"Shiro-chan, I bought you watermelons." Hinamori came in meekly, glancing at Hitsugaya with fearful eyes.

Damn it I hate it when people interrupt me! Hitsugaya cursed, even though he was not doing anything particularly and was completely free. He just had a bad mood. As usual.

Things always seem to get on his nerves nowadays, no idea why. Even Matsumoto also made him get irritated sometimes. Okay Matsumoto always made him irritated, but this is more. He has always been cold to everyone, and has this trademark frown that he always put on because he's always irritated at something, but this time, the irritating feeling is more and greater. How to explain it…

Damn it, explaining is so irritating too!

"Get out." Hitsugaya said curtly.

"But, Shiro-chan, I thought you liked watermelons…"

"I said," Hitsugaya said, trying to control his anger. "Get out."

Hinamori stared at the ground. Then she looked back up bravely. "Hitsugaya-kun, is there something troubling you?"

Hitsugaya felt his eyebrow twitched. It is the fourth time someone asked that. Ukitake, Kyoraku, Unohana, now Hinamori. Gosh it's so irritating! "I don't know, okay! I'm just angry and I have no idea what is troubling me! If you want me to be less angry just get out of the room, get it? What language do you need me to say it in?"

Hinamori bit her lips, her eyes filled with tears. "Okay…I'll just leave…sniff…the watermelons here…be sure to eat it…I'll leave now…"

She ran off the room, controlling her tears from coming out.

Hitsugaya stared at Hinamori as she ran off. He shouldn't have done that to his sister… It was so evil.

He sighed and walked over to get the watermelons and ate it.

XxXxX

"Hinamori!" Matsumoto exclaimed in shock. "Why are you crying?"

Hinamori noticed Matsumoto, and quickly wiped her tears off. "Rangiku-chan…"

"What happened?" Matsumoto said, going over to the swollen-eyed girl.

"Hitsugaya-kun…"

Hinamori did not need to finish her sentence off before Matsumoto knew what happened. It's Captain again…

"I'm sorry about him, he's just…" Matsumoto thought about it for a while. She's not supposed to tell what was discussed during the Captain's meetings to other people right? "He has some problems." She concluded.

"Yeah, I can tell something troubling him." Hinamori said. "After all, we have been childhood friends, close to siblings."

Matsumoto's ears perked up at this sentence. "Hey, maybe Hinamori knew something about Captain." She said to herself, and asked. "Hinamori, what do you think caused Captain to be so…unusually cold?"

Hinamori cocked her head, thinking. "I think…maybe he's too stressed out, you know. Before this he had been all 'paperwork, paperwork' and stuff, so now, I think he reached the age where he wants to be defiant and not be so hardworking anymore. I guess it's good in a way…he won't tire himself out anymore, but…he's not the Shiro-chan that I used to know anymore…"

"He's too stressed?" Matsumoto repeated, frowning. "Oh gosh, could it be my fault?" She realized. It was true, she had not helped her Captain in any paperwork at all, and never contributed anything actually.

Hinamori stared at Matsumoto, as her cheeks puffed up in slight anger. "You had better go back and finish up the paperwork! He must be staring at the huge pile and feeling super stressed out now, that's why he's like that!" She said, pushing Matsumoto towards the tenth division. "Go and put Shiro-chan back to the cute little brother that I know of!"

"Alright, alright!" Matsumoto said, running away from Hinamori. No way is she going to do all that paperwork.

XxXxX

Dear diary, my dreams are getting worse. More details start coming up, and she had not only been standing there and smiling, she started talking! Why? Is it because nowadays she seems to care so much about me due to my change in behaviour? Or…maybe that dream thingo about writing out the details of the dream actually works…

Okay, at first it was the same thing, she standing there, telling me not to come, and I was getting bored of it. I'm so used to just sitting there and not going up to her.

But she talked! She talked, as in really talked, for the first time. She said, "You're not my type, you're too hardworking, I want a guy that is as slack as me, you know. You're too young, you're too short, and you're a Captain. I've never really liked you at all, I like…him… He is better than you; you're not good enough for me."

…

Well, I can't speak, and anyway I've got nothing to say. What she said was really true… I knew it all along.

But it still hurts, I don't know why, I've knew this all along, but it still hurts. Even when I wake up, it still freaking hurts, it just makes me angry and pissed off about everything.

I think it's because my heart had not actually accepted the fact that she can never be with me. I mean, I knew it all along, but maybe deep down, I still can't accept it.

That's why I can't stay in this division anymore; I can't stay in the higher-ups as well. I need to get sacked. This would only make me more miserable, and this would make her miserable. And this would also make all these people close to me miserable; my mood had been quite horrible because of this, and I can't concentrate anymore. The Captains, I can tell they really hate me now.

It's not my fault, right? I know I'm slacking off on purpose, so that I can get sacked, but the truth is, I can't do anything right now! I can't even treat people nicely. She hates me for sure now, she definitely does.

This entry is quite long…I guess writing really does soothe my feelings out…

The pile of paperwork and my haori is really stressful; they keep reminding me that I am still a Captain. Why do they have to put me in such misery? Just let him be the Captain alright!

XxXxX

Matsumoto stared at the diary. She read it over and over again.

I can't believe it… Captain is miserable because of this girl that he thinks he's not allowed to be with! How can this be? In this society of freedom and openness, there is no such thing as 'not allowed', especially when it comes down to love! And how could he think that he is 'not good enough' for her! I mean, come on, he's a Captain, he's muscular, he's strong, his zanpankutou is so cool, he's so…cool! How could he be so demoralized as to wanting to quit his job just because of that stupid girl? This is outrageous!

Matsumoto closed the diary in anger, and put it back gently into Hitsugaya's work table. (When it comes to stuff like love and relationships, Matsumoto will feel strongly for it. So strong…)

"I have to help Captain get his girl!" She said to herself adamantly.

She looked at the sleeping Captain, and calmed down.

Captain, he's stressed out, huh? He must be, after all, being a Captain at this age is not easy. Matsumoto had taken advantage of Captain's diligence, and must have tired him out. Well, who told Captain to be that hardworking? There had been so many times she had tried to get Captain to slack off, but he kept refusing. But, well, that is what Matsumoto liked about her dear Taicho. His energetic pursue of paperwork and maturity made him really cute.

She ruffled Captain's hair softly, trying not to wake him up. Only when he sleeps can Matsumoto do something like that.

Hitsugaya's grown already, huh… Matsumoto thought to herself. He has grown to be a proper man that will like a girl and he will eventually leave Matsumoto.

She sighed. It's inevitable, isn't it, that everybody that she loved will leave her eventually. All good things must come to an end. And Hitsugaya being her Captain seems to be the only good thing that came about her after what happened with Gin…

"I'll miss you, Hitsugaya-Taicho, when you leave." She whispered, as she got up to do the paperwork, for once in about a few hundred years.