "Ok, so don't ask me not to feel something for that child because what you're really asking me to do is to not feel something for Arizona. I will always love everything about her, including that baby, do-do you get that Addison?...I will support her no matter what she decides, and if giving that baby girl away is what's best for her then I will be standing right beside her the day that happens…but don't tell me to brush away my feelings for that baby…she is a tiny human being, and she doesn't deserve our fear or-or indifference." She finished, bowing her head and smiling to herself despite all the anger, recognizing Arizona rubbing off on her with that last statement.

"Callie-I'm—" The redhead began, sincerely sorry for what she had just said.

"Have a nice trip Addison" Callie interrupted. They stared at each other for a few more seconds before the younger woman turned and headed to the elevators without saying another word.

Addison had tried calling Callie many time after that, she had even flown down a couple of times to get her to talk to her but the younger woman would simply ignore or avoid her. The fight had played itself over and over in the ortho surgeons' head, and in all honesty Callie was afraid that what her friend had warned her about would come true. She had become way too attached to the baby and she didn't know what her reaction would be the day of her birth, she didn't know what she would feel upon seeing her being carried away by strangers and she didn't know what Arizona would be going through either.

Right now though, she was trying to figure out what was going through her girlfriends head. Arizona was staring blankly ahead, her hands motionless over Callies' which were still resting over her belly.

"Ari?" She coaxed softly.

Arizona slowly lifted her eyes to the raven haired woman; Callies' worried eyes snapping her out of her daze.

"huh, wow…that is, that's…" She cleared her throat unable to find words to express what she felt.

"It isn't a bad thing, right?...I mean, it's a little girl" Callie said with a warm smile, trying to get the blonde to do the same.

"No, no it's not bad, I-I just wasn't expecting to find out today...I don't know why I'm so surprised, I mean there was a fifty percent chance the kid was going to come out a girl, right?" She laughed humorlessly at her own lame joke.

"I'm really so-"Callie started to apologize again but was interrupted by soft lips. Arizona had leaned in and captured the taller womans' mouth in her own.

"Shh..it's not a bad thing…I'm-I'm happy" Arizona whispered after they had parted, their foreheads and noses lightly touching,

"You are?" Callie asked with a wistful smile on her face.

Arizona simply nodded and kissed her girlfriend again, this time with more force, pushing the ortho surgeon backwards. The back of Callies' legs hit the bench and she promptly sat down, taking the blonde with her. Their lips had not yet separated and as the kissing grew more frantic and passionate, the younger attending was finding it more difficult to convince herself to stop what was happening.

Arizona was straddling the younger woman, her legs resting on the bench on either side of Callie. The brunettes' hands roamed across Arizonas' back, lightly digging her fingernails over the soft, pale skin. As soon as Callie heard her girlfriends' soft groan she couldn't help but push her pelvis up against the blondes' center prompting loud moans from them both. The peds' surgeon instinctually began to slowly grind against Callie, driving the woman beneath her crazy. With the last shred of will power she had in her, the ortho surgeon tore her lips away from Arizonas' who didn't really seem to mind as she quickly made her way to the brunettes neck without missing a beat. Callies' breath was coming out in erratic huffs, her heart was about to burst out of her chest and her body felt like it was on fire.

"We should stop" Callie whispered unconvincingly, as she started to gently nibble on the blondes pulse point.

"Mhmm" Arizona softly agreed as she sucked on her girlfriends' earlobe and grabbed a hold of Callies' hand, resting on the small of her back and guided it down to her backside.

"oh god" Callie moaned, biting into the attendings' shoulder trying to keep from making any more sounds. This was not how she had imagined this moment. Not in the attendings' locker room where any minute a doctor could open the door and catch them dry humping each other through their scrubs.

"I-I-I rented us a movie…and we could order piz—no, not pizza…anything but pizza" Callie quickly corrected herself, as memories of their first time together started flooding her brain.

Arizona chuckled as she peppered the younger womans' neck with feather light kisses. She breathed in the other womans' scent and tried to get a hold on her emotions. She backed up just enough to get a good look at Callies' face. The ortho surgeon was giving her the most heart warming gaze she had ever seen. Her dark brown eyes had turned almost completely black with desire, but she could also clearly see the love and adoration showing unrestrained within their chocolate depths.

The blonde leaned closer to the raven haired woman and put her arms around her neck, giving her a tight hug and closing her eyes as she felt the younger woman envelope her waist with her arms and return the hug just as fervently.

Arizona placed her lips lightly over the younger womans' left ear "I love you" she whispered, enjoying the light shiver that ran through Callies' entire body upon hearing those words.

Callie placed a kiss on the attendings' neck and leaned back in order to capture the blondes' lips with her own. This kiss was slower and more gentle then the previous one; they had somewhat regained control of themselves, although Callie smiled into the kiss when she noticed that they were still slowly grinding into each other without realizing it.

Arizona abruptly stopped and looked down at her belly. Callie slowly cupped her cheek and waited, knowing there was something on her girlfriends' mind.

"I talked to Michael and Sonya yesterday…I-I really like them, I believe they are the babys' parents…they are her parents" She asserted while nodding her head. She closely observed Callies' face, waiting for a reaction. Arizonas' heart clenched tightly in her chest when she saw the heart-broken look on Callies' face. But, her girlfriend quickly recovered and replaced it with a wide, albeit hesitant smile.

"Wow, that's-that's great Ari…they are an awesome couple, I really like them" Callie assured the blonde, trying to be supportive.

"Callie I just want you to know I-"Arizona began but was cut off by someone opening the door.

"Uh-uh, no…does this look like a motel to you?" Miranda Bailey berated the young attendings' as she placed her hands over her hips. Arizona hastily stood up with Callies' help, her face and neck turning red with embarrassment as she hurriedly put on the shirt that had fallen to the floor.

"We were just talking Bailey" Callie tried to appease the new general surgery attending as she made her way to her locker, opening it and grabbing her jacket.

"Uh, who do you think you're talking to? That, right there, was sure as hell not talking…that looked like something one should be doing in the privacy of ones' own bedroom…I did not become an attending to deal with two horny teenagers in my locker room" She reprimanded as she opened her locker and placed her purse carefully in it.

Callie and Arizona smiled at each other, realizing they were indeed acting like a couple of irresponsible teenagers.

Arizona grabbed her purse and jacket, not bothering to take off her scrub pants. She made her way over to the Latina and reached for her hand pulling her towards the door.

"We're sorry Bailey…We'll try to keep the groping to a minimum next time" Arizona said with a cheeky grin as she opened the door and exited the locker room. "Later" Callie smiled smugly and followed her girlfriend out.

Miranda shook her head and scoffed but couldn't quiet keep the small smirk off of her face "tss…'bout damn time" She muttered to herself as she searched her locker for a clean pair of scrubs.

"Mommyyyy!" Sophie Seger shrieked loudly from under her covers. After a few seconds, Patrick Seger burst into the room looking around frantically. As soon as he saw the tiny figure shaking under the covers, he sighed in relief. He slowly sat down on the edge of the bed and turned on the lamp that rested on the small bedside table.

"Sweetie, everything's fine, I'm right here. Did you have another bad dream?" He tenderly asked as he softly rubbed the little girls back, trying to soothe her.

"I want mommy" She cried, still under the covers.

"I know you do honey, but mommy is resting at the hospital right now…so you have to be brave for her ok? In a few days she's going to feel better and she'll be back home…but, we have to take care of each other until then…you listening Sophe?" he gently coaxed his 5 year old daughter.

A mass of unruly brown curls slowly made its way from out of the light pink barbie covers. As soon as Patrick saw his daughters' tear stained face his heart clenched and he immediately bent down to kiss her lightly on both cheeks. The little girl wrapped her arms tightly around her father and allowed him to gently sweep her up onto his lap, slowly rocking her. Sophie sniffled loud enough for her father to hear and then proceeded to look at him with wide, innocent eyes. He smiled, knowing full well this is how she got him to do absolutely anything for her. His wife, Susan, would constantly tease him about how much this little girl had him wrapped around her finger.

"Can we go on the swing?" She quietly asked as she deliberately sniffled a few more times.

"arggg…ok, but just for a little while Sophe…We have to get up early and visit mommy tomorrow" Patrick reminded the young child.

Sophie immediately brightened and nodded enthusiastically; the man laughed at his daughters' sudden change in mood and got up with her still in his arms. He searched the upstairs hall closet and found a wool blanket. He wrapped it around his shoulders making sure the tiny girl in his arms was snugly enveloped. Then he headed downstairs and out the backdoor.

The full moon shone brilliantly; there was no need to turn on any of the porch lights. Patrick calmly walked over to the giant oak tree in the middle of the spacious garden. A beautiful white swing hanging from the trees sturdy branches gently swayed back and forth, the ropes straining against the light breeze and the leaves rustling were the only sounds that could be heard. The tall man sat down on the swing and started to gently move them back and forth as he looked up at the star filled sky.

"I see a bear" He said after a few moments of comfortable silence.

"Where?" Sophie asked with excitement, looking up and trying to locate the animal. This had been a game they had shared ever since she was two years old and she never seemed to get enough of it.

"There, see?" He said as he grabbed his daughters' left hand and traced the stars with her outstretched finger.

"That's not a bear" She laughed

"It's not?" Patrick questioned with an overly shocked tone.

"No, that's an airplane…see?" She said laughing lightly, grabbing his hand and taking his finger, guiding it over the same stars. The handsome man chuckled, amazed at his daughters vivid imagination.

"That's a plane alright" He finally conceded.

"See, told you" Sophie stated proudly.

She then leaned into her fathers' chest yawning deeply before slowly closing her eyes.

"You getting sleepy baby?" He whispered as he kissed the top of her head.

"No, I'm not sleepy…can we stay here a little while longer?" She asked with a drowsy tone.

"Of course we can" He answered with a soft smile, turning his attention back to the moon overhead.

"Daddy…you won't ever leave me right?" She softly asked.

"I won't ever leave you sweetie" He solemnly swore.

"Promise?" Came the soft question

"I promise" He said still looking up at the moon.

The stars suddenly disappeared and the moon vanished before his eyes, leaving them in complete darkness. He got up from the swing, but panic took over him as he noticed that Sophie was no longer in his arms.

"Sophie?" he called out frantically, placing his hands in front of him to try and feel his way around. Tears started streaming down his face as he heard the little girls' melodic voice calling out to him "Daddy" it echoed all around him. It seemed so far away, completely engulfed by the darkness. He couldn't make out what direction it was coming from. "Sophie!" He screamed.

All of a sudden he felt a painful blow on the back of his head. He fell to the ground with a loud thud. Patrick put his hand where he had been hit, trying to make sense of everything. He looked around in confusion; he was in a dark, damp basement a slight woman was standing over him, breathing heavily and holding a wrench in her hand. Upon seeing her beautiful face, rage unexpectedly took over him. He hated her and he didn't know why. The blonde woman turned quickly and ran for the stairs but he was too fast for her. He stood up and lunged at her, grabbing her from behind and throwing her across the room where she collided with the cement wall. A loud thud resonated throughout the silent room. Patrick carefully made his way over to the motionless figure lying on the floor. Blood was pouring out of a wound on the young womans' head. He kneeled down and grabbed her arm, turning her over in order to see her face. His breath caught in his throat when he saw the woman who was staring lovingly back at him.

Susan was lying on their bed, her golden hair splayed across the feathered pillow. She wordlessly cupped her husbands' cheek and wiped away his tears. The beautiful woman sat up and kissed him with all the love and passion she felt. Patrick was confused and scared but his wife's warm touch and soft lips soon made him forget about everything else. He hadn't felt her in such a long time.

"I love you" He softly whispered in her ear as he guided her to lie on the bed. Susan just smiled and kissed him again, never uttering a single word. Their breathing started to get heavy and she proceeded to undo his pants. He roughly grabbed her hand and placed it above her head, the anger he had been feeling before consuming his body again. He ripped her underwear and threw it carelessly to the floor. She looked at him with fear in her eyes, but he didn't care.

"Wha-What are you doing" She asked in a groggy voice.

"Shhh…everythings' going to be fine now…all three of us will be together again soon" He reassured his beautiful wife.

"What are you talking about? Stop!" she tried to push him off, but that just made him more enraged. He slapped her across the face, a guttural sound escaping his lips. He didn't know why he was doing this, but he couldn't stop himself. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry…:" He repeated over and over again as he entered her. She cried out loud, tears streaming unchecked down her face as she tried to push him off her. With her last ounce of strength, Susan freed her hands from his grasp and placed them on his chest giving one final push as a scream escaped her lips. Seger lost his balance and fell to the floor.

Patrick hit his head on the hard wooden floor; he slowly opened his eyes and looked around. He was sprawled out on the floor of a small motel room, he had evidently fallen out of bed. He closed his eyes, It had all been a dream. He couldn't catch his breath and he painfully gasped as he tried to force oxygen into his lungs. He quickly stood up and ran to the bathroom, throwing up in the dirty, white toilet. The man then rested his head against the bowl, wiping away the tears and sweat from his face. With a deep, steadying breath he stood up on shaky legs and leaned his hands against the sink. He looked at his reflection…a tired, worn out version of his former self stared back at him. His dark hazel eyes, once filled with kindness and joy were now hallow and dull. He had lost over 15 pounds and he had started to pull out his hair, leaving bald patches around his scalp.

He shook his head and looked away. He thought of his baby daughter and his beautiful wife and a loud whimper escaped his lips. They would be so disappointed if they could see him now. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" He cried, completely disgusted with himself. He thought of Dr. Robbins, and how he had lost control of himself. He had wanted to make her suffer like he was suffering, and he made sure to go above and beyond to make that happen. But she had slipped through his fingers and now he had to hide from the police in disgusting, rodent filled motel rooms. But, soon he would make his way back to her, make her see, make her feel. He slowly lifted his eyes and looked at his reflection again, a cruel smile appearing on his handsome face. "Soon" he promised himself as he placed his hand over the mirror and then gave it a powerful blow with his fist, breaking the mirror into hundreds of tiny shards of glass. He looked at his bloody hand, welcoming the pain before staring back up at his reflection which was now split in two.

It's No Sacrifice Chapter 10

mcstout

June 6th, 7:08

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It's No Sacrifice Chapter 10
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: NC-17 (just to be safe)
Summary: Arizona is kidnapped and Callie is dealing with the aftermath

A/N 1 Thank you all who commented, I'm sorry I never have time to reply to you one by one but after next week hopefully I'll be less busy :)

A/N 2 VERY hard chapter to write, I haven't made up my mind if I like it or not yet lol ... I kinda describe the rape moment (not too graphic and not directly talking about Arizona...but still it might be too crude for some so tread carefully).

Just in case you didn't read the A/N
WARNING RAPE DESCRIPTION AHEAD :S

All GA characters belong to Shonda Rhimes, no infringement is intended.

If you have any opinions or suggestions don't be afraid to write, they are very much appreciated.

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