The Next Morning

Alice lay in bed awake. She'd been awake since 4. It was 8 o'clock and she couldn't bring herself to climb from bed. Danny had got up a couple of hours ago. He'd had a restless night. They usually curled up together but he tossed and turned. Awww her poor Danny. She wished she could protect him more from Lexi's anger. But he wouldn't have it. She could even partially understand her daughters anger. What Lexi didn't understand that by acting this way she was only hurting herself. No actually she was hurting Danny too! Danny had been brooding ever since tea had finished last night. 30 minutes after tea had finished and everyone had calmed down Lexi came from her room and apologised to Dupe. Told him she was out of order and that as penance she'd do some stuff like maybe filing or something. Dupe had asked her to lay off her mum as you only get one. She went to apologise to Liv who had threatened her again. Lexi had told her that if she uttered one threat in her direction again she better book herself a flight to the farthest country away coz Lexi will kill her. Which in turn had caused them to nearly come to blows. And of course this caused Evan and Ethan to nearly come to blows and Danny having to step in. Unfortunately Evan had already swung for Ethan and caught Danny on the side of the head. Danny had promptly lost his temper telling everyone to get to their rooms. Everyone scattered. Even Liv and Evan and they didn't have to answer to him. Lexi decided to be funny though. She'd asked to borrow Ethan's Marshall Mathers CD and put on the song called Kim. Turned up the song full belt. Ethan ran out of his room. Into her room, tried to turn it off.

"Lex turn this song down now! Have you heard the lyrics. Your dad will kill you!"

Lexi pushed Ethan out of her room.

Sit down bitch you move again I'll beat the shit outta you!

Danny heard the lyrics. And stormed into her room. Told her to get that song turned down now.

Sorry can't hear you Daniel! She'd replied.

You and your husband have a fight, One of you tries to grab a knife And during the struggle he accidentally gets his Adam's apple sliced.

After hearing that line Danny pulled the plug from the wall. He then came and got a sharp knife.

When he'd returned they'd argued. Lexi with the usual you can't come in my bedroom stuff. Lexi thinking of more mean and hurtful things to spit at her father. Then she had said the worst thing ever. Your not my father. No matter how much Danny and Lexi argued, which they hadn't done that often really he always knew they were going to be alright coz she was his little girl. He cut the plug off her hi-fi you'll get it back when you play your music at a reasonable level, he'd told her.

Lexi had yelled that she hated him.

He then replied in a calm and rational voice. He told her that he knew she hated him. She hadn't saw Lexi's face but she'd heard a gasp. Her heart ached for Danny. She loved him so much and he was literally going into meltdown coz he was a man who usually found the words to soothe and make better and suddenly he faltered.

She'd had this crazy dream last night. She'd dreamt she was Alice in wonderland. Corny I know considering her name but she'd fell down the rabbit hole. She was literally free falling though the air. As she fell she saw her family members passing her. She started frantically grasping at the members of her family. She grabbed at Ethan and Lexi but then Danny passed her. So she let go of Ethan and grabbed Danny but then Ethan fell away so she let go of Lexi and grabbed Ethan. She was trying desperately to keep her family together but she only had 2 hands. Then baby Daniel appeared and as she let go of everyone and grabbed for him all she felt was air whizzing through her fingers. She looked down and saw her family in pieces broken on the floor, she still free falling never to stop. She had no family left and it killed her. She'd woke up just stifling a scream.

Anyway Danny had left the room a few hours ago, he'd gave her a soft kiss and gave Dee Jay a rub. He'd then climbed from the bed. She was due to see her midwife again today. Just a check up. They were keeping a close eye on her. Due to her scarring they weren't taking any chances. A placental abruption could come on out of nowhere and depending on the severity could be fatal to mother and child very quickly. She rose from the bed and went to shower and hopefully grab a kiss for her husband.

(X)

Lexi sat on her bed. Why was she doing this? Why was she being a bitch? It was like she had all these good intentions. Like when her dad spoke to her last night. She had honestly meant to not involve her mother but then she'd been angry and a small thing had annoyed her and she kicked off, it escalated. Oh boy did it escalate. It was like there was another person inside her and it kept rearing its angry little head. Maybe this was part of her personality she never knew she had. Like maybe this was her dad appearing in her? She'd spent all of last night thinking of her biological father. And of Danny. She didn't want to hurt him. Truly she didn't. She meant to be nice to him but it was like he's' this constant reminder of the lies they told her her whole life and all his presence did was irritate her. She wasn't this nasty person, at least she didn't think she was. She was still trying to figure out WHO she is. She decided to try and speak, rationally to her mum and to Danny. She needed to mend these bridges. She didn't want to argue with them. She loved them. As much as Danny might believe she hates him she doesn't. She couldn't wipe the last 11 years of complete paternal love. I mean he's her dad. Well she refused to call him that but as good as right? He brought her up and loved her practically all her life. She didn't remember a time when he wasn't by her side. He always supported her told her she could do anything she set her mind to. Under that guidance she had thrived. 2 particular memories stuck out in her mind.

She had been riding her bike, she 'd been young maybe 8ish. She'd came off the bike. Oooo boy had she came off. She had flew head first over her handle bars. Her helmet had protected her head but her face had still hit the floor. Her hands and knees were grazed and her lip bleeding along with her nose. She was in tears. Her father had nearly had a heart attack when he answered the door and saw her face covered in blood. He'd taken her straight inside and got her ice for her lip and then cleaned her up tenderly. She couldn't remember where her mum was. She remembered her dads gentle hands a he tended her wounds though. She'd swore she was never going on a bike ever again in her entire life! And she didn't. Her dad had mended her bike as her handle bars were all crooked. It sat there in the garage. Untouched.

One day her dad was out in the front yard riding his bike in a circle. She sat anxiously at the window. She knew he was gonna fall and hurt himself! Usually she would be outside with her friends but they had their bikes out so she asked them to call when they put them away. She returned to watching her dad. She'd been right he fell off. Looking back it had all been blatantly staged he sort of slowed down skidded and down a dive roll. She smiled at the way her father had rolled around in pain. She'd of course ran to make sure he was all right. He acted all shaken. They took his bike inside and he had covered himself in tomato sauce when she got the first aid kit. She knew now what it was as it was sat open on the bench. He'd did this as of course he didn't have any proper wounds. How she fell for all this she didn't know but god she was stupid! Anyway she'd asked him what happened. He said he lost control and fell. Then he mumbled that he didn't like his bike anymore. She'd been far to young to know she was being manipulated.. She had told him the best thing to do would just be to get right back on his bike. You have to face what your scared of that's what you tell me daddy! she told him in a old lady voice. She said it wouldn't be scary anymore. He asked her to come with him. You know go on her bike to so he wouldn't be scared coz they were together. God but he had laid it on thick! She'd been worried I mean she'd fell off and it had really hurt. But then again her dad had fell off and hurt himself too and he was being brave. She stiffened herself up and nodded if her dad was brave so was she. They got their bikes out and stood side by side. They'd climbed on and she set off wobbly at first. Cautiously. She was scared she was gonna fall off again. Soon she was riding faster forgetting her fear. She then braked as she saw her friends down the street. They were motioning her over. She looked back at her dad, he nodded, smiled and told her to go play with her friends. She rode off towards them when she got to them she looked back, he hadn't moved just sat on his bike smiling at her with a funny look on her face. She now knew the look he'd had was pride. He'd been proud of her for facing her fear.

The next memory was a lot more recent. She was 14 and playing in a basketball tournament for the school. They had the final match. Her height had made her a natural and she was pretty good in any position they put her in. Anyway this was the final game for the trophy and he game was seriously off. She had missed some shots or they had told a big tall girl to mark her and she didn't give her an inch! Her parents had got time off specifically for this match and she wanted to impress them so badly. They didn't get much time off and they had did this especially for all and all she did was fumble her shots. She was over thinking it to much. If she had let it come naturally it would have been better. She was set up for another basket, took her shot and it rolled around the rim and fell out. She threw up her hands in frustration. She looked at them. They clapped her. She remembered thinking she was so rubbish. Her dad had winked at her gave her a thumbs up. She understood the message. Keep trying. She shrugged at him in reply and took her position.

She got a few good blocks in. One was especially good. The stupid bitch on the to her team had been getting at her goading her. Call her Lexi miss a lot. She was just screaming for a smack in the mouth. Well this stupid cow was lined up to shoot when Lexi appeared in front of her and smacked the ball back down. Hit her right in the face. Lexi smiled smugly at the girl then hi-fived her team mate. As she walked away the stupid cow had went picked the ball up threw it and it hit her in the back. Lexi spun, she hadn't done that to her. Her friend grabbed her from running over and pounding her face in. The girl had been sent off. Lexi had mouthed that she'd get her later. And she never made a threat she hadn't intended to follow through on! Anyway the game carried on and she actually played better. She just decided to let go and stop stressing. It was literally the dying seconds and large marge as Lexi had nicknamed her was glued to her side. Lexi was starting to get scared coz she touched her yuck! She got passed the ball she ducked, feinted and had the basket in her sights. She pretended to shoot so when marge jumped she ducked to the right and took her shot it all happened quickly the ball rounded the rim, he motioned it with her hand trying to will it in. It fell inside and the whistle blew her face split in a grin. They had won! Her friends came and were jumping around her. She saw her dad in the crowd jumping up and down, cheering and whistling pointing her out to anyone who would listen. Her mother was smiling trying to calm him down. He didn't he was more excited then her that she had won.

She walked over to her drawer and pulled out her medal. First place. He always believed in her. Didn't judge her if she fell down. Just picked her up, dusted her of and told her to keep going. She'd get there. And this is how she repaid him! By being a snotty little cow! No she had to talk to her dad. It was 10:30. He'd be in the surgery with her mum. She pulled on some clothes. Put her sunglasses on. The bags under her eyes were humongous. She so didn't want Ethan seeing her in that state! She walked down to see them.

A/N lexi rememberin happy times. hopefully this will be the end of the angst. bt i seriously wouldn't count on it peeps. x review please :)