I'm glad you appreciate my little story, it seemed you like the smut^^. Also, I will answer all your previous questions in this chapter.
~I won't change myself.~
Part 2: Choice of life.
-POV Natsuki.
It's been a week since Natsuki broke up with Shizuru, and the rubies-eyes woman did not seem to miss her presence. The bluenette did not receive any call or text message, she did not see the woman who took her heart in her workplace. It was like they never met each other before, that they were strangers. Kuga still in pain with her broken heart. Shizuru was the first man…intersex…well, someone with a penis that she had sex. Her first love was a woman, who cheated her with a man, her friend Takumi. And the second person than she finally able to open her heart was a womanizer, who did not care about the other feelings… how did she have jump into such a story? She was not lucky, or maybe it was her destiny to always be hurt. Her head began to pound loudly; she felt that the ground was just moving under her legs.
"Natsuki? Are you alright?" The concerned did not appear to be in good health, her face was extremely pale, she was sweating more than necessary, but she still tried to be strong. She looked at her friend and co-worker Haruka Armitage. She smiled weakly, without that blonde; who was always on her side when she needed, her world will be a disaster. She was the one who help her with Shizuru, she was the one to tell her their relationship was sick, that she deserved better to be only fuck and used. She was the one who force her to eat, to work, to change her mind. She was grateful to the blonde. Even if when she met her the first time in the coffee they worked, she was…well… exuberant. Everyone noticed her presence and strong personality…and voice…
"I'm fine. Don't worry about me."
"That bitch of Viola, I will kiss her ass." Natsuki watched the angry face of her interlocutor, and she laughed, for the first time, and it felt so good. She knew her friend did not mean that way when she was furious, she thought of words, but she said the contrary. Natsuki knew she hated Shizuru, why did not she listen to her friend… she was stupid…
"What? What's wrong with you? Did you hit your head somewhere?"
"You say you will kiss her ass, since when you like her that way. And Nao? Did you forget about your wife? If she knows, she will kill you." With a shocking face, Haruka seemed to want to vomit, she hated that woman, she saw her nasty game, she played with others like a toy; she even tried to seduce her.
"Did I say kiss? No. Urg! I prefer to kiss an ass dog than hers. And I say I will kick her ass."
"Don't waste your time, she does not deserve you harm her, I do not want you to have problems. It was all my fault. She was honest with me from the very beginning, she did not want a serious relationship, it was only sex and nothing more…and I made a mistake to continue with her…I was probably hoping she will change for me…but I was wrong…I'm nothing for her…"
"She did not deserve you! It's not your fault if you are human with feelings! And I'm sure she'll regret to let you go without fighting, and she will be regret when you find someone much better than her. Natsuki, you are pretty, kind, clever, and that...that horny dog! We don't care about her, you are too good for her, you know you are more popular than you imagine, you also have admirers. Look here." Kuga smiled politely, she did not believe she was popular; she did not want to be hurt again. It was enough for her. Love…she did not need it. Haruka gave a nudge to her friend and she pointed with a finger one of their customers, he came every day to see Natsuki, even if the concerned never remark his presence, because of Shizuru. The man smiled politely, he even blushed when Natsuki look at him.
"You see! He likes you."
"No, he just smiled. I also smiled to you, and I'm not in love with you."
"Yes I know, but he still likes you. He is here only when you work." Armitage pressed.
"Because he can't come before or after, he also had a job but I'm not sure for both of us if we continue to speak at work."
"No, I ask him and he likes you, he is a surgeon at Fuuka hospital, his name is Reito, he is single, twenty-six-year-old, he likes dog and painting. I did not see his body, but I'm sure he took care of it. He seemed really nice. And I learned there were a lot of women, who like him, but he did not see the…but I know the reason why…"
"Haruka! No! I mean mother, what are you doing in this body?" Natsuki joked, but she felt strange, she saw her friend talking, but she heard no sentence, her body became numb, and she fell on the floor, everything was black.
Few minutes later. Fuuka Hospital.
Natsuki was trying to escape from her bed, she said to everyone that she was fine, and she watched her friend who shook her head. She was afraid when she saw the bluenette unconscious while they await the doctor. A woman with short blonde hair arrived; she seemed young, perhaps thirteen. The doctor examined Kuga and her friend:
"What's wrong with my friend doctor?" Haruka asked.
"I'm sorry for your loss Miss Kuga. You probably had a lot of stress." The latter was surprised by the words, like her best friend, who asked slowly:
"Loss?" The doctor noticed the two women seemed to not understand her words, and she bit his lip, it was always hard to inform some kind of news.
"Your baby. You had a lot of bleeding because of infection and stress, and it was a miscarriage."
"Miscarriage? How long…I was pregnant…?" Kuga stuttered, her hands were shaking, and her co-worker held both of her cold hands.
"Two months…"
"How is it possible? I mean…I use pills…"
"Sometimes, it the way you took them. If you forgot even one day, you could be pregnant." The bluenette touched her stomach, and tears rolled on her cheek. Why so much hatred in her life had she done to deserve this? She did not want to see Shizuru anymore, not after all that mess…she hated her…she also loved her, her heart still continued…but now…she hated her…she needed to forget about her...
Three months later.
-POV Shizuru.
Her hands traced along her red lace underwear, her long fingers played on the wet string, she rubbed her intimacy and the latter moved her hips to Shizuru's furious rhythm. Her emeralds rolled back when her head arched to the side at salt water tumbled her hot body. Viola's palm settled against Kuga's sex, pushing lightly her fingers, circling her clit. A moan parted from the bluenette's lips when fingers pushed aside the lace garment, now it was skin contact. Natsuki groaned and bit on the transgender's neck, she licked her pulse point, and she bit her bottom lips. Shizuru can tell she is getting close; her hand pulled at her full erection, an inch that does not belong to Shizuru touched the pre-cum. Her rubies were glued to the beautiful and sweating figure, her one leg wrapped around the Kyoto-Ben waist as she brought close to her, she moaned together, when they body linked perfectly in one. The honey-haired woman felt against her, juices wetting her throbbing member as she bites back the moan that she wants to let go. She bites down on it hard, not letting her desperate moan escaped her. But when the movement were faster, Shizuru screamed only for Natsuki.
Shizuru woke up after a bad night; her arousal was pulsing hard, light sweat coating her breast. She had an erotic dream with …Natsuki…she turned her body to the side, and noticed a naked body, not the bluenette, but someone else. She sighed, she was pitiful, she had not even managed to have sex, there was just preliminary with her tongue and fingers to fill the lack of real penetration. She did not know what happen to her body, she was always proud to her member, but now, she felt it was useless, that she was useless. Tired, she got up from her bed, and she put her underpants, next her pant and t-shirt. She went to the kitchen. Her roommate Takeda was eating a breakfast. She joined him and took a cup of coffee.
"Hello Shizuru, did you have a good time? Stupid question, the screams I heard tells me it was fun." Masashi laughed, he knew Viola was very worn by the sex; she often brought some pretty one night stand at home.
"Please, stop talking…it's tiring..." Viola growled when she pinched the bridge of her nose.
"Oh no, don't tell me, again, you did not have an erection? But I see one now, it's weird… you, who are always proud to your anaconda. What happen to you, that girl was so hot!"
"Shut up Taka! Or I will show you I can use my anaconda to your little ass." The Kyoto-Ben woman treated.
"Since when you are gay?" Masashi exclaimed shocked, he spat the half of orange juice he drank.
"Perhaps I'm gay? Well, women or men, I'm still gay with my condition. But we can try?"
"No! No way! No! My hole is only for shit. So back off you pervert!" Viola rolled her eyes; it was not fun to play with her friend.
"You are so crude and disgusting when I eat my chocolate croissant; I understand why many women run away from you."
"Oh please, contrary to you, I have no problem with my penis. I can give pleasure."
"That not what I heard. But of course, if you are proud to come in five minutes, poor women…" Takeda blushed with shame, who could have told him that? One of her exes? Who?
"Nonsense." Masashi lied, her friend simply laughed.
"Liar. Then, you're the last person I have to listen to its advice on sex." Shizuru's roommate thought and said:
"I realized that your problem happened after Natsuki broke up with you. You had a lot of girl...friends…" The beauty with cherry eyes clenched her fists. Natsuki was just like others…she did not try to hurt her; she was honest from the beginning. No feelings, only pleasure. She did nothing wrong.
"She did not break up with me. There was nothing between us except sex."
"So you don't care if I ask you her number?" Viola glared to her interlocutor.
"No. I don't have it anymore, and I don't care. But she knows your relationship with me, and she hates me, it will be the same with you."
"Aww…well, if you don't care about her, that's fine, I see her with someone last day. And if I was gay, I prefer him than you. He was more dashing, tall, with a bright smile, and less a Casanova. The kind of man a woman dreams to marry."
"What?" Surprise, Shizuru snapped, she even burned her tongue with hot coffee.
"No, you don't care about her, I see jealousy in your eyes, and don't dare to say it's not true. You went to the coffee shop where she works."
"It's was one-"
"So you love that's slut! The one named Natsuki you moaned her name when we finished making love?" A voice interrupted the friends, the woman that Shizuru brought to her home. Viola laughed dryly, why everybody thought she loved Natsuki?
"I never loved her or you. She's like you, a good sex, but nothing more. Why do I have to justify myself? I was clear, I don't do relationship!" Shizuru answered to Arika, one of her one night stand, the latter burned with craziness. She could not accept. Never! She loved Shizuru, she lost her virginity for her. Akira took a cup of coffee and she threw it between the legs of the chestnut beauty. She jumped and held her crotch in pain.
"Damn it!"
"I promise you. You will pay for this Shizuru." A door slammed, and Viola sighed. Her roommate smirked and added:
"Really popular, I will let you that crazy one for yourself…Brr…it was cold here or burning down there. I don't understand you. Do you have a bad life? You are rich, your parents are generous, they cared about you, you are pretty, and women are attracting to you…someone break your heart in the past?" Takeda pondered while her friend grimaced when she watched her pant. She hated when people assumed her behavior.
"No, nothing happened to me. There are some people like me, who like sex and having a lot of partners, I'm young, and don't want to be only with one person, not now…I'm not ready. So because I'm a woman, people see me as a slut. And if it's a man who had a lot of women, we consider him as a player?"
"Yep." Takeda agreed and he received a kick on his leg.
"I don't care. It's my life."
"Yes it is, but also the others, one day, you will regret some of your choices."
"Perhaps... but I never lied to anyone, or to myself. I'm just honest. Am I wrong?" Shizuru stated.
"I don't know..." Takeda sighed.