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19
I sat on my bed with Kyla as the music from my computer was playing. We were quietly looking through magazines. I kept almost saying something but every time I looked at Kyla I thought of Ashley and her kissing me. I wanted to ask her if Ashley had said anything but that could open a whole new can of worms if Ashley hasn't said anything to Kyla. Gah, this is confusing.
"Thanks for letting me hang out," she said as she flipped through a magazine. It eased the tension and my thoughts weren't as hectic, which I was happy about.
I smiled, "Ky we're friends. We're going to hang out. Eventually we'll hang out so much, you might even get sick of me," I said and she laughed. I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in," I said as my brother opened the door.
"Spence – oh hey Kyla," he said when he noticed her on my bed, "How are you?"
"Oh, I'm good," she said blushing. I looked back and forth between them. Oh jeez. We sat in silence for a moment while Glen and Kyla didn't look at each other. They were so obvious, I almost laughed.
"Was there something you needed?" I asked my brother. He looked confused for a minute, "Oh right. I need to borrow your computer to do research. Mine crashed," I nodded and he unplugged my laptop and picked it up.
"Right thanks. See ya Kyla," he said walking out.
"No porn!" I yelled after him, to embarrass him and I heard him mock laugh as he walked back to his room.
"He likes you," I teased Kyla and she blushed harder. I swear her face looked like a tomato. I didn't know people's faces could ever get that shade of red.
"Well, he's nice," she said looking away. Ha, Glen nice? Whatever to each there own. I was about to say something in response to her when my door burst open.
"I need help," Carmen said as she flopped on my bed next to a stunned Kyla, "Oh hey Ky," she said. I was unfazed, Carmen had become so infused into my life that it was normal for her to just walk in my house. She even knew where the spare key was.
"What's up?" I asked. She sighed.
"I don't know what to do," she said. She flew backwards so that she was lying on her back on my bed.
"About what?" I asked as Kyla moved over a bit giving Carmen more room.
"Stacey," she mumbled. Kyla and I looked at each other. She seemed to pick up on where the conversation immediately. It wasn't like Stacey and Carmen didn't act like a couple already. If I didn't know any better, I would think they were dating already.
"What about Stacey?" Kyla asked curiously.
"I just – I think I like her," Carmen admitted.
"Aw, that's great!" Kyla said. Carmen groaned and covered her face. Kyla and I shared a confused look.
"What's the matter Carm? You have to talk," I said poking her.
"I like her. She's amazing...but she's not like you and me Spence. She's not gay," she said sighing.
I stared at her confused. Yeah, Stacey wasn't gay, but she has expressed interest in Carmen. To me at least.
"I don't that matters here, whether she is or isn't. I think it's just about liking who you like," I said.
"Okay fine, but even then. She would never like me," Carmen said.
"Umm, I beg to differ," Kyla said and both Carmen and I looked at her in shock.. Carmen sat up.
"What do you mean?" she asked so fast the words melded together.
"Well the way you two act together. I just get the vibe that she likes you as more than a friend," Kyla clarified. I nodded in agreement. Carmen narrowed her eyes at me.
"What do you know?" she asked curiously. Well great, sometimes it sucks having friends that know you so well. If I were to tell Carmen about my suspicions of Stacey's feelings toward her it would kinda be like betraying Stacey.
"Well I know that she was upset the other day. I know she's been questioning things," I said hesitantly. But I didn't say anything else. I felt bad because Stacey hadn't actually told me she liked Carmen, just the questioning herself part. But everyone knew. And if telling Carmen could somehow bring them together then that's a good thing right?
"I got to go," she said standing up suddenly.
"Uhh, where?" I asked.
"Well, now I'm even more confused. So I figure the best person to talk to would be Stacey herself," Carmen said shrugging, "if she rejects me at least I put myself out there and at least she knows how I feel right?"
"Good for you Carm," I said as she nodded and headed towards the door.
"Good luck!" Kyla said excitedly. She's such a romantic and loves when people get together.
I watched Carmen leave and pretended to go back to my magazine. But really I was envious of her right now. She was going right to the source of her confusion and problems to get an answer. I wanted to do that with Ashley. But I'm afraid and being selfish because we've hit some neutrality act where we are civil to each other and I kind of missed that.
But she kissed me and I kissed back. She has a boyfriend. She and the other cheerleaders have made my life hell for two years. And right now I don't really care, because I can't stop thinking about kissing her again.
God, I'm so messed up.