Chastity

I've lost the reminisce of my sanity. Fuck all these people, fuck the people I can't save, fuck this I want out. Sirius and Lupin caught up with me later in the day when I was cigarette free and full of anger.

"If you're here to lecture me I advise you save your breathe." I told them rolling my eyes as I looked up at them from my bed.

"You can't go around punching people." Sirius said. No one listens to me.

"That is completely debatable." I told them swinging my head over the edge of the bed so I laid upside down staring at them, my hair dangling and reaching the floor.

"Chastity, come on." Begged Sirius as they walked closer into the room and I sighed as they took seats, one on my black chair, one on my foot stool.

"Poopy faces fine, fine, fine I won't go around punching people who are supposed to save the world in the face." I said rolling my eyes at how funny they looked upside down.

"Thank you! Now go apologize." Lupin said and I raised an eyebrow at him. He walked over to me pulled me up and pulled me down the hall.

"You are a BAD BAD BAD PERSON" I hissed as he threw me into the boys room. He waited at the door way as I looked at Harry, they looked at me expectantly.

"I'm sorry you deserve to get punched in the face." I offered as turned to leave. My face met Lupin's crossed arms and a eye rolling Sirius.

"You're shitting me right?" I asked turning back around I put a fake smile on and looked at the laughing twins and the annoyed potter.

"I'm sorry that I attempted to punch you in the face, and I'm sorry that it was only an attempt." I told him making a dive and crawling under Lupin's legs.

"POWNED" I smirked as I ran to my room.

"I tried." Offered Lupin with a sigh as he and Sirius turn and walked away. I wandered outside and into the garden where Mrs. Weasley sat weeding.

"Need some help?" I offered getting on my knees next to her and starting pulling up weeds.

"Oh thank you deary! I feared it would take all day and I wouldn't be able to plant these." She said taking out some Lazy eyes Susans, bleeding hearts, and devils walking sticks.

"No problem, I'll get this weeded and these planted within two hours." I told her smiling.

"How do you know how to garden?" She asked as she continued to weed.

"Oh, the nursing home I volunteered at had me gardening a lot." I smiled. We worked in silence for about half an hour before she excused herself to go begin lunch.

"Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has, lord it takes a lonely one to wish she'd never dreamt at all" I sang "Carve your heart out yourself" by Dashboard Confessional. I got my ipod out of my pocket and put both head phones in blocking out the world.

"Don't look now there she goes with hope again" I continued to sing the song until it's end. I didn't notice that Potter had come outside, or that he was listening.

"Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is blessed you share with me. The night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race from self control your legs are smooth as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing nothing at all. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me so won't you kill me so I die happy. My heart is your fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry whichever you prefer." I sang "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional. I turned to grab a packet of seeds when I saw the wide eyed Potter staring at me.

"Is there a problem?" I questioned brushing a piece of hair out of my face, probably getting dirt on my face.

"No, Mrs. Weasley asked me to help you garden." He told me and I looked him in the eye.

"Don't." I told him simply continuing my work.

"You have a pretty voice." He commented taking me by surprise.

"You are so fucking bipolar its almost funny. Get away from me you glorified emo kid." I hissed as I tucked another piece of hair behind my ear.

"Everything I said was true." He informed me uncaringly.

"You watched me all of two times. You don't know shit about me. You don't know who I was, am, or will be. You don't know shit. Now stay away from me." I told him as more hair fell from my pony tail.

"And by the way you were right baby doll." I told him getting up his mouth hanging wide open as I pulled the pony tail out and let my hair fall free.

"I am shameless."